Fan Fiction ❯ Never ❯ Windows ( Chapter 1 )

[ Y - Young Adult: Not suitable for readers under 16 ]

I couldn’t help it. My wanting him. I know I really shouldn’t, but could you blame me? Hair the color of raven feathers, skin the perfect cream color. His eyes the color of midnight. His dark clothes that compliment his complexion perfectly. His beautiful rapturous voice that fills the air like a god. His perfect body. Not overly muscular, but not under either. The body of a deity. So beautiful. He could easily bring Apollo or Narcissus to shame. His heart so kind and pure. So friendly. He has the heart of a hero. Brave, caring, and loyal. What more could you possibly ask for? And yet…I could never have him. Never feel the touch of his smooth warm hands…never to be more than a friend. Never…my life means nothing without him. Each day I only rise to see him. My only meaning. But now seeing him brings me no comfort. No, now it only brings me a constant ache that won’t die!
My father’s home, I can hear his car. How odd. He always comes at exactly the same time. Never a minute ahead or a minute behind. Always at exactly the same time. He never gets graveyard, or gets held up at work. It’s weird.
What’s even weirder is that he never has told me what he works as. My mom doesn’t even know. And we know he has a job because every week he has his paycheck, but he never shows it to us directly. He also practically never sleeps. He always stays up at night. I think he does paperwork, but I haven’t the courage to actually look.
Now my mind wanders back to my divinity. If only I could see him one last time…I’ve been planning my death for weeks now. I plan to slash my throat and my wrist, and as I bleed, I hang myself, to let my blood drip of my sin. I don’t deserve life. I don’t deserve him. My death is not only due to my love of him, but the negligence of my parents. My father so reserved and never there and my mother always drunk and abusive. No one cares enough about me to even notice the tears I cry every day. Isn’t it apparent that I cry everyday? My eyes always with the look of pain and betrayal. I have wept so much that my tears are now as crimson as the breast of the lovely robin.
Am I to never to know love? Never to know what it feels like to be loved? I hear my father’s footsteps. He’s probably going to his study, like always. He seems to love that desk of his more than my mother or me. Then all of a sudden I heard tapping at my window. Weird I’ve never had a visitor before. How pleasant if it were some mass murderer. That way he’d kill me and make my job easier.
I slowly walked to my window, holding my special knife behind my back instinctively, like I‘d actually fight back. I slowly unlocked my window. What I saw made my heart stop and my breath get caught. The very one I had been pining for had climbed up the vine gate and to my window! How very Shakespearian!
“Uhh…Stephen…what are you doing here?” I said trying to be casual.
“I’m hungry,” he said gruffly. He sounded like he hasn’t eaten in decades! Even if he looked perfectly healthy.
“But you look fine, do you nee-”
“No!! I need…I need,” he looked at me almost pleading, but at lost of what to say. Then he looked at my hand that held my jeweled knife. “What were you planning on doing before I came?”
“Uhh…cut lettuce?” I said not sure what to say.
“Bullshit, a knife like that is never used for food. You were going to commit suicide. Why didn’t you tell me you had problems?” he looked at me critically. “If you needed help you could have asked.” he then walked real close to me. “I am here for you.” he then cupped my cheek. I could have died happy at that instant. “Evan you’re not alone, never think of death.”
“No…I am alone. I’m just a freak! I’m just an asset. I can easily be replaced. I mean who really does give a fuck about me? You’re just saying that cause you’re nice to everyone! It could have been anyone to be holding a knife and you probably would have done and said the same damn shit you’re saying now! No one, and I mean no one, gives a shit about me.” I said feeling a sudden surge of spite toward him. I could never actually hate him, but I am extremely envious of him. He’s perfect.
“No. No else is like you. I trust you far more than anyone else. That’s why I’m here and not somewhere else. I need you. You are the only one I trust enough to come to. I know you’d never betray me, or lie to me. You’ve always been my most loyal and reliable friend,” he said caressing my cheek again and practically crooning in my ear.
“Why? Why me? What do you need?” I said relaxing to his touch.
“I need you. You see there’s an aspect about me that I will only reveal to you, and only you. I don’t want anyone else to know about it and I know that you’d never do anything to betray me.”
“Why do you say that?”
“Cause you love me.” he said so plainly and sure, but how did he know!? “I know because I can see into your heart and mind. And no, I’m not a psychic.”
“Then what are you? I mean you are going to tell me, if it means me helping you.” Now I was curious. I mean come on!! The guy knew this whole damn time, but hasn’t said a thing! It must be pretty damn important to hide it. I almost killed myself!
“Yes, but I have to tell you this first, please, I beg of you, don’t think of me as anything less or despise me. Please don’t treat me different,” he said with a pleading sad look in his eyes.
“ Couldn’t hate you or feel anything less than what I feel for you now. And you should know that, if you’ve poking around my mind all this time. There’s no way in a million millennia’s that I could hate you.” I said and made him chuckle.
“I know, but I really don’t want you to think me different.”
“Not that I’m really enjoying you saying that stuff about me, but why do you care so much about what I think and what I feel about you? I mean there has to be hundreds of girls that feel the way I feel about you. I’m a guy. It means I’m gay. It’s supposed to be discouraged, not encouraged.”
“That’s the thing, I can care less about your gender. As long as you love me, and I know that you’d never do anything to hurt me or anything like that.”
“Hm..”
“Why don’t you believe me?”
“I’ve been hurt by a person that told me something like that. How do I know you won’t turn around and break me like he did?”
“I’m telling you something that’s really big for me. I want you and only you to know! Is that enough!? I’m entrusting you with my life! Please Evan I Ahhh!!” he said then collapsed on the floor clinging to himself and crying.
“Steve!! Are you okay?!” I said and held him close.
“It’s funny…cough… how you can be so unsure about my words to you…cough… yet you’d do absolutely anything for me...cough…cough” he said sounding real weak.
“Steve tell me how to help you!! I need to know!! I don’t want to loose you! I…I love you too much…tell me now…please stop stalling!” I cried, tears streaming from my cheek. I don’t want to know what it feels like to loose him. I never want to know.
“Ok…it’s…I…please don’t laugh…or…”
“I know! Please Steve!”
“I’m a…I’m a vampire!” he cried sitting up and looking off to the side.
“You’re a? A vampire?” I said shocked. It was so hard to believe, but in my heart I felt it was true. He was so serious about everything. “Steve…so am I right and assuming that you need…my blood?”
He looked up at me and his expression was so surprised, “You…you believe me? You don’t think I’m crazy or…lying?”
“No. Even if you were I wouldn’t care. I can’t seem to feel anything less about you.” I said smiling. He smiled and let a few tears fall and then threw his arms around me.
“I knew I could count on you! Yes…Yes! I haven’t fed in a long time…in too much of a long time. I’m getting weak. I can’t die, but I will suffer if I don’t feed and I was hoping if…you…that is…if you want to be…my…my…my mate!” he sputtered and looked off to the side again and let go of me.
“Your what? Uh…I…hmm…you mean as like a life partner?” I asked and he nodded. “Only if you don’t mind that you’ll be stuck with a worthless, pathetic human, that’s overly depressive and suicidal. Then okay.”
“Evan…you’re not worthless, you’re the most valuable thing to me. You’re not a pathetic human, if you were you would have never caught my attention. And about the other two things well, I’m just gonna have to make you extremely happy and suicide would be absolutely impossible if you mate me. If you mate me, you too will become a vampire, you’ll be with me for eternity, of course we’ll have to feed, but we can feed from one another, and we can never leave each other. We will forever be bonded to the other.”
“So it’s like marriage without the annoying relatives hanging around?”
“Yes.”
“You shouldn’t have even asked me. It’s the biggest duh in the world what my answer will be.”
“Really? Then what is it?” he said with a teasing smile. He wants me to say it.
“It’s yes handsome.” I said kissing him gently on his cheek. Receiving a blush from him. I can’t believe I did that?! Where the hell did I get balls enough to do that!? Or even say that!? I must be going mad!! It must be a dream! I must be dreaming! Yeah that’s it! Or is it the Matrix and I’m just manipulating the program to do what I want it to!
“Haha! You have such funny thoughts! But that’s why I love you.” he said gently cuddling against me. Oops! Forgot! He can read my mind!
“You…you love me?” I said trying not to think too much. As if it were possible, my mind went to mush right when he said those words.
“Yes. Why else would I want to be with you forever?”
“True. Steve before I become your mate. I need to know. How come you starved yourself?”
“I wanted you. I wanted to drink from you. No one could satisfy my thirst except you. I had such a strong desire for you, if I drank from anyone else I’d kill them. If I drank from you in that fit of desire; I’d damn near drink you dry. I finally came to you when I gained control of myself. If I mate you. I can’t kill you. And you’d have a near infinite amount of blood so that you and I can drink from each other and neither of us will need to drink from any other living creature. You and I will live upon each other.”
“So you waited all this time, knowing that I’m virtually obsessed with you, to come to me and tell me that your life depended on drinking my blood?”
“Yes.”
“Do it.”
“What?”
“What we have to do so that I’ll be yours.”
“You have no idea how kinky that sounded.” he said his eyes changing to a slightly silver color.
“Whoa you’re eyes!” I said shocked at that odd color and quick change.
“Uhh…”he grunted and then pinned me down. He began licking my neck and feeling my body. It felt so good! He began grinding me, making me insanely hard. He was grunting and was damn near animalistic! He then unexpectedly bit into my neck, but I could tell he didn’t drink.
“Steve?” I said breathless and very aroused.
“I have to… wait…just a little longer…then I can claim you …and I can feed on you…please wait…wait till…soon!” he said breathless. I could tell he also was very aroused and weak. Please soon. I cried in my head. I don’t want him to suffer long.
“What was the bite for?” I said trying to ignore how I felt.
“I had to put something… in your body… to turn you into a vampire…it works slowly…but if…all goes well then…we’ll be together forever.”
“Wait if all goes well?” I said completely forgetting my hard-on.
“I didn’t want to worry you, but if what you and I feel for each other isn’t love, then we both die…” he said and looked down.
“Both die?”
“Yes but there’s no doubt in my mind that you and I feel anything less then love! Please don’t hate me!”
“Dork, you should know by now, I could never hate you.” I said and gently placed a kiss on his cheek. “Promise me that you’ll stay with me.”
“Of course. It’s too late to turn back now anyway. You and I will have to live with each other forever now.” he said smiling and kissed me gently.
“I can’t believe this is really happening. You a vampire and actually loving me! It’s all almost unreal. I do hope this is real.” I said and nestled in his arms.
“Do you wish me to bite from you again? Or do you want me to do something a little more kinky?” he said teasingly.
“Please oh please kinky!” I said playfully. How our relationship had changed! Before we would talk to each other hours on end about books, games, movies, television shows, and stuff like that, but we had never played around like we were doing now. It seemed we were both far too shy to speak to each other like that. But now here we are flirting and teasing each other in so many different ways. It felt like an invisible load of tenseness had been carried off. We were now so unbelievably comfortable with each other and neither of us cared about anything anymore. It was finally happy in my life. The sudden happiness in my life was the last thing I thought of before I drifted into a peaceful sleep in my boyfriend’s arms.
***
When I woke up the next day, the warmth that had comforted me throughout the night was gone. Or maybe it was never there. Maybe I just made it all up in my mind. No, I can feel the bite on my neck, or maybe because I’m thinking that something’s there I can feel it. As I got up, a sudden tremor coursed through my body. It caused my body to collapse on the floor in a fit of pain. From the bite on my neck, that I now know is there, a cool liquid feeling went to my veins and through out my body. It’s hard to describe what exactly it felt like, but I’ll try, it was something like a shiver, but more like an ice cube melting on the inside, no, it was more like lava going through my body. I really don’t know how describe it, but the sensations it brought were insane. Imagine some foreign, freezing, liquid going through your veins into your entire body. It’s an odd feeling. While my body was doing weird stuff, think something like a seizure, my head also began experiencing entirely different things. First my face got insanely hot, and I began feeling light-headed. My face began to feel like it was being mashed and molded. My eyes began to sting very painfully. My mouth was also beginning to feel weird. It kind of like when you go to the dentist and they’re scrapping your teeth, yeah something like that, except instead of scraping it felt like trying to dig into the teeth and your mouth feels cottony.
“Evan? You’re already transforming? But it’s too sudden.” cried a voice I could recognize no matter the situation. It was Steve. He ran up to me and held me. Which just gave me an completely different feeling. Where he was touching it felt soothed of the weird cold feelings and my ‘seizure’ calmed down, but only a little, I was still thrashing around a lot.
“Evan, it’s ok, the pain will go away. Soon.” Steve said holding me tighter and nuzzling my neck. He began whispering comforting words and calming me. Just as quickly as it began it ended and I was panting and crying and my mind still felt like mush. Then Steve looked at me and his eyes went wide and he let off the most cutest blushes I have ever seen, but he quickly shook it off and asked, “Are you feeling okay, Evan?”
“Yes, why? And why did you’re expression change so quickly when you looked at me? Do I look weird?” I asked sitting up.
“No you don’t look weird at all, in fact, it quite the opposite.” he said smiling and pointing at my mirror. I walked to it cautiously. When I saw what he was talking about I would have, if I could kiss myself. I was hot!