Fan Fiction ❯ I'll Be ❯ Chapter 8 ( Chapter 8 )
[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By: DamDariram18 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.04.2005 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 206 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.04.2005 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.9K | Visits: 206 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans, Beast Boy would’ve done more kick ass scenes in “Employee of the Month”
A/N: Sorry it took a bit longer to update. I’ve got only 9 days till grad and the teachers are showing no mercy. Anyways, I hope you like this chapter!! Please R&R. Reviews are like warm fuzzies!
I’ll Be
Chapter 8
Raven’s POV
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuu
I hold Beast Boy close to my chest as I exit the broken house. I sigh in relief when I see the red and white ambulance parked in front. The first thing they do is place him on the stretcher and start strapping him up. As they load him into the vehicle, I climb into it too. I see a paramedic start to hesitate, but I glare at him, making him back up. I refuse to leave my Beast Boy. I can’t help but watch in horror as the crew works on my Beast Boy, trying to keep him alive. I close my eyes, not able to stand watching it any longer.
Once we arrive at the hospital, Beast Boy immediately has to go to the emergency room. So I’m here to wait in the waiting room, hoping for good news. I stare out the window at the sunset. The sky is decorated with green and purple. I stare at it, thinking about my Beast Boy. Before I can stop myself, I break down, my sobs echoing in the waiting room. I don’t care if people are staring at me right now. I bury my head in my hands and continue to let the tears flow.
I feel a hand on my shoulder. “Friend, Raven.”
I look up and see Starfire standing before me, her eyes filled with tears as well. My eyes turn into pure hatred at the moment. Right now I don’t want to see any of the other titans. I’m still pretty angry about how they treated Beast Boy. I glare at her. “Don’t touch me!” I snap.
Starfire backs up. “I’m only trying to help.” she says, tears running down her face.
“You had the chance to help! You had the chance to help him, but you didn’t! Now what makes you think I’m going to let you help me?!”
Star looks down. I feel guilt weigh on my chest, but the anger overpowers it. I am about to say something further, when Star silently hands me a folded letter. After that, she turns and flies to the other side of the waiting room.
For a while, all I can do is just stare at the letter in my hands. Finally, my hands shaking, I manage to open it. I realize it’s a letter from Beast Boy. The letter he wrote before he almost attempted suicide.
Dearest Raven,
There is so much you must know, so much I have to tell you. I first want to apologize for all the times I’ve annoyed you. I’m sorry for all the times I’ve hurt you. I’m sorry I called you creepy. (And I really do mean it) I’m really sorry that I’m going to kill myself, but it’s something I have to do. The team is better off without me, and you know it. I’m doing it just in case the Beast within me decides to take over again. I don’t want to take the chance of really hurting anybody, especially you. The truth is, I love you, Raven. I love you more than anything in the world, even tofu. Ever since I’ve met you, I’ve made a mission to make you smile. My only mission in life. But now, I realize that the only thing I’ve been doing is annoying you, and I’m sorry for it with all my heart. I’m going to miss you, because you always somehow manage to pull the comedian out of me. I’m going to miss you, because you are my everything. Take care of yourself. I’ll watch over you. I’ll always love you.
Love,
Garfield Logan
“Beast Boy”
I fold the letter and hold it close to my chest. I can still smell his scent from writing the letter. My heart is pounding. My tears are running faster and faster down my cheeks with each breath I take. So this is what I would have found by his body I think to myself in horror. I realize what could have happened. I would’ve heard the gunshot. I would’ve found his body, covered in blood. I thank God that I came in time. I just wish I hadn’t of left him alone when I was talking to Robin. He wouldn’t be here then. He’d be at the tower with us.
I can’t help but wonder what I would do if he doesn’t survive. Will I be able to make it? Will I be able to go on? I am brought back into reality by a male voice.
“Excuse me, are you here for Mr. Garfield Logan?” a doctor in his late twenties asks.
I jump to my feet. “How is he?” I manage to choke out.
The doctor hesitates. “He’s alive, but in critical condition. He suffered from severe electrical shock, broken bones, and massive blood loss. We’re keeping him in intensive care. We can only allow one person visit him. I guess that means you.”
I stand up and follow him down the hall. I guess he didn’t notice Starfire there, but I’m still too mad at her to care.
I nod, following the doctor down the hall. “I must warn you, he is comatose,” he says, leading me into a small white room. “My name is Dr. Haevert, call me if needed.”
I don’t respond back, my eyes are fixed at the figure lying in the hospital bed. I close my eyes, hoping it’s just a dream, but when I open them again, Beast Boy’s still lying there. I walk over to the hospital bed. For a while the only thing I can do is stare at the pale figure.
“Hey BB,” I say, my hand on his forehead. I stroke his face. Just seeing him makes my mind swim with fear. Fear of losing him. Fear that I’ll never see his smile again. Fear of being alone again. Fear that I could never go on.
Beast Boy’s face is very pale, making the bruises and black eye stand out considerably. I feel very scared. I pull up a chair so I can sit right beside him. I continue stroking his face, the tears running down my cheeks. A memory flashes back into my mind.
Flashback
I was in deep meditation on a cold Tuesday morning. During meditation I was thinking about my Beast Boy and how I had hurt him with the comment I made earlier that day. Suddenly the alarm went off. As fast as I could, I grabbed my cape and bolted out of my room, colliding with someone along the way, making me lose my balance. I closed my eyes waiting to hit the ground, when two arms wrapped around my waist. Instead, I fall into the arms of the man who had ben occupying my mind. My Beast Boy. I blushed when I realized how close our faces were.
“Sorry Rae,” Beast Boy mumbled, placing his gloved hand on my cheek. I smiled slightly, trying not to blush. Instead of gloating about making me smile, Beast Boy cupped my face in his hands. Our lips almost met when Starfire’s voice interrupted us.
“Friend Raven, Friend Beast Boy. Are you all right?” She asked, oblivious to the fact that she ruined the moment.
Before we could reply to her. “Okay, Titans. There’s trouble down at the old warehouse. Let’s go.”
I quickly got off Beast Boy. I held out a hand to help him up. I felt my heart flutter when his hand lingered in mine. I just wished that he didn’t have to let go
End of Flashback
That longing is still present inside of me. I feel guilt rise inside me. This is all my fault. If I hadn’t of left Beast Boy alone, he wouldn’t have been taken, tortured. If only I had seen the bookcase coming. We could be on a date right now.
“You can’t imagine how weird it is for you to be so quiet.” I joke out loud, trying to get my mind off the guilt. However, I’m back to it. I feel words come tumbling out of my mouth.
“I’m so sorry Beast Boy. This is all my fault. I should’ve been there. I should’ve moved out of the way. It’s all my fault you’re lying here, fighting death. The only thing I ask is for you to forgive me. I ask that you could come back to me. I understand if you never want to talk to me again, but just as long as I can see your smile, your green eyes, I’ll be happy.”
I take a deep breath. “Beast Boy, you don’t’ realize how much I love you. I meditate every day so that I can laugh at your jokes without hurting you. I meditate so I can think about you without my emotions getting out of control. I’d do anything for you. I need you here beside me. I need you here so you can hold me again. I need you to be here to love me. I need you so I could tell your jokes to my emotions. I need you so I can love you. Please, don’t leave me.
I feel sleep coming over me, but I refuse to leave the love of my life, in fear of losing him forever. Careful not to harm him, I lie right beside him on the bed, my head resting on his chest. I don’t care if the doctor comes in and sees me like this. As long as I’m with him, I’m okay. “Oh yeah, and thank you for saving my life, even though I didn’t deserve it.” I whisper, snuggling close to him, partly in effort to keep his body warm. I fall asleep, listening to the faint beating of his heart.
lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll lllllllll
A/N: Sorry it took a bit longer to update. I’ve got only 9 days till grad and the teachers are showing no mercy. Anyways, I hope you like this chapter!! Please R&R. Reviews are like warm fuzzies!
I’ll Be
Chapter 8
Raven’s POV
uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu uuuuuuuuuu
I hold Beast Boy close to my chest as I exit the broken house. I sigh in relief when I see the red and white ambulance parked in front. The first thing they do is place him on the stretcher and start strapping him up. As they load him into the vehicle, I climb into it too. I see a paramedic start to hesitate, but I glare at him, making him back up. I refuse to leave my Beast Boy. I can’t help but watch in horror as the crew works on my Beast Boy, trying to keep him alive. I close my eyes, not able to stand watching it any longer.
Once we arrive at the hospital, Beast Boy immediately has to go to the emergency room. So I’m here to wait in the waiting room, hoping for good news. I stare out the window at the sunset. The sky is decorated with green and purple. I stare at it, thinking about my Beast Boy. Before I can stop myself, I break down, my sobs echoing in the waiting room. I don’t care if people are staring at me right now. I bury my head in my hands and continue to let the tears flow.
I feel a hand on my shoulder. “Friend, Raven.”
I look up and see Starfire standing before me, her eyes filled with tears as well. My eyes turn into pure hatred at the moment. Right now I don’t want to see any of the other titans. I’m still pretty angry about how they treated Beast Boy. I glare at her. “Don’t touch me!” I snap.
Starfire backs up. “I’m only trying to help.” she says, tears running down her face.
“You had the chance to help! You had the chance to help him, but you didn’t! Now what makes you think I’m going to let you help me?!”
Star looks down. I feel guilt weigh on my chest, but the anger overpowers it. I am about to say something further, when Star silently hands me a folded letter. After that, she turns and flies to the other side of the waiting room.
For a while, all I can do is just stare at the letter in my hands. Finally, my hands shaking, I manage to open it. I realize it’s a letter from Beast Boy. The letter he wrote before he almost attempted suicide.
Dearest Raven,
There is so much you must know, so much I have to tell you. I first want to apologize for all the times I’ve annoyed you. I’m sorry for all the times I’ve hurt you. I’m sorry I called you creepy. (And I really do mean it) I’m really sorry that I’m going to kill myself, but it’s something I have to do. The team is better off without me, and you know it. I’m doing it just in case the Beast within me decides to take over again. I don’t want to take the chance of really hurting anybody, especially you. The truth is, I love you, Raven. I love you more than anything in the world, even tofu. Ever since I’ve met you, I’ve made a mission to make you smile. My only mission in life. But now, I realize that the only thing I’ve been doing is annoying you, and I’m sorry for it with all my heart. I’m going to miss you, because you always somehow manage to pull the comedian out of me. I’m going to miss you, because you are my everything. Take care of yourself. I’ll watch over you. I’ll always love you.
Love,
Garfield Logan
“Beast Boy”
I fold the letter and hold it close to my chest. I can still smell his scent from writing the letter. My heart is pounding. My tears are running faster and faster down my cheeks with each breath I take. So this is what I would have found by his body I think to myself in horror. I realize what could have happened. I would’ve heard the gunshot. I would’ve found his body, covered in blood. I thank God that I came in time. I just wish I hadn’t of left him alone when I was talking to Robin. He wouldn’t be here then. He’d be at the tower with us.
I can’t help but wonder what I would do if he doesn’t survive. Will I be able to make it? Will I be able to go on? I am brought back into reality by a male voice.
“Excuse me, are you here for Mr. Garfield Logan?” a doctor in his late twenties asks.
I jump to my feet. “How is he?” I manage to choke out.
The doctor hesitates. “He’s alive, but in critical condition. He suffered from severe electrical shock, broken bones, and massive blood loss. We’re keeping him in intensive care. We can only allow one person visit him. I guess that means you.”
I stand up and follow him down the hall. I guess he didn’t notice Starfire there, but I’m still too mad at her to care.
I nod, following the doctor down the hall. “I must warn you, he is comatose,” he says, leading me into a small white room. “My name is Dr. Haevert, call me if needed.”
I don’t respond back, my eyes are fixed at the figure lying in the hospital bed. I close my eyes, hoping it’s just a dream, but when I open them again, Beast Boy’s still lying there. I walk over to the hospital bed. For a while the only thing I can do is stare at the pale figure.
“Hey BB,” I say, my hand on his forehead. I stroke his face. Just seeing him makes my mind swim with fear. Fear of losing him. Fear that I’ll never see his smile again. Fear of being alone again. Fear that I could never go on.
Beast Boy’s face is very pale, making the bruises and black eye stand out considerably. I feel very scared. I pull up a chair so I can sit right beside him. I continue stroking his face, the tears running down my cheeks. A memory flashes back into my mind.
Flashback
I was in deep meditation on a cold Tuesday morning. During meditation I was thinking about my Beast Boy and how I had hurt him with the comment I made earlier that day. Suddenly the alarm went off. As fast as I could, I grabbed my cape and bolted out of my room, colliding with someone along the way, making me lose my balance. I closed my eyes waiting to hit the ground, when two arms wrapped around my waist. Instead, I fall into the arms of the man who had ben occupying my mind. My Beast Boy. I blushed when I realized how close our faces were.
“Sorry Rae,” Beast Boy mumbled, placing his gloved hand on my cheek. I smiled slightly, trying not to blush. Instead of gloating about making me smile, Beast Boy cupped my face in his hands. Our lips almost met when Starfire’s voice interrupted us.
“Friend Raven, Friend Beast Boy. Are you all right?” She asked, oblivious to the fact that she ruined the moment.
Before we could reply to her. “Okay, Titans. There’s trouble down at the old warehouse. Let’s go.”
I quickly got off Beast Boy. I held out a hand to help him up. I felt my heart flutter when his hand lingered in mine. I just wished that he didn’t have to let go
End of Flashback
That longing is still present inside of me. I feel guilt rise inside me. This is all my fault. If I hadn’t of left Beast Boy alone, he wouldn’t have been taken, tortured. If only I had seen the bookcase coming. We could be on a date right now.
“You can’t imagine how weird it is for you to be so quiet.” I joke out loud, trying to get my mind off the guilt. However, I’m back to it. I feel words come tumbling out of my mouth.
“I’m so sorry Beast Boy. This is all my fault. I should’ve been there. I should’ve moved out of the way. It’s all my fault you’re lying here, fighting death. The only thing I ask is for you to forgive me. I ask that you could come back to me. I understand if you never want to talk to me again, but just as long as I can see your smile, your green eyes, I’ll be happy.”
I take a deep breath. “Beast Boy, you don’t’ realize how much I love you. I meditate every day so that I can laugh at your jokes without hurting you. I meditate so I can think about you without my emotions getting out of control. I’d do anything for you. I need you here beside me. I need you here so you can hold me again. I need you to be here to love me. I need you so I could tell your jokes to my emotions. I need you so I can love you. Please, don’t leave me.
I feel sleep coming over me, but I refuse to leave the love of my life, in fear of losing him forever. Careful not to harm him, I lie right beside him on the bed, my head resting on his chest. I don’t care if the doctor comes in and sees me like this. As long as I’m with him, I’m okay. “Oh yeah, and thank you for saving my life, even though I didn’t deserve it.” I whisper, snuggling close to him, partly in effort to keep his body warm. I fall asleep, listening to the faint beating of his heart.
lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll lllllllll