Fan Fiction ❯ A Repetition of History (or, An Ode to Sunny) ❯ A Repetition of History ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

By: Pengu

How can you look

At what you've done to me with so much pride?

You said you loved me -

I should have known that you would have lied.

I can't believe it,

After all the promises you made.

You swore me fealty,

How quickly could your memory fade?

I remember

The very first time I met you.

You needed help

And had nobody else to turn to.

I didn't know you

But I opened up and made you my friend.

It's funny-

Even then, I knew exactly how this would end.

Hell, I told you everything

About the girl from my past;

The `sister' who left me,

But you assured me that you would last.

And I believed you,

I swallowed all the bullshit you said

Never thinking

That in the end, I'd wish you were dead.

I am impressed, though,

This much I do have to say;

We never had sex,

But you managed to fuck me anyway.

Looking back, I have to know:

Do you think it's worth it?

Leaving me to go be sloppy seconds

For a piece of shit?

And then what?

I don't know why you can't see

That he will do to you

Everything that he did to me.

He'll use you, abuse you,

And leave you after he's done.

To you, it's love

To him, it's only sex and some fun.

He can't commit

To me, to Chris, to Lazzy, or you -

You think you're special?

I'm sorry, hon, but please get a clue.

He's never been loyal

After eight years, you think he'd have learned.

You know it's true

But you're so stupid that you want to get burned.

So I hope you have some fun

Before he tears you to shreds

And dumps your ass

So he can go climb into other girls' beds.

I'd like to pity you

And hope he doesn't hurt you, but

I pray you get what you deserve,

You lying, back-stabbing slut.

Maybe someday

I'll find it in myself to forgive

The shit you've done,

To offer peace; to live and let live.

But for now,

I want to see you in misery,

To look in the mirror

And hate the girl that you see.

To understand why your relationships

Always end the same,

Why no one loves you,

And you've only got yourself to blame.

Live with your decisions

Till the day that you die.

Look back on all the love I gave you

That you threw out, and cry.

Go through your days

In loneliness, pain, and strife;

You brought it all on yourself

Now go and have a nice life.