Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Think of Me ❯ Is It Really over? ( Chapter 1 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: MD Sora 
Sora waits up for riku one night. However when his lover arives he's saddened to find out that Riku no longer feels the same ....so sora does what he felt was right even if it broke his heart , he left.
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 12.14.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 319 | Status: Completed
Sora waits up for riku one night. However when his lover arives he's saddened to find out that Riku no longer feels the same ....so sora does what he felt was right even if it broke his heart , he left.
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 12.14.2004 | Pages: 2 | Words: 2.1K | Visits: 319 | Status: Completed
Disclaimers: Heh I don’t own Kingdom Hearts or any of the characters…*pouts* not fair…but in my twisted mind I do own them ^^…ok…just read my fic and ignore me….Ohh and review me please? This at first will seem like a weird fic….like all my other ones….and it has male pregnancy in it so if you don’t like it then don’t read ok?
Enjoy *bows*
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Sora slowly stirred the contents of the pot as he glanced at the clock again, for the tenth time that night. It read 12:34am; Sora sighed and wondered where his lover could be. He put the spoon down and turned the stove off before walking over to the phone and dialing Riku’s cell.
It rang for a bit before Riku finally answered “what?!” he barked.
Sora cringed slightly before talking “h-h-hey Riku…are you gonna come home?”
A sigh could be herd as well as a female voice; Sora looked at the wall with sorrowful eyes as he waited for Riku’s answer. “I’ll be home but later…so don’t stay up ok? Just go to bed or what ever”
“But Riku-..” Sora started but Riku cut him off.
“Listen I told you not to stay up…just go to sleep Sora.” He growled. Sora looked at the ground a few tears gathering.
“Fine. I’ll see you when you get home…I lo-..” however before Sora could finish Riku had hung up. Sniffling slightly Sora put the phone back on the charger before walking over to the bathroom and striping. He turned on the water before stepping in letting the warmth of the water relax his tired body.
Lately Sora had been noticing a change in his lover. Riku seemed to be more distant and was spending far too much time at his office. Every time he came home he smelt strongly of perfume and had lip stick all around his mouth. Sora didn’t want to believe that Riku would cheat on him, but the facts were being thrown in his face and, as much as he didn’t want to, he couldn’t keep ignoring them. Sora sighed and wondered what had happened….it was all perfect…at least that’s what he thought. Gradually he noticed that Riku was less loving….and when they had sex it was like they were doing it automatically….Riku didn’t hold him afterwards…he would just get up and leave…and Sora felt cold…and alone.
The sound of a door slamming jolted Sora out of his daze. Quickly he washed himself off and shut the water before slipping out of the bathroom slipping on a robe. The shrill laugh of a women stopped Sora in his tracks, he listened intently as Riku and the women spoke.
“So is it just you and me Riku?” asked the women
“Sorry baby…my room mate is here….you just gotta be quiet don’t you”
“Oh gods Riku…faster…yes…Ohh…..oh baby….unn”
The women shrieked shrilly and Riku chuckled sexily. Sora was stuck to the spot…Riku was…fondling the women…and…called him his roommate. Tears began to well up and drip to the carpet floor, Sora crawled to the bed and sobbed into the pillow. For the rest of the night Sora cried as the sounds of lovemaking in the other room filled his ears.
“Why Riku….I love you...”
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The next morning Sora sat up rubbing his eyes of sleep and dried tears. He looked over at Riku’s side of the bed and saw it empty. The memories of the night before came rushing back making his heart ache.
“Sora are you up yet?” Called Riku’s voice, Sora jumped and looked at the door with wide eyes before he looked down and mumbled back a reply. Riku opened the door and came in giving Sora an annoyed look. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
Sora looked up at him and gave a false smile “nothing…I just…had a really bad dream” he answered getting up. Riku shrugged and turned to walk out of the room but a hand on his arm stopped him.
“Riku….who was that lady you had sex with last night?” Sora asked quietly. He felt Riku stiffen before he let out a long sigh.
“Sora…I think it’s time we talked” Riku said taking Sora’s hand pulling him out into the kitchen. He sat Sora in a chair and sat across from him in the other. Sora was already trembling knowing well what Riku was going to tell him, tears already began to gather in his eyes and roll down his cheeks silently.
“You don’t want me any more…do you?” said Sora, Riku just looked at Sora with cold emotionless eyes.
“Please Sora don’t make this harder then it already is. Yes I had sex with a woman last night…which leads me to what I’ve been trying to tell you for the past few months. Sora…I want to break up” Riku said calmly wiping away a few of Sora’s tears.
“No….your lying….you can’t leave me Riku…I love you…” Sora said his voice shaking.
“I can’t say I feel the same , Sora we’re only 19 years old we still have the rest of our lives ahead of us…I want try out different flavors…I want to see what this world has to offer me” Riku said brushing some of his shining silver hair from his eyes. “My album is at the top of the charts, people are starting to know more and more about me. I don’t want to be bound down already Sora! Cant you understand that?”
Sora sat there quietly looking off into space as he thought it over, the most important thing next to his own life was Riku happiness. If he had to suffer for Riku to be happy so be it. Riku was a rising rock star who at any moment was going to hit platinum, Sora and him were partners. Sora played the drums and wrote the lyrics to the songs, it was always him and Riku taking on the system fighting to get noticed. Sora knew he was in love with Riku since the first moment he laid eyes on him years and years ago when they were only 6, when they turned 16 Sora admitted his feelings to the silver haired boy and found that Riku felt the same….or so he thought.
“Please Sora….don’t be selfish…” Riku pleaded, he took Sora’s hand in his own and looked at him lifting his face up. He was startled when he looked into the once lively ocean blue eyes of his ex-lover; Sora’s eyes looked dead and distant….and were a torrent of pain.
“For you Riku….I’ll do it….I’m still going to love you…and when you’re done tasting your flavors…and you haven’t settled down…look me up…ne?” Sora said softly before getting up, he ran into there room and slammed the door shut. Breathing heavily Sora sank to the floor and cried….he wailed in agony and pain as he felt his heart breaking into pieces so small you could fit them in the eye of a needle.
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Over two weeks had passed since Riku broke off his relationship with Sora. Most of the time Riku was out of the house, which left Sora by himself which left him to think…and then the tears would come.
Sora and Riku got ready to leave for work. Riku watched as Sora went about getting his stuff all the while moving slowly with a sorrowful look. Riku sighed and rubbed his temples, he knew he was hurting Sora, but he figured that after a while Sora would get over it and bounce back to his normal perky self.
“Do you want me to drive?” Sora asked softly, Riku shrugged and handed Sora the keys following the sable haired boy out of their lavish apartment. The drive to work was uneventful, they arrived and took the elevator to the top room were they recorded. Sora excused himself to go talk to the producer and Riku started tuning his guitar waiting for Sora to get back.
When Sora got back the producer was with him , Riku could see he was upset about something and his suspicions were confirmed when he called Riku over for a talk.
“Sora just told me that he wants to quit the band” he said with a sigh, Riku glared over at Sora who was looking at the floor.
“why didn’t you say anything Sora , you can’t just leave with out any sort of warning….you still need to give us time to find a replacement” Riku growled.
Sora actually laughed at the twisted irony, “…I wish you had given me a warning…how does it feel now?” he mumbled. He tossed a packet to Riku before turning around and walking out of the office. “I’ll walk home and leave you the car”
Riku glared daggers at Sora’s retreating back “don’t bother, I’m going out after work” he grunted. Sora stiffened slightly before he nodded and continued walking. Once Sora was in the parking lot he let more tears fall…as much as Riku was hurting him…he still wanted Riku to be happy…even if it meant Sora had to get out of his life….for good.
When Sora got home he looked around the empty apartment as thoughts and memories, of what he and Riku used to share, ran threw his mind.
‘I have to do it…no matter how much it hurts…’ Sora thought sadly as he walked to his and Riku’s room. He pulled out a suitcase and began to pack his things, all the while tears streamed down his pale cheeks. After he finished he grabbed a pen and a paper and sat down and began to write…and he wrote:
My Dearest Riku,
I guess I can’t call you mine anymore can I? What happed to us huh? I thought everything was fine that you loved me and would never leave. I guess I was wrong…but I its ok…as long as you’re happy.
For all these years that we have been together…I’ve treasured them. With out you I don’t think I would be the person I am today. You could always make me smile; bringing my spirits up with your crazy dreams. Then again I can’t call them crazy cause they are coming true…I know you’ll hit it big…and you don’t need me to do it.
I’m leaving Riku, I’m getting out of your life…you don’t need nor want me anymore. I know you will be ok…you got all your lady friends to keep you happy…happy that’s all I want for you.
I better go now before I change my mind…I love you Riku…no matter what.
With all my heart and soul, love,
Sora Everheart.
Sora sighed and folded the note up putting it in a plain white envelope addressing it to Riku. He then took one last look around and his eyes fell on a picture that he and Riku had taken a few days ago. Riku was smirking with his arms around Sora in a protective way, and Sora was smiling brightly his eyes dancing with joy and life. They both looked so happy and seemed to be perfect….but what happened?
Sora grabbed his bags and set the note on the coffee table before he turned and opened the door. With one last glance he smiled sadly.
“Good bye Riku…aishiteiru….forever”
Enjoy *bows*
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Sora slowly stirred the contents of the pot as he glanced at the clock again, for the tenth time that night. It read 12:34am; Sora sighed and wondered where his lover could be. He put the spoon down and turned the stove off before walking over to the phone and dialing Riku’s cell.
It rang for a bit before Riku finally answered “what?!” he barked.
Sora cringed slightly before talking “h-h-hey Riku…are you gonna come home?”
A sigh could be herd as well as a female voice; Sora looked at the wall with sorrowful eyes as he waited for Riku’s answer. “I’ll be home but later…so don’t stay up ok? Just go to bed or what ever”
“But Riku-..” Sora started but Riku cut him off.
“Listen I told you not to stay up…just go to sleep Sora.” He growled. Sora looked at the ground a few tears gathering.
“Fine. I’ll see you when you get home…I lo-..” however before Sora could finish Riku had hung up. Sniffling slightly Sora put the phone back on the charger before walking over to the bathroom and striping. He turned on the water before stepping in letting the warmth of the water relax his tired body.
Lately Sora had been noticing a change in his lover. Riku seemed to be more distant and was spending far too much time at his office. Every time he came home he smelt strongly of perfume and had lip stick all around his mouth. Sora didn’t want to believe that Riku would cheat on him, but the facts were being thrown in his face and, as much as he didn’t want to, he couldn’t keep ignoring them. Sora sighed and wondered what had happened….it was all perfect…at least that’s what he thought. Gradually he noticed that Riku was less loving….and when they had sex it was like they were doing it automatically….Riku didn’t hold him afterwards…he would just get up and leave…and Sora felt cold…and alone.
The sound of a door slamming jolted Sora out of his daze. Quickly he washed himself off and shut the water before slipping out of the bathroom slipping on a robe. The shrill laugh of a women stopped Sora in his tracks, he listened intently as Riku and the women spoke.
“So is it just you and me Riku?” asked the women
“Sorry baby…my room mate is here….you just gotta be quiet don’t you”
“Oh gods Riku…faster…yes…Ohh…..oh baby….unn”
The women shrieked shrilly and Riku chuckled sexily. Sora was stuck to the spot…Riku was…fondling the women…and…called him his roommate. Tears began to well up and drip to the carpet floor, Sora crawled to the bed and sobbed into the pillow. For the rest of the night Sora cried as the sounds of lovemaking in the other room filled his ears.
“Why Riku….I love you...”
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The next morning Sora sat up rubbing his eyes of sleep and dried tears. He looked over at Riku’s side of the bed and saw it empty. The memories of the night before came rushing back making his heart ache.
“Sora are you up yet?” Called Riku’s voice, Sora jumped and looked at the door with wide eyes before he looked down and mumbled back a reply. Riku opened the door and came in giving Sora an annoyed look. “What the hell is wrong with you?”
Sora looked up at him and gave a false smile “nothing…I just…had a really bad dream” he answered getting up. Riku shrugged and turned to walk out of the room but a hand on his arm stopped him.
“Riku….who was that lady you had sex with last night?” Sora asked quietly. He felt Riku stiffen before he let out a long sigh.
“Sora…I think it’s time we talked” Riku said taking Sora’s hand pulling him out into the kitchen. He sat Sora in a chair and sat across from him in the other. Sora was already trembling knowing well what Riku was going to tell him, tears already began to gather in his eyes and roll down his cheeks silently.
“You don’t want me any more…do you?” said Sora, Riku just looked at Sora with cold emotionless eyes.
“Please Sora don’t make this harder then it already is. Yes I had sex with a woman last night…which leads me to what I’ve been trying to tell you for the past few months. Sora…I want to break up” Riku said calmly wiping away a few of Sora’s tears.
“No….your lying….you can’t leave me Riku…I love you…” Sora said his voice shaking.
“I can’t say I feel the same , Sora we’re only 19 years old we still have the rest of our lives ahead of us…I want try out different flavors…I want to see what this world has to offer me” Riku said brushing some of his shining silver hair from his eyes. “My album is at the top of the charts, people are starting to know more and more about me. I don’t want to be bound down already Sora! Cant you understand that?”
Sora sat there quietly looking off into space as he thought it over, the most important thing next to his own life was Riku happiness. If he had to suffer for Riku to be happy so be it. Riku was a rising rock star who at any moment was going to hit platinum, Sora and him were partners. Sora played the drums and wrote the lyrics to the songs, it was always him and Riku taking on the system fighting to get noticed. Sora knew he was in love with Riku since the first moment he laid eyes on him years and years ago when they were only 6, when they turned 16 Sora admitted his feelings to the silver haired boy and found that Riku felt the same….or so he thought.
“Please Sora….don’t be selfish…” Riku pleaded, he took Sora’s hand in his own and looked at him lifting his face up. He was startled when he looked into the once lively ocean blue eyes of his ex-lover; Sora’s eyes looked dead and distant….and were a torrent of pain.
“For you Riku….I’ll do it….I’m still going to love you…and when you’re done tasting your flavors…and you haven’t settled down…look me up…ne?” Sora said softly before getting up, he ran into there room and slammed the door shut. Breathing heavily Sora sank to the floor and cried….he wailed in agony and pain as he felt his heart breaking into pieces so small you could fit them in the eye of a needle.
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Over two weeks had passed since Riku broke off his relationship with Sora. Most of the time Riku was out of the house, which left Sora by himself which left him to think…and then the tears would come.
Sora and Riku got ready to leave for work. Riku watched as Sora went about getting his stuff all the while moving slowly with a sorrowful look. Riku sighed and rubbed his temples, he knew he was hurting Sora, but he figured that after a while Sora would get over it and bounce back to his normal perky self.
“Do you want me to drive?” Sora asked softly, Riku shrugged and handed Sora the keys following the sable haired boy out of their lavish apartment. The drive to work was uneventful, they arrived and took the elevator to the top room were they recorded. Sora excused himself to go talk to the producer and Riku started tuning his guitar waiting for Sora to get back.
When Sora got back the producer was with him , Riku could see he was upset about something and his suspicions were confirmed when he called Riku over for a talk.
“Sora just told me that he wants to quit the band” he said with a sigh, Riku glared over at Sora who was looking at the floor.
“why didn’t you say anything Sora , you can’t just leave with out any sort of warning….you still need to give us time to find a replacement” Riku growled.
Sora actually laughed at the twisted irony, “…I wish you had given me a warning…how does it feel now?” he mumbled. He tossed a packet to Riku before turning around and walking out of the office. “I’ll walk home and leave you the car”
Riku glared daggers at Sora’s retreating back “don’t bother, I’m going out after work” he grunted. Sora stiffened slightly before he nodded and continued walking. Once Sora was in the parking lot he let more tears fall…as much as Riku was hurting him…he still wanted Riku to be happy…even if it meant Sora had to get out of his life….for good.
When Sora got home he looked around the empty apartment as thoughts and memories, of what he and Riku used to share, ran threw his mind.
‘I have to do it…no matter how much it hurts…’ Sora thought sadly as he walked to his and Riku’s room. He pulled out a suitcase and began to pack his things, all the while tears streamed down his pale cheeks. After he finished he grabbed a pen and a paper and sat down and began to write…and he wrote:
My Dearest Riku,
I guess I can’t call you mine anymore can I? What happed to us huh? I thought everything was fine that you loved me and would never leave. I guess I was wrong…but I its ok…as long as you’re happy.
For all these years that we have been together…I’ve treasured them. With out you I don’t think I would be the person I am today. You could always make me smile; bringing my spirits up with your crazy dreams. Then again I can’t call them crazy cause they are coming true…I know you’ll hit it big…and you don’t need me to do it.
I’m leaving Riku, I’m getting out of your life…you don’t need nor want me anymore. I know you will be ok…you got all your lady friends to keep you happy…happy that’s all I want for you.
I better go now before I change my mind…I love you Riku…no matter what.
With all my heart and soul, love,
Sora Everheart.
Sora sighed and folded the note up putting it in a plain white envelope addressing it to Riku. He then took one last look around and his eyes fell on a picture that he and Riku had taken a few days ago. Riku was smirking with his arms around Sora in a protective way, and Sora was smiling brightly his eyes dancing with joy and life. They both looked so happy and seemed to be perfect….but what happened?
Sora grabbed his bags and set the note on the coffee table before he turned and opened the door. With one last glance he smiled sadly.
“Good bye Riku…aishiteiru….forever”