Fan Fiction ❯ Daughter of Venus - the Vampire Rosaline ❯ I am who I am * ( Chapter 1 )

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am a girl, a teenager and all I appear is all that I am. I do not think I am sadistic in anyway. I do not worship Satan or denounce the Trinity, nor do I practice in Wicca or in anyway meddle with the pestilence of the past. On the contrary I believe in the wonder and example of the Roman Catholic faith and the anticipation that the future holds. I have not abandoned my God in the pursuit of life, nor do I feel that he has abandoned me. Sometimes I dream about it - the day when I meet my Father - but then that is when our similarities end. When your day is over a new and most joyous one will begin in his presence, whereas when mine ended when I was caught in the torrent of the eternal night in between.

Like a phantom I wander the nights, a condemned soul but still I am only a child…and always will be. I take what is not given and I destroy all that have what I have lost…and I ask myself what is it for? How did it come to happen? Then I remember and I smile for despite the evil that consumes my soul I have my dark angel and the light of my life. I remember the voice that called to me, silken and airy and his cursed embrace that destroyed many before me but granted me its blessing. And then I recall my family, no mother now but two fathers; one deceptively like I - my angel and the other my master - the god whom protects his little cherubim with a hand of steel and a heart of gold.

It is hard to pretend to be something that I am not but to you all life is a masquerade, yet still we can see beyond the masks. I will not pretend that I do not enjoy the taking of existence - I did try such actions but all that happened was proof that you cannot deny nature. But still I feel pity for all those lost souls who we all destroy. Before I knew the difference between right and wrong but in this bizarre world the rules become flipped and in times of dismay a conscience only holds me down. I will love but I know that I will be hated so with my brothers and sisters I join in the theme that Rasputin so lavished. We pray hard and play hard!

I know that every one of you has the curiosity inside of you - the curiosity that led Eve to the fruit and enticed Thomas to question - my curiosity that was answered by the blood.

I am not the most open of creatures but yet I invite you to share with me the story I imparted on my second of masters and the pain I imprinted on my first. Come share my Calling and discover that after the flame has been extinguished, you are consumed by the brilliance of darkness. Cry for me and pray for me…and finally like all great tales we will start at the beginning of end…to see where it takes us…