Fan Fiction ❯ Going Home ❯ Chapter 5 ( Chapter 5 )
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By: hoshiko20 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 12.04.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.9K | Visits: 607 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance / Hentai | Type: Other | Uploaded On: 12.04.2004 | Pages: 3 | Words: 2.9K | Visits: 607 | Status: Completed
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Chapter 5
Beast boy sat with Raven in her room. They had returned to the Tower a week ago, waiting for Slade to make his appearance but with no such luck. They had started preparing for his attack, informing Bumble Bee, Aqualad and others of his return and asking for help. Cyborg was gone, off to see if Jinx would help. Raven shifted through papers that littered her bed.
“I think we’ve gotten everyone. “ she said, checking her list.
“What about your sister?” Beast Boy asked.
Raven looked around her room. “I still have to reach her. For some reason she’s blocked me out.” She rubbed her temples.
Beast boy reached over and took her hands in his. “You’ve been working too hard.” He leaned over and kissed her softly on the lips. In just the short time since they had gone to his parents house, Beast boy and Raven had become closer than ever before. They hadn’t fully confessed their love to each other but it was fine for both of them.
Raven sighed with content when he pulled away. He smiled and gathered up the papers, setting them aside on the floor and drew her into his arms, laying back onto the bed. He caressed her cheek and she cuddled closer to him.
“I should be working.” she said, starting to pull away. Beast boy smiled mischievously as he pushed her back onto the bed and straddled her, making her blush.
“Beast boy, come on. I need to get back to work. Get up now.” Though it wasn’t a strong command. She was content for him to stay right where he was, though she would never admit it.
He smiled at her tone of voice. “You know I can’t do that.” He wanted so much to kiss her deeply and to tell her that he loved her. He couldn’t pull himself to say the words that he almost told Terra. It was because of her that he was afraid to tell Raven.
After her death glare, he sighed in defeat and got off of her, sitting Indian style and pouting next to her.
Raven sat up and looked over at the brooding Beast Boy. She gave a small smile and leaned over, kissing his cheek.
BB perked up and looked at her, grinning. He gave her back her papers and let her continue on with her research, watching from the corner he had officially named the “Bean Bag Corner.” He admired the way she worked quickly and quietly. After an hour, she stopped and sighed, rubbing her forehead once more.
“Come on Ravey, take a break.” Beast boy said, patting a bean bag beside him.
Surprisingly, she gladly accepted and dropped down next to him, face first. “I’m going out of my mind. I still can’t find that damn spell. I know it’s in my book some where.” came her muffled voice.
Beast boy grinned and turned into a cat, walking onto her back and pawing at her head.
Raven smiled slightly and took the cat from her head, she sat up and cuddled him. “How is it you know what to do to make me feel better?” she asked, kissing his nose and setting him down on one of the bean bags.
He transformed back, grinning, and pulled her down next to him. He stroked her head gently. Her breathing became a slow, even pace as she fell asleep. Beast boy slowly dislodged himself from her arms and went over to her huge spell book pile. The ones she already looked in were back on her shelves and one book was already open to the page where she had left off on top of the hundred or so books. “You have way to many books.” he muttered, taking the top book and continued searching for her.
She had told him that she was looking for two spells. One to help reach her sister and the other for Terra. The telecommunication spell was labeled as such but the other held no title so she had to read through each of the descriptions.
As he read, he came disgusted with some of the things described. There were spells on how to take off someone’s head and described each thing carefully and fully; including descriptions of the results. After about the 10th spell like that, he didn’t want to continue. Putting down the book he shook his head and went to get something to drink.
When he walked into the lounge, Robin was sitting at his computer. He was trying to find more super heros like themselves to help. He growled in frustration and Beast boy decided to stay clear of him.
Star on the other hand was going through some of the books that Raven had lent her. She hadn’t left Raven alone until she had been given something to do. Four stacks of books were beside her and she was reading each throughly.
Beast boy stood behind her. He read the description and made a face. “You know, sometimes their descriptions are too much.” he muttered to Star who nodded and turned the page.
“Doesn’t it bother you?” he asked.
Starfire looked at him. “It is ... disturbing but I must do it if we are to gain more help correct?”
Beast boy nodded and turned to the stove where he had set a pot of water to heat. He stared at the water, though not really looking at. His thoughts traveled to what would happen when Terra was revived. They had parted on awkward circumstances and now that he and Raven were getting along real well... his thoughts trailed off as the water started to bubble and steam.
He took two cups from the cupboard and poured the water into it. He added the tea bags and took out honey from the fridge. As he was finishing the tea, Raven walked in, yawning.
Robin finally looked up from the computer. Dark circles under his eyes. “Any luck yet?”
Raven shook her head. “Go get some sleep Robin. You need it.”
He shook his head, turning back to the computer. Raven shook her head and used her powers to take all the plugs out of the machine. “Now.”
Defeated, Robin plopped down on the couch and, within seconds, was sleeping, snoring soundly.
Raven threw the power cord on his chair and walked over to Beast boy who handed her the tea. She took a sip and smiled. “Thanks.”
Starfire floated over to Raven. “Friend Raven, is this the one?” she asked, pointing out one of the spells.
Ravens trained eyes flew over the page and she smiled. “Yes, one down, one to go. I still need to find the other spell to get a hold of my sister.” she took the book and examined it, muttering the items that were needed under her breath.
She sat down on the couch as Starfire continued to go through the books. Beast boy sat down near the pile with his tea and started going through them as well. Everything was silent except for the soft snores from Robin and the rustling of pages every now and then.
An hour later, the door to the tower open and Cyborg walked in with Jinx, Mammoth, and Gizmo behind him.
“Your back. Took you long enough.” Raven said, looking up from the list she started to make.
“Hey, you try to convince these people.” he said, pointing behind him.
Jinx poked his back. “Your so nice.” she smirked, pushing past him to where Raven sat. “Cyborg tells me that Slade is back. I want to help and I convinced these idiots to help as well.” her eyes traveled to the snoring Robin. “Our ‘leader’ is sleeping?” she laughed.
“Actually, Raven is more the leader for this round. She’s got a better handle on things with this one.” Beast boy said from behind a book.
“Oh?” Jinx looked at all the books littered around. “What are you looking for?”
“A spell to contact ravens sister.” Starfire said as she put aside one book and picked up another.
Raven stood. “I need to go get some things. Terra should be back among us by tomorrow.” She said, exiting the tower hastily.
Beast boy stretched and put more water on the stove. Robin woke with a start as Starfire dropped the book she was holding.
“Are you ok Star?” Robin asked sleepily.
“I am. There are some disturbing images in the Book of Darkness.” she said. “There are many... how would you say it? Gut- wrenching illustrations.” she picked up the book once more, her face set for anything to come.
Robin realized that Cyborg had returned. He saw Jinx and grinned. “Great job Cyborg.” he held his hand out to Jinx. “Welcome aboard.”
Jinx ignored his hand. “I’ll be taking orders from Raven. She seems to have a handle on things. Not sleeping like some people.” she plopped down in the chair that had been occupied by Raven not long before.
“Uh, ok. Speaking of which, where is the Dark Lady?” Ever since the little spat between Raven and Exano, Robin had gotten into the habit of calling Raven the Dark Lady.
“Off to get stuff to revive Terra.” Beast boy said from the kitchen.
“You found the spell?” Robin asked.
“Star did, Raven said that she would be ‘back among us tomorrow’.” Beast Boy quoted as he sat down once more, picking up a new book. He sat quietly, sipping his tea which he had been drinking ever since Raven had put honey in it and made it taste good.
Robin went back to the computer. He grumbled about having to put it back together. “She could have just pulled the power cord out but nooo. She had to take all the wires out.”
“Hey man, it was for your own good. You needed to get off that thing and actually sleep. Just be thankful she didn’t leave the cord in her room.” beast boy laughed. “You wouldn’t be getting on it right now.”
Beast boy looked around. Cyborg had started a game with Jinx, Mammoth was watching them and Gizmo was tinkering with a new project. Star sat, surrounded with books and Robin was still grumbling but now there was the sound of keys typing. He turned the page of his book and read the next spell.
Everything was quiet until a black hole appeared in the wall. Everyone stopped what they were doing when Starfire pointed it out. Thinking it was Raven, they were about to go back to their tasks when a girl emerged from it. It wasn’t Raven. It looked a little like her but there was something different about her.
Beast boy got up and approached the girl who looked warily about. “Who are you?” he asked.
“I am looking for Raven.” she said, ignoring the question.
“She’s not here. Are you her sister?” Robin said, coming up beside Beast Boy.
“I am.” she bowed slightly. “My name is Shadow.”
Starfire flew excitedly over to the girl. “I am Starfire, would you like to be friends?!”
“Uh...” was all she got out before the door opened and Raven walked in, arms full.
“Beast boy, get your ass over here and help me bring this stuff into my room.” she said, setting the stuff down on the couch. She looked over at the changeling and saw her sister standing next to them.
“Shadow.” she said nodding.
“Raven.” Shadow nodded back.
It was silent for a moment then Shadow flew at Raven and hugged her. “Big Sis! I missed you!”
Raven smiled slightly and patted the girls head. It didn’t look like it before but Shadow had to be way younger than her sister. She was tall for her age but she still held an air of a young child.
“Are you alright?” Raven asked, as she led her sister to her room with Beast boy following, carrying the items she had gotten. She had given her sister tea and held two, one for herself and the other for beast boy.
Shadow nodded. “When Trigon was released from the imprisonment we put him in, I fled. I was staying with Grandma but he came.” she said quietly. “That’s when I came here. I opened the portal but it took forever to get through because he was trying to tear me back. I almost didn’t make it.”
“I’ve been trying to get a hold of you since last week. Why didn’t you answer me?” Raven asked, opening her door. Beast boy set the items down on the floor and plopped into her bed.
“Rae you need to buy less things when you shop.” He muttered.
She smacked him upside the head and waited for her sister to answer.
Shadow giggled then became serious once more. “I’m not sure.” she answered, her eyes beginning to form tears. “I’m sorry, you must think I’m so weak.”
Beast boy transformed into a cat and leaped up onto Shadows shoulder, purring and rubbing his head against. She gave a half sob, half laugh and cuddled him against her chest. “You are so lucky Raven. I wish I had a boy friend that was so nice.”
Beast boy froze and fell out of Shadows arms, transforming back as he did. “He’s... he’s not my boy friend.” Raven stuttered. “I mean...”
Beast boy was the same way. “Were... were just good friends!”
Shadow studied the two red titans in front of her and smiled mischievously. “Sure, of course you are.” she then turned to all the stuff Raven had bought and started going through it.
BB glanced over at Raven, she suddenly seemed to be busy fixing the wrinkled sheets on her bed. She kept smoothing them unnecessarily. She herself looked over at him and quickly back away.
“Sissy, what’s all this stuff for?” Shadow asked, breaking the uncomfortable silence.
“To revive an ally.” Raven said, relieved. She glanced at the clock. “I’ve got to leave in an hour to start it.”
Shadow’s eyes lit up. “Can I come?!”
Raven shook her head. “I need to be able to concentrate.”
“But sis! I can help. You know more than one person makes it stronger.” Shadow argued.
“This is advanced magic, way to advanced for you!”
“Then how can you do it?!”
Raven fell silent. Abruptly, she turned around and took out a duffle bag and started packing the ingredients into it. “Shadow, you are to stay here and you can sleep in this room since Jinx and her crew will be taking up the other ones. Don’t make a mess.”
Shadow walked over to her sister who sat on the bed and crawled into her lap. “I’m sowie” she said in a low voice.
“Don’t worry about it.” Raven said, stroking her sisters hair. “You know, you may be 9 but you still act like your five.” She smiled as Shadow stuck out her tongue. “Want me to cut it off for you?”
Shadows eyes grew and Raven laughed. “Sis, you’ve changed. You would never have laughed five years ago.”
Raven nodded. “I know. Being here has changed me a lot.” ‘And certain people too.’ she thought, glancing at Beast Boy who smiled.
Shadow grinned. “Why don’t you two kiss?”
Raven, who had took a sip of her tea, chocked. “What?! Sis are you out of your mind?! You can’t say things like that! I don’t think of him like that!” A blush had risen to her cheeks. She may have kissed him many times before but she wasn't about to tell everyone.
Shadow rolled her eyes. “Puh-lease. I can read your mind remember? I know every little thing going through your head. Like how you think his ass is cute, and how you want to grab it, and how you think he would look sexy with only boxers on, and how mhmf!”
Raven clamped a hand over her mouth. “SHADOW! How could you?!” she asked eyes wide, completely mortified.
Chapter 5
Beast boy sat with Raven in her room. They had returned to the Tower a week ago, waiting for Slade to make his appearance but with no such luck. They had started preparing for his attack, informing Bumble Bee, Aqualad and others of his return and asking for help. Cyborg was gone, off to see if Jinx would help. Raven shifted through papers that littered her bed.
“I think we’ve gotten everyone. “ she said, checking her list.
“What about your sister?” Beast Boy asked.
Raven looked around her room. “I still have to reach her. For some reason she’s blocked me out.” She rubbed her temples.
Beast boy reached over and took her hands in his. “You’ve been working too hard.” He leaned over and kissed her softly on the lips. In just the short time since they had gone to his parents house, Beast boy and Raven had become closer than ever before. They hadn’t fully confessed their love to each other but it was fine for both of them.
Raven sighed with content when he pulled away. He smiled and gathered up the papers, setting them aside on the floor and drew her into his arms, laying back onto the bed. He caressed her cheek and she cuddled closer to him.
“I should be working.” she said, starting to pull away. Beast boy smiled mischievously as he pushed her back onto the bed and straddled her, making her blush.
“Beast boy, come on. I need to get back to work. Get up now.” Though it wasn’t a strong command. She was content for him to stay right where he was, though she would never admit it.
He smiled at her tone of voice. “You know I can’t do that.” He wanted so much to kiss her deeply and to tell her that he loved her. He couldn’t pull himself to say the words that he almost told Terra. It was because of her that he was afraid to tell Raven.
After her death glare, he sighed in defeat and got off of her, sitting Indian style and pouting next to her.
Raven sat up and looked over at the brooding Beast Boy. She gave a small smile and leaned over, kissing his cheek.
BB perked up and looked at her, grinning. He gave her back her papers and let her continue on with her research, watching from the corner he had officially named the “Bean Bag Corner.” He admired the way she worked quickly and quietly. After an hour, she stopped and sighed, rubbing her forehead once more.
“Come on Ravey, take a break.” Beast boy said, patting a bean bag beside him.
Surprisingly, she gladly accepted and dropped down next to him, face first. “I’m going out of my mind. I still can’t find that damn spell. I know it’s in my book some where.” came her muffled voice.
Beast boy grinned and turned into a cat, walking onto her back and pawing at her head.
Raven smiled slightly and took the cat from her head, she sat up and cuddled him. “How is it you know what to do to make me feel better?” she asked, kissing his nose and setting him down on one of the bean bags.
He transformed back, grinning, and pulled her down next to him. He stroked her head gently. Her breathing became a slow, even pace as she fell asleep. Beast boy slowly dislodged himself from her arms and went over to her huge spell book pile. The ones she already looked in were back on her shelves and one book was already open to the page where she had left off on top of the hundred or so books. “You have way to many books.” he muttered, taking the top book and continued searching for her.
She had told him that she was looking for two spells. One to help reach her sister and the other for Terra. The telecommunication spell was labeled as such but the other held no title so she had to read through each of the descriptions.
As he read, he came disgusted with some of the things described. There were spells on how to take off someone’s head and described each thing carefully and fully; including descriptions of the results. After about the 10th spell like that, he didn’t want to continue. Putting down the book he shook his head and went to get something to drink.
When he walked into the lounge, Robin was sitting at his computer. He was trying to find more super heros like themselves to help. He growled in frustration and Beast boy decided to stay clear of him.
Star on the other hand was going through some of the books that Raven had lent her. She hadn’t left Raven alone until she had been given something to do. Four stacks of books were beside her and she was reading each throughly.
Beast boy stood behind her. He read the description and made a face. “You know, sometimes their descriptions are too much.” he muttered to Star who nodded and turned the page.
“Doesn’t it bother you?” he asked.
Starfire looked at him. “It is ... disturbing but I must do it if we are to gain more help correct?”
Beast boy nodded and turned to the stove where he had set a pot of water to heat. He stared at the water, though not really looking at. His thoughts traveled to what would happen when Terra was revived. They had parted on awkward circumstances and now that he and Raven were getting along real well... his thoughts trailed off as the water started to bubble and steam.
He took two cups from the cupboard and poured the water into it. He added the tea bags and took out honey from the fridge. As he was finishing the tea, Raven walked in, yawning.
Robin finally looked up from the computer. Dark circles under his eyes. “Any luck yet?”
Raven shook her head. “Go get some sleep Robin. You need it.”
He shook his head, turning back to the computer. Raven shook her head and used her powers to take all the plugs out of the machine. “Now.”
Defeated, Robin plopped down on the couch and, within seconds, was sleeping, snoring soundly.
Raven threw the power cord on his chair and walked over to Beast boy who handed her the tea. She took a sip and smiled. “Thanks.”
Starfire floated over to Raven. “Friend Raven, is this the one?” she asked, pointing out one of the spells.
Ravens trained eyes flew over the page and she smiled. “Yes, one down, one to go. I still need to find the other spell to get a hold of my sister.” she took the book and examined it, muttering the items that were needed under her breath.
She sat down on the couch as Starfire continued to go through the books. Beast boy sat down near the pile with his tea and started going through them as well. Everything was silent except for the soft snores from Robin and the rustling of pages every now and then.
An hour later, the door to the tower open and Cyborg walked in with Jinx, Mammoth, and Gizmo behind him.
“Your back. Took you long enough.” Raven said, looking up from the list she started to make.
“Hey, you try to convince these people.” he said, pointing behind him.
Jinx poked his back. “Your so nice.” she smirked, pushing past him to where Raven sat. “Cyborg tells me that Slade is back. I want to help and I convinced these idiots to help as well.” her eyes traveled to the snoring Robin. “Our ‘leader’ is sleeping?” she laughed.
“Actually, Raven is more the leader for this round. She’s got a better handle on things with this one.” Beast boy said from behind a book.
“Oh?” Jinx looked at all the books littered around. “What are you looking for?”
“A spell to contact ravens sister.” Starfire said as she put aside one book and picked up another.
Raven stood. “I need to go get some things. Terra should be back among us by tomorrow.” She said, exiting the tower hastily.
Beast boy stretched and put more water on the stove. Robin woke with a start as Starfire dropped the book she was holding.
“Are you ok Star?” Robin asked sleepily.
“I am. There are some disturbing images in the Book of Darkness.” she said. “There are many... how would you say it? Gut- wrenching illustrations.” she picked up the book once more, her face set for anything to come.
Robin realized that Cyborg had returned. He saw Jinx and grinned. “Great job Cyborg.” he held his hand out to Jinx. “Welcome aboard.”
Jinx ignored his hand. “I’ll be taking orders from Raven. She seems to have a handle on things. Not sleeping like some people.” she plopped down in the chair that had been occupied by Raven not long before.
“Uh, ok. Speaking of which, where is the Dark Lady?” Ever since the little spat between Raven and Exano, Robin had gotten into the habit of calling Raven the Dark Lady.
“Off to get stuff to revive Terra.” Beast boy said from the kitchen.
“You found the spell?” Robin asked.
“Star did, Raven said that she would be ‘back among us tomorrow’.” Beast Boy quoted as he sat down once more, picking up a new book. He sat quietly, sipping his tea which he had been drinking ever since Raven had put honey in it and made it taste good.
Robin went back to the computer. He grumbled about having to put it back together. “She could have just pulled the power cord out but nooo. She had to take all the wires out.”
“Hey man, it was for your own good. You needed to get off that thing and actually sleep. Just be thankful she didn’t leave the cord in her room.” beast boy laughed. “You wouldn’t be getting on it right now.”
Beast boy looked around. Cyborg had started a game with Jinx, Mammoth was watching them and Gizmo was tinkering with a new project. Star sat, surrounded with books and Robin was still grumbling but now there was the sound of keys typing. He turned the page of his book and read the next spell.
Everything was quiet until a black hole appeared in the wall. Everyone stopped what they were doing when Starfire pointed it out. Thinking it was Raven, they were about to go back to their tasks when a girl emerged from it. It wasn’t Raven. It looked a little like her but there was something different about her.
Beast boy got up and approached the girl who looked warily about. “Who are you?” he asked.
“I am looking for Raven.” she said, ignoring the question.
“She’s not here. Are you her sister?” Robin said, coming up beside Beast Boy.
“I am.” she bowed slightly. “My name is Shadow.”
Starfire flew excitedly over to the girl. “I am Starfire, would you like to be friends?!”
“Uh...” was all she got out before the door opened and Raven walked in, arms full.
“Beast boy, get your ass over here and help me bring this stuff into my room.” she said, setting the stuff down on the couch. She looked over at the changeling and saw her sister standing next to them.
“Shadow.” she said nodding.
“Raven.” Shadow nodded back.
It was silent for a moment then Shadow flew at Raven and hugged her. “Big Sis! I missed you!”
Raven smiled slightly and patted the girls head. It didn’t look like it before but Shadow had to be way younger than her sister. She was tall for her age but she still held an air of a young child.
“Are you alright?” Raven asked, as she led her sister to her room with Beast boy following, carrying the items she had gotten. She had given her sister tea and held two, one for herself and the other for beast boy.
Shadow nodded. “When Trigon was released from the imprisonment we put him in, I fled. I was staying with Grandma but he came.” she said quietly. “That’s when I came here. I opened the portal but it took forever to get through because he was trying to tear me back. I almost didn’t make it.”
“I’ve been trying to get a hold of you since last week. Why didn’t you answer me?” Raven asked, opening her door. Beast boy set the items down on the floor and plopped into her bed.
“Rae you need to buy less things when you shop.” He muttered.
She smacked him upside the head and waited for her sister to answer.
Shadow giggled then became serious once more. “I’m not sure.” she answered, her eyes beginning to form tears. “I’m sorry, you must think I’m so weak.”
Beast boy transformed into a cat and leaped up onto Shadows shoulder, purring and rubbing his head against. She gave a half sob, half laugh and cuddled him against her chest. “You are so lucky Raven. I wish I had a boy friend that was so nice.”
Beast boy froze and fell out of Shadows arms, transforming back as he did. “He’s... he’s not my boy friend.” Raven stuttered. “I mean...”
Beast boy was the same way. “Were... were just good friends!”
Shadow studied the two red titans in front of her and smiled mischievously. “Sure, of course you are.” she then turned to all the stuff Raven had bought and started going through it.
BB glanced over at Raven, she suddenly seemed to be busy fixing the wrinkled sheets on her bed. She kept smoothing them unnecessarily. She herself looked over at him and quickly back away.
“Sissy, what’s all this stuff for?” Shadow asked, breaking the uncomfortable silence.
“To revive an ally.” Raven said, relieved. She glanced at the clock. “I’ve got to leave in an hour to start it.”
Shadow’s eyes lit up. “Can I come?!”
Raven shook her head. “I need to be able to concentrate.”
“But sis! I can help. You know more than one person makes it stronger.” Shadow argued.
“This is advanced magic, way to advanced for you!”
“Then how can you do it?!”
Raven fell silent. Abruptly, she turned around and took out a duffle bag and started packing the ingredients into it. “Shadow, you are to stay here and you can sleep in this room since Jinx and her crew will be taking up the other ones. Don’t make a mess.”
Shadow walked over to her sister who sat on the bed and crawled into her lap. “I’m sowie” she said in a low voice.
“Don’t worry about it.” Raven said, stroking her sisters hair. “You know, you may be 9 but you still act like your five.” She smiled as Shadow stuck out her tongue. “Want me to cut it off for you?”
Shadows eyes grew and Raven laughed. “Sis, you’ve changed. You would never have laughed five years ago.”
Raven nodded. “I know. Being here has changed me a lot.” ‘And certain people too.’ she thought, glancing at Beast Boy who smiled.
Shadow grinned. “Why don’t you two kiss?”
Raven, who had took a sip of her tea, chocked. “What?! Sis are you out of your mind?! You can’t say things like that! I don’t think of him like that!” A blush had risen to her cheeks. She may have kissed him many times before but she wasn't about to tell everyone.
Shadow rolled her eyes. “Puh-lease. I can read your mind remember? I know every little thing going through your head. Like how you think his ass is cute, and how you want to grab it, and how you think he would look sexy with only boxers on, and how mhmf!”
Raven clamped a hand over her mouth. “SHADOW! How could you?!” she asked eyes wide, completely mortified.