You may not think this is a fanfiction, but it is meant to be of the extremely rare simulation-fiction. This is for my pally-pal Laken. She belongs to my RPG site The Forest Area © (http://www.the-forest-area.cityslide.com). There was some teasing going on the site that I didn't know of and before I knew it her sister was on saying she had cut her wrists and was in the hospital because she thought everybody hated her. I don't know if this is true but I no longer have my e-mail buddy mailing me everyday like she used to and I always noticed that Laken was semi-suicidal. To Laken and Autumn:

GET WELL LAKEN! We miss you!

When was the last time you made a joke about somebody's hair, or style, or just anything about him or her, and failed to notice it was hurting inside? You wouldn't know? Would you?

You go to your favourite chat site find out some of your friends are on. You talk to them for a while and you end up telling one of them they have bad grammar. Suddenly they have to go. You make a date for the same time day. The person you insulted is on but she leaves as soon as you contact him or her. The next day they don't want to talk to you. You ask them why they are so busy. They tell you that they are leaving the site.

Did a friend ever misunderstand you?

You turn on your computer later and see a chain letter. It's got bad things in it but it's all about friendship and you think it's really neat. You send it to ten people on your list so your wish will come true and you won't have bad luck. A reply comes back from someone you thought was your friend telling you chain letters are nasty and that you're selfish and don't care about them. The thing is, you wanted to show them that you do, but they just hate you…

When was the last time a friend made fun of you?

You go to your favourite RPG site and someone tells you that they do not like the way you play your characters. Apparently you have too many and you are selfish because that is only to raise your rank, but you really just wanted more variety and you didn't know what species to choose. They just don't understand.

When was the last time you hurt?

It hurts too much. Why not more pain? And there just happens to be a knife on the table.

When was the last time you chased butterflies?

When was the last time you ran in green fields? When was the last time you told someone you loved them? When was the last time you showed mercy on someone and went out with him or her even though you were a bit tired? When was the last time you played with an animal? When was the last time you made something special for someone special? When was the last time you gave somebody a nice surprise they weren't expecting? When was the last time you celebrated a special time with friend or family? When was the last time you went out for dinner? When was the last time you showed some skin? When was the last time you tried something new? When was the last time you were happy?

Are you really that unfortunate?

There are dying orphans with malaria and no drinking water. There are little child and old people alike dying of a disease in the hospital. There are people that can't go outside again. There are people that will never walk again. There are people that have breathed in and gotten anthrax because they thought it was safe to open their mail. There are people that have drunken a drink and discovered that they have a disease later on. There are people living in boxes by the hundreds in the train station in Tokyo alone. There are people that have been raped or have been hated or have been suspected to abuse. If they can stand up to life so can you. Go tell somebody you love him or her or make something special for a friend or somebody in your family. Spend some time with someone you love instead of saying no because you might not always have the chance to. And if someone you care about does something rotten take the time to figure out why. I can love. I can forgive. You can too.

Are you winning?

When you stand up to life and love and don't waste your time hating you win. Are you winning?