Fan Fiction ❯ Memoirs of a Broken Heart ❯ Chapter 1

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It was about a month ago when I met her.
We were at the local donut shop...
She was sitting by herself enjoying a cup of tea enjoying a book.
They called my number and said my order was ready, so I got up.
Unfortunately, I scooted a bit too far back, and bumped into her.
I got her tea spilled all over her shirt.
I apologised and offered her to buy another cup of tea...
That's when our eyes met.
I saw her beautiful brown eyes and her face...
She turned away and blushed a bit.
That was the beginning of our relationship... or so I thought.

We ended up exchanging numbers and talked together for quite a bit.
Eventually, we got our first date set up.
It wasn't anything special, we just went to the mall and had lunch together.
While we ate and talked, she started to stand out even more.
I was in love.
I was a bit shy to ask what she thought of me.
She said I was adorable. I guess the glasses DO work.
We talked a bit more after we finished our lunch...
Every word she said was like a symphony.
She wasn't a supermodel. She wasn't the hottest girl on Earth.
But she was so pretty. Pretty enough for me.
I tried to fight my nerves to say three words...
...but I couldn't.
I was so shy, but it seemed she liked me because of that.

As days pass, I keep bashing on myself in my room.
I want to say that I want to be with her.
I want to confess my feelings for her.
I want to tell her that I love her.
But I didn't have the guts to say it.

Every night, I keep having dreams about her.
I always dream we're cuddling in bed.
She would always be in my arms...
But like every good dream, they have to end.
And I would always find the pillow in my arms instead of under my head...

So, we went on a couple more dates.
One time, we went to the movies.
I can't remember what movie we actually watched, but it was one of those romances...
I remember the most powerful scene in the movie.
The actor and actress got back together after years of hardship.
She sat right beside me. I looked at her and she was crying...
and holding my hand.
When I noticed, I wanted to do something.
Something inside me told me to make the move.
But I couldn't.
All I could to was let her hold my arm and cry.
I wanted to cry too, but guys aren't supposed to cry...

The last day of our relationship, I'll never forget.
We were walking in the park when she made the shocking confession.
"I... already have a boyfriend."
We both stopped walking. I was devastated.
"I'm sorry..."
And she ran away.
I tried to reach out and grab her but I barely missed.

I haven't talked to her since.
I'm always kicking myself because I couldn't get myself to confess.
Would it have mattered? She already had a boyfriend...

Now, I live without a purpose.
Every night, I cry myself to sleep.
The dream I used to have is no longer there.
She's gone. Gone forever.

I can't get rid of these feelings for her, though.
I still daydream about her beautiful eyes...
Her sweet voice...
Her lovable personality...
I can't get over it.

You know who you are.
If you're reading this...
...I love you.