Fan Fiction ❯ I'll Be ❯ Chapter 14 ( Chapter 14 )
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By: DamDariram18 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.11.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 200 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Romance | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 08.11.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 200 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: If I owned Teen Titans, Terra would never have existed on the show. (No offense to Terra fans, but I DESPISE her after what she did to Beast Boy. No one hurts my BB and gets away with it)
I’ll Be
Chapter 14
Beast Boy’s POV
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Five days later
I’m lying in my bed staring at the ceiling. It’s been a couple of days since I’ve been released from the hospital, and personally, nothing’s changed. The others still treat me the same. If it wasn’t for Raven, I would’ve tried to kill myself again. Actually, now that I think about it, if it weren’t for Raven, I would be dead right now. I’m not sure if I should feel grateful or not.
I guess I haven’t really given the others a chance. Ever since I arrived home, I’ve been in my room. I just feel like I need time to think about things. But the more I think, the more the pain keeps surrounding me. A quiet voice breaks into my thoughts.
“Hey”
I look down from my bed and see Raven standing in my room, holding a tray in her hands. She flies up and places the tray next to me. “How are you feeling, darling?” Raven asks.
I shrug my shoulders. I am shocked to see the food on my plate. Tofu. “Where did you get the tofu? I thought Cy tossed it all out!” I ask amazed.
“I went to the store.” Raven says, stating the obvious.
“Oh.” I say sheepishly. I smile at her gratefully.
“You never answered my question, Gar.” she says quietly.
I don’t really want to tell her how I’m feeling. I don’t want to bring pain upon her again. So I decide to do what I do best. Play stupid. “What question?”
“You know what question Garfield!” she snaps.
“I’m feeling fine.” I lie, keeping my eyes away from her.
“No you’re not.”
“Then why did you bother to ask?”
“Because I was hoping you’d open up to me. Please open up to me.”
“I’m just not sure if I can forgive them or not. They hurt me so much, Rae. I’m so scared that if I forgive them, that the same thing will happen all over again, and the pain will come back. I don’t want the pain to come back. And it’s not like they’re trying to show that they care-that is if they care in the first place.”
“That’s because I showed them something. I sent them into the past and made them feel what you felt. They feel way too guilty to say or do anything. They don’t think they deserve your forgiveness. Now whether you’re willing to forgive them or not is up to you, but you can’t avoid them forever. You have to come out of this room sometime. Besides, I miss seeing you joking around and trying to get me to smile. I just want things to go back to the way they used to be.”
I finish the tofu. Raven uses her powers to send the tray back into the kitchen. Then she moves over and wraps her arms around me. I trace her back with my fingers, smelling her hair. “Rae,” I whisper.
“Yeah.”
“I don’t know if I’ve ever told you this but thank you for being here for me. If it wasn’t for you, I would’ve made the biggest mistake of my life. Thank you.” I say, kissing her cheek.
“Gar, I would never have forgiven myself if I didn’t stop you from killing yourself. I love you so much, I would’ve died with you. Your very welcome.”
Raven kisses me passionately. “I have to go meditate before bed. I love you, Beast Boy.”
“I love you too, Raven,” I say back, returning the kiss. I lay back in my bed. I don’t close my eyes until Raven has left my room.
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I found myself lying on the ground in my room. I can’t remember how I got there, or what had happened the previous night. I realized it’s the daytime. I got up and stretched. I was startled when I heard a voice shout my name. I recognized it as Robin’s.
“BEAST BOY!! GET DOWN HERE!!!”
I didn’t like the sound of his voice. Either something really bad was happening downtown, or I’m in serious trouble. I hurried out of my room and headed to the living room. I was shocked by what I saw.
Police officers were all over the living room, taking photographs, talking to Robin. I felt confused. What’s going on here? I saw Robin point at me as I entered the room. My heart started pounding. What’s going on here? I felt very nervous when an officer approached me.
“Are you Garfield Logan?” an officer asked me.
I stared at him in confusion. “Yes, what’s the problem, officer?”
I started shaking when I felt the officer handcuff my hands behind me. “You are under arrest for the murder of Raven Roth.”
“What?” I gasped in panic. “I wouldn’t. I’d never hurt her!” I shouted in desperation.
I looked around for support. Robin’s face is full of hatred. Cyborg was glaring at me. I looked over and found Starfire sobbing by a figure on the ground, her body all torn up. I recognized her as Raven. Tears started running down my face as I saw the scratches on her and the blood around. I started shaking harder when I saw her lifeless body. I looked down at my clothes and realized they’re all torn up, and that scratches were all over my body. . I realized that the Beast within me must have escaped again.
“No!” I screamed, falling to my knees. I shut my eyes as the tears fell down my face. “Robin!! Please believe me!! I’d never hurt her!!!! Cy, buddy, please!” They glared at me as the police lead me out of the tower. I felt as though my life has ended. I had lost the most important person to me. The only person who believed in me. I’m so sorry, Raven I thought to myself as I was put into the police car. I’m so sorry.
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I wake up in a cold sweat. I realize I’m still in bed. That was just a dream? I ask myself in tremendous relief. Thank God. I sit up and bury my face in my hands. That dream felt so real. I could feel the hatred, I could feel the pain. I remember the look on Robin and Cyborg’s face in my dream. I remember how torn up Raven’s body was in my dream. What if I lose control? I ask myself. What if it really happens?
I get off my bed and start pacing around my room. Images of my dream keep flashing in my mind. I consider killing myself again, but remember the promise I made to Raven. After a few minutes, I come up with a solution. I must leave before the Beast takes over me again. I must leave before my dream actually happens. As I pull out a suitcase, I feel much calmer. The team won’t have to worry about me anymore. They can forget about their guilt, and everyone will be safe and sound. I’m not sure of where I’m going, but all I know is I have to get out of this tower.
I walk over to my desk and pull out a piece of paper. On it I quickly write:
Raven,
I’m leaving to find a place to control the beast within me. Please don’t come looking for me. I’ll return someday. I’ll never forget you.
Love always,
Beast Boy
I pick up my suitcase and look at my room for the last time. Tears start rolling down my cheeks as I realize I’m leaving my home. I’m doing this for Raven I remind myself. I open the door. I am about to walk into the hall, when I realize that someone is standing in front of my doorway, about to knock.
(A/N: Just out of curiosity, who do you think is standing in front of BB’s door. Let me know in your reviews. I already know who, but I’m curious. Is it Robin? Starfire? Cyborg? or Raven? Tell me what you think)
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I’ll Be
Chapter 14
Beast Boy’s POV
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Five days later
I’m lying in my bed staring at the ceiling. It’s been a couple of days since I’ve been released from the hospital, and personally, nothing’s changed. The others still treat me the same. If it wasn’t for Raven, I would’ve tried to kill myself again. Actually, now that I think about it, if it weren’t for Raven, I would be dead right now. I’m not sure if I should feel grateful or not.
I guess I haven’t really given the others a chance. Ever since I arrived home, I’ve been in my room. I just feel like I need time to think about things. But the more I think, the more the pain keeps surrounding me. A quiet voice breaks into my thoughts.
“Hey”
I look down from my bed and see Raven standing in my room, holding a tray in her hands. She flies up and places the tray next to me. “How are you feeling, darling?” Raven asks.
I shrug my shoulders. I am shocked to see the food on my plate. Tofu. “Where did you get the tofu? I thought Cy tossed it all out!” I ask amazed.
“I went to the store.” Raven says, stating the obvious.
“Oh.” I say sheepishly. I smile at her gratefully.
“You never answered my question, Gar.” she says quietly.
I don’t really want to tell her how I’m feeling. I don’t want to bring pain upon her again. So I decide to do what I do best. Play stupid. “What question?”
“You know what question Garfield!” she snaps.
“I’m feeling fine.” I lie, keeping my eyes away from her.
“No you’re not.”
“Then why did you bother to ask?”
“Because I was hoping you’d open up to me. Please open up to me.”
“I’m just not sure if I can forgive them or not. They hurt me so much, Rae. I’m so scared that if I forgive them, that the same thing will happen all over again, and the pain will come back. I don’t want the pain to come back. And it’s not like they’re trying to show that they care-that is if they care in the first place.”
“That’s because I showed them something. I sent them into the past and made them feel what you felt. They feel way too guilty to say or do anything. They don’t think they deserve your forgiveness. Now whether you’re willing to forgive them or not is up to you, but you can’t avoid them forever. You have to come out of this room sometime. Besides, I miss seeing you joking around and trying to get me to smile. I just want things to go back to the way they used to be.”
I finish the tofu. Raven uses her powers to send the tray back into the kitchen. Then she moves over and wraps her arms around me. I trace her back with my fingers, smelling her hair. “Rae,” I whisper.
“Yeah.”
“I don’t know if I’ve ever told you this but thank you for being here for me. If it wasn’t for you, I would’ve made the biggest mistake of my life. Thank you.” I say, kissing her cheek.
“Gar, I would never have forgiven myself if I didn’t stop you from killing yourself. I love you so much, I would’ve died with you. Your very welcome.”
Raven kisses me passionately. “I have to go meditate before bed. I love you, Beast Boy.”
“I love you too, Raven,” I say back, returning the kiss. I lay back in my bed. I don’t close my eyes until Raven has left my room.
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I found myself lying on the ground in my room. I can’t remember how I got there, or what had happened the previous night. I realized it’s the daytime. I got up and stretched. I was startled when I heard a voice shout my name. I recognized it as Robin’s.
“BEAST BOY!! GET DOWN HERE!!!”
I didn’t like the sound of his voice. Either something really bad was happening downtown, or I’m in serious trouble. I hurried out of my room and headed to the living room. I was shocked by what I saw.
Police officers were all over the living room, taking photographs, talking to Robin. I felt confused. What’s going on here? I saw Robin point at me as I entered the room. My heart started pounding. What’s going on here? I felt very nervous when an officer approached me.
“Are you Garfield Logan?” an officer asked me.
I stared at him in confusion. “Yes, what’s the problem, officer?”
I started shaking when I felt the officer handcuff my hands behind me. “You are under arrest for the murder of Raven Roth.”
“What?” I gasped in panic. “I wouldn’t. I’d never hurt her!” I shouted in desperation.
I looked around for support. Robin’s face is full of hatred. Cyborg was glaring at me. I looked over and found Starfire sobbing by a figure on the ground, her body all torn up. I recognized her as Raven. Tears started running down my face as I saw the scratches on her and the blood around. I started shaking harder when I saw her lifeless body. I looked down at my clothes and realized they’re all torn up, and that scratches were all over my body. . I realized that the Beast within me must have escaped again.
“No!” I screamed, falling to my knees. I shut my eyes as the tears fell down my face. “Robin!! Please believe me!! I’d never hurt her!!!! Cy, buddy, please!” They glared at me as the police lead me out of the tower. I felt as though my life has ended. I had lost the most important person to me. The only person who believed in me. I’m so sorry, Raven I thought to myself as I was put into the police car. I’m so sorry.
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I wake up in a cold sweat. I realize I’m still in bed. That was just a dream? I ask myself in tremendous relief. Thank God. I sit up and bury my face in my hands. That dream felt so real. I could feel the hatred, I could feel the pain. I remember the look on Robin and Cyborg’s face in my dream. I remember how torn up Raven’s body was in my dream. What if I lose control? I ask myself. What if it really happens?
I get off my bed and start pacing around my room. Images of my dream keep flashing in my mind. I consider killing myself again, but remember the promise I made to Raven. After a few minutes, I come up with a solution. I must leave before the Beast takes over me again. I must leave before my dream actually happens. As I pull out a suitcase, I feel much calmer. The team won’t have to worry about me anymore. They can forget about their guilt, and everyone will be safe and sound. I’m not sure of where I’m going, but all I know is I have to get out of this tower.
I walk over to my desk and pull out a piece of paper. On it I quickly write:
Raven,
I’m leaving to find a place to control the beast within me. Please don’t come looking for me. I’ll return someday. I’ll never forget you.
Love always,
Beast Boy
I pick up my suitcase and look at my room for the last time. Tears start rolling down my cheeks as I realize I’m leaving my home. I’m doing this for Raven I remind myself. I open the door. I am about to walk into the hall, when I realize that someone is standing in front of my doorway, about to knock.
(A/N: Just out of curiosity, who do you think is standing in front of BB’s door. Let me know in your reviews. I already know who, but I’m curious. Is it Robin? Starfire? Cyborg? or Raven? Tell me what you think)
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