Fan Fiction ❯ Beauty is Ugly ❯ The monster cries ( Chapter 1 )

Before I look up,I already know he is there.I can already feel his presence around me,his sent fills the dark room,it's the smell of blood..He goes out at nights and comes back with blood stained hands,but I never dare ask or say a word about it.He has such a strange aura about himself,and to any other person,he would seem like the most dangerous person you could meet..I even thought that at one time to..but now..he is my friend..no..more than that..he's my..lover..

 

I slowly sit up in bed and look at him,"Kin..what are you looking at..?"

 

"Moon."

 

"Oh..I see.."I feel sort of nervous..I think he's angry about something..well who wouldn't be after coming home from killing someone...

 

I softly smile,"It's rather pretty.."

 

"No it's not...it's ugly and taunting.It taunts me Kinji..it laughs at me and mocks my every move.It shines in the right places on the bodies of the people I've murdered,just so I can see what I have done..It wont stop shining until burning tears stream down my face.."

 

I step out of bed and stand..I don't dare move closer..just.."Why..."

 

He turns around and looks at me,those blood red eyes pin me to the spot.They are filled with so much sorrow and guilt,pain and sadness,I hate looking into them,yet I can't stop.

 

I can still see the wet on his cheeks where he had been crying..I never pictured a man like him letting tears flow down from his eyes..he seemed so strong and emotionless,I would have never thought it once.

 

"Why what?"Such a simple question.On any other topic I would be able to quickly answer,but when we are talking about something like this..I feel as if I say one thing wrong,I could be done for.

 

"I.."I can't get the right words to form..I can't even speak..

 

He blinks and continues to look at me.

 

"Wh..why..I..if the.."

 

I see his eye brows go downwards and he opens his mouth and shouts,"WHY WHAT!!!"

 

"IF KILLING PEOPLE HURTS YOU SO MUCH,WHY DO YOU DO IT!!"I can't believe I shouted back..it wasn't a shout of anger,just a shout from being so frightened.

 

I gulp..I know I'm done for..

 

I watch as he grits his teeth and stands up..I still can't move..thoes eyes have me glued to the place I am standing..

 

He comes so close,that our noses are almost touching..I prepare myself for the worst..but what I got wasn't at all what I was assuming it to be.

 

He drops to he knees and wraps his arms around my waist tightly.He buries his head into my stomach and begins to sob.."Oh Kinji,if I had a..a choice I wouldn't kill anyone!!I hate killing people,I hate myself!I feel like such a monster..the things I have done..you wouldn't believe it..Children Kinji,children..I've killed children!!Mothers and fathers,sons and daughters,I've killed them all!But I can't stop!I don't hav..ch.."He begins to choke and cough,I press my fingers to my lips,"shh..don't talk.."Then after that,all that was left to hear was muffled sobs coming from Kintah..and I just stand there..looking out the window as my lover cries his horrors out onto my body.I wonder what he means if only he had a choice..but I ignore that and look up at the sky,and see the moon shining brightly..I softly sigh as I wrap my arms around Kintah and I quietly whisper to him,"The moon..really isn't that beautiful anymore.."

 

 

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