Fake Fan Fiction ❯ Yesterday's Feelings ❯ Attack of the Peas ( Chapter 2 )

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Chapter 2- Attack of the Peas

 

After Dee's frantic claim of not knowing who Ryo was, the nurse had come in and ushered Ryo into the waiting room while she calmed down Dee, who was obviously panicked about his state. Ryo was once again back in the dreaded waiting room while Dr. Linden was looking Dee over to ascertain what exactly was going on with his partner.

 

Ryo could not believe that this was happening to them. He and Dee had finally gotten to a place in their lives where they were together and happy. It startled Ryo to no end how things could come apart so quickly from where they once were. Now all Ryo could do was wait until Dr. Linden came backing from talking to Dee.

 

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“Mr. McLean I know you are confused right now but could you answer a few question for me,” Dr. Linden kindly asked the rather confused man. With a slight nod from Dee the doctor began her questions.

 

“Do you remember what month it is?”

 

“No, I have no clue what day it is, what year it is, nothing,” Dee proclaimed with tad of frustration. Hadn't he already gone over this with the nurse, he couldn't remember anything at all!

 

“I know this is very frustrating Mr. McLean but I need to go through these questions with you to try and gauge how sever your memory loss is. Even asking these questions might spark a memory for you helping me diagnose the nature of you condition, alright?” With another nod from Dee she began again.

 

After asking Dee various common knowledge questions Dr. Linden packed up her clipboard and began talking again much to Dee's disappointment. All he wanted was to be left alone.

 

“Alright Dee I think I am going to schedule you for a MRI and a PET scan to see what kind of damage has been done. In some instances, depending on the damage done, we can prescribe drugs like Nimodipine to help you regain your memories faster. What I can tell you is that patients, usually with little damage, regain many of their memories but few about the actual accident and the hours prior to accident, all right? But we will talk more about what you'll remember and time frame possibilities after I see the scans” Dr. Linden explained to Dee gently.

 

This was just too much information for Dee and all he could do was nod dumbly. He was on the verge of a break down and had no clue what was going on. The doctor had barely told him anything about himself besides from his name. He didn't even know who that man was that was sitting with when he woke up. All he wanted was for someone to tell him what was going on and maybe keep him from falling to pieces.

 

Dr. Linden noticing her patient's obvious distress decided to ask Dee one more question before leaving, “Mr. McLean would you like me to send your husband in again? I think it would do you both good if he could see how you're doing.”

 

`So that is who the man was before,' Dee thought `Hold on a second married?!'

 

“I'm married!” Dee exclaimed suddenly “And to a man, oh god.”

 

“If you feel uncomfortable about seeing him I can ask him to come back tomorrow after your scans.”

 

“No no it is okay he can come in. I just don't know what to think of it, of anything at all right now,” Dee softly replied.

 

“Alright just don't push your self and I'll see you tomorrow okay? Goodnight Mr. McLean,” Dr. Linden said with a friendly smile then exited room with a slight click to the door.

 

Dee didn't know how he felt right now. He was just so mixed up, he was married and to man. How much stranger could his life be?

 

`How am I suppose to act towards this guy? I mean I don't remember who he is, is he going to expect something from me that I can't even remember ,” Dee frantically thought to himself

 

If anything the dark haired man in that stark hospital room was more lost than anything, feeling like he belonged somewhere. But to where or what that somewhere was he had to clue.

 

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When Dr. Linden came into the waiting room it surprised Ryo quite a bit as he was intently starting through the doorway into the white washed corridor.

 

`Thank God, it seems if she has been in there forever. Maybe someone call tell me something useful about Dee and then I might be able to see him.'

 

Ryo was about to get up when Dr. Linden tiredly sat down next to him. Taking this as not a good sign Ryo features soured just a bit.

 

“Dr. Linden can you please tell me what is going on the nurses just keep telling me to wait until you came back from talking with Dee?” Ryo said with concern clearly evident in his voice.

 

“I am sure from your first conversation with Dee you have figured out your partner doesn't remember who are you,” Dr. Linden started

 

“Yes,” muttered Ryo with a slight sigh.

 

“To be specific Dee is suffering from retrograde amnesia, which prevents him from remembering past episodic life events. Basically meaning he can't remember any of his life events from before the accident. This is extremely surprising to say the least, as complete retrograde amnesia is very rare. Do you have any questions so far?”

 

“What are the chances that Dee regains his memories?” Ryo asked with trepidation

 

Dr. Linden smiled reassuringly and put a gently hand on Ryo's shoulder. “At this point I am not sure of the damaged done, that is why I am ordering some tests for tomorrow. But the trauma Dee suffered wasn't too extensive from earlier examinations so I think he may gain back most of his memories. I can't make any promises right now and you will have to be patient but I think he will recover most of what he has lost.”

 

Ryo took the brief pause in the women's speech to ask another question that had been bugging him during her long descriptions. “If and when he starts to remember what kind of memories will he get first?”

 

“Patients usually start to regain earlier memories first but everyone is different. The memories tend to be random and sometimes only in small bits so you might have to explain some things to him. But I do ask that you do not tell him about specific memories. Try and let him remember on his own. Give him a bit of information of who he is and who you are just so he isn't terribly confused,” Dr. Linden finished.

 

“Do you think I could go and see please? He was so… I don't know confused before, I just can't leave him like that,” Ryo practically begged.

 

“He has agreed to see you but I only want you in there for thirty minutes at the most. Try and ease some of his concerns, okay? If you don't have any more questions I will see you both tomorrow after the follow up tests,” Dr. Linden gave Ryo's shoulder a squeeze of encouragement and was off to finish her shift for the night.

 

Ryo raked his fingers through his hair and he kept thinking what the hell he was going to do. `How am I going to approach Dee? God this is just such a mess,' the sandy haired detective thought tiredly.

 

Firming his resolve Ryo got up in one fluid motion and approached Dee' door with some apprehension. Ryo felt like he had stood outside of the door for an eternity before he finally mounted the courage to raise his hand and knock tentatively on the door.

 

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Dee had been blankly starting out the darkened window when he heard a slight knock on the door. `That must be my husband,' Dee thought nervously.

 

“Come in,” Dee called towards the door.

 

The man that entered with a tight smile blew his breath away. Dee didn't really remember what the sandy haired man looked like from when he first saw him. However this man was gorgeous; he had a well-toned frame from what he could see from under the man's tight tee shirt, but the thing the gabbed Dee the most were his eyes. Soft chocolate eyes connected with his from the other side of the room and Dee felt just a little less lost.

 

Ryo didn't know where to start the conversation with his lover but a quick realization he thought he better introduce himself for the sake of Dee sanity.

 

“Hi,” Ryo said softy

 

“Hi,” the confused man mirrored back.

 

“ I think Dr. Linden already told you but I am your husband Randy McLean,” Ryo said as he walked towards the bed and took a seat in the wholly uncomfortable chair provided.

 

“We have the same last name,” Dee timidly said.

 

“Mmmhhh,” Ryo replied with a soft smile. “You changed you surname when we got married.” That was one day that Ryo always recalled when things got tough. The joy he felt that day could carry him and them through the darkest days at the precinct.

 

“Oh, I… I'm sorry Randy I just.”

 

Ryo interrupted him and grasped his hand and gave it a soft squeeze. “Shh, it's okay to feel a little disconnected Dee. I don't really know how the handle the situation either, I bet we are both feeling uncomfortable right now, but we'll get through this.

 

“Thank you Randy.” Every time Dee said that name Randy it just didn't feel right, like he should be calling his partner something else more intimate.

 

Ryo noticed Dee starting to fidget with his free hand along the starchy covers. “Do I always call you Randy?” Dee asked suddenly. “It just doesn't seem right but I don't really know much,” Dee trailed off.

 

“No you never do. Usually you call me Ryo, my Japanese name. Almost the first thing you asked me when we met was if I had some Japanese in me because my eyes were so dark,” Ryo smiled fondly with that comment. “Feel free to call me which ever makes you more comfortable okay?”

 

“Sure,” Dee replied feeling just a bit more reassured that maybe all hope wasn't lost for his memories.

 

With an encouraging smile Ryo said, “Do you have anything you want to ask me about. I know Dr. Linden didn't tell you much besides your name and that you knocked your head quite badly on the concrete. Although I'm not supposed to tell you specifics I bet you have a few questions. ”

 

“Specifics like you just told me about us meeting you mean?”

 

“Heh I guess you right, but I won't tell if you don't okay,' the detective replied with a grin. With a slight grin back from Dee Ryo got his answer. After a long time it seemed Dee gathered enough courage to ask a question.

 

“Could I ask you some stuff about us, Ryo?” It warmed Ryo's heart to no end that Dee had decided to call him Ryo over Randy.

 

“Of course Dee anything you want. Anything I could clear up for you would make me feel a lot better and maybe make you feel more comfortable with me.”

 

Not really knowing how to articulate what he wanted to say Dee just went in for the kill, “How long have we been together, where did we meet? I just can't believe I'm gay.” That bothered Ryo a little bit, was Dee already having doubts about the nature of their relationship, this wasn't a good sign.

 

“Well we have been a real couple for about 2 year, one as a married couple. But we knew each other for about 2 years from work as partners. Where you actively pursued me from the moment we met. So roughly 4 in total” Ryo replied with a hint of dry humor in his tone.

 

Dee gave him a bit of blank look. “Partners at work? What do we do?”

 

With a bit of chuckle Ryo began to tell Dee that they were detectives at the 27th precinct in the homicide division. He also have a generally description of some of the guys at work but purposely said nothing about Rose. He really didn't need Dee remembering anything about Rose and going to punch his lights out.

 

“Well I think my thirty minutes have run out Dee, but if you want I can come back tomorrow before your tests if you would like.”

 

Dee wasn't sure how to respond, he already very much-liked Ryo but he was suppose to be in love with this man and the situation was still weird. Ryo was still holding onto his hand, which wasn't a bad but at the same time a little intimidating. Dee finally decided it would be better to have the man there and feel a little awkward than to be all-alone and feel so lost like earlier.

 

Shyly Dee replied, “I would like that, I guess I'll see you tomorrow then?”

 

“That's right, probably early afternoon since we both need some sleep.” Ryo answered.

 

“Goodnight Dee, I love you.” Ryo said after giving Dee a soft peck on the forehead.

 

“I…”

 

Ryo gave Dee a soft look and said, “It's okay, don't push your self. Give it time.”

 

Just before he went through the doorway Ryo turned around to Dee and said “Now all I have to do is tell Rose you've gone and lost your memory and we are going to need to take months of non-existent sick time. He is going to be so impressed. Be glad the hospital staff can protect you.” With that said Ryo gave a small chuckle and exited the room. Leaving Dee to wonder who the hell Rose was.

 

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When Ryo arrived home around 6am all he wanted to do was go back to bed and never get up again. But there were things that still needed to be dealt with. Since it was a Saturday Bikky would be coming home around 11, which meant explaining the situation again. Ryo also had to call Rose and the rest of the guys at the office, and hopefully get some time off for Dee and himself. Ryo spoke with the night nurse at the desk before he left finding out that Dee's tests were scheduled for 3, meaning he should probably be back to the hospital around 1.

 

`That can all wait for later' Ryo tiredly thought as he crawled into his over size bed, setting the alarm for 11:30. Maybe if he was lucky Bikky would come in late this morning. After a few minutes Ryo was curled around Dee's pillow and out like a light.

 

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“RYO,” Ryo woke with a start hearing his name. `Damn Bikky must be home.'

 

Ryo called back through the bedroom door “In the bedroom Bikky.”

 

Bikky burst into the bedroom with his usual enthusiasm and loudly asked, “Where the heck is the perv? I would have expected him to be all over you since he had to work last night and didn't get any.”

 

“Bikky,' Ryo said with clear disapproval in his voice. “What have we talked about?”

 

“That Dee is a member of this family now and I should show him your personal matters more respect. Blah blah blah I got it already. So where is he anyways?”

 

Ryo's face became very tense with that comment. “Bikky that is something we really have to have a long talk about. Why don't you come sit down,” Ryo said while patting the bed.

 

“Has he gone and done something stupid again? Did you finally kick him out?”

 

“No,” Ryo replied with a bit of hesitancy. “Dee was involved in an accident last night at work. I went to the hospital to see him last night and didn't get home until early this morning.”

 

“Is the bozo okay?” Bikky asked starting to sound concerned.

 

“He should recover physically but he suffered from head trauma, Bikky. He doesn't remember who he is or who we are. Complete retrograde amnesia the doctor explained to me,” Ryo finished with a choked sob.

 

Bikky didn't have a clue what to say to Ryo. All he could do was latch on to Ryo around the neck and hold on tightly as his dad broken down. To Bikky it seemed like forever before Ryo finally pulled away and wiped the last of his tears off of his face.

 

“Bikky I need to go make some phone calls then go back to the hospital,” Ryo softly said.

 

“Do you want me to come with you?” Bikky said hesitantly wondering if Dee could handle him being there. They had their moments but Bikky really did care for the man despite what he wanted others to think. Dee was the only one in the apartment that could play video games with him and talk about sports. He loved Ryo but when it came to basketball Ryo knew nothing.

 

“Do you think you can actually watch what you say and try not to fight with him as usual? He has no clue of how you two usually interact and I think it would upset him quite a bit for you to start in on the name calling,” Ryo replied firmly.

 

“I guess I can try.”

 

“You're going to have to do more than try Bikky. You have to treat Dee a little differently until he becomes more comfortable with us. And at this point I don't know when that is going to happen, okay?”

 

“Okay, I won't starting bothering the lunkhead until he gets home from the hospital,” Bikky stated with a bit of mirth in his voice and took off to do god only knew what until it was time to leave.

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When Bikky and Ryo arrived at the hospital few hours later Ryo found Dee propped up and having lunch. Well more like picking at his lunch it seemed to Ryo. Ryo had asked Bicky to stay in the hall until he actually told Dee about Bikky since he assumed it would quiet a shock to all of a sudden find out you had a kid.

 

With a quick greeting to Dee, Ryo once again came in a sat down in the same chair as the night before. He noticed with some amusement Dee was poking the peas on his tray instead of eating them. It really wasn't that surprising to Ryo, as Dee absolutely hated peas.

 

“Having some problems with your lunch, I take it?”

 

“Yeah,” Dee replied uncertainly. “I can't even remember what I like to eat, I tried the peas and quickly found they tasted like crap. Now I am afraid of eating anything.”

 

With a hint of a smile Ryo looked up at Dee. “I could help you with that if you want. You become very vocal when you have to eat things you don't like.”

 

“Really,” Dee asked shyly

 

“Really, but first there is someone I want you to meet. He has been standing out in the hallway for a good 10 minutes and he thinks hospitals smell funny so I think we can stop torturing him, don't you think.”

 

Dee looked down at this tray and started to poke his peas again. “I guess so.”

 

To Ryo Dee looked like a bundle of nerves as he got up and slowly walked toward the door looking over his shoulder briefly. He had hoped Dee would be a bit more enthusiastic about meeting Bikky. `I guess he is always going to be nervous meeting someone new until he gets some sort of his old confidence back.' It unnerved Ryo to see the usually bold and confident detective seem so needy and unsure of himself.

 

It surprised Dee to no ends when the man Ryo was suppose to bring in turn out to be a young boy, looking no older that 15 or 16. `He has the weirdest coloring' Dee thought. `Very dark skin but blond hair and blue eyes, now that is freaky.'

 

Ryo pulled the boy over to the side of Dee's bed and stated to introduce him. “Dee this Bicky, my adopted son.” Just as Ryo had thought, when he said son Dee paled slightly and looked like he had been thrown into oncoming traffic.

 

“Hi,” Bikky said cautiously with a small wave.

 

“We have a kid,” Dee asked clearly shocked. `Good god it was weird enough finding out I have a husband, but a kid too. How am I ever going to sort this entire thing out,' Dee thought with a bit of dismay.

 

“Yes we have a kid,” Ryo relied kindly. “But it makes you feel any better, you have know him almost as long as me. I picked him up from one of our cases only a few hours after we met.”

 

The silence is the room was long and drawn out, nobody knowing exactly what to say. Ryo broke the dry spell much to everyone's relief. “ I bet you're really hungry how about I take a look at what you have and warn you of the stuff you really hate.” Dee gave him a strained smile

 

“Okay lets see here, you defiantly aren't much of a broccoli man but the carrots are safe enough,” Ryo started and went through the whole tray except for the peas.

 

At this time Bikky thought he venture out of the shadows and add his two cents into the mix. “You missed the peas Ryo, you know Dee just loves his peas.”

 

“Bikky!” Ryo exclaimed. “What did we talk about before coming?”

 

“Don't worry about it Ryo. I'm sorry kid but you are too late for that trick. I already tried the peas and they tasted like crap,” Dee said sounding a little more confident than before, all the while starting to warm up to his newly acquainted son.

 

Bikky looked straight at Dee and gave a nervous laugh. “Sorry dude but I had to give it a try once. I usually don't get one up on you like that.”

 

When Dee was about to make a retort there was a knock on the door as it opened. The day nurse, Dee had seen earlier, came into the room with a bright smile on her face. “Dee it's time for you to go down for your tests. You will be receiving two scans, a MRI and a PET. And we will also be doing some blood work.” She said with an overly cheery voice.

 

With that said she helped Dee into a wheelchair and told Ryo and Bikky that she would call them at home when Dee was done with his tests as they would take a few hours at the least.

 

As Dee was wheeled out the door Ryo called to him, “I'll see you later this evening Dee.”

 

With a slight smile and a wave Dee was off for what would be a very long and boring afternoon. Ryo hoped this would shed some more insight into was what wrong with his partner and maybe give them all a little more hope of Dee's memories being returned to him.

 

TBC…

 

 

Lo I thought I would be nice and not leave a cliffhanger this time. Well not really I just wanted to put way too much into this chapter and thought I should save it for a little later. Anyways keep the reviews coming they make me feel all fuzzy inside lol.