Fan Fiction ❯ Acheing for him ❯ Forgive me? ( Chapter 1 )

Why? Does it really have to be this way?

 

This place is darker than black. Can't see anything, it's worse than being blind. All your senses gone. That feeling, that inexplicable feeling that you get in here….clawing away at your very soul. A hell, worse actually. Darkness all around, can't escape it….can't….you just....can't.

 

Will I ever be forgiven? Or will my sins control my life? Pushing me into new directions, right into the hands of darkness?

 

Where was he? So much for a ruler. Leaving me in here, without so much a hint as to where the exit is….

 

Take care of her….

 

Damn. I didn't mean to say that. I wanted to tell him something else entirely… but I hesitated, and said the last thing the last thing on my mind.

 

I'm crazy….I shouldn't be feeling this way, It's…wrong.

 

How I long for that smile again. I would gladly die, if it meant seeing him one last time. But. Would he. Would he be happy? Would he still accept me if I came to him?

 

It's wrong. Forbidden. But yet…. Why does it feel so right? Like….if it belongs?

 

Welcome Oblivion. Death is near.

 

He took it away. He took what little innocence I had away!

 

Laughter. God. I hated it. Please, someone, something. Make those eyes go away…. I hate that color. Orange….

 

You'll still be waiting for me, right? With that smile you always gave me….your glistening eyes….and soft touch….

 

Stop it. I can't be thinking about him like that…. He's… he's innocent, unlike me. Pure, unlike me. Good, unlike me…. He, has a heart….unlike me.

 

Laughing. He laughed at me. Called me stupid. Useless. A piece of shit. Then…he would come to me, as if I were a fragile thing, like I would break if left alone. He used me. For his own fun….pleasures.

 

Raping me. Following me. Loving me. Dragging me under. Why. Leave me alone. Just let me die, I've lost the will to live. He's gone now, are you happy? You've succeeded in pushing away what I most loved. He's gone now ….gone….I'm sorry, I can't cry, there aren't any more tears left to cry. Forgive me, Sora….