Fan Fiction ❯ An Angel's blade ❯ hello ( Chapter 6 )

Journal entry 1

Dear journal this is the first page of my thoughts and reflections. The wizard Gandalf has given me this book and has yet to say why. Then again what processed me to write in this book in the first place still eludes me. Maybe I'm afraid of dying and never getting a chance to say all the things I couldn't. Perhaps I just want to leave behind these reflections for Esha. The truth is I don't know and to tell the truth is I don't care. There is little left for me in the world of the living to care for. Is that why you did it mother? I can still see you even now dying even as you gave this world new life, new meaning, and new purpose. You made me swear on my honor that no matter what I would protect the little child that you proclaimed at your death bed was mine.

If anyone else had asked me I would say no. No a thousand times or not in a thousand lifetimes. But you asked me and I was bound by what little loyalty I had for you. Even as you could not protect me from my father our king you still tried to anyway. Raja was never fit to be a father and he was never a good man. But I'll tell you this much he was one hell of a leader and for that Raja has my respect. Life is funny that way. I give my respect to my life's tormentor, yet it was my hand that slew him.

And yet it was my hand again to rock Esha's cradle. Cruelty and kindness, my saving graces and yet at the same time my damnation. But these musing shall never see the light of day should I survive this. However should I not survive Esha don't you cry for me don't you dare. From what I was told this quest in which I am to participate in is dangerous. Yet no matter how many times I go over it in my head it just sounds too ridiculous to be true. A small thing like a ring should not cause this much trouble. Then again some of the most fearsome wars of history were started over bullshit. So in closing I will say this, if there isn't a way make a way.