Fan Fiction ❯ Folly ❯ Folly ( One-Shot )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

June 3, 2002


~Folly~


I kept my crushes secret,
Because they were forbidden.
I kept my thoughts sheltered,
And with them, chained my heart.
I kept my emotions still,
Lest they betray *me*.
I allowed myself to be buffeted,
By authority and principal.
But life of cloistered morality
Brought me not a single ounce of Joy.

(The child quietly bided time in her place,)

I sought him for companionship,
And hoped to pacify my want.
But in time my need grew desperate,
For he did not satisfy.
In shamed silence I pleasured myself,
Not understanding what it meant.
Until a shrouded vision un-cloaked,
Not long... just a glimpse.
Then in my dreams I saw myself,
And all of the ugly truths.

(struggling mightily with the indignities she
had witnessed,)

I gazed into the rigid face of domination,
Then turned towards whispered aberration.
I stood poised betwixt in indecision,
Knowing... there would be no going back.
With trepidation I extended a hand,
Then pushed beyond inhibition.
I scarcely breathed from all I felt,
As foundations crumbled around me.
I wept in joy for the life I could embrace,
And in sorrow for the hell that I'd been in.

(then perceived that she, too, had reason...
if not a little importance.)

I ventured upon a gentle spirit,
Who coaxed out my shy inner child.
With a kind word she encouraged *me*,
And *I* began to respond.
With a kiss my secrets were unfurled,
My chaste temple lay exposed and yielded.
With a touch the chains were broken,
My quivering heart lay soft and vulnerable.
In love I gave her all of me,
For in her I at last found my desire.

(Now I know that beyond dreamed hope,
there exists an unbiased love.)

~Fine~

Byakko Rei