Fan Fiction ❯ Everlasting Sacrifice ❯ Marauder's Trust ( Chapter 7 )

A/N: Yeah, I'll forward the plot now... I think I'm ready to add some Marauders to the ever growing melting pot of characters. I apologize for the last chapter... I just thought explanations would help some people figure things out. Please don't shoot me! *cringe* I'm skipping some time... to get to the good stuff... like, when she regains her memory... when she tortures a teacher (Not Snape... think Umbridge)... and other things... And one more thing, time will have to pass kinda fast in this chapter, so be forewarned... And most readily... A REAL CHAPTER! MUAHAHAHA!

Disclaimer: ... duh... (Or the song... later on)

Marauders Trust

~Crystal~

I'm so tired right now. The train and a couch sound so good. I enjoy sleeping on the train as it rocks gently back and forth. I looked for a cabin to sit in and found one with someone already in it. His clothes were very baggy and he looked a little thin, but at the moment, alert.
"Um... excuse me... can I sit here?" I asked, and he looked up at me, only to give a shocked gasp.
"Cat? Oh my word, is that you?" he asked me.
"My name is Crystal Umi Riyusaki," I replied, "Who are you?"
"My name is Remus Lupin, are you saying you don't know who I am?" he asked, "I'm sure you're her, but you died!"
"I don't remember..." I muttered and sat down, "I mean... you seem familiar... but I don't remember much of anything."
"But you know I'm not a bad person, which is why you began to talk to me in the first place, right?" he asked, and I found myself nodding slowly, taking in what he was saying. If I had heard him right...

*flash*

"Um... hi," I said shyly. The boy looked at me strangely.
"Hi," he said, "What do you want?" His clothes were a little torn and his hair was a little messy.
"My name is Katy Forest, pleased to meet you," I replied.
"Oh, that's all? Well... my name is Remus Lupin," he replied, "But you won't want to know me too well."
"Yes I do! There's something about you I like!" I giggled.
"You... no one's ever said that before to me," he said, "Okay... but..."
"I'm a psychic... kinda still in training, and I know people like you..." I said, "And you're the best of them all, aren't you?" I met him in his first year. The portals were connected to this world, so I visited often, and Lily, I was going to say hi, but I ran into Remus instead. He was neat.

*flash*

"Remus... Remus Lupin..." I said after sitting down, "I do remember... something... when... we first met..."
"You do?" he asked, "Is that all?"
"For the moment... yes," was all I could reply. He stood, nearly knocking over his suitcase and hugged me.
"Everyone thought you... you had truly died," he said, "Severus was distraught, and Lily fell apart, James and..."
"James and who?" I asked.
"Sirius..." he said, as if uncertain.
"There was a Sirius Black who escaped from a prison this summer, are they the same person? I heard about him on the news," I said innocently, "is it true that he killed a lot of people?"
"Cat... sorry, Crystal... can I call you Chris? Well... Sirius was the secret keeper for Lily and James..." he began and he told me how he believed Sirius had betrayed the Potters to Voldemort. I listened to this sad story. But then he told me how it seemed hard to believe, because James and Sirius were the best of friends.

*flash*

"Okay, we're gonna form a group... it's gonna only be us..." James said, "We need nicknames... and an official name." I listened through the hole in the wall.
"Well, you... you... Remus... you're a werewolf," Sirius said, thinking for a moment, "You better be... let's see... Moony!"
"Hey, that's a good one. My animangus animal is starting to look like... a rat," Peter said quietly, "Can I be called... Wormtail?" I had to stifle a giggle.
"Well, mine's a stag, so I shall call myself Prongs," James said proudly.
"Well, I may be an ordinary brown dog, but you can all call me Padfoot!" Sirius said, and grinned as if he had the best name of all.
"Well, that's settled, but we need a group name," James said, "Any ideas?"
"We cause trouble, we sneak around, and we're smart," Sirius said, "and we know this school better than Dumbledore, I bet that's a fact."
"How... how about the Marauders?" Remus asked timidly.
"The Marauders? Actually, I like the sound of that," James said, "Great thinking Moony!" I smiled. The name was original. I kinda liked it too.
"Marauders, marauders, what have you been up to? What trouble shall you cause? Whose lives shall you change? Marauders, marauders, friends at their best... but one shall betray you... and then the group be changed evermore, for there will be only three on my side, when there were originally...four," I chanted under my breath, a prediction for the future... Although where it came from was beyond me.
"Hey, did you guys hear that?" Remus asked and moved toward where I hid. I quickly disappeared into the darkness, their secret kept safe with me...

*flash*

"Marauders, marauders, what will you do now? How will you live now that one betrayed the other to die?" I asked, not even knowing what I was saying.
"What did you say?" Remus asked.
"What did I say?" I asked, not even knowing what I just did.
"You talked about the marauders," Remus said cautiously, "And how one betrayed the others to die..."
"I did? I'm sorry," I said, and stood up and began to walk out of the room.
"Wait, Cat!" he said, "There's... still so much I need to know..."
"Talk to me when I remember more... You seem like a nice guy," I whispered and walked out of the room, "And when I can understand myself what it is I am doing..."

~Remus~

It was her that much I knew. Not once had she been able to fool me, memory or no memory. If Sirius found out she was alive, how would he react? He'd either be stunned, surprised, upset or entirely neutral. He was like that once or twice, I think. Did Severus know she had been reborn? I sort of hope he didn't, it would be really hard on him if she didn't remember. I hope Dumbledore realized that before reenrolling her into Hogwarts. I sat down again and closed my eyes. Sleep, that was what I needed, sleep to get over the shock and the joy of seeing her alive again. Wait, didn't she say that only one was dead? I thought Pettigrew was also dead...

~Crystal~

He may be an odd person, but he's a great teacher! I mean Professor Lupin. I didn't exactly think he was a student... but I didn't know if he was a teacher or not. He's our Defense against the Dark Arts teacher, and he's the best one we've had so far. That boggart was amazing, I mean, the way he fought it off with the best of us. And then there was Severus in that dress? I was laughing for the rest of the week. However, he wouldn't let Harry or I tackle the boggart. I kinda knew why he wouldn't let Harry... but me? I couldn't remember my fear... is that why he didn't let me attempt it? For fear of my subconscious actually summoning up my darkest fear? How could I be afraid of something I don't remember? Oh, and I'm looking forward to the Hogsmeade weekend coming up. I don't ever remember being there, although I know I should feel like I have. I heard from Fred and George about a joke shop, and it sounds like I could find something good in there...

It starts with

One thing I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind I designed this rhyme

To explain in due time

~Crystal~ some time later~

The black, no... is it brown? I knew it was a dog, I just can't remember the color of its fur. I saw a dog out in the stands during one of the Quidditch matches, so I instinctively went up to it. It was sitting by itself, all alone, and it seemed quite focused on the match. It wasn't the best weather in my opinion.
"Hello..." I said to it as I sat down. The dog glanced my way before turning back to the match. I scratched it behind the ears for a minute, which it seemed to enjoy.
`This child acts like Cat would,' it said. Wait a minute; I can hear its thoughts!
"Um... Mr. Dog, your name... what should I call you?" I asked, "I mean... I've always wanted a pet, and I think dogs make great pets!" The dog turned to me.
`This girl is nuts! She should know better than to talk to and even think of keeping a stray dog," he panted in his mind.
"I used to know someone, someone who could change into a dog like you... You remind me of him, even though I don't remember much," I whispered softly.
`What the hell did she just say?' he asked.
"Oh well, I guess I won't take you in. I suppose you're probably in trouble already and that would be bad for me, wouldn't it?" I asked, and then walked away towards another spot. The dog watched me for a moment, and then turned away.
`If only that were really her...' it trailed off. I smiled to myself; I might not remember that much, but if that was the Sirius I heard about from Professor Lupin and the Sirius that I heard about in the news... I was more inclined to think he had been framed or something. I wonder what our relationship was like...

All I know

Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by me as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down the end of the day

The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal

Didn't look out below

And here I was, wasting time pondering the past. I couldn't remember, so I just better move on, right? Shouldn't I?

~Sirius~

Who was that girl? She seemed... so warm, familiar, loving...

Watch the time go right out the window

Trying to hold on but didn't even know

Wasted it all just to

Watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried it all fell apart

What it meant to me... will eventually... be a memory...

Of a time when I tried so hard...

~Crystal~ some time later~

That had to be the dog I heard about in my flashback. It just had to be. I sought out Professor Lupin's office, to see what the hell was going on. I knocked on the door to his office. He wasn't answering. I knocked again, wondering what was going on.
"Professor Lupin? I have some questions," I said into the door frame. There was still no reply. I put my hand on the door knob and turned it slowly, opening it just a crack. I saw a couch, and on that couch a dog. No... it wasn't a dog, it was a werewolf! I mean, I knew the difference from Snape's essay, he had us do one on the difference between a wolf and a werewolf, and I could tell right away.
"Professor is that you?" I asked and the werewolf sat up and looked at me, something like suffering in his eyes.
`How am I going to tell her she should get out of here?' he was thinking. I went into the room and quickly shut the door.
"I know what you are... and if you think I am who I might be, you can't hurt me..." I said and sat down next to the werewolf.
`She has a point,' he said and then lied down, head in my lap, `I mean, she was reborn with her Protector of Forest powers, so I can't really do anything.' I scratched him behind the ears a bit.
"I can hear the thoughts of some animals," I began and I felt his state of shock, "And I think their emotions. I was with this dog during the last Quidditch match, and I could hear its thoughts. It was scary, but... it looked like a dog I had heard about... in a flashback..." I gave it a minute to see if Remus understood.
`And so you saw Sirius,' he responded, `He didn't try to hurt you?' I shook my head.
"Nope, he did nothing of a sort," I said.
`I guess he thought you acted like you used to act,' he said. I found this kind of funny in a way. Here I was, in a teacher's office, who was a werewolf in the first place and he had his head in my lap and I was scratching behind his ears and I didn't even truly remember who he was.

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To loose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

It felt like it was okay though. Like I had done this so many times before... I felt secure for once. It was really kinda nice. In the past few years that I have been here, I never felt this comfortable. Of course, it was still funny that I was most comfortable with a werewolf in my lap, but I didn't mind it... I think...
"Professor, could you... tell me more about my past?" I asked and Remus sat up and looked at me, and then nodded.
`Not everything... but what might help you understand some... some more of what is going on now... So much has changed,' he said, `So much has changed.'

One thing I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep in mind I designed this rhyme

To remind myself how

I tried so hard

~Remus~

Well, I managed to explain to her about the Marauders and when I questioned her about what she had said on the train, she said she didn't know why. I then guessed it might have been some form of her past self expressing herself in the present before she was able to return. Crystal looked at me with crossed eyes and then I looked away and used the excuse that it was probably her psychic powers that made that prediction or saying or whatever it was. Whatever it could be...

In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so far

Things aren't the way they were before...

You wouldn't even recognize me anymore

~Some time later~ Again~ Crystal~

Sirius... he's been captured... I can't believe it. I read about the Dementor's kiss and I can only imagine how horrible it will be to loose one's own soul. I'm feeling a distinct feeling of fear from my past self in a way, maybe she encountered them before. They must be horrible.
"Miss Riyusaki?" A voice said behind me. I turned around to see Remus.
"You should go and see him," he said.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Go and see Sirius... before you know..." Remus looked away from me.
"Why?" I asked.
"So he knows you... you're alive... so he can... stop worrying about you and whether you'd come back or not," Remus said.
"What the hell happened in that shack?" I asked.
"If you go and see him, I promise I'll tell you later," he said, "Here, I'll take close to where he is and instruct you from there."
"But how can I say or do something if I don't remember?" I asked.
"You remember more than what you think, you just don't seem to realize it. And one more thing, to know he is true in everything he says, get him to say your name," he said.
"But... what name?" I asked, "I... I mean, wouldn't he know my name?"
"Well... you're a member of the dragon clan, given a name from birth, and it's a special name," and then he noticed my expression, "It's cheesy, but it's meant to test friends and their truthfulness. I mean to say, if Sirius can say your name properly, then he is telling the truth after that, after everything he says, or is it before? Or is it during?" I glanced at him with a confused look in my eyes.
"Anyways, you need to have him say it at some time," he said, "Now come on!" He began to lead me to where Sirius was. How did he expect me to get into a guarded room?

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me

In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried

It all fell apart

What it meant to me

Will eventually be a memory

Of a time when I

Tried so hard

~Crystal~

Well, Remus sure knows how to get me into a locked tower room. I saw Sirius laying there on his back, gazing up at the ceiling.
"Hi," I said and he sat up with a startled look on his face.
"What are you doing here? No one's supposed to be here!" he exclaimed, "Wait a moment, you're that girl... aren't you... the one at the Quidditch match!"
"So I did guess right. You're Sirius Black!" I said, just as stunned. I mean, I wasn't about to believe it until I saw him myself.

And got so far

"I'm surprised... who are you?" he asked.
"Crystal Umi Riyusaki. Why are you surprised?" I asked back.
"You look so much like her," he said, "Miss Riyusaki. I suppose you know all about me then."
"I've truly only heard good things and some speculation..." I trailed, "Are you a Marauder?" He looked at me.
"Ahem... yeah... you better sit down and explain why you're here," he said.

But in the end

*Flash*

"Katy, I like you a lot," Sirius said.
"You do? Why?" I asked, laughing a bit.
"Because you... you're beautiful... independent... you don't have to deal with family that hates you," he said.
"I'm sorry," I said.
"Actually, I'm sure it doesn't really count. You don't even have parents," he said.
"Sirius, I just don't know what to say..." I trailed off.

*Flash*

It doesn't even matter

I had to fall

To loose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

"I'm here, because Remus told me I should be here," I said, explaining in a soft voice.
"Remus thinks I need someone to talk to? Why you? Why'd he have to sneak you in here?" he asked.
"I don't know. Apparently... well, I don't remember everything about my past. I've only been having flashbacks," I said, pretending to admire the hardwood floors.
"Katy... you're Katy, aren't you?" he asked and grabbed me so I faced him. I looked at him, a little surprised.
"I think..." I trailed before he embraced me in a hug and was actually laughing.
"I thought you were dead, we all did, but now you're back," he said and held me close to him.
"I... I don't remember," I said and he let me push him away.

To loose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

"You don't?" he asked me, "Not anything?"
"Just what I have from all these flashbacks and what people like Dumbledore and Remus have been telling me, and sometimes I say things that I don't know what they mean!" I said and drew my legs up under my chin.
"I'm amazed, Remus sent you to me to cheer me up, which I can say you've done nicely already and now it seems like you're going to blame yourself," he said.
"Blame myself for what?" I asked and he looked at me puzzled.
"Um, never mind that," he said, "You know what's going to happen to me, right?" I looked at him and nodded slowly.
"Yes, I'm so sorry. If I remembered any thing..." I began.
"No, its better you didn't... you see... I just met my godson today, and that more than anything, to know he trusts me, is more precious to me than anything," he said.
"It is?" I asked.
"I'm ready now, because I know he trusts me and you are alive again. I'm ready for whatever the hell fate deals me," he said, "Actually..." He scooted a bit closer. I didn't sense anything bad emanating from him, which was good.
"What?" I asked.
"Katiana Kalabyur Forest," he began. That must be my true name!
"Huh?" I asked, and before I could say more he leaned forward and he kissed me! It wasn't harsh or anything that was bad... It was gentle and sweet and seemed like it was full of longing. I felt myself drawn in and he brushed his hand against my cheek and I felt like I was spiraling down into the wonders of this kiss. He slowly drew himself away, brushing my lips with his, once, twice and then he just held me.

I've put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know

"Katy, I love you and I still love you," he said, "I shall never stop loving you."
"Uh-huh," I replied.
"I don't know why you married Snape and I shall probably never understand why, but he makes you happy and that is important. If he ever mistreated you... you would have punished him. We would have known," he began, "And if he ever wonders about this kiss... it was my fault. I started it and I'm actually proud that I did it. I'll never stop loving you... even in death. I only... I've never married or even dated... you were the only one."
"Then if that's true, why didn't you work harder to keep me?" I asked.

I've put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

And for all this

There's only one thing you should know

"I couldn't bear to separate you from your heart. If you love something... let it go... if it comes back you, then it was meant to be. If it never returns to you... then it never was meant to be," he said, "I guess that's how it turned out. I hope you remember soon... for Harry, for Remus... for all of us." I didn't want him to die, not now. It was different now; I realized he was a good person and a good man and I... I didn't remember!!!
"Miss Riyusaki, we have to go now," Remus said, walking in.
"Take her Moony, make sure she stays safe," Sirius said and sort of shoved me into Remus's arms. I began to cry, I wanted to know more... He was so kind...
"It wasn't you was it then? The one that killed all those people?" I asked through my tears.
"No, it wasn't. Remus, take her!" he said and Remus left through the door, "Take her before you both get in trouble. There has to be at least one Marauder alive..."

I tried so hard

And got so far

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

~Crystal~ Last day of school~

"Remus! Remus Lupin please won't you wait!" I called. Remus paused from getting onto the train and looked at me. I was dragging my trunk on its wheels.
"What?" he asked. He told me Sirius was okay, and I was happy. But something still tugged at my mind.
"Remus, you said you'd tell me what happened!" I exclaimed, arriving at his side and panting.
"Well, yes, but why do you have a trunk with you?" he asked.

I had to fall

To lose it all

But in the end

It doesn't even matter

"Let me... let me come with you... let me stay with you this summer," I said in a huffed breath.
"Why?" he asked.
"I feel like I should. I have to..." I said, "Please understand..." Remus looked at me for a moment, a long hard look. He seemed to be contemplating something for a moment, and then seemed to brush all other doubts aside.
"Very well then... You may stay for the summer. Come on now, onto the train. Actually, I'm quite lonely during the summer, it'll be nice to have some company," he said and beckoned me onto the train. Maybe this wouldn't be so bad after all.

A/N: Yeah, a real chapter! Sorry it's so long, but let me know what you think! I hope you enjoyed it, I know... it took me a long time... I apologize... I hope it was worth the wait...