Fan Fiction ❯ A Raven Like No Other ❯ Chapter Four: Words From The Mind And Heart ( Chapter 4 )

Chapter Four: Words From The Mind And Heart

 

(Meanwhile In Nevermore)

Curiosity, who was clad in a light purple cloak, was walking around contemplating on what took place at the assembly when she ran into Knowledge, Annoyance, Timid and Kindness.

“Nice going,” Annoyance stated to Curiosity.

“What did I do,” Curiosity asked.

“You had Raven go into Beast Boy's room without his permission,” Kindness answered, “That wasn't polite now was it?”

“Beast Boy might get really mad if he finds out,” Timid said very worriedly, “I really think we should go and apologize to him.”

“Hey,” Curiosity said in her defense, “All I wanted to know was if Beast Boy was in his room and why his door was left open.”

“But why did you had Raven disrespect Beast Boy's privacy and go into his private journal,” Kindness asked.

“Raven found her name written as the title of the journal for reasons that were beyond me,” replied Curiosity, “I was moved to want to find out why was that so.”

“It's hard enough to put up with Beast Boy sometimes,” Annoyance complained, “Now you had her go snooping around his stuff like a nosy bloodhound?”

“I thought no harm could come out of looking into what he thought of us,” said Curiosity, “The first parts of the journal did get Raven irritated but I wanted to see if there were more to his words than Raven gave him credit for. Evidently, Raven got more than what I was anticipating.”

“And as a result, three crowned emotions were freed from Raven's heart,” a joyous voice shouted.

Everyone turned to see Happy and Desire walking towards them and joining the group.

“Yes they were,” Knowledge commented.

“Personally I owe my thanks to Curiosity for what she did,” Desire said happily, “You have no idea how much I yearned to be freed from being contained so deep in Raven's heart.”

“I can relate.”

Now everyone turned to see Lust entering and joining the conversation.

“Salutations and many thanks to Curiosity,” Lust said slyly.

“What for,” Curiosity asked with interest.

“It was you who had Raven free my two sisters and myself,” Lust said, “I'm surprised you stayed quiet during the assembly. It almost gave me the impression that you weren't there.”

“I wanted to see how things were going to play out,” Curiosity retorted, “So I figured if I stay quiet I'll find out what would happen.”

“Well stick around,” Lust suggested, “Because I think you might be interested in finding out what I have in stored for us.”

“Really,” Curiosity asked with a heighten spark of interest, “If anything, I'm eager to find out more.”

“You know there is an old saying,” Knowledge said, “Curiosity killed the cat.”

“Curiosity made Raven kill a cat,” Timid asked frighten and worriedly with teary eyes, “Oh no! What will Beast Boy think if he were to find this out? What if he never wants to speak to us again? You know how he is about animals.”

Knowledge sweat-dropped and sighed, then continued, “No Timid. What I meant is that the cat's curiosity got it into a whole world of trouble.”

“Good heavens,” Timid said even more frightened with tears falling down her face, “You mean Curiosity will get Raven into a whole world of trouble as well, just like how the cat's curiosity got it into? That's how mad Beast Boy will be when he finds out about the journal? This is so not good! Not good at all!”

Timid started sobbing with fright and worry while Knowledge sweat-dropped again as she smacked her forehead and shook her head.

“Why does Knowledge even bother,” Annoyance grunted. Not sticking around for the small gather, Lust turned and went about her business. While walking, she found Love, Reason and Femininity conversing with each other about something that looked important. A moment later, Knowledge walked in and joined in the conversation. Not wanting to join in, Lust went towards another direction and continued contemplating on how she could get things done her way.

While Love was conversing with her fellow emotions and personalities, she caught sight of another emotion that was hiding in the shadows some distance away from them, quietly watching them. This emotion have been eyeing Love, Desire and Lust since their arrival. Before Love could call out to this mysterious emotion, the emotion left and took off elsewhere. Love couldn't help but sense a strong negative vibe from that mysterious emotion, and secretly, Desire and Lust sense the same feeling from that emotion also.

 

(At Titan Tower)

Beast Boy was leaving the kitchen and started making his way towards the living quarters of the Titans with a small plate in his right hand that had a filled cup resting on it. Getting to his destination, he took a breath and readied himself for the next step.

 

(Inside Raven's Room)

Raven was sitting on her bed with her legs folded underneath her when she heard a knock on her door. Turning to the door, she wondered if she should answer it or not.

“Raven are you in there?”

“Beast Boy?”

Getting off her bed, Raven slowly walked over to it. She opened the door and saw that it was Beast Boy, with his black shirt on and his hair combed neatly, standing outside her door with a small plate in his hand that had a filled cup on it.

“Yes, Beast Boy,” Raven asked with a monotone voice, “What do you want?”

“Hey Raven,” Beast Boy said nervously, “I saw that you were troubled about something so...I thought that a cup of your favorite herbal tea would be just what you need.”

Raven tried her hardest to fight back a blush, but failed. No one has ever done something that thoughtful for her before. Beast Boy saw her blush but decided not to point it out.

“Thank you,” Raven said trying to keep her voice in a monotone level. Accepting the cup of tea, she took a sip into it and felt eased again.

“Wow Beast Boy,” Raven said as she tasted her drink, “You made it just how I like it.”

“After seeing how you do it so many times over the years, how would I not know how to make one for you?”

A small smile appeared on Raven's face. It was amazing how what looks like the smallest thing one could do for someone out of kindness could go so far.

“You can be as sweet as you are goofy sometimes.”

“Dude,” Beast Boy teased, “What's this I hear? Was that a compliment with a smile?”

“Don't push it.”

“You're right,” Beast Boy said, “We're having a moment, so I won't ruin it, again.”

Raven fought hard not to laugh, but a small giggle escaped her mouth.

“On a serious note,” Beast Boy continued, “Was there something troubling you earlier that you want to talk about Raven?”

“...No...,” Raven replied, returning back to her regular demeanor, “There's...nothing to worry about.”

Beast Boy didn't looked convinced; he saw that she was keeping something from him, so he asked, “Are you sure?”

“Yes,” Raven responded.

“So when would you feel comfortable talking about it? From the way you were acting earlier today, I thought...”

“Beast Boy I appreciate your concern,” Raven assured, “But I'm fine. Really.”

He sighed, keeping himself from pressing further into the subject.

“...Whatever you say. I just want you to remember this Raven: you're not alone. You have friends like Starfire, Cyborg, Robin and me you can turn to. Whatever it is that's on your mind, feel free to talk about it with me at anytime, even if it's at 3 am.”

“Thanks,” she replied with a monotone, “I'll...keep that in mind.”

“Well,” Beast Boy said while scratching the back on his head, “I guess I'll leave you alone now. Hee hee...”

With that said, Beast Boy turned and started off on her way. Raven wanted to call him back, but her voice went mute. There was something she wanted to talk about with him about, but for some reason she couldn't bring herself to do so. Sighing, she retreated back into her room, closing the door behind her.

I wonder if Beast Boy found out I read his private journal, Raven wondered, Would he shout and get mad at me?...Why am I thinking this? Why the hell would it matter anyway?

Why wouldn't it matter, asked a voice from her mind. Raven sighed lowly knowing whose voice that was.

“Love.”

Is there something you wish to talk about?

“No,” Raven answered to herself in a low undertone.

Lately, you've been doing a great deal of swimming in that famous Egyptian River...You know the one known as, "The Nile".

Raven didn't miss the sarcasm in that comment.

“Shut up.”

Why don't you just be honest with him and yourself? It would make your life a whole lot easier.

“My life would be made easier if you'd keep yourself quiet and unknown like you've been doing over the years.”

That's your problem Raven. For too long you've denied yourself from admitting to yourself what your heart has been telling you. You bottled every feeling you have for Beast Boy and today it reached its climax when my two sisters and I were released from your heart. Your heart wasn't able to hold all those feelings you have inside yourself anymore after you read Beast Boy's journal, which was why we were freed. You can thank Curiosity for that.

“I'll remember to scold her later,” Raven said as she took a sip of the tea Beast Boy gave her.

It's obvious that Beast Boy really does care for you. And I know you deeply care for him as well; more so than you let on. I know, because I'm living proof of that.

“Says you,” Raven mocked in a monotone.

I warn you Raven: Denial will bring forth consequences in one way or another. My advice to you Raven: be true to yourself and accept how you feel.

As much as Raven didn't want to admit it, but she knew Love was right. She took another sip of her tea expecting Love to say something else, but heard nothing more, now being left with her thoughts, more or less.

 

(Meanwhile)

Beast Boy was heading back to the kitchen when he Cyborg (age 19) coming towards him:

“Hey BB,” Cyborg called out, “What's up? Haven't seen ya all day!”

“I can say likewise with you,” Beast Boy replied, “What are you up to?”

“Oh nothing,” Cyborg said with normal, then with loudly glee, “Except, I'm gonna try out the latest video game that came out for the Game Station XL!”

“Wait,” Beast Boy said with a large smile, “Do you mean...”

“That's right,” Cyborg affirmed, “Custom Tech 3! With the latest game features and battle combos and upgrades included!”

“Dude,” Beast Boy shouted, “That's the one that lets you go online and battle other players and get newer and better upgrades! I've been waiting eons for that one!”

“Boo-yah,” Cyborg invited excitedly, “Wanna try it out!”

“I'm there,” Beast Boy exclaimed as he morphed into a cheetah and ran down to the common room a.k.a. game room for them. Cyborg ran down behind Beast Boy just as eager to play their newest game.

 

(Two Hours Later)

Robin (age 18) and Starfire (age 18) were entering the common room to find Cyborg and Beast Boy going at it on the Game Station XL playing Custom Tech 3. Robin and Starfire started dating about four months ago and everyone was happy for them, and from they saw, Robin and Starfire made quite a charming couple.

“Friends,” cheered Starfire. Beast Boy and Cyborg turned to see Starfire and Robin making their way towards them.

“Robin, Starfire,” Cyborg greeted.

“Whassup,” Beast Boy said.

“Hey guys,” Robin said as he entered into the room. Beast Boy grinned, “How did your date go?”

“It was most splendid,” Starfire said with excitement and glee, “On my home planet, such wonderful evenings as this one were concluded with the Serenade of Romance and Delight, consisting of 10,000 verses!”

Beast Boy, Cyborg and Robin's eyes were now as wide as dish plates with their faces looking bugged out upon hearing what Starfire told them.

“Shall I begin serenading,” Starfire asked.

“Uh-That's OK Starfire,” Robin quickly interjected, “Maybe a relaxing time socializing would be better.”

Starfire snorted, but then smiled, “Alright then. Fun times with friends are always good, that they are.”

The trio sighed in relief before Beast Boy and Cyborg returned to their video gaming playing. That was when Robin took note of the game being played.

“I'm taking it that's the latest Custom Tech video game that just came out,” Robin said stating the obvious.

“You bet,” Cyborg replied back, “This one is even better than the first two combined!”

“Plus it's a hell of a lot harder too,” retorted Beast Boy as he played with Cyborg as duo partners. Robin sat down on the couch with Starfire happily sitting down on his lap. The couple sat there and cheered as they watched their longtime video game-loving friends battle it out on the Game Station XL. A moment later, a hooded Raven quietly glided out of her room and down into the kitchen to make herself a cup of herbal tea.

After filling the teapot with water and placing it on the stove with boil, she stepped out of the kitchen momentarily to see her friends in the common room having a fun time together. Her eyes fell on Beast Boy, but then shifted on Starfire and Robin. She saw how Robin was holding Starfire as she sat comfortably on his lap. Raven was happy to see that the couple finally got together. It was obvious to everyone that they cared for each other, they were just too nervous to come out and admit to each other. But when they finally did, everything else was smooth sailing from there and they've only gotten closer since.

A few minutes later, Raven saw that the water was finally hot enough for her tea. Going back into the kitchen, she fixed herself at cup of her tea and waited for it to cool down enough for her to drink. After a few passing moments, she started drinking her tea when...

Sometimes I wish I could be sitting on Beast Boy's lap with his strong arms around me...

Raven spewed out her tea and almost choked as she coughed in shock at the thought that just came into her mind.

Where the hell did THAT thought come from!

She quickly turned to see if the others noticed what happened. Luckily for her, they didn't since the game was being played loudly. Hurriedly, she took a soapy sponge and cleaned over where she spat her tea. When that was done, she took her remaining cup of tea and attempted to retreat back to her room when...

“Hey Raven,” a familiar masculine voice called out. Raven paused and turned to see Beast Boy and the others looking at her.

“Friend Raven,” Starfire called out happily, “How pleasant to see you come join us on this evening of socializing and game playing.”

“W..Well...Uh...,” Raven stuttered.

“C'mon Rae,” Cyborg invited, “Don't be a loner! Come join the posse!”

“Yeah,” Beast Boy agreed, “Beside, I reserved a special seat just for you with my compliments!”

Raven blushed lightly under her hood from what Beast Boy said, especially after what she was thinking about.

“...Alright,” Raven consented in a monotone, “Just no monkey business.”

Beast Boy jumped onto the head of the couch and turned into a monkey, then answered with a “cross my heart and hope to die” hand gestures. Raven gave a smile and nodded. Beast Boy morphed back and gestured to her to come over. Nervously, Raven glided over to her friends and sat down between Robin and Beast Boy.

“Now that wasn't so bad now was it,” Beast Boy teased.

“Whatever,” Raven replied back as she sipped her tea again. Grinning at her, Beast Boy returned back to his video game playing. For the next fifteen minutes, Raven watched quietly as Beast Boy enjoyed his game playing with Cyborg. She took a few glances at him here and there, then look back at the screen.

Certainly looks like a lot of fun.

It was no mystery as to whom that voice belong to.

Desire, Raven thought to herself.

Why don't you join in the game playing? If anything, Beast Boy would love it!

I'll pass, Raven thought again.

I know you want to join in Raven, so won't don't you try?

Video games do not interest me, Raven mentally argued.

But it would depend on the game, would it not? It would have to be a most eerie, medieval role-playing game kind of game; one with a lot of Dark Age mayhem and fantasy chaos and action. I'm sure Beast Boy wouldn't mind playing such a game with you.

“That would be nice,” Raven said to herself out loud in a low undertone.

“What would be nice Raven,” Starfire asked after overhearing what her friend said.

“Oh, uh,” Raven blushed, “Nothing.”

Starfire saw that Raven was deep into her own thoughts. Before Starfire could question Raven as to what was on her mind, Raven stood up and glided out of the room and into the kitchen, placing her cup into the sink. She then left the kitchen and made her way to the roof. Reaching her destination, she stood up on the roof to gaze upon the dark star-littered skies with a crescent moon shining brightly. She let out a sigh in hopes to clear her mind as she take in the scent of the salty seawaters.

“Something you wish to talk about?”

Raven turned to see Starfire walking towards her.

“What are you doing out here,” Raven questioned, “Aren't you supposed to be with Robin?”

“Yes,” Starfire replied, “But I'm concerned about you Raven.”

“I'm fine,” Raven assured, “There's nothing to be concern about.”

“I judged that you have a lot on your mind today. Did something happen that resulted in the way you've been acting?”

“What do you mean?”

“Recently, I acknowledged your habitual staring at Beast Boy while we're training or just doing the regular “hanging-out” stuff. Even a while ago you were taking a few glances at him. I deduce that you have some form of attraction to our green friend.”

Raven lowered her head to conceal a blush that was on her face. She new it was useless lying to Starfire.

“It's just some stupid teen-girl crush I have,” Raven stated emotionlessly, "It's of no importance.”

“Of no importance,” Starfire asked with a large smile and disbelief, “But such a thing is a wonderful feeling, is it not!”

“...” huffed Raven.

“Please tell me,” Starfire asked excitedly, “How long have you had these feelings for Beast Boy?”

“I'd rather not talk about such trivialities,” Raven answered coldly, “I'll get through it on my own.”

“But-”

“Forget it,” Raven cut her off sharply as she quickly entered back into Titan Tower. Before she entered, Raven, with her back facing Starfire, said, “Just for the record, this conversation never happened. Say nothing to Beast Boy or the others about it.”

With that said, Raven entered Titan Tower and started towards her room, leaving a confusued, yet concerned Starfire watching her departure. As Raven continued walking towards her room, she thought, I can't have feelings for Beast Boy! I mustn't have feelings for him or anyone for that matter! If anything, it could lead to disaster! My emotions are dangerous and could get out of control! I could end up hurting everyone, especially Beast Boy...I can't take that kind of risk...I won't take it!

No sooner than she made that proclamation to herself, Raven heard a familiar voice in her mind tell her this warning:

Denial will bring forth consequences...

 

 

 

 

 

TBC