Fan Fiction ❯ Don't Think of Me ❯ Baby time lover... ( Chapter 3 )
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By: MD Sora 
Baby boy...
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 04.06.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.1K | Visits: 223 | Status: Completed
Baby boy...
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Drama / Angst / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 04.06.2005 | Pages: 3 | Words: 4.1K | Visits: 223 | Status: Completed
O0o 6 month’s latero0O
Sora sighed softly as he turned the radio on before stepping into the shower. He stripped his now ultra baggy clothing; he glanced at the mirror taking in what he saw. Smooth sun kissed skin, a now bulging stomach, a messy head of untamable chocolate locks, plump DSL cherry lips, and glowing cerulean eyes. He still looked the same as he did when he was younger, he really didn’t age that much. Though he had gotten a bit taller, which was one plus for him.
Sora started the water bringing it to a rather warm temperature before he slipped into the tub and went under the hot spray of water. He sighed humming softly to the music coming from the radio, he reached for his shampoo bottle when a new song started up and a very familiar voice came flowing out.
//So you're with her and not with me?
I hope she's sweet and so pretty
I hear she cooks delightfully
A little angel beside you//
Sora’s eyes widened, he knew those lyrics…they were the ones he wrote after Riku broke up with him. Sora stood up strait leaning against the wall as he listened to the song, softly singing along.
//so you're with her and not with me?
Oh how lucky one man can be+
I hear you house is small and clean
Oh how lovely with you're homecoming queen
Oh how lovely it must be. //
//When you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me.
When she lays in your warm arms, don't think of me. //
“I wonder Riku do you think of me still?” Sora said to the air, a bitter smile came to his face. “What am I saying...of course you don’t…so …I ask you this Riku….please don’t think of me ….and I won’t think of you..”
//So you're with her and not with me?
I know she spreads sweet honey
In fact your best I herd he spent last night with her.
So how do you feel? How do you feel?//
“How many nights have I cried over you...and now Riku ...I’m going to bear your child….and yet you don’t have a clue.” Sora muttered on as he began to wash himself singing in perfect tune with Riku. “Maybe it’s time I let you go….maybe I should let the hope that you’ll come back fade…and move on.”
//when you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me.
When she lies in your warm arms, don't think of me.
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...//
//does it bother you now all the mess I made?
Does it bother you now the clothes you told me not to wear?
Does it bother you now all the angry games we played?
Does it bother you now when I’m not there?//
“To say goodbye is to say we will never meet again….” Sora said softly washing the shampoo from his hair. He added conditioner letting it sit before he sighed, leaning against the wall once more caressing his stomach gently. He closed his eyes remembering his last coupling with Riku, the feel of those rough hands on his tender flesh. He could still smell the special scent that was Riku…a mix of ocean breeze with a touch of sandal wood. Sora gasped softly as his hand wandered to his intimate parts where Riku had worshiped so deliciously last time.
//when you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me.
When she lays in your warm arms, don't think of me.
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...//
“Don’t think of me…” Sora repeated as the song faded…Riku’s sexy voice was fading just like his hope. Sora looked up at the ceiling not even register that the water was now cold. He moved from his crotch as he sighed and washed the conditioner
//That ladies and gentlemen was a new song just released from ‘Deaths Angel’. The lead singer Riku Hasunama said that this song has special meaning to him and titled it “ (what ever you do) Don’t think of me” …and for further news…//
Sora shut the radio off as he got out of the shower , he turned the shower off as well before he began to dry himself off. So Riku did get the lyrics he left him, they were the last ones he had written…he had poured his heart and soul into them. He put the betrayal and longing he felt into every note, it was almost as if you could see the blood tears he spilt on it.
A loud knock at the door startled Sora slightly; he wrapped the towel around his waist and opened to door. His older cousin Yuki was there and offered him a smile.
“The peer volunteer place just called asking if you could come in. Sylvia called in sick and they are short one person” he said holding up some clothing.
“Ok tell them I’ll be there in a few minuets” Sora said taking the offered clothing and dressing quickly. After he finished he stepped out and followed his cousin to the car. It was a quick drive to the center and it was a matter of time before Sora was up and in the special privet room waiting for his first customer. Sora was a counselor on his spare time , he would listen to people’s issues and offer advise the best he could. He was so good they gave him a special position. He got a room that was some what like the confessionals at a church. Sora took his seat in his chair looking at the black screen that separated him from the one whom he was speaking to.
He heard the door open followed by a bit of shuffling. The person sighed and sat down, before they spoke. “So I just talk and you listen?”
Sora froze, he knew that voice. It was Riku...He was sure of it. Sora struggled to suppress the emotions that wanted to burst out; he put his cheerful voice on pushing his pain to the corner. “I listen and help you the best I can”
Riku sighed and brushed his hair from his face, he didn’t know what the hell possessed him to come to this. Well some of it was due to the fact that his newest girl friend Sira said he needed the help. Work was stressing him out, he couldn’t find anybody to write him the right lyrics and he couldn’t do it himself he didn’t have the skill. His mind noted that the voice sounded familiar but he shrugged it off “I don’t even know where to start” he mumbled.
“I guess you can start with it from the beginning ne?” Sora said shifting in his seat. Riku sighed again and pulled out a cigarette and lit it up.
“I think my problems all started when I broke it off with my boyfriend…I think it was about a year ago I think.” Riku said taking a drag and blowing the smoke out an open window. “I loved him…at least I thought I did…but I noticed that I was missing out on a lot of things. I was only 19 I didn’t want to be settled down just yet…I wanted to still live…”
Sora tried hard to fight the tears that welled in his eyes, the way Riku talked about him so flippantly hurt. “So you left him for this?” Sora asked softly.
“No not exactly….at first…I was just fucking around with a few chicks…then I found myself in their beds the next morning…but I liked it…even though I knew it was wrong…I guess that make me selfish” Riku said a bit bitterly “ I wanted both…to have him and all the women.”
“But you can’t…did you ever think if he loved you…or how he felt?” Sora asked
“I did…that’s why I choose what was best for both of us. I broke it off…I know I hurt him…I could see it in his eyes. He always had the most expressionate eyes, a beautiful blue….they always were laughing…so innocent and pure….nothing like mine…ch’ mine are cold and lifeless. That’s how his eyes looked when I admitted what I was doing…cold …empty” Riku answered, he liked the counselor…something about him helped Riku relax.
“If you knew you were hurting him so much then why did you do it?” Sora asked a hint of hurt seeping into his voice. Riku cleared his throat and some shuffling could be heard. Riku pulled out his wallet flipping to the back were he had a picture of himself and Sora; their friend tidus had taken the picture when they were at the fair. Riku was actually smiling in this one; he had an arm wrapped possessively around Sora’s waist. Sora of course was smiling and had his head lying on Riku’s chest.
Riku looked at the picture a smile tugging at the sides of his mouth; he silently slipped the picture under the little slot to Sora. Sora picked the picture up and stifled a gasp. He remembered when they took that picture…it brought a lot of good memories.
“That is my most favorite picture of him….he looked so calm and happy…and you know…guilt still eats at me day by day.” Riku muttered, Sora slid the picture back to Riku.
“He’s very handsome…and so are you…” Sora said softly. Riku chuckled as he put the picture away.
“You know I’m in a band right?” Riku said as he leaned back in his chair.
“Of course, you’re ‘Heartless Angel’” Sora said he paused before adding “ I liked the new song you came out with”
“I didn’t write it up…my ex did…he was always good at writing songs for me. I think though that after reading those lyrics….I realized how bad I miss him…even if we can’t be lovers…I still miss that friendship we had….” Riku said longingly.
“Well maybe if you talked to him about that he would be willing to do it….” Sora said with a hint of hope.
“But I don’t think I could ever look at him the same way , we shared a lot of things together….I don’t know….I want to …but what the hell is stopping me?”
“Maybe if you let the past go and started with a clean slate then you would be able to…I’m sure he would forgive you…and be happy with just being friends.” Sora said wisely. “As they say…The smile you put up when you are alone hides the pain and anguish you feel inside…and soon enough the darkness will consume you until you find your light to guide”
Riku raised his eyebrow…Sora always used to say that “My ex would say that to me all the time”
Sora smirked “Then you should listen to him…I think our time is up though…it was nice talking to you Riku” Sora said softly.
“Oh that’s true I got rehearsal in a bit…umm here” Riku said sliding some tickets into the slot. “Those are passes to my concert….they are good for any concert until I retire…so stop by and watch me ne?”
Sora took the tickets and smiled “sure I would love to go”
“What’s your name I never asked” asked Riku. Sora paused thinking it over before he answered.
“Sora...”
Riku stared at the black screen with wide eyes, “s-s-Sora? “ he choked out , he could he a light chuckling.
“How many nights have I spent crying over you Riku....I can’t even begin to count? Do you just want to be friends? Do you think I can just forget what we were like it was nothing?” Sora screamed at the screen, he forcefully wiped away the tears that had gathered. Riku stared at the screen in shock, before he glared back at the screen his face flushing.
“What the hell are you talking about Sora? You the one who just said that I should just be friends....Can’t you accept it Sora...we aren’t anything....And there never will be anything between us...because we are nothing...” Riku grounded out balling his fists at his side. The brown haired boy looked on hollowly as silent tears streamed down his pale cheeks; his body trembled as he took in the words said to him.
“So...all those times you said you loved me....all the times you would fuck me....it was all for your selfish pleasure? I’m willing to bet the only reason you ever became my friend was to keep me as a fuck toy! That’s all I am to you Riku...A fucking slut!!” Sora screamed before turning heel and storming out of the room, kicking the door open. All his hope , the tiny fragment of belief that Riku might want him still was thrown out the window and gone. ....that’s all he was to Riku....a slut.
Riku ran after Sora and he caught up with him in a dark hall just outside of the door that leads to the rooftop. That was fortunate for Sora; Riku wouldn’t be able to see his bulging stomach. Riku gripped Sora’s arm hard enough to leave a nasty bruise, he slammed Sora against the wall before pulling him back in front of him. Sora looked at Riku slightly dazed as a single rivulet of blood ran from his forehead, malicious aqua eyes bore into his own sea blue ones.
“That’s right Sora...you were my fucking slut...and now that you don’t have me there every night it burns you doesn’t it? Is that what you want me to tell you...that you’re a worthless slut who’s only good for a quick fuck?” Riku hissed vehemently into the others ear. Sora shook his head and tried to get out of the stronger boys grasp, Riku however held his arm tighter his nails digging into the tender flesh.
“Stop it Riku...please...” Sora whimpered softly.
“Or what Sora...what will you do...will you finally stop loving me?” Riku growled, however he blinked when Sora began to tremble and shake.
Sora groaned softly when heh felt something in his stomach shoot pain all threw out his body but he still managed to look up at riku. “If you don’t let me go....I’ll tell everyone....about your mother...and what you did to your family...” he whispered looking up at Riku with glowing eyes. That hit home with Riku, he dropped Sora’s arm his own eyes wide with shock.
“You wouldn’t...” Riku said but with not the same confidence.
Sora managed to smirk as he held his arm close to him “ This is what you wanted Riku....you want me to hate you....to not love you....look what you have lower yourself to Riku....hurting me just get me away.” Sora hissed before letting out another groan, the pain in his stomach was getting worse “So now you have it Riku....I won’t say I love you...I won’t look for you...and if you do anything to me...I’ll ruin you...”
Riku shook his head before he pushed Sora as hard as he could, the smaller boy yelped as his body collided with the door , it opened and he fell out onto the hard cement. Riku turned and ran out of the building his thoughts clouded and confused. Though deep in his heart he felt something tugging at him be he ignored it and kept running.
Yuki, Sora’s cousin, who was up on the roof saw Sora laying on the floor and came running over to him. “Hey are you ok?” he asked worriedly.
Sora just groaned and clutched his stomach “my...my stomach hurts....” he whimpered. Yuki’s eyes widened before he opened his cell phone dialing Sora’s mom.
It ran a bit before she finally answered, “Yes how can I help you?”
“Aunt Sae!! Sora...I think he’s going into labor!” yuki said hurriedly.
“Get him back home as fast as you can” she said crisply hanging the phone up. Yuki rolled his eyes and picked Sora up grunting before he carried him to the elevator out into the parking lot. He drove faster then the allotted speed limit and screeched to a stop in front of Sora’s house before taking the boy out and running in.
Sae, Sora’s mother, was already there waiting she instructed yuki to bring Sora down to her lab in the basement. Yuki did as he was told setting Sora on a soft bed, sae came over her hands gloved.
“Sora honey, we need to cut you open to get the baby, you won’t feel a thing but try and stay awake ok?” she said softly kissing his forehead. Sora just nodded this time screaming as more pain shot threw his body.
“Mommy it hurts....” he groaned, yuki took his hand and patted it. Sae smiled at him before getting to work, she numbed all of Sora’s stomach before grabbing a scalpel and cutting in.
A few moments sae pulled out a bloodied baby into the air as it screamed. Sora let out a realized sigh looking at the baby, yuki took it and began to clean it off as sae got to work on fixing him back up, and she injected him with something. “ It to regulate your insides , you will still be capable of bearing children , this stuff just cleans out your system of all the things used to support the baby and brings you back to normal size” she explained.
Yuki returned holding a bundle of soft flannel cloth; he smiled as sae helped sit Sora up. “This baby is beautiful...and it’s a boy” he said softly placing the baby in Sora’s arms.
Sora smiled softly as he looked down at his baby , he fingered the soft silver hair cooing “You got this from your dad , you are so beautiful” the baby stopped crying and blinked it’s teary eyes open revealing eyes that matched Sora’s perfectly.
“What are you going to name him Sora?” asked his mother, she kissed the babies soft cheek giggling as it wiggled reminding her of her own son. Sora looked down at his baby as it cuddled up against him falling asleep.
“Atemu” answered Sora softly laying back himself and closing his eyes. His mother gasped softly but held her tongue; Atemu was Riku’s middle name. She looked at Sora sympathetically before leaving him with his baby.
“You still love him....” She muttered softly, yuki looked at her in question but she shook her head taking him with her back upstairs.
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A few days later after Sora had Atemu, he made a startling announcement. “I’m giving Atemu to Riku”
“Your what?” exclaimed sae dropping the test tube she was studying.
“I’m going to give Riku Atemu” Sora repeated, he was holding the said baby in his arms feeding him with a bottle.
“Why are you doing this, Sora? What if Riku throws him out into an orphanage?” she reasoned. Sora smiled and shook his head.
“He won’t ...just trust me on this” he said firmly. He picked up the bag which he had packed all of Atemu’s food, diapers, and other necessities. Sae sighed and nodded her head kissing the baby on the forehead before going back to her work.
“I hope you know what your doing Sora”
Sora pulled up in front of the apartment complex, he got off still cradling Atemu. He walked inside, going up to Riku’s floor. Atemu woke up and looked at Sora with innocent eyes; the eyes that matched his own looked down at him full of sorrow. Sora kissed his son’s head and stopped a few feet from Riku’s apartment. He held Atemu to him and sang the lullaby he had once sung to Riku.
//sleep my dear angel, disappear into the land of dreams.
I’ll watch you as you sleep, and hold you close keeping you safe.
Remember me always and never forget, my love is unstoppable
On a rainy cold night wander out and catch a drop
In your hand you’ll hold my tear of sorrow as my heart aches for you to be with me
Whisper into the night your wish and I’ll come to grant it. //
Sora finished kissing Atemu one last time before he walked the remainder to Riku’s door setting him on the floor. He laid the note he had written on top of his baby, ringing the door bell and then running away.
Inside Riku groaned rolling out of bed, he walked over to the door wondering who the hell would be bothering him now. He frowned at the sound of crying and tore the door open, he looked around and then down at the ground and stared in disbelief at the baby.
“Oh my god” Riku whispered, he bent down picking the fragile baby up and stared. There was a note which he grabbed holding it as well as the bag that was there too. He shut the door walking into his living room and sitting on the couch. Atemu continued to wail his little lungs out until Riku began to rock him softly. With deft hand Riku tore the note open and read.
Dear Riku,
Well congratulations it’s a boy, this is your baby I know it is for sure. I never had another lover besides you. His name is Atemu; I left you everything you could possibly need in that little bag that is with him. I hope you take care of your son; he is after all your own flesh and blood. Take care Riku.
Riku looked at the note and back at Atemu letting out a frustrated growl. “This is just great....fucking great” Atemu looked up at Riku blinking slowly, aqua eyes looked down at him blinking slowly as well. Riku sighed and smiled at the baby “well...looks like we’re stuck with each other...so you’re my son...at least your mother...who ever it is...picked a good name. Atemu...that’s my middle name...but I think it suits you”
Atemu just continued to stare at Riku before his face went red and the tell tale smell of poop reached Riku’s nose. Riku looked back at the little baby groaning “Now, how to change a diaper...”
Sora sighed softly as he turned the radio on before stepping into the shower. He stripped his now ultra baggy clothing; he glanced at the mirror taking in what he saw. Smooth sun kissed skin, a now bulging stomach, a messy head of untamable chocolate locks, plump DSL cherry lips, and glowing cerulean eyes. He still looked the same as he did when he was younger, he really didn’t age that much. Though he had gotten a bit taller, which was one plus for him.
Sora started the water bringing it to a rather warm temperature before he slipped into the tub and went under the hot spray of water. He sighed humming softly to the music coming from the radio, he reached for his shampoo bottle when a new song started up and a very familiar voice came flowing out.
//So you're with her and not with me?
I hope she's sweet and so pretty
I hear she cooks delightfully
A little angel beside you//
Sora’s eyes widened, he knew those lyrics…they were the ones he wrote after Riku broke up with him. Sora stood up strait leaning against the wall as he listened to the song, softly singing along.
//so you're with her and not with me?
Oh how lucky one man can be+
I hear you house is small and clean
Oh how lovely with you're homecoming queen
Oh how lovely it must be. //
//When you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me.
When she lays in your warm arms, don't think of me. //
“I wonder Riku do you think of me still?” Sora said to the air, a bitter smile came to his face. “What am I saying...of course you don’t…so …I ask you this Riku….please don’t think of me ….and I won’t think of you..”
//So you're with her and not with me?
I know she spreads sweet honey
In fact your best I herd he spent last night with her.
So how do you feel? How do you feel?//
“How many nights have I cried over you...and now Riku ...I’m going to bear your child….and yet you don’t have a clue.” Sora muttered on as he began to wash himself singing in perfect tune with Riku. “Maybe it’s time I let you go….maybe I should let the hope that you’ll come back fade…and move on.”
//when you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me.
When she lies in your warm arms, don't think of me.
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...//
//does it bother you now all the mess I made?
Does it bother you now the clothes you told me not to wear?
Does it bother you now all the angry games we played?
Does it bother you now when I’m not there?//
“To say goodbye is to say we will never meet again….” Sora said softly washing the shampoo from his hair. He added conditioner letting it sit before he sighed, leaning against the wall once more caressing his stomach gently. He closed his eyes remembering his last coupling with Riku, the feel of those rough hands on his tender flesh. He could still smell the special scent that was Riku…a mix of ocean breeze with a touch of sandal wood. Sora gasped softly as his hand wandered to his intimate parts where Riku had worshiped so deliciously last time.
//when you see her sweet smile baby, don't think of me.
When she lays in your warm arms, don't think of me.
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...
And it's too late and it's too bad, don't think of me...//
“Don’t think of me…” Sora repeated as the song faded…Riku’s sexy voice was fading just like his hope. Sora looked up at the ceiling not even register that the water was now cold. He moved from his crotch as he sighed and washed the conditioner
//That ladies and gentlemen was a new song just released from ‘Deaths Angel’. The lead singer Riku Hasunama said that this song has special meaning to him and titled it “ (what ever you do) Don’t think of me” …and for further news…//
Sora shut the radio off as he got out of the shower , he turned the shower off as well before he began to dry himself off. So Riku did get the lyrics he left him, they were the last ones he had written…he had poured his heart and soul into them. He put the betrayal and longing he felt into every note, it was almost as if you could see the blood tears he spilt on it.
A loud knock at the door startled Sora slightly; he wrapped the towel around his waist and opened to door. His older cousin Yuki was there and offered him a smile.
“The peer volunteer place just called asking if you could come in. Sylvia called in sick and they are short one person” he said holding up some clothing.
“Ok tell them I’ll be there in a few minuets” Sora said taking the offered clothing and dressing quickly. After he finished he stepped out and followed his cousin to the car. It was a quick drive to the center and it was a matter of time before Sora was up and in the special privet room waiting for his first customer. Sora was a counselor on his spare time , he would listen to people’s issues and offer advise the best he could. He was so good they gave him a special position. He got a room that was some what like the confessionals at a church. Sora took his seat in his chair looking at the black screen that separated him from the one whom he was speaking to.
He heard the door open followed by a bit of shuffling. The person sighed and sat down, before they spoke. “So I just talk and you listen?”
Sora froze, he knew that voice. It was Riku...He was sure of it. Sora struggled to suppress the emotions that wanted to burst out; he put his cheerful voice on pushing his pain to the corner. “I listen and help you the best I can”
Riku sighed and brushed his hair from his face, he didn’t know what the hell possessed him to come to this. Well some of it was due to the fact that his newest girl friend Sira said he needed the help. Work was stressing him out, he couldn’t find anybody to write him the right lyrics and he couldn’t do it himself he didn’t have the skill. His mind noted that the voice sounded familiar but he shrugged it off “I don’t even know where to start” he mumbled.
“I guess you can start with it from the beginning ne?” Sora said shifting in his seat. Riku sighed again and pulled out a cigarette and lit it up.
“I think my problems all started when I broke it off with my boyfriend…I think it was about a year ago I think.” Riku said taking a drag and blowing the smoke out an open window. “I loved him…at least I thought I did…but I noticed that I was missing out on a lot of things. I was only 19 I didn’t want to be settled down just yet…I wanted to still live…”
Sora tried hard to fight the tears that welled in his eyes, the way Riku talked about him so flippantly hurt. “So you left him for this?” Sora asked softly.
“No not exactly….at first…I was just fucking around with a few chicks…then I found myself in their beds the next morning…but I liked it…even though I knew it was wrong…I guess that make me selfish” Riku said a bit bitterly “ I wanted both…to have him and all the women.”
“But you can’t…did you ever think if he loved you…or how he felt?” Sora asked
“I did…that’s why I choose what was best for both of us. I broke it off…I know I hurt him…I could see it in his eyes. He always had the most expressionate eyes, a beautiful blue….they always were laughing…so innocent and pure….nothing like mine…ch’ mine are cold and lifeless. That’s how his eyes looked when I admitted what I was doing…cold …empty” Riku answered, he liked the counselor…something about him helped Riku relax.
“If you knew you were hurting him so much then why did you do it?” Sora asked a hint of hurt seeping into his voice. Riku cleared his throat and some shuffling could be heard. Riku pulled out his wallet flipping to the back were he had a picture of himself and Sora; their friend tidus had taken the picture when they were at the fair. Riku was actually smiling in this one; he had an arm wrapped possessively around Sora’s waist. Sora of course was smiling and had his head lying on Riku’s chest.
Riku looked at the picture a smile tugging at the sides of his mouth; he silently slipped the picture under the little slot to Sora. Sora picked the picture up and stifled a gasp. He remembered when they took that picture…it brought a lot of good memories.
“That is my most favorite picture of him….he looked so calm and happy…and you know…guilt still eats at me day by day.” Riku muttered, Sora slid the picture back to Riku.
“He’s very handsome…and so are you…” Sora said softly. Riku chuckled as he put the picture away.
“You know I’m in a band right?” Riku said as he leaned back in his chair.
“Of course, you’re ‘Heartless Angel’” Sora said he paused before adding “ I liked the new song you came out with”
“I didn’t write it up…my ex did…he was always good at writing songs for me. I think though that after reading those lyrics….I realized how bad I miss him…even if we can’t be lovers…I still miss that friendship we had….” Riku said longingly.
“Well maybe if you talked to him about that he would be willing to do it….” Sora said with a hint of hope.
“But I don’t think I could ever look at him the same way , we shared a lot of things together….I don’t know….I want to …but what the hell is stopping me?”
“Maybe if you let the past go and started with a clean slate then you would be able to…I’m sure he would forgive you…and be happy with just being friends.” Sora said wisely. “As they say…The smile you put up when you are alone hides the pain and anguish you feel inside…and soon enough the darkness will consume you until you find your light to guide”
Riku raised his eyebrow…Sora always used to say that “My ex would say that to me all the time”
Sora smirked “Then you should listen to him…I think our time is up though…it was nice talking to you Riku” Sora said softly.
“Oh that’s true I got rehearsal in a bit…umm here” Riku said sliding some tickets into the slot. “Those are passes to my concert….they are good for any concert until I retire…so stop by and watch me ne?”
Sora took the tickets and smiled “sure I would love to go”
“What’s your name I never asked” asked Riku. Sora paused thinking it over before he answered.
“Sora...”
Riku stared at the black screen with wide eyes, “s-s-Sora? “ he choked out , he could he a light chuckling.
“How many nights have I spent crying over you Riku....I can’t even begin to count? Do you just want to be friends? Do you think I can just forget what we were like it was nothing?” Sora screamed at the screen, he forcefully wiped away the tears that had gathered. Riku stared at the screen in shock, before he glared back at the screen his face flushing.
“What the hell are you talking about Sora? You the one who just said that I should just be friends....Can’t you accept it Sora...we aren’t anything....And there never will be anything between us...because we are nothing...” Riku grounded out balling his fists at his side. The brown haired boy looked on hollowly as silent tears streamed down his pale cheeks; his body trembled as he took in the words said to him.
“So...all those times you said you loved me....all the times you would fuck me....it was all for your selfish pleasure? I’m willing to bet the only reason you ever became my friend was to keep me as a fuck toy! That’s all I am to you Riku...A fucking slut!!” Sora screamed before turning heel and storming out of the room, kicking the door open. All his hope , the tiny fragment of belief that Riku might want him still was thrown out the window and gone. ....that’s all he was to Riku....a slut.
Riku ran after Sora and he caught up with him in a dark hall just outside of the door that leads to the rooftop. That was fortunate for Sora; Riku wouldn’t be able to see his bulging stomach. Riku gripped Sora’s arm hard enough to leave a nasty bruise, he slammed Sora against the wall before pulling him back in front of him. Sora looked at Riku slightly dazed as a single rivulet of blood ran from his forehead, malicious aqua eyes bore into his own sea blue ones.
“That’s right Sora...you were my fucking slut...and now that you don’t have me there every night it burns you doesn’t it? Is that what you want me to tell you...that you’re a worthless slut who’s only good for a quick fuck?” Riku hissed vehemently into the others ear. Sora shook his head and tried to get out of the stronger boys grasp, Riku however held his arm tighter his nails digging into the tender flesh.
“Stop it Riku...please...” Sora whimpered softly.
“Or what Sora...what will you do...will you finally stop loving me?” Riku growled, however he blinked when Sora began to tremble and shake.
Sora groaned softly when heh felt something in his stomach shoot pain all threw out his body but he still managed to look up at riku. “If you don’t let me go....I’ll tell everyone....about your mother...and what you did to your family...” he whispered looking up at Riku with glowing eyes. That hit home with Riku, he dropped Sora’s arm his own eyes wide with shock.
“You wouldn’t...” Riku said but with not the same confidence.
Sora managed to smirk as he held his arm close to him “ This is what you wanted Riku....you want me to hate you....to not love you....look what you have lower yourself to Riku....hurting me just get me away.” Sora hissed before letting out another groan, the pain in his stomach was getting worse “So now you have it Riku....I won’t say I love you...I won’t look for you...and if you do anything to me...I’ll ruin you...”
Riku shook his head before he pushed Sora as hard as he could, the smaller boy yelped as his body collided with the door , it opened and he fell out onto the hard cement. Riku turned and ran out of the building his thoughts clouded and confused. Though deep in his heart he felt something tugging at him be he ignored it and kept running.
Yuki, Sora’s cousin, who was up on the roof saw Sora laying on the floor and came running over to him. “Hey are you ok?” he asked worriedly.
Sora just groaned and clutched his stomach “my...my stomach hurts....” he whimpered. Yuki’s eyes widened before he opened his cell phone dialing Sora’s mom.
It ran a bit before she finally answered, “Yes how can I help you?”
“Aunt Sae!! Sora...I think he’s going into labor!” yuki said hurriedly.
“Get him back home as fast as you can” she said crisply hanging the phone up. Yuki rolled his eyes and picked Sora up grunting before he carried him to the elevator out into the parking lot. He drove faster then the allotted speed limit and screeched to a stop in front of Sora’s house before taking the boy out and running in.
Sae, Sora’s mother, was already there waiting she instructed yuki to bring Sora down to her lab in the basement. Yuki did as he was told setting Sora on a soft bed, sae came over her hands gloved.
“Sora honey, we need to cut you open to get the baby, you won’t feel a thing but try and stay awake ok?” she said softly kissing his forehead. Sora just nodded this time screaming as more pain shot threw his body.
“Mommy it hurts....” he groaned, yuki took his hand and patted it. Sae smiled at him before getting to work, she numbed all of Sora’s stomach before grabbing a scalpel and cutting in.
A few moments sae pulled out a bloodied baby into the air as it screamed. Sora let out a realized sigh looking at the baby, yuki took it and began to clean it off as sae got to work on fixing him back up, and she injected him with something. “ It to regulate your insides , you will still be capable of bearing children , this stuff just cleans out your system of all the things used to support the baby and brings you back to normal size” she explained.
Yuki returned holding a bundle of soft flannel cloth; he smiled as sae helped sit Sora up. “This baby is beautiful...and it’s a boy” he said softly placing the baby in Sora’s arms.
Sora smiled softly as he looked down at his baby , he fingered the soft silver hair cooing “You got this from your dad , you are so beautiful” the baby stopped crying and blinked it’s teary eyes open revealing eyes that matched Sora’s perfectly.
“What are you going to name him Sora?” asked his mother, she kissed the babies soft cheek giggling as it wiggled reminding her of her own son. Sora looked down at his baby as it cuddled up against him falling asleep.
“Atemu” answered Sora softly laying back himself and closing his eyes. His mother gasped softly but held her tongue; Atemu was Riku’s middle name. She looked at Sora sympathetically before leaving him with his baby.
“You still love him....” She muttered softly, yuki looked at her in question but she shook her head taking him with her back upstairs.
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A few days later after Sora had Atemu, he made a startling announcement. “I’m giving Atemu to Riku”
“Your what?” exclaimed sae dropping the test tube she was studying.
“I’m going to give Riku Atemu” Sora repeated, he was holding the said baby in his arms feeding him with a bottle.
“Why are you doing this, Sora? What if Riku throws him out into an orphanage?” she reasoned. Sora smiled and shook his head.
“He won’t ...just trust me on this” he said firmly. He picked up the bag which he had packed all of Atemu’s food, diapers, and other necessities. Sae sighed and nodded her head kissing the baby on the forehead before going back to her work.
“I hope you know what your doing Sora”
Sora pulled up in front of the apartment complex, he got off still cradling Atemu. He walked inside, going up to Riku’s floor. Atemu woke up and looked at Sora with innocent eyes; the eyes that matched his own looked down at him full of sorrow. Sora kissed his son’s head and stopped a few feet from Riku’s apartment. He held Atemu to him and sang the lullaby he had once sung to Riku.
//sleep my dear angel, disappear into the land of dreams.
I’ll watch you as you sleep, and hold you close keeping you safe.
Remember me always and never forget, my love is unstoppable
On a rainy cold night wander out and catch a drop
In your hand you’ll hold my tear of sorrow as my heart aches for you to be with me
Whisper into the night your wish and I’ll come to grant it. //
Sora finished kissing Atemu one last time before he walked the remainder to Riku’s door setting him on the floor. He laid the note he had written on top of his baby, ringing the door bell and then running away.
Inside Riku groaned rolling out of bed, he walked over to the door wondering who the hell would be bothering him now. He frowned at the sound of crying and tore the door open, he looked around and then down at the ground and stared in disbelief at the baby.
“Oh my god” Riku whispered, he bent down picking the fragile baby up and stared. There was a note which he grabbed holding it as well as the bag that was there too. He shut the door walking into his living room and sitting on the couch. Atemu continued to wail his little lungs out until Riku began to rock him softly. With deft hand Riku tore the note open and read.
Dear Riku,
Well congratulations it’s a boy, this is your baby I know it is for sure. I never had another lover besides you. His name is Atemu; I left you everything you could possibly need in that little bag that is with him. I hope you take care of your son; he is after all your own flesh and blood. Take care Riku.
Riku looked at the note and back at Atemu letting out a frustrated growl. “This is just great....fucking great” Atemu looked up at Riku blinking slowly, aqua eyes looked down at him blinking slowly as well. Riku sighed and smiled at the baby “well...looks like we’re stuck with each other...so you’re my son...at least your mother...who ever it is...picked a good name. Atemu...that’s my middle name...but I think it suits you”
Atemu just continued to stare at Riku before his face went red and the tell tale smell of poop reached Riku’s nose. Riku looked back at the little baby groaning “Now, how to change a diaper...”