Fan Fiction ❯ My Serenity ❯ Endings and Beginnings ( Chapter 1 )
This is a story I thought up off of a few different things mainly my obsession with Sesshoumaru but actually he really isn't even in the story that much….weird actually. I am sure… no positive that something like this has been done before but I wanted to write it and still am. The chapters will be as long as I can make them. I actually read a lot and I never realized until now how hard it can be to make a really long chapter. I now know your pain! O and I am sorry about the spelling I know it can suck at times….sorry. Please review!
My only disclaimer is that I don't own Sesshoumaru-sama in reality but in my heart…well anyway he isn't my property grumbles slightly he is the gifted mind of Takahasi…. I love you Sessho!! !
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Endings and Beginnings
"Why are you doing this?" Lindsey a skinny girl dressed in a pair of jeans and a Led Zeppelin t-shirt asked. I regarded her as an acquaintance maybe a friend…. Somewhere in-between. " I feel at Serenity with myself… Nothing seems wrong" I answered my voice in its distant uncaring state. " That doesn't make any sense" She answered her voice growing shrilly. " You are going to kill yourself and that is something that seems wrong to me." She said almost yelled. I smile graced my lips my eyes shining their empty gray " If I only were so lucky, " I said wistfulness lathered in my voice. " I want nothing better than to leave this hell of a world behind… No one will notice anyway," I said pulling up my sleeve to look at the many scars and bloody gashes that formed intricate designs across my wrist and inside lower arm. " I will notice, " she said in a pleading voice. " Yes your life will be a lot easier… You wont have anyone to worry over will you?" I asked turning away my auburn red hair flowing around me as I turned away from her. " See you later" I said walking away from her, her brown eyes looking worried after me. I walked home boredly cursing the damn sun and my…. Father…. " He really won't notice I'm gone… he doesn't even know I am still alive" I thought ironically " I don't blame mom for leaving him" I walked in the large apartment building that I called home. It was a nice apartment spacious and I didn't have to share it " dad's generosity…or to him Duty" I thought throwing off the black jacket I had been wearing it lying in the floor. "This will end tonight…. I cannot take this feeling of utter nothingness inside if me any longer." Was the last coherent thought I think I had that day. Now I lay here on my back resting peacefully against the soft covers of my bed darkness consuming everything in my sight. The knife I couldn't any longer see but I knew it lay stained with the color of crimson on the floor below. I held my arms to my sides my breathing ragged. " I didn't hurt anymore than this pain I have had all my life" I thought before passing out the world ending its painful grip on my life. My arms still bleed freely the pulse in my right arm evidently severed due to its excessive bleeding. A large gash on my upper chest was flowing crimson stripes down my lower chest and stomach. Pale skin turned red… hair stained with its own color " It is over" I thought when I started and ended. "It's over"
"She did it… She went through with it" A girl said dressed in a black dress staring down at coffin laid in a deep hole rain beating down endlessly on everything that was beneath the forbidding sky. " She told me… But I just didn't believe her…." Lindsey said her eyes filled with regret. " I should've stopped her… Something.. anything…." She said sadly guilt heavy on her voice " There was nothing you could've done… She wanted to die… She has wanted to for a while" one of her friends said trying to comfort the girl. "Her dad didn't even come… Hell he didn't even know she was dead until two days later when the school noticed she hasn't come for the last two days." The girl said anger in her voice. " I hope you have found you serenity Teles…" Lindsey said as her and the other girl walked away from the grave leaving the desolate hallowed ground of death.
"Is this what death feels like?" I asked myself my eyes closed my body feeling as if it was floating in an endless abyss. "Is this my hell?" I thought momentarily before my whole body became void of thought besides the burning and straining feeling as my body began to violently. I was unable to open my eyes my heart racing panic, fear, and pain running through my veins. My body began to freeze lungs on fire as the feeling began to intensify. Claws painfully growing where fingernails used to be, bone constricting and growing. I let out a strained moan of agony as bone began to grow painfully from my back. My eyes shot open their color a glacier blue. Pain burning like icy flames in my eyes. I saw a silhouette of "a demon" I thought vaguely as it approached my convulsing body. All of a sudden it plunged into my own body as I let out a blood-curling scream. It all sopped all the pain, feelings numbed from everything, and I feel… A fallen angel dropping in a dark abyss of nothing… loosing all serenity and hopes I had at the thought.
" Your Journey is not yet over young one," a forbidding voice said from nowhere. I tried to move, open my eyes, nothing… my body paralyzed into a state of total helplessness. " I will grant you a gift… the power to control the demonic presence within yourself" it said again a warm comforting feeling engulfing my body making all the pain, soreness, and paralyzes seep out of my body " You long for serenity" I said the warmth still coursing through my veins. " Use these gifts for that purpose and you may find what you seek" it said all the warmth leaving my body a grunt of displeasure escaping my lips at the loss of its comfort. The voice said nothing more and I was left to wonder at its origin as I opened my eyes to a forbidding world of darkness to moon shining high above me its cool glow offering no comfort to the world below. There were buildings around me broken down and destroyed. No life seemed to reside in this place. I sat up using my hands to hold myself up. My body chilled at the cold night air as the wind whipped about me. I crossed my arms across my chest trying to warm myself. "Where the hell am I?" I thought looking down at my pale skin in the moonlight obviously clothing didn't come with the gift the voice was talking about. I tried to stand up my body swaying slightly vision blurring in and out as I stumbled over to an old crumbling brick wall. My senses made me alert to another approaching me " interesting" I thought before turning my head alarmed at the man " What is a pretty girl such as yourself doing out here all by yourself? " he asked smiling at me his body emerging from the shadows. He was tall, taller than me but then again I wasn't a very tall person. He has a muscular frame and I knew from my current physical condition I couldn't out run him and I certainly couldn't fight him. His eyes were almost black filled with the sick shade of lust and evil. As he came closer to me I felt something surge up in my chest, a burning need and desire for something I didn't know. He grabbed my lower arm that was still held against my chest and pulled my towards him. A snarl escaped my lips surprise in his eyes as well as mine as the sound penetrated the air. I wrenched my arm out of his grasp and pulled it back to my own body my eyes looking at him something burning deep within them. He grabbed me again " come on" he said softly wanting me to come with him. I refused and tried pulling away again but he wouldn't let go. Panic began to surge through my veins and in an attempt to get away I scratched his face with my other hand blood trickling down his cheek. I looked at in transfixed with it and suddenly I knew what the desire burning with it me was…. Blood… I wanted blood. I eyes began to glow a glacial blue strength began to surge through me and claws began to grow where my nails once were " what the hell" the man said before I grabbed him by collar with my free arm and threw him against the wall causing a satisfying crunch of the bricks smashing and maybe his bones shattering. I held him above my head my arm breaking free from his grip and both hands held on his collar my dagger like claws looming dangerously in front of his neck. " Looks can be deceiving" I said my voice deadly as fangs began to grow from my canines reaching my lower lip. He let out a gasp of fear as I jammed them into his neck knowing instinctively where the jugular vein was and what pressure was needed to break it. He let out a scream of agony as I sucked hungrily at the broken vein letting the blood of life flowing into my own dead body. I sucked at it until I felt his heart slow then stop his blood's taste growing old and beginning to clot. I dropped him to the ground with a satisfying thud. The ecstasy from the feed still lingering in me making me more like a demonic animal than an actual civilized being…. Then again was I supposed to be civilized? I sensed another presence and was fully ready to kill this intruder for my own enjoyment. I snarled at the presence as it made itself seen in the shadows a silhouette if a man yellow eyes glowing form the unknown dark. I ran at him with demonic speed arms out stretched; claws fully extended my eyes full of bloodlust. I went for his neck trying to render him helpless of the ground as I did the man now lying in his own blood. As I grabbed him by the collar his hand shot up to grab mine wrenching it off his collar, and jerking my around grabbing my other hand and holding me tight against his chest. I struggled uselessly against him his strength obviously out powering me. I growled and snarled against him a bizarre feeling came over me. I felt me body grow dramatically colder my eyes beginning to burn with an icy intensity. I felt them man grunt behind me "Don't do that" he said sending a burning sensation through my lungs causing me to jump slightly in his grip. "Let me go" I growled desperately trying to get away. "If I do" he whispered into my ear "Then you must promise me you wont try to kill me. I have no wish to kill you and you certainly stand no chance against me," he whispered arrogantly finishing his threat with a delicate nip at my ear lobe as he let me go. I pulled away from him snarling deadly at the unwanted contact. I got a good look at him as his hood had fallen his dark and aura and presence corrupted by the moonlight gracing the pale dead looking skin of his face. His features where chiseled he had high cheek bones his hair a charcoal black styled in messy spikes that hung messily over parts of his face perfectly complimenting his yellow doggish eyes. "Who the hell are you?" I asked my mind fighting against the instincts to slay this man. " My name is Dante" he said his voice calm and silky " and I believe I am the only one who will take you in" he finished his gaze never leaving my eyes as he spoke. I noticed his hands that hung at his side had sharp dagger claws were he fingernails were as did mine. "Where the hell am I?" I asked my vision beginning to blur my exhausted body beginning to grow heavy with every passing moment. "Now is not the moment" he said approaching my slowly trying not to alarm me and have me attack again. He took a trench coat he had on and handed it to me. I blushed slightly realizing that I had been exposed through out the encounter. I heard him chuckle slightly as I put it on pulling it tightly around me "We should be going Daylight is fast approaching and lower demons will smell the spilt blood." He said looking me over finally after covering me. 'She isn't that bad to look at' he thought his eyes sweeping across my small form and auburn hair clashing with blue eyes. I looked up at him apprehensively "Why should I go with you?" I asked stepping cautiously away from him knowing I couldn't fight again my eyes growing heavier as we as my body began to painfully ache. "Let me explain later" he said pleadingly "please we don't have much time" he said again his eyes beginning to full with worry pleading silently. He held his hand out to me and I looked at him momentarily with uncertainty before putting my hand in his. "Hold on" he said hoisting me into his arms causing me to squeak in fright as he jumped high in the air landing in a crumbling rooftop and took off running with demonic speed. I grasped his chest tightly fright constricting me chest. "I wont drop you," he said tightening his hold on me much to my pleasure. " You better not" I said loosening my grip slightly on his chest. I felt sleep once again pull at my sleepy eyes. " Its alright sleep" the voice said again softly. I fought with myself not wanting to fall asleep in this man's arms that I barely knew. Warmth began to radiate through me and it felt increasingly hard to stay awake. I involuntarily snuggled closer to him closing my eyes as he vaulted and ran through the desolate wasteland that was once a city. I awoke from a light sleep as he landed with a complete stop "Home Sweet Home" he said stopping in front of a pile of rubble a small tunnel forming through the jagged rocks. " You live here?" I asked amazed that someone could live in something like that. He nodded walking into the darkness ducking his head slightly to keep from getting hit. As he walked into the dark abyss holding me to his body I became slightly panicked as the darkness clouded my vision all together making everything disappear. I remembered the last time I had been in darkness like this and I flinched at the painful feelings grasping tightly onto his chest. "Afraid of the dark are we?" he asked his gait smooth as he continued to somehow navigate himself through the darkness. "The last time I was in it…. It hurt" I said slightly scared but comforted by the sound of his voice. "Yes I know," he said to my amazement "How do you…" I started but was cut off by him "Tomorrow curious one" He laid me down easily on something soft darkness still enveloping everything. I reached out to him as he put me down not wanting to be alone. "It's alright" he comforted holding my hand in his. "Your safe here" he said his eyes glowing their bright yellow looking into my blue. "I don't want to be alone" I said feeling rather embarrassed at what I had just said. I felt him gently push me on my shoulders letting go of my hand. "Sleep now" he said still beside me. I snuggled down into the warm softness I was on and closed my eyes fear still knotting in my chest. I felt his hand rake across my cheek " It's alright" he soothed repeating the gesture until I fell into a deep sleep. He looked down at me with gentle eyes taking his hand away as I went unconscious beside him. He smelled the sun rising in the darkened night and went over to a corner and sat down leaning his back against the wall his chin went to his chest and he slowly fell asleep his ears still listening intently till he blacked out at my soft breathing.