Fan Fiction ❯ Diary of Faith ❯ July 18th 2005 ( Chapter 1 )

July 18, 2005

Hi Stupid waste of paper that should be burnt in the pit of hell for all eternity.

Well *sigh* this is SOPOST to help me with my `depression' as the councilor puts it but I REALLY don't see the point but ether way my mum will force me EVERY SINGLE DAY to write in you so mite as well tolerate it.

Well anyway my name is Faith (a lot of irony there)

Im 14

And I live in the Northamptionshire (oh the joy)

Im well me I guess

Im very antisocial and don't get along with many people due to being traumatized at a early age NO my mum did NOT give me the `talk' about boys when I was 6.

She saved that till I was 7 but that's not the point.

Well anyway im out on a limb on what to write here so I think I will quit while I have 1 min….12 lines that describe me…GOD im boring *sigh* bye

 

Later

 

Hi again worthless piece of paper

It's me who else? Well I read thru my drabble and though `What a load of crap' and thought about what to write stupid I know but well I don't care really.

Well I have sandy blonde hair and blue eyes and the joy I get when people think im dumb due to my hair color NOT. Well anyway im like the palest person in my year (9 and 10 in a week 1ns again oh the joy) and people think im anorexic or something well im not I am happy with my body unlike those silicone and plastic chested `popular' girls who's skin looks like a orange neon light and hair goes a lovely shade of pea green when hey go in a swimming pool. Anyway im not suposta be writing about those…what ever you want to call them ….. PHONY'S there that will do I guess even though it dose make me sound stupid by taking so long to think of it but I think it suites them quite nicely seeing the fact that they are indeed phony's. Well anyway.

I love Sugarcult and Dashboard Confessional and Green day and From First to last and Funeral for a Friend see how there is no Hilary Duff or Avril Lavigne that because I am not a sell out not that I am saying people who like them are but I just see them as well as Good charlotte sell out well only because a magazine said Good Charlotte's song `I Just wanna live' sounded like Justin Timberlake which is true but they are still good but that song is a son of toaster strudel ^_^'' yes I say very strange things I know.

And I love rain more than sunny days *sigh* great now I sound like a weather girl.

And tomorrow will be all sunny apart from the brief moments when it shall be raining man eating frogs thank you lady's and gentlemen and good night (or as my son of a bitch soon to be step father would say) and my your god be with you.

Now don't let that fool you he is a horrible person and alcoholic who thinks he knows every thing and he has tried to hit me a couple of times if I wasn't one of those people who don't fight back which I do because I hate to think that for ONE SECOND Im letting them win I would sooner die than let them see the tears stream down my face due to me letting them beat me. When I say `they' I mean him and my mum she is also an alcoholic thanks to him and a baka of a ex boyfriend who hurt this whole family a lot so much it made her `literally' want to die and made those bottles of antidepressants ever so tempting. Now I am currently pondering the thought if Depression is passed down thru family members…HEY it COULD happen *shrugs* who knows well anyway I read this and all I am getting in my mind is idnaramic crap that should be burnt to a crisp oh well good bye piece of crap.

 

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Pure hope…
Black cat: Hope?
Pure hope: Yeah Cat?
Black cat: What's with the story isn't this the same thing you write

Pure hope: Yeah that where I get the inspiration from my diary

Black cat: Then why with the fake name

Pure hope: as I said Irony

Black cat: ok but didn't you stop seeing the cancellers?

Pure hope: Yeah they fucked me up
Black cat: Oh

Pure hope: Anyway I do put a lot of heart and soul into these entrees please review and tell me what you think and no `it will be alright' s and so on I deal with what is going on just fine now please REVIEW!!!