Fan Fiction ❯ Demon in Disguise ❯ Chapter 4
[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By: Daughter of the Equinox 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Drama | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 02.13.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 278 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Drama | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 02.13.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.0K | Visits: 278 | Status: Completed
d/c: I don't own any characters of TT. Neither do I own Clay Aiken's "I Will Carry You," nor Evanescence's "Whisper."
Chapter 3.
After Terra had left, Starfire asked Raven, with a look of confusion on her face. "Raven, what are lesbos and cunt lickers?"
"They are derogatory terms for women who like a person of the same sex." Raven explained.
"Oh." Star said in understanding.
"When did Terra show up?" Raven asked, not remembering seeing the girl at breakfast.
"Terra left the Tower the night before you returned to us. I do not know when she returned." Star said.
"Raven, Star!" It was Robin's voice.
"Yes, Robin, is there something you need our assistance with?" Starfire asked.
"No, actually I just wanted to know if you two wanted to go clubbing? There's a party tonight, down at Mania." Mania was the local dance club.
""Parties are pointless." came Raven's voice.
"We would love to come." Starfire said happily.
"No we wouldn't." Raven objected.
"We will be downstairs shortly." Star told Robin. He left after hearing the Tamaranean's reply and headed for the living room.
"Star, why did you tell Robin that we wanted to come?" Raven asked, slightly annoyed.
"It will help raise your spirits." Star explained.
"No, no it won't." "Why not, Raven?"
"For one thing Starfire, the party's at night. And at night I turn into a demon. Another thing is well, well," Raven stopped speaking.
"Another thing is what?" Star asked.
"Another thing is, I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'll attack someone while in my demon form." Raven admitted.
"That will not happen Raven. You will not attack anyone, I promise you that." Starfire vowed.
"All right, if it will make you happy, Koriand'r, than I'll come." Raven conceded.
"Glorious!" Starfire cried happily. Then she frowned, a look of worry on her face. "But what shall we do when the sun sets?"
"That will be easy. I can cast a glamour on myself," Raven said. "A spell that will cloak my appearance. I can tailor it so that no one will be able to see my demon form."
A few hours later, the Titans were standing outside Mania. They were just about to enter when the sun began to set. Raven leaned against the brick wall of the club as the pain washed over her. A minute later the pain subsided. The dark sorceress waved a glowing hand over herself and her entire body appeared to have reverted to its human form.
"It worked! Shall we enter the structure?" Starfire asked her teammates, who all nodded.
The club was brightly lit by hanging lamps suspended from the ceiling by silver chains. The room was two stories. the first story was filled with small tables. A bar was in one corner of the room. There was also a large space in the middle of the tables which was meant for dancing, but was rarely used for the purpose it was meant. Most people who stayed on the first floor were there to drink, listen to the music coming through speakers in the ceiling, or talk amongst themselves.
The Titans walked up to the second floor. The second floor looked similar to the first except it had some chairs against the walls and no bar. The dance floor was packed with dancing couples.
"Raven, would you like to dance?" Starfire asked the empath.
Instead of saying "No", Raven looked at Starfire and nodded, trying to hide the look of worry on her face.
Star must have seen however, for she said, "Do not worry, Raven. Nothing will happen."
Starfire led the empath onto the floor and began to lead her in a slow dance. The song that was coming through the speakers was Clay Aiken's "I Will Carry You."
"""Yeah I know it hurts
Yeah I know you're scared
Walking down the road that leads to who knows where
Don't you hang your head
Don't you give up yet
When courage starts to disappear I will be right here.
When your world breaks down
And the voices tell you turn around
When your dreams give up I will carry you
Carry You
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you"""
Soon the song ended and the couple walked over to the chairs and sat down in them. Soon BB and Terra walked over to the two, hand in hand.
"Hey, demon, attacked anyone lately?" Terra sneered, whispering so no one but Raven would hear.
Raven did nothing but glare. Then suddenly she felt overwhelmed by the urge to attack...no, to kill, the girl standing before her.
<<Starfire, we have to leave, now!>> Raven mentally communicated with the Tamaranean.
<<All right, Raven.>> Starfire thought back, noticing the urgent tone in the empath's words.
"Where are the two of you going?" the newest member of the Titans asked the two women, as they stood to leave. But Terra did not receive an answer, however, for Koriand'r and Raven had both disappeared. And reappeared in front of Titans Tower.
"Raven, why did we have to leave so suddenly?" Kory asked.
"It's not safe for you to be around me. It's not safe for anyone." Raven said sadly.
"I do not understand. Raven, what are you referring to?"
"If we hadn't left Star, I would have attacked, and probably would have killed Terra." Raven explained. Then she stood and walked to her room, Starfire stayed where she was, thinking that Raven needed some time by herself.
Raven entered her room, and sat down on her bed. She tried to meditate, but found that that task was impossible, for the moment anyway. Every time she closed her eyes, she would be assaulted by visions of blood-soaked clothing, bloody knives, and mutilated corpses. She could hear the sound of the men pleading for their lives as she extinguished them. The empath could hear the sounds of bones snapping and flesh being torn from them.
Raven's purple orbs suddenly snapped open, and she got to her feet. She knew what she must do.
"""I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
If I will it all away
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)"""
Walking to her dresser, she removed a long knife. The weapon was old, but the steel of the blade was sharpened to perfection. Raven rolled up her sleeve, and pulled the blade across her wrist. The cold chill of the steel was quickly replaced by warm, wet, crimson. She then went and lay on her bed and closed her eyes, waiting for her life to end. She could see the visions again, as if they were happening in front of her.
"""Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)"""
"Raven? Are you all right!?" Starfire called from outside Raven's closed bedroom door.
Raven didn't answer her. 'Let her come in and find me." she thought.
Raven's wish was granted, for after receiving no reply to her call, the Tamaranean opened the empath's door and entered. And what she saw startled, shocked, and worried her. Raven, was lying on her bed, left wrist streaming blood onto the carpet, with a bloody knife beside her.
"Raven, speak to me!" Star called. Then she left the room and quickly returned with the first aid kit. Kneeling beside the bed, Star took Raven's bleeding limb in her hand, and placed a cloth over the freshly made wound, to stop the blood flow. After she had accomplished that task, she cleaned and bandaged the cut, and awaited her lover's return to consciousness.
"Star? When did you come in here?" Raven asked the Tamaranean, sitting up.
Star put an arm around Raven and helped her to lay back down. "Lie still, Raven." Star instructed.
Raven was happy to oblige, for when she had sat up she had been overcome by dizziness. "Do the others know?" Raven asked.
"What, that you tried to commit suicide? Yes Raven, they do." Star said.
"You told them?"
"Yes Raven, I did."
"But why Star? Why did you tell them?"
"Because, if I had not told them, or if I had not entered your room when I did, you would most likely be dead." Star said.
"But Kory, why did you? Why did you?,"
"Why did I save your life? Because I love you, and because I did not want to see you end it."
"You do? You love me?" Raven asked, not sure if Starfire had really meant what she had said.
Starfire nodded. "Yes Raven, I love you. And I do not wish for you to end your life. Why were you trying to?"
"Koriand'r, do you want to know what I see when ever I close my eyes? I see me killing people. I see me mutilating their corpses. I see-I see," Raven's voice became choked with sobs, with tears she still had left to shed.
"Shhh. If you wish Raven, you may shed your tears. I will be right here." Koriand'r soothed.
"""When your world breaks down
And the voices tell you turn around
When your dreams give up
I will carry you
Carry You
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you"""
"I will always be here for you, Raven." Koriand'r promised, as Raven buried her face in her shoulder.
"""You should know now that your not alone
Take my heart and we will find you will find your way home
When your dreams give up
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you.""" Converting /tmp/phpH06NBX to /dev/stdout
After Terra had left, Starfire asked Raven, with a look of confusion on her face. "Raven, what are lesbos and cunt lickers?"
"They are derogatory terms for women who like a person of the same sex." Raven explained.
"Oh." Star said in understanding.
"When did Terra show up?" Raven asked, not remembering seeing the girl at breakfast.
"Terra left the Tower the night before you returned to us. I do not know when she returned." Star said.
"Raven, Star!" It was Robin's voice.
"Yes, Robin, is there something you need our assistance with?" Starfire asked.
"No, actually I just wanted to know if you two wanted to go clubbing? There's a party tonight, down at Mania." Mania was the local dance club.
""Parties are pointless." came Raven's voice.
"We would love to come." Starfire said happily.
"No we wouldn't." Raven objected.
"We will be downstairs shortly." Star told Robin. He left after hearing the Tamaranean's reply and headed for the living room.
"Star, why did you tell Robin that we wanted to come?" Raven asked, slightly annoyed.
"It will help raise your spirits." Star explained.
"No, no it won't." "Why not, Raven?"
"For one thing Starfire, the party's at night. And at night I turn into a demon. Another thing is well, well," Raven stopped speaking.
"Another thing is what?" Star asked.
"Another thing is, I'm afraid. I'm afraid I'll attack someone while in my demon form." Raven admitted.
"That will not happen Raven. You will not attack anyone, I promise you that." Starfire vowed.
"All right, if it will make you happy, Koriand'r, than I'll come." Raven conceded.
"Glorious!" Starfire cried happily. Then she frowned, a look of worry on her face. "But what shall we do when the sun sets?"
"That will be easy. I can cast a glamour on myself," Raven said. "A spell that will cloak my appearance. I can tailor it so that no one will be able to see my demon form."
A few hours later, the Titans were standing outside Mania. They were just about to enter when the sun began to set. Raven leaned against the brick wall of the club as the pain washed over her. A minute later the pain subsided. The dark sorceress waved a glowing hand over herself and her entire body appeared to have reverted to its human form.
"It worked! Shall we enter the structure?" Starfire asked her teammates, who all nodded.
The club was brightly lit by hanging lamps suspended from the ceiling by silver chains. The room was two stories. the first story was filled with small tables. A bar was in one corner of the room. There was also a large space in the middle of the tables which was meant for dancing, but was rarely used for the purpose it was meant. Most people who stayed on the first floor were there to drink, listen to the music coming through speakers in the ceiling, or talk amongst themselves.
The Titans walked up to the second floor. The second floor looked similar to the first except it had some chairs against the walls and no bar. The dance floor was packed with dancing couples.
"Raven, would you like to dance?" Starfire asked the empath.
Instead of saying "No", Raven looked at Starfire and nodded, trying to hide the look of worry on her face.
Star must have seen however, for she said, "Do not worry, Raven. Nothing will happen."
Starfire led the empath onto the floor and began to lead her in a slow dance. The song that was coming through the speakers was Clay Aiken's "I Will Carry You."
"""Yeah I know it hurts
Yeah I know you're scared
Walking down the road that leads to who knows where
Don't you hang your head
Don't you give up yet
When courage starts to disappear I will be right here.
When your world breaks down
And the voices tell you turn around
When your dreams give up I will carry you
Carry You
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you"""
Soon the song ended and the couple walked over to the chairs and sat down in them. Soon BB and Terra walked over to the two, hand in hand.
"Hey, demon, attacked anyone lately?" Terra sneered, whispering so no one but Raven would hear.
Raven did nothing but glare. Then suddenly she felt overwhelmed by the urge to attack...no, to kill, the girl standing before her.
<<Starfire, we have to leave, now!>> Raven mentally communicated with the Tamaranean.
<<All right, Raven.>> Starfire thought back, noticing the urgent tone in the empath's words.
"Where are the two of you going?" the newest member of the Titans asked the two women, as they stood to leave. But Terra did not receive an answer, however, for Koriand'r and Raven had both disappeared. And reappeared in front of Titans Tower.
"Raven, why did we have to leave so suddenly?" Kory asked.
"It's not safe for you to be around me. It's not safe for anyone." Raven said sadly.
"I do not understand. Raven, what are you referring to?"
"If we hadn't left Star, I would have attacked, and probably would have killed Terra." Raven explained. Then she stood and walked to her room, Starfire stayed where she was, thinking that Raven needed some time by herself.
Raven entered her room, and sat down on her bed. She tried to meditate, but found that that task was impossible, for the moment anyway. Every time she closed her eyes, she would be assaulted by visions of blood-soaked clothing, bloody knives, and mutilated corpses. She could hear the sound of the men pleading for their lives as she extinguished them. The empath could hear the sounds of bones snapping and flesh being torn from them.
Raven's purple orbs suddenly snapped open, and she got to her feet. She knew what she must do.
"""I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
If I will it all away
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)"""
Walking to her dresser, she removed a long knife. The weapon was old, but the steel of the blade was sharpened to perfection. Raven rolled up her sleeve, and pulled the blade across her wrist. The cold chill of the steel was quickly replaced by warm, wet, crimson. She then went and lay on her bed and closed her eyes, waiting for her life to end. She could see the visions again, as if they were happening in front of her.
"""Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)"""
"Raven? Are you all right!?" Starfire called from outside Raven's closed bedroom door.
Raven didn't answer her. 'Let her come in and find me." she thought.
Raven's wish was granted, for after receiving no reply to her call, the Tamaranean opened the empath's door and entered. And what she saw startled, shocked, and worried her. Raven, was lying on her bed, left wrist streaming blood onto the carpet, with a bloody knife beside her.
"Raven, speak to me!" Star called. Then she left the room and quickly returned with the first aid kit. Kneeling beside the bed, Star took Raven's bleeding limb in her hand, and placed a cloth over the freshly made wound, to stop the blood flow. After she had accomplished that task, she cleaned and bandaged the cut, and awaited her lover's return to consciousness.
"Star? When did you come in here?" Raven asked the Tamaranean, sitting up.
Star put an arm around Raven and helped her to lay back down. "Lie still, Raven." Star instructed.
Raven was happy to oblige, for when she had sat up she had been overcome by dizziness. "Do the others know?" Raven asked.
"What, that you tried to commit suicide? Yes Raven, they do." Star said.
"You told them?"
"Yes Raven, I did."
"But why Star? Why did you tell them?"
"Because, if I had not told them, or if I had not entered your room when I did, you would most likely be dead." Star said.
"But Kory, why did you? Why did you?,"
"Why did I save your life? Because I love you, and because I did not want to see you end it."
"You do? You love me?" Raven asked, not sure if Starfire had really meant what she had said.
Starfire nodded. "Yes Raven, I love you. And I do not wish for you to end your life. Why were you trying to?"
"Koriand'r, do you want to know what I see when ever I close my eyes? I see me killing people. I see me mutilating their corpses. I see-I see," Raven's voice became choked with sobs, with tears she still had left to shed.
"Shhh. If you wish Raven, you may shed your tears. I will be right here." Koriand'r soothed.
"""When your world breaks down
And the voices tell you turn around
When your dreams give up
I will carry you
Carry You
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you"""
"I will always be here for you, Raven." Koriand'r promised, as Raven buried her face in her shoulder.
"""You should know now that your not alone
Take my heart and we will find you will find your way home
When your dreams give up
I will carry you
Carry you
When the stars go blind
And the darkness starts to flood your eyes
When you're falling behind
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you
Carry you
I will carry you.""" Converting /tmp/phpH06NBX to /dev/stdout