Fan Fiction / Zoids Fan Fiction ❯ Unforgettable ❯ heartache ( Chapter 29 )

`Four more days,' Fiona thought as she looked at herself in the mirror. It had taken several tries but she finally found the dress that she thought was perfect. It was a beautiful white dress that was held onto her shoulders by spaghetti straps. There was a pair of gloves on her hands as well.

 

“Absolutely gorgeous,” Karin said with a smile as she encircled the young woman before her like a vulture after its prey. “I must say that you made quite a choice for you dress. I think it's perfect,” she continued to say with a bright smile as she inspected every little detail.

 

“I know. I loved it since I first saw it,” Fiona said smiling at her image before a frown suddenly crossed her face. “But still, I feel rather guilty. I've always dreamed of this perfect wedding wearing a beautiful white dress which is why I always tried to avoid having sex,” she said admiring the beautiful white color that she almost felt unworthy to wear.

 

The look that Karin gave her made Fiona flinch slightly. “Technical details, no need to worry about it,” she said waving it off like it was nothing. “I don't know of anyone who deserves to wear this kind of dress more than you,” she said sounding a bit amused.

 

Walking up to her soon to be daughter-in-law, Karin placed her hands upon Fiona's shoulder. “Did you know that the color white on wedding dresses wasn't originally associated with virginity?” she asked and Fiona shook her head no. “Originally it stood for purity of heart and innocence of childhood from what I read. Being a virgin was just something slapped onto it later,” she said moving Fiona's hair a little. “You have the purest heart I have ever seen and an innocence that almost radiates off of you whether you had sex or not,” she said with a smile before taking a step back.

 

Her words definitely made Fiona feel a lot better. “Then I am very glad that I chose this one,” she said as the seamstress made a few little details to it in order to have it ready for the big day.

 

“I know that my son will love it. Do you want to know something?” she asked and Fiona just nodded her head. “Van wasn't all that interested in Tiffany's wedding dress when he first saw it,” she said which caused Fiona to give her a curious look. “She made sure to get the fanciest, most expensive dress that she could possibly find. Van's tastes are very simple so it just didn't look right to him,” she said which brought about a smile from Fiona.

 

“I know he will like this one though,” Fiona said since that was one of the reasons she chose it. She knew what Van liked by heart and chose the one that he would like the most. It just also happened to be the one that she fell in love with at first sight.

 

“I'm sure he will. Though I think he'll be wondering just how fast he can get it off of you later that night,” she said whispering the last part. Karin then broke out in laughter when Fiona turned bright red at her words. “I sure can't wait for the children after that though,” she said with a bright smile a Fiona gave her a cautious look. “I have been waiting twenty-seven years for this day Fiona when I first knew that you were going to be born,” she said sounding a little too hyper for a fifty-two year old.

 

“You're not going to get off my case until I give you another grandkid, are you?” Fiona asked and Karin just shook her head enthusiastically. “I swear, you're the type of woman that never changes,” she muttered to which Karin chuckled.

 

“I've waited far too long to give up now Fiona,” Karin said with a laugh but then suddenly stopped. “But most of all Fiona, I just want you and Van to be happy and live your lives to the fullest,” Karin said going from happy to very serious in only a few seconds. “I don't want you to ever have any regrets about the decisions you make,” she said though it appeared that her mind was elsewhere.

 

Fiona didn't say anything. Instead, she just wrapped her arms around the woman in a tight hug. “Don't worry. There is nothing about my time with Van that I will ever regret,” she said after backing away slightly when the seamstress showed annoyance that Fiona didn't stay still.

 

“That's good to hear.” Karin said as she took a step back to admire the dress and see if anything else was needed. “So how are you feeling since the wedding is in only four days?” she asked with a soft motherly smile.

 

“Scared out of my mind,” Fiona said honestly and immediately. “I have no doubts about my relationship to Van but I still can't help wonder just what the future holds after we get married and it scares me,” she continued as a small blush of embarrassment crossed her face.

 

A laugh erupted from Karin's throat at Fiona's words. “I had a friend who felt the exact same way when she got married. Pretty much said the exact same words when I asked how she was feeling about it. Probably the only difference was that she was pregnant at the time,” Karin said but with a glint in her eyes that went completely unnoticed by the younger woman.

 

Something about what Karin said struck a cord in Fiona and she had no idea why it was but it compelled her to say what she said next. “Was she happy after she got married?” Fiona couldn't help but ask since she never could remember ever seeing Karin with any old friends. The only one she knew about was her father.

 

“She was,” Karin said gaining a confused look from Fiona with the past tense. “She's dead. I've lost many friends and family in my lifetime Fiona. None affected me more than her,” she continued sadly but then brightened up. “She once told me just before she died that the time she had with her husband and child was the happiest that she had ever been in her life. Your fate won't be the same but I know that you'll be just as happy as she was,” she finished with a smile that was both sad and happy.

 

“I'm sorry if I brought up painful memories. I'm just being foolish. I know I will be happy with Van. That's never been a problem but I was scared. But hearing your story made me feel much better so thank you,” Fiona said with a bright smile as the seamstress finally finished up the last bit of detail for that day which meant that it was pretty much done and ready for the wedding.

 

“Don't worry about it. I've long since come to terms with her death. I am happy that you feel better though. Almost all brides feel that way. To tell the truth I was in much worse shape than you were on mine but I got through it without a hitch because I had my friends by my side,” she said giving a smile before she walked out of the room giving Fiona time to get changed.

 

`She shouldn't be thanking me. I should be thanking her. That's the first time I've ever gotten to really talk to Fiona about her and it felt good. It makes it better that I didn't exactly break my promise so Dan won't get on my case about it. I mean, I never actually stated that she was Fiona's mother,' she thought with a smile as she waited for Fiona to come out.

 

It was several minutes before the changing rooms doors opened and Fiona came walking out dressed in her sleeveless pink turtleneck shirt and knee length red skirt that she wore that day. “Let's get going,” Fiona said giving Karin a bright smile as they headed out the door since the dress had already been paid for.

 

“So, how are the twins doing? I haven't gotten to see them much since they were released from the hospital since I've been so busy with the wedding. Even though it's your wedding, you've been spending more time with them than I have,” Karin said jokingly as the two of them stepped out of the shop and headed towards the car.

 

Fiona couldn't help but laugh a little in embarrassment. “Sorry but I couldn't help it. The two of them are just too cute. I wonder what my children will be like,” Fiona said looking all dreamy at the thought. “It will be so much fun when they get older too with Moonbay's plan and all,” she said with a bit of a bounce in her step.

 

Karin was really starting to see the affect she was having on Fiona with all the baby talk. “Oh really? What plan would that be?” she asked laughing a bit with how happy Fiona looked. She seemed to become happier and happier the closer they get to the wedding. She even kept thinking more and more about the future afterwards.

 

“The night the twins were born the two of us made a promise. That when I had a child that we'd do everything we could to get them together when they grew up,” Fiona explained knowing that she'd be willing to do anything to let that happen.

 

As soon as the words left Fiona's mouth, Karin immediately came to a stop. Her eyes were really wide in shock. From Fiona's point of view she looked a bit pale. “Is everything alright?” she asked wondering if she said something wrong.

 

Snapping out of her reverie, Karin immediately put on a smile. “No, everything's fine. That sounds like a very nice idea the two of you had. I know that you'll be able to make it work somehow. Now let's get home,” she said before she started to walk towards the car again.

 

Fiona got into the drivers seat and the car took off. It was silent after that as Karin was going through her thoughts. Fiona couldn't help but wonder why it was that the normally happy middle-aged woman had suddenly become all moody. Something told her it would be best not to ask since she had a feeling that it wouldn't even be answered if she did.

 

This seemed to be the trend of things as of late. Karin always seemed to be extremely moody or extremely excited. Fiona wondered what exactly it was that was making her become like this. Yet each time she tried to ask Karin would immediately change her attitude back to normal and then change the subject away from it.

 

`Van knows something and I'm sure Karin is thinking of the same thing. It's obvious that Dan knows as well. Why would they need to keep this from me though?' Fiona pondered thinking over any possible reason before giving up. `I just wish that I could understand why everyone is being like this.'

 

*****

 

Fiona sighed as she relaxed on her bed. In front of her a TV was on and she was watching the tapes she had been given. She really wished that she could find out what it was that her father was trying so hard to be able to tell her. This was pretty much the only thing that she could think of doing to calm her nerves.

 

It was two days before her wedding and her nerves felt like they were on end. Never in her life had she ever felt as nervous as she did right then. She had no doubts in her mind that she wanted to spend the rest of her life with Van but it still scared her a bit to think about all that was going to happen then.

 

The sound of her door opening turned Fiona's attention away from the television. She smiled when she saw the one she loved most come walking into the room. “Hey Van,” she said moving over to let him lie down next to her.

 

Van did exactly as Fiona wanted and lied down on the bed before he took Fiona in his arms and held her close to him. “I see you're watching this again,” he said looking at the video which caused Fiona to nod her head. “Any idea what it's about yet?” he asked her even though he already knew the truth.

 

Fiona's eyes saddened. “No. I have tried so hard but nothing is coming to me. You know something though, don't you?” she asked him since it was one of the few things that she had been able to figure out over all her confusion these last few weeks. Van was left completely speechless at Fiona's words which was all that Fiona needed in order to know that she had it right. “Why didn't you tell me?” she asked sounding hurt that he was keeping something so important from her.

 

“I forced it from my father and he forced me to keep quiet,” Van explained hoping to get rid of that look on Fiona's face. “It's not my place to tell you though. Believe me, I would if I could. The thing is that this is really something that you should hear from your father and no one else. I'm sorry,” he said truthfully.

 

Fiona pulled away from Van's arms and stood up. Without saying a word she just left the room leaving Van alone. He knew that she needed some space and in the meantime he would go and try to force his parents to finally give up this charade. He simply couldn't stand seeing Fiona looking so sad and confused.

 

*****

 

Fiona sighed as she sat on the edge of a small cliff that overlooked the ocean. Since they were already back at the resort, Fiona found herself coming to that spot a lot because of how much she loved the ocean.

 

`So that's why he's seemed so been so distant lately. He's been doing what he could to not tell me the truth,' she thought hating how Van was keeping such a secret from her when he knew that she just wanted to know the truth.

 

“You look down Fiona,” Moonbay's voice said from behind the blonde haired woman. Fiona turned around and looked at the other woman who happened to be carrying her son with her. Fiona guessed that Irvine had their daughter at that moment.

 

“Oh hey Moonbay. It's nothing, I just have a lot on my mind,” Fiona lied before she turned her attention to Jeremy. “Hey there cutie. How are you doing?” she asked in a baby like voice despite the fact that the baby was asleep.

 

“He's been really fussy,” Moonbay said with a laugh as she took a seat next to Fiona. She saw Fiona looking at Jeremy and smiled as she held him out to Fiona who gently took the little boy from Moonbay's arms. “So what's on your mind? Shouldn't you be happy that you're getting married in two days?” she asked as she laid back and relaxed in the grass.

 

Fiona sighed and immediately explained the whole situation between her, Van, and his parents. “I just don't understand what's going on or why none of them will tell me especially Van. I thought he of all people would tell me,” Fiona explained with a frown on her face.

 

“If it's so big that even Van won't mention it then there must be a good reason. Give it time and I'm sure that you will be able to figure all of this out,” Moonbay said staring up at the cloudy skies. It looked like it could rain later that day.

 

“Maybe,” Fiona muttered before silence grew between the two of them. They just sat there for a while before Jeremy woke up and Moonbay had to take him back in order to change him.

 

Fiona sighed as she was alone again. She stayed there for another hour or so before she stood up and started to walk back to her room. Even though it was still the afternoon she was tired and wanted to take a nap and hopefully understand things better when she woke up.

 

Fiona opened the door to her room and walked in. She walked over and fell onto the bed with a sigh. It was then that she felt herself laying on something. Picking up the tape, she at first thought it was the tape she was watching earlier but then she noticed that it was different because of the label. “Another one?” she questioned looking at it eagerly since she really wanted to know what was on it.

 

Fiona looked at the tape for several seconds before she finally stood up and started to walk over to the TV. However, just before she could place it in the video player, she found herself hesitating.

 

For some reason Fiona could feel so much worry within her. She could feel her heart beating so hard in her chest she thought it would explode. `What is it that I'm worried about? This is what I have been waiting for,' she thought taking a deep breath before she pushed in the tape.

 

She took a seat back on her bed just in time as it started up. She couldn't help but wonder if this would finally answer all of her question or if it was just another stepping stone like the last one she was given.

 

The first shot that popped up confused Fiona more than anything. It appeared to be a zoomed up shot of something that she couldn't clearly make out. It looked like a giant bump or something like that.

 

Slowly it started to zoom out until a figure started to come into focus. Fiona's eyes widened when it fully zoomed and out and laid eyes on a beautiful woman in an even more beautiful wedding dress. There were two things that disturbed her about it though. One the woman looked extremely pregnant as if she was about to give birth any second. The second was that standing right next to the woman was her father and they were kissing as if the two of them had gotten married. `No, they really did,' Fiona thought finding herself shaking as she was coming to revelation.

 

The woman, Fiona realized was the same woman from the second video that she had gotten. She was the same one that was dancing with her father. `But why? Why is he marrying her? Why is she pregnant? Who is she?” Fiona asked herself trying not to realize just what she was seeing.

 

Crying was then heard as the camera turned away from the scene to a baby who looked to be no more than a few months old. “Now, now Van. This is the marriage of the mother and father of your future wife. So cheer up a little,” he said with a tone of amusement even though it was evident that he knew it wouldn't work.

 

`Mother? Father? What's going on?' Fiona continued to ask herself since she felt everything she had grown up to know crumbling beneath her feet. She didn't know what was truth and what was false anymore

 

She knew though that no matter how much she tried to deny it that would never change the truth. With just a few scenes of a film she no longer even knew who she was anymore. She didn't know what it was in her life that was true and what was false. “Who am I?” she murmured feeling tears start falling down her eyes.

 

*****

 

Karin sighed, she knew that she shouldn't have given it away early but she simply couldn't take it anymore. This has already gone way too far and it was time to end it. She didn't want Fiona to get married to Van while her heart was so troubled wondering just what her own father was keeping from her,

 

When Dan had gone to check on things she hijacked the tape and left it for Fiona to see. She technically wasn't breaking any promises. George wanted to tell her so she would let him. It was just a bit early.

 

It didn't take long for Dan to realize it was missing. At that moment he was chastising his wife about what she did and how she wasn't supposed to but it was pretty clear that she wasn't even listing to his ranting.

 

Figuring that she'd fall asleep before he finished, Karin decided to just forget it and got up and left much to her husband's annoyance. This brought a giggle to her throat since she knew that he wouldn't do anything more than yap her ear off.

 

Walking towards Fiona's room, Karin figured that the young woman was probably really confused about everything after that and planned to try and talk it over with her and try to help her understand the things her father probably forgot to mention to her in the tapes.

 

Finding herself standing in front of Fiona's room. Karin raised her hand and knocked on the door. She didn't even wait before she said, “It's me, Karin. I'm coming in.” she then opened the door and walked into the room.

 

Karin took notice that the TV was on and that the tape was still playing but the problem was that Fiona was nowhere to be found. “That's odd,” she said noticing something on the bed. She walked over and picked up it taking notice that it was a note. The more she read it the more things started to fall apart.

 

Immediately Karin ran out of the room at full speed and ran back to her room. Dan was still there and she quickly ran to him. “Dan!” she screamed thrusting the note into his chest. “We have a problem!” she said as he looked it over.

 

“This isn't good. Fiona's taken off,” he said with a growl figuring that something like this might happen. He ignored his better judgment and decided to just keep to the word he had given to George about letting George explain things.

 

“Fiona's gone?” a voice came from the doorway which made Dan and Karin freeze up when they realized that it was Van. “W-where did she go? Van asked feeling worried that maybe Fiona had taken off because she didn't want to get married to him anymore. `No, that can't be it,' he thought looking at his parents.

 

“Fiona found out the truth and took off in confusion. She couldn't have gone very far since she didn't even let the tape finish. We'll look for her and find her so don't worry,” Dan said preparing to run after Fiona to explain things.

 

“Don't bother,” Van said which shocked his parents. “Leave this to me. I think I might know where she went,” he said turned around and leaving before either of his parents could even say a word.

 

`Being lied to all this time, it's no wonder that she ran off in shock. Can't say I'm any better since I wasn't being completely honest with her about this,' he thought growing angry at himself.

 

He ran out the doors of the resort and headed towards his car only to find that it was gone. `Well she doesn't have a car with her anyways,' he thought changing directions before taking his parent's car. He swiped a key before he left the room just in case but he never thought that he would ever really use it.

 

He knew it would take some time to get there and he wasn't exactly sure just how much of a head start Fiona had on him but he planned to find her no matter what. There was no question in his mind as to where she had gone though so that made it a lot easier for him.

 

*****

 

Fiona kneeled down in front of a grave that she had not even looked upon before. She had come here to visit her father and hope to understand what was going on. She simply didn't understand anything anymore.

 

It was then that she noticed the grave next to him and that was when she knew that it all had to be true. She remembered the name being mentioned in the video just as she left. Now she was sitting before this woman. A woman she didn't even know. A woman who was supposed to be her mother.

 

“Who are you? Who am I? Why didn't anyone tell me this? They just let me go on thinking that Claire was my mother,” Fiona said even though she could say that she didn't mind Claire not actually being her mother. In fact, it was like a burden had been lifted off her shoulders with the truth but then a new burden took its place.

 

The next moment Fiona felt a few drops of water start to come down before they picked up pace and it started to pour out. Looking up at the sky, Fiona didn't even try to move as she just let the water pour down upon her. “The rain feels nice,” she murmured before looking at the grave again.

 

She wasn't sure how long she had sat there on the ground in the rain but it wasn't long before she was completely soaked but she didn't mind in the least. She loved the rain as long as there was no lightning or thunder.

 

So wrapped up in her thoughts, Fiona didn't even hear the sounds of wet footsteps coming towards her. It was only when she felt the rain stop falling on her that she turned her attention to the person and saw that it was Van. She didn't say anything to him though and turned her attention back to the grave.

 

Van sighed knowing that she obviously didn't want to talk to him at that moment. “I'm sorry Fiona. I wanted to tell you, I really did but I knew it wasn't my place to do so. That was for your father and only him to tell you,” he said bending down a little.

 

Fiona still didn't speak to him. She wasn't sure whether to hug him right then for comfort or yell at him for keeping such a big secret from her. “Who am I?! I feel like I'm not even myself anymore!” she yelled at him with tears falling down her face since the rain couldn't wash them away.

 

“You're Fiona! That's all you've ever been. You lived without a mother all your life. No one ever told you that Claire was your mother. She's nothing but a guardian who passed herself off as such because she knew she could and yet still get away with it!” Van said back in a bit of a raised voice.

 

“Yeah but they never bothered to tell me otherwise! I lived years suffering because I thought she was my mother!” Fiona yelled back letting out some of the pain she had built up over the past several years.

 

“That's because your father thought you would be ashamed of him if he didn't tell you all about it in person,” Van replied and Fiona seemed to calm down a bit. “You thought of him as the man that could do no wrong. He worried what you would think if you learned of how he cheated on Claire,” Van said remembering what his parents had told him.

 

“It's only caused me pain though. I would've liked to know about my mother. I would've liked to be able to have some happy memories about having a mother. Instead all I have are bad ones about a woman who lied to me so that she could control my life,” Fiona said feeling more tears falling.

 

Van dropped the umbrella and kneeled down next to her. He didn't mind the rain but the sight of Fiona's pain was too much for him. He immediately pulled her into a tight embrace with everything her had. “I'm sorry I couldn't do anything Fiona. I knew it was a stupid idea and yet I couldn't do anything. I'm so sorry,” he said wanting nothing more than her forgiveness.

 

Fiona didn't say anything, she just held him tightly back as she cried into his shirt. It was several minutes before she finally managed to calm down. She felt herself then be lifted to her feet and the rain finally stop falling on them again when Van picked up the umbrella once again.

 

“From what I understand, you were her whole world Fiona. She was the type of mother who would give up everything she had just to see a smile on your face. `The complete opposite of Claire,' was what my dad said when he described her.

 

Fiona felt a smile grace her face when she heard those words escape Van's lips. Her heart felt a bit more eased at the thought that at least at one point in her life she had a mother that truly loved her.

 

“Come on, we should find a hotel to get out of the rain and we should get some dry clothes on as well. Good thing I grabbed some spares before I left,” he said with a laugh which got a little chuckle out of Fiona.

 

Van tried to turn and leave but Fiona didn't seem quite ready to move. “Come on Fiona. I'm sure she wouldn't appreciate it if you got sick because of her,” he told Fiona with a frown. “I promise you that we'll come back tomorrow morning before we head back… that is if you still want to go back,” he said with a bit of worried.

 

Fiona face held little emotion but she laid her head down upon Van's shoulder. She took his hand with her own and squeezed it tightly. “You know, at the moment I realize that there is so little that I actually know about myself,” she said and saw a frown cross Van's face. “But one of the few things that I do know is that I will always love you Van. I still want to go through with the wedding,” she said with a smile.

 

It hurt that he hadn't been truthful with her. Yet in a way she understood why now. This was something between her and her father. She realized that it probably wouldn't have felt right if she heard it from any other. Sure she was hurt that no one told her the truth but she would've been more disappointed if her father hadn't told her himself.

 

Van felt Fiona finally start moving and he smiled as he led her to the car. They would leave one of them where it was for now and just come back for it tomorrow since he intended to come back anyways.

 

The two of them got into the car and drove around for a little before they found a hotel with some vacancies. After checking in the two of them went to the room and immediately got changed into something dry.

 

Fiona came out of the bathroom dressed in only a t-shirt that was a bit too large for her. She was still trying to dry out her hair but for the most part she had gotten most of the water off of her. For a little while she thought that she would be eternally wet.

 

Van looked at Fiona and smiled as she sat down on the bed. He then held out the tape from before which he had brought with him. “I think that you should watch the rest of it. Maybe you will be able to get more of the answers you seek,” he said and watched as Fiona hesitantly took the tape.

 

Van was glad that this hotel had a VCR because he really wanted to be able to help Fiona get the answers that she so desperately wanted. He had hooked it up while Fiona was in the bathroom and it was ready to go as she put the tape inside it.

 

The two of them watched as the wedding once again played out. “She looks so happy,” Fiona muttered looking at the beautiful woman's face which had a huge smile upon it. “She must've been so happy to be with my father,” she said with a small smile of her own.

 

The face of George Lynette popped up once again like on all the other tapes. “I'm sure you realize by now that I haven't been very honest with you Fiona. That was your mother Fiona,” he said with a sad smile upon his face.

 

“Years ago, a while before you were born, I had married Claire hastily. All that time though I had always loved your mother. She was a woman that could light up any room she was in. She was my best friend for most of my life. I loved her and she loved me and yet I married Claire. My marriage to Claire was a mistake from the beginning since I only did it in anger at a relationship that your mother was in. I was nothing but a fool,” he said shaking his head with a sigh.

 

“We both were eager to make one another jealous and we didn't realize what it mistake that was until we seemed so out of reach of each other. Then we ended up starting an affair. Then she ended up becoming pregnant with you. My marriage with Claire immediately collapsed and we got divorced because of it. Then I finally got to marry your mother about a month before you were born. We were so happy,” he said with a fond smile as he remembered how things were for him.

 

“That's the way it was for a little over a year. Then everything went bad when she was killed. You were so young at the time and yet you already lost your mother,” he said looking so sad when he had been looking so happy just a few moment earlier. “It was the most painful moment of my life. I had lost the love of my life and you had lost your mother,” he said wiping away a few tears at the memory.

 

“It's not that I didn't want to tell you about all this sooner but it's just been so painful for me to remember all of it. Sometimes I feel like it was my fault that she died. I feel like if only I was there that I could've saved her. I failed her when she needed me the most,” he said as more tears fell. It was obvious just how painful it was for him to be talking about it like this.

 

“You see, she was shot because I made her go out to get something for me from the store because I was in a hurry. I realized later that it could've easily have waited but it was already too late to save her,” he said before trying to compose himself again.

 

“She lived for a little while but not for long. She died though the same way that she lived, with a bright smile on her face. You and I were right by her side until the last minute and that made her very happy. She said that her only regret was that she wouldn't be able to see you grow up but at the same time she was glad to be able to at least hold you in her arms once more before she died,” he said still struggling to hold back some tears.

 

“I was a coward for not telling you this sooner. I wanted you to only hear it from me though so don't blame those that didn't tell you anything,” he said her looking at her with eyes that begged her forgiveness.

 

Suddenly his mood completely switched to one of a smile. “So you've gotten married though I'm guessing Karin got a little too eager and you haven't quite yet,” he said which brought out a laugh from Van and Fiona.

 

“Van, I trust that you will take care of my daughter. She is everything to me and even more than that to her mother. Look after her and love her always,” he said and Van got the impression that he was actually looking right at him through the TV.

 

“Fiona, always keep smiling and live life the way you feel is right. It's yours to live now. Not Claire's, not mine, but yours and only yours. I'm sure you'll look or you looked very beautiful on your wedding day. I'm just sorry that neither of us can be there to see it. I would've loved to be able to walk you down the aisle. But as long as you're happy then I know that I will be able to rest in peace,” he said before the tape stopped.

 

Van looked at Fiona and frowned when he saw how sad she looked. `This sure is a lot for her to take in all of a sudden,' he thought as he pulled her close to him to try and comfort her. He hated seeing her like this.

 

Fiona buried her head into his chest and enjoyed the solace that it brought her troubled mind. `Everything feels so crazy right now but when I am in his arms I feel nothing but peace,' she thought as she listened to the sound of Van's heart beating.

 

“Ever wonder why my mom was so intent on getting us together?” Van asked Fiona making her look up at him in confusion. “It's because she promised your mother that she would when we were born. Death wouldn't come between Emily Lynette and her goal they said. She'd haunt them for the rest of their lives if they failed is what they told me,” he said and was glad when he got a true laugh from Fiona.

 

“I guess that explains her persistence. She wanted to get it done before anything else came between us. It also explains why she looked so shocked when I mentioned my promise to Moonbay. It must've brought back a lot of memories,” she said looking at Van with eyes full of love. “I guess that now it's our turn to make our own memories especially when we have kids of our own,” she said with a look that Van knew all too well.

 

“My sweet little Fiona is having naughty thoughts again, isn't she?” he asked with a grin as he was sudden pulled down onto the bed. “Problem is though that I don't have a condom and you're not on the pill so we'll just have to wait two more days,” he said before Fiona roughly kissed him with everything she had.

 

“I trust you and am willing to take that chance. I saw how happy she looked in that film despite being very pregnant. Pregnant or not, I know I will be just as happy,” she said ultimately saying that she didn't mind if she got knocked up.

 

“It's just two more…” he said but his argument was cut off when Fiona quickly pulled his short up and over his head before he even had a chance to stop her. After that was done his lips were completely sealed with her own. He couldn't seem to think anymore and that was when he gave in.

 

Before giving Van another chance to complain, Fiona reached into his shorts and grabbed a hold of his manhood. She grinned when she saw him hiss in pleasure and knew that he wouldn't be putting up any more arguments.

 

“That's cheating,” Van hissed out but she just gave him that cute little grin of hers as she started to stroke it up and down earning her another hiss of pleasure. “You sure know how to win arguments,” he said before slamming his lips down upon hers in a lustful kiss.

 

“I learned from you,” she said as her shirt was quickly pulled over her head leaving her in only a fresh pair of panties and no bra. She saw Van lick his lips before attacking the two mounds upon her chest.

 

Van sucked on the mounds like a baby would. He could already feel himself getting very hard and knew why. With all the preparations they had been making, they couldn't find time for each other before she went off the pill. This meant that it had been several weeks since the two of them had found time to make love. It made it worse that Van was completely addicted to Fiona and that made it harder for him to hold back.

 

Fiona hands immediately went to the back of his head in order to keep his head where it currently was. She loved it when he sucked on her nipples like that. She'd loved it ever since she had first become intimate with Van so many years ago. It was one of her more cherished memories.

 

Van didn't stay for long on her nipples. After a little while of sucking on them and then switching and doing the same thing, he decided to move on. He then grasped a hold of her panties and tugged then down her legs until they were completely off.

 

Licking his lips once again, Van brought a hand up and stuck a finger deep into her pussy. It immediately clenched around his finger and he smiled. `She's as tight as she was the first night we made love,' he thought as he pushed the finger in and out.

 

Fiona moaned loudly as he continued to thrust his fingers into her. After a while he added a second finger and then a third. This only continued to make her moan even harder as she bucked her hips to get even more out of it.

 

Van pulled out his fingers earning a groan from Fiona but then replaced it with his tongue. He heard from give a sharp gasp and grinned as his tongue moved along the folds of her pussy. The taste was very addicting and it only made him want more.

 

At first his tongue just moved along the folds but eventually he started to plunge his tongue into her pussy earning screams that were probably annoying the neighbors. “You need to keep it down Fiona or we'll get in trouble,” he said and chuckled when he saw Fiona doing what she could to keep more screams from coming out.

 

He was about to go back to what he was doing but Fiona quickly stopped him. She then flipped them over before working on his shorts. It wasn't long before they were pulled off his body as well as his boxers and then joining Fiona's clothes on the ground. This left them both naked and taking in the sight of the other.

 

At first Fiona started out mimicking Van's actions by paying attention to the chest area. She kissed his well toned chest and licked around the nipples trying to not take her eyes off of his own eyes.

 

Fiona then made her way down and delved her tongue into Van's belly button. She then made her way downwards and grabbed a hold of his cock once again. “Looks delicious,” she said as she licked up the side of it like it was an ice cream.

 

Van leaned back and relaxed letting Fiona do all the work for now. He remembered the first time she ever gave him a blow job. She was so clumsy at it and unsure of what she was doing. Yet looking at her now was like seeing a different person. She was so confident and very good at it.

 

Fiona licked the tips of his dick and slightly pushed her tongue into the tiny hole. She then took the top of it into her mouth and sucked on it like a vacuum. She enjoyed the delightful sounds that we coming out of Van's lips in a hushed way. She then took him into her mouth even more.

 

At first she just took the tip in but slowly started to take more and more of him in. Then at other times she completely let his dick fall from her mouth in a teasing way. It took a while because of all that before she finally took it all in and went far enough down so that her nose was tickled by his pubic hair.

 

Her head then started to bob up and down taking him in fully each time she did it. She his hands reach for the back of her head and swatted them away as she pulled away from him with a grin.

 

Sitting up, Fiona started to slide away from Van. “Hey come back here,” Van said immediately reaching out to stop her. It was then that he noticed what she was doing. She was getting on her hands and knees with her butt and pussy facing right towards him. “Very tempting,” he said as he moved towards her.

 

Much to Fiona's frustration. Van didn't immediately put his dick into her. Instead he took to teasing her like she had done to him. “Oh come on,” she pleaded as his merely took to running his hands up and down her smooth legs and back with the occasional probing of his fingers into her love canal.

 

Van grinned after a while figuring that Fiona had been teased enough for her teasing. He then got onto his knees and came up behind her while holding his dick. He then put the head of it onto her pussy and started to make short thrusts pushing into her more and more each time.

 

This wasn't a position that the two of them used very often but Van really like how different it was from how they normally did it. He could tell Fiona liked it as well since she was barely able to suppress her loud moans at his actions.

 

Suddenly Van took Fiona by surprise when he suddenly pushed himself fully into her completely different from the short thrusts he had just been making up until then. This surprise made Fiona accidentally release some of the loud moans she was trying so hard to suppress.

 

Van chuckled as he started to thrust in and out of her. Her inner walls were clinging to his dick very tightly making it feel like it was getting a massage. He hoped that Fiona would never lose the tightness that he was so used to.

 

“So good,” Fiona moaned in a hushed voice feeling his dick continue to slid in and out of her. Each time her pushed it he filled her up and made her feel so complete only to make her feel a bit empty when he pulled out of her again and again.

 

“Glad you like it. I'd hate it if I wasn't able to satisfy you,” Van said since it had been rare occasions when he hadn't been able to. He always worked to make sure that Fiona would always been pleased with him.

 

“You'll always satisfy me just by being with me,” Fiona replied arching her back and feelings her arms starting to feel a bit weak from under her. She knew that they wouldn't be able to hold out much longer and she was right when her arms collapsed from under her and she fell smashing her breasts against the bed.

 

Van leaned forward and circled his arms around Fiona. He took the opportunity to grab her breasts and give them a good firm squeeze making Fiona release another moan she tried to hold back. “You have no control,” he said with a grin as he laid a playful slap on her ass.

 

Fiona gave out a small yelp at the feeling of it but didn't say a word as the speed of his thrusts sped up. “Harder! Faster!” she moaned out and he complied as he increased his speed plunging into her hole harder than before.

 

“I'm getting close,” Van groaned trying to hold himself off. He felt her tightening around his cock even more and knew that she was close to completion as well. `Just hold on for a little longer,' he thought as he pounded deep into her tight hole hitting the very back of it each and every time.

 

Fiona screamed in pleasure as she came hard. Her insides clamped down around Van's cock even tighter as she released her juices all over his cock. Now all she waited for was for him to cum as well so she could have his seed.

 

Van finally felt his orgasm but he didn't cum immediately as he quickly pulled out of Fiona and flipped her onto her back. He then pumped a few times as his seed flew out and landed all over her stomach and her breasts. Van then groaned as he rolled off to the side of Fiona. “That was great,” he said happily.

 

Fiona sighed happily as her hands came up and started to play with the seed that was all over her. “You could've cum in me. I wouldn't have minded. I really like it when you do,” she said with a small blush on her face.

 

“We've lasted this long Fiona. I think we can last two more days before we finally get you pregnant. I don't mind waiting a little longer,” he said giving her a kiss to the lips. “Maybe you should go and get cleaned up,” he then said though the look of her lying there with his seed all over her was very erotic to him.

 

The fact that Van never tried to go too far made Fiona's heart flutter and made her think just how much she truly loved him. “I guess so,” Fiona said taking some of it on her finger before sticking those fingers in her mouth.

 

Van groaned at the sight of her seed covered fingers disappearing into her mouth. “You um… better go get cleaned up before I take you again here and now,” he said trying to fight off his desire. He didn't think he would be able to have a clear enough head next time to pull out like he did this time.

 

“Oh all right,” she said grabbing her clothes before heading towards their bathroom. She took a quick shower and got dressed before heading back. Van had at least his underwear on at that moment as she climbed in next to him. It wasn't long before the two of them finally fell asleep.

 

*****

 

Fiona was embarrassed as hell the next morning. First when the two of them went to check out they saw that many people were giving them funny looks. It was pretty clear that despite her best efforts to keep it down that she didn't do a very good job.

 

Both of them were all too happy to be able to get out of there and avoid the looks that people were giving them. “I told you that you were making too much noise,” Van said which caused Fiona to blush heavily. He just loved to see her blush like that. It made her look so damn cute.

 

“Oh shut up!” Fiona yelled right back trying her best to get her face under control. She heard him chuckle and that seemed to make her more embarrassed. Instead of responding though she just got in the car to get away from there.

 

To Fiona, it wasn't just what Van was saying right then that was embarrassing her. It also had to do with how she acted last night. For a while she didn't care if she got pregnant or not despite her desire to not have one till they were married. Van could've very easily have done that but instead chose to wait. If it was even possible, Fiona found her love continue to grow even more because of that.

 

Van chuckled once more as he got into the drivers seat and started the car. They planned to go back to the cemetery once more since it had finally stopped raining. He knew that Fiona wanted a little more time with her mother and he would give that to her since no one else gave her any.

 

Looking over at Fiona, Van saw that she still looked a bit angry at him. “Oh come on Fiona, cheer up. Just think, tomorrow we will finally be able to get married,” he said hoping to cheer her up. Fiona didn't look at him though but he couldn't help but notice the smile that crossed her face. That was more than enough for him as he just drove on in silence.

 

The two of them made one stop to buy some flowers before they headed back to the cemetery. The ground at the cemetery was still wet but neither Van or Fiona minded as they made their way through to the graves of her father and mother.

 

Fiona took the flowers in her hands and kneeled down placing one of them on her father's grave and then the other on her mother's grave. “All this time, I really wish I had known. It's been so rough living with Claire as she kept trying to take everything that mattered to me,” Fiona said as her hand brushed over the name on the tombstone.

 

“You're free to do what you want now Fiona. She lied to you, took advantage of your kindness, and did everything possible to hurt you. She was never a mother to begin with,” Van said in a comforting way after he silently said a prayer to her deceased parents.

 

“You're right,” Fiona replied giving Van a smile. “I don't know much about her. Now that I think about it, she looked like she truly loved my father in the tape though. They both looked so happy,” she continued.

 

“They were, I know it. At least now you can proudly say that even if for a little while you knew that you had a mother who truly loved you,” he said with a smile as he helped her to her feet.

 

“I always did,” Fiona said returning the smile. “Your mother has always been the mother that I lost. That means that I've always had two mothers that loved me,” she said and Van nodded as she took his hand. She then turned toward the graves again. “I promise that I will try to visit both of you again. Hopefully next time I will know a bit more about you mother,” she said before she turned and her and Van started to head off towards the car once again.

 

The two of them weren't in much of a hurry to get back. That was probably why it was evening when they finally got there. Fiona smiled as she got out of the car. She looked upon the place she was going to get married in and felt extremely happy.

 

Van smiled as he walked up to Fiona's side. “Come on, I'm sure that they're all worried about you,” he said and she nodded as he grabbed her hand and led the way back into the building that she had so quickly run out of the day before.

 

Fiona walked behind Van with her head down. She was worried about what everyone would think about how she acted. `I hope that they won't be too mad at me,' she thought with a sigh as they walked down the halls.

 

It wasn't long before two familiar faces were seen. Van's parents, despite what Fiona had done, were still working hard on getting everything together for the big day. It made Fiona feel guilty but happy at the same time to know that they knew she would still come back.

 

Karin turned her head when she saw two people approaching and smiled. She immediately got her husband's attention and he too smiled as they approached the younger couple. “I'm so glad to see that you're back,” Karin said giving Fiona a big smile.

 

“I'm so sorry for the trouble that I must have …” Fiona said but was then cut off when Karin brought her into a tight hug. It was comforting to know that she cared for Fiona so much as Fiona gave her a hug back.

 

“No, I'm the one that should be sorry. We kept this from you for so long. There were so many times that I wanted to tell you but Dan was being a stubborn ass about our promise to your father not to tell you until he did,” she said glaring at her husband who looked away guiltily. “How are you feeling Fiona?” she asked with worried eyes.

 

“Tired… confused. I just don't know what is going on,” Fiona replied staring towards the ground. She felt Karin tighten her embrace and smile. She may not have grown up with a mother but she had a great one right here.

 

“I promise that I will tell you everything you could ever possibly know in time,” she said pulling away slightly to stare at Fiona. “Do you still want to go on with the wedding?” she asked looking really worried.

 

“That's probably the only thing that I know for sure that I want to do,” Fiona responded and Karin smiled again as she stepped back and next to her husband. “I'm really tired right now. I'm going to go up to my room,” she said and the two nodded as Fiona grabbed Van's hand and started to pull him towards her room.

 

Since Fiona wouldn't be able to see Van at all the next day until she walked to the alter, she wanted to spend as much time as she possibly could with him right then. `To think that today is my last day as Fiona Lynette. Tomorrow I'll be Fiona Flyheight,' she thought absolutely loving the sound of it.

 

The two of them walked into her room. They smiled as the laid down. Not much was said; they just laid there and basked in each other's presence. When it started to get late, Van finally detached himself from Fiona and stood up. “I guess this is it until tomorrow,” he said as he leaned down and captured Fiona's lips in his own. `Our last kiss before we get married,' he thought as he stood up and walked to the door.

 

Fiona watched him leave and felt rather lonely laying there without him. `When was it that I became so dependant on Van? How long has it been since I have had to sleep alone without being able to hold him in my arms. I know that this is going to be a long night,' she thought with a sigh as she rolled over and tried to get to sleep.

 

Van was leaning again the door not quite ready to leave yet. He could hear Fiona tossing and turning inside the room as she tried to sleep. He hated how he couldn't sleep next to her that night.

 

His mother was playing it extra careful trying to make sure that they didn't do anything to cause bad luck. He knew that because she came walking up to him right then ready to guard the door to keep him from getting back into the room.

 

Sighing, Van finally pushed himself away from the door and started to head towards his own room. The two of them shared a room the first night and weren't even there the next but still shared a room together. Now they had to separate until tomorrow and he could feel that it was already too long that he had been away from her.

 

The room was so empty as Van walked into it. He immediately knew that he wouldn't have an easy time sleeping that night. he laid down on the bed after changing and closed his eyes and waited for dreams to finally take him.