Note: This takes place shortly before Sirius breaks out of Azkaban.

Lost hope

Azkaban. Alone. Friendless. Because of someone elseÕs betrayal.

The situation he was in reminded Sirius slightly of a song he had once heard. Unbidden, it came to his mind.

Where once was light

Now darkness falls

So long in Azkaban drove most people mad. Even if they were innocent. As he was.

Where once was love

Love is no more

Sirius was not insane. But he held more anger than one person should.

DonÕt say goodbye

DonÕt say I didnÕt try

He had convinced James and Lily to make Peter their Secret-Keeper in a last desperate bid for his friendsÕ lives. Instead, Peter had betrayed them. They were dead. Harry, their son, was an orphan. And Sirius was in Azkaban.

These tears we cry

Are falling rain

For all the lies you told us

The hurt, the blame

Peter had lied to all of them. Sirius, James, Lily, Remus...

And we will weep

To be so alone

He was alone. Even if he did get out of Azkaban, if he did escape, he would never be accepted by any of his former friends.

We are lost

We can never go home

ÔHomeÕ for Sirius was not his family home, but wherever his friends were. It was definitely not Azkaban, at any rate.

So in the end

IÕll be what I will be

What was that for Sirius? An outcast?

No loyal friend

Was ever there for me

That, at least, did not apply to Sirius.

Sirius had finally gotten out. And had finally gotten to Peter. They were in the Shrieking Shack now, Sirius, Peter, Remus, Harry, and Ron Weasley and Hermione Granger, HarryÕs best friends. He had explained everything. And they had believed him. Peter had been RonÕs pet, and when Sirius and Remus had cast the spell to force him to become human again, there was Peter, cringing on the floor.

Now we say goodbye

We say you didnÕt try

Finally. He had finally found Peter.

These tears you cry

Have come too late

Peter was crying. Not with remorse, though, with fear. He was scared? Good. Serve him right, the traitor.

Take back the lies

The hurt, the blame

Peter could apologize all he wanted. The damage was done. And irreversable.

And you will weep

When you face the end alone

You are lost

You can never go home

Harry had not let Remus and Sirius kill Peter. And Voldemort had risen. But Sirius was sure of one thing. When the end came, Peter would be the one friendless. For Sirius had friends again, for the first time in many years. His name was not cleared, but that was a minor disadvantage. He had friends. And that was quite enough for him.

Based on GollumÕs Song

Composed by Howard Shore for Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers

Sung by Emiliana Torrini

AuthorÕs Note: Yes, I know this song wasnÕt around when the songfic takes place, but who really cares? ^_~ This is my 2 nd Sirius songfic, and quite a bit darker than the other one.