Fan Fiction ❯ Returning Home ❯ I Just Don't Know ( Chapter 3 )
[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By: hoshiko20 
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Adventure / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 02.12.2005 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 270 | Status: Completed
Anime/Manga: Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Adventure / Romance | Type: Alternate Universe | Uploaded On: 02.12.2005 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.5K | Visits: 270 | Status: Completed
Chapter 3
Beast boy laid on his bed and stared at the ceiling. ‘How come she never told me? She couldn’t spend two seconds during those seven years to tell me that I had a daughter?!’ He stood up and went to the window that looked over the river. Sighing, he leaned against the frame and was lost in thought.
‘I’m a dad... I don’t know if I can do this! It’s too much to deal with in just one day!’ He rubbed his temples, sighing.
“Garfield?”
He groaned. He did not want to talk to Terra right now. “Go away.” he said bluntly.
“Come on Gar, I wanna talk to you.”
Beast boy sighed and opened the door. Terra came in as he walked back to the window.
“Must be hard, finding out that you have a daughter.” she said, standing next to him.
“Just a bit.”
She wrapped her arms around his waist and laid her head on his shoulder. “What are you going to do?”
Beast boy shook his head. “I don’t know.” he said quietly.
~*~*~
Midnight was heading for Beast boy’s room when her mother walked right by her. Midnight hoped that she was going to see her daddy but the hoped died when she briskly turned into her own room. Surprised by the sudden change in her mother, Midnight opened the door and walked over to her mother.
“Mommy?”
Raven, who had not heard the entrance of her daughter, look up in surprise. Tears threatened to fall as she swept her daughter up in her arms and held her close.
“I’m sorry.” she whispered softly, trailing her hands through her daughters hair.
Midnight pulled away slightly and looked up. “Don’t be.” she kissed her mother’s cheeks and wrapped her arms around her neck in a hug.
Raven sighed and held her. “I never thought he would be mad.”
Midnight shook her head. “I don’t think he’s mad... just... surprised.”
Raven nodded. “Yeah...”
“You should go talk to him.” Midnight pressed on.
Suddenly, Raven smiled. It wasn’t a big smile but she nodded. “Sometimes I wonder how you can be BB’s daughter when you say something so smart.”
Midnight giggled. “You said before he had his moments.” she pointed out.
Raven smiled and kissed her daughter. “True. Now, why don’t you go see what the others are doing. Just stay out of their way if their doing something important.
Midnight nodded and dislodged herself from her mothers arms, running off. Raven took a deep breath and headed for Beast boy’s room.
As she neared it, she heard voices. Pausing outside of his door, she listened.
“What are you going to do?” came the voice of Terra.
“I don’t know.” she then heard something like someone sinking to the ground. “I don’t know! This is just way too much for me to handle! I don’t know how I’m supposed to act around her, I don’t know how to be a father!”
Pained, Raven started to back away but the next thing she heard made her furious.
“You could always leave both of them. Raven seems to be doing a good job taking care of her on her own. Maybe they’ll go back to Azarath where they belong.”
The tone of her voice was rather soft for her statement and Raven refused to just stand there. Using her powers, the door flew open and she calmly walked in. What she saw made her stop short. Beast boy was sitting on the floor and Terra had her arms wrapped around him. Forcing the pain down, she took a deep breath.
Though before she could speak, Terra opened her mouth.
“Look at what you’ve done to him! Bringing back a daughter, how could you? Didn’t you think that it might have been hard on him. You should have just stayed where you belonged.”
“That’s enough Terra.” beast boy said, standing up and walking over to Raven. “Look, I don’t know if I can do this.” he said to her.
Pushing back all the emotion she had so that her eyes were nothing but shadows of the past, she spoke. “You really think it was easy for me? Think again. You try raising a daughter on your own, while trying to run a world, at the age of 17! Do you think I said that I couldn’t do it? I had no choice! She’s my child, our child! I couldn’t leave her and now you think that you can?”
He opened his mouth to speak but she held out her hand. “If you think that you can’t handle this, fine. I’ll leave in a few days and go back to Azarath but know this: She has been waiting forever to see her father and when we go back, she’s going to be heart broken. It won’t be my fault either.” Turning on her heel, she walked briskly from the room leaving Beast boy feeling guiltier than ever. Though she had tried to hide the emotions behind her monotone voice and clouded eyes, she failed to see that she was near tears once more.
As she walked into the lounge, Star saw her and immediately flew over to her friend. “What is wrong?”
Raven stood, silent for a moment before wrapping her arms tightly around Star and crying. Starfire held her and rubbed her back. “It is alright Raven.” She said quietly, over and over again.
“No, no it’s not Star, I have to leave.”
Surprised, Starfire pulled back. “But why?”
“He doesn’t want me here, he doesn’t want either of us here.” she said through sobs.
Robin and Cyborg walked into the lounge and saw the distressed girl. Robin guessed what must have happened and, with the pleading in Star’s eyes, he turned and went to talk to Beast boy with Cyborg following behind him
~*~*~
“Get out.”
“But Garfield!”
“I said GET OUT!” he screamed at the girl.
Fuming, Terra turned and left, almost running into Robin and Cyborg as she did.
“BB?”
He growled. “Will everyone just leave me alone!”
He heard the door shut and a hand fall on his shoulder. “You really hurt her man.” came Cyborg’s calm voice.
Turning around in fury, Beast boy glared at the two in his room. “Go away!”
“No.” Robin stated, crossing his arms over his chest.
“I don’t care about them, just leave me alone!” beast boy said, turning his back on them once more.
“Is that how you really feel?” Robin asked.
“Go away.” Beast boy’s voice was weakening.
“Is it?”
“Just go.” he said in a whisper.
“You care and you know it.”
“Please.” his voice pleading. “I need time.”
“Well time isn’t on your side. From what I heard before walking into the lounge was that Raven’s going to leave.”
Pain clenched at his heart and he turned to the two. “Guys, I don’t know if I can do this! How can she expect me to just welcome her daughter with open arms?”
“Because Midnight is your daughter too.” Cyborg started to say.
“I know, but I don’t know anything about her, nothing!” He cried.
“Beast boy, calm down and listen to what Cy has to say.”
“She’s your daughter, yes I understand that your scared and everything but I don’t think that Raven wants you to just fully come into her life and have everything to be alright. She just wants you to be there and start to get to know her. Nothing happens that fast, she knows that it will take time.” Cyborg said.
Beast boy sighed. “I just don’t know if I can.”
“How do you know if you wont try?” Robin asked.
Beast boy turned back to the window, silent.
“I’m sure she’ll at least stay here for tomorrow. Just get some sleep and talk to her in the morning alright?” Robin said.
“We’ll make sure she doesn’t leave man.”came Cyborg’s voice before the door opened and they left.
“Raven.” he whispered before falling onto his bed in exhaustion.
Beast boy laid on his bed and stared at the ceiling. ‘How come she never told me? She couldn’t spend two seconds during those seven years to tell me that I had a daughter?!’ He stood up and went to the window that looked over the river. Sighing, he leaned against the frame and was lost in thought.
‘I’m a dad... I don’t know if I can do this! It’s too much to deal with in just one day!’ He rubbed his temples, sighing.
“Garfield?”
He groaned. He did not want to talk to Terra right now. “Go away.” he said bluntly.
“Come on Gar, I wanna talk to you.”
Beast boy sighed and opened the door. Terra came in as he walked back to the window.
“Must be hard, finding out that you have a daughter.” she said, standing next to him.
“Just a bit.”
She wrapped her arms around his waist and laid her head on his shoulder. “What are you going to do?”
Beast boy shook his head. “I don’t know.” he said quietly.
~*~*~
Midnight was heading for Beast boy’s room when her mother walked right by her. Midnight hoped that she was going to see her daddy but the hoped died when she briskly turned into her own room. Surprised by the sudden change in her mother, Midnight opened the door and walked over to her mother.
“Mommy?”
Raven, who had not heard the entrance of her daughter, look up in surprise. Tears threatened to fall as she swept her daughter up in her arms and held her close.
“I’m sorry.” she whispered softly, trailing her hands through her daughters hair.
Midnight pulled away slightly and looked up. “Don’t be.” she kissed her mother’s cheeks and wrapped her arms around her neck in a hug.
Raven sighed and held her. “I never thought he would be mad.”
Midnight shook her head. “I don’t think he’s mad... just... surprised.”
Raven nodded. “Yeah...”
“You should go talk to him.” Midnight pressed on.
Suddenly, Raven smiled. It wasn’t a big smile but she nodded. “Sometimes I wonder how you can be BB’s daughter when you say something so smart.”
Midnight giggled. “You said before he had his moments.” she pointed out.
Raven smiled and kissed her daughter. “True. Now, why don’t you go see what the others are doing. Just stay out of their way if their doing something important.
Midnight nodded and dislodged herself from her mothers arms, running off. Raven took a deep breath and headed for Beast boy’s room.
As she neared it, she heard voices. Pausing outside of his door, she listened.
“What are you going to do?” came the voice of Terra.
“I don’t know.” she then heard something like someone sinking to the ground. “I don’t know! This is just way too much for me to handle! I don’t know how I’m supposed to act around her, I don’t know how to be a father!”
Pained, Raven started to back away but the next thing she heard made her furious.
“You could always leave both of them. Raven seems to be doing a good job taking care of her on her own. Maybe they’ll go back to Azarath where they belong.”
The tone of her voice was rather soft for her statement and Raven refused to just stand there. Using her powers, the door flew open and she calmly walked in. What she saw made her stop short. Beast boy was sitting on the floor and Terra had her arms wrapped around him. Forcing the pain down, she took a deep breath.
Though before she could speak, Terra opened her mouth.
“Look at what you’ve done to him! Bringing back a daughter, how could you? Didn’t you think that it might have been hard on him. You should have just stayed where you belonged.”
“That’s enough Terra.” beast boy said, standing up and walking over to Raven. “Look, I don’t know if I can do this.” he said to her.
Pushing back all the emotion she had so that her eyes were nothing but shadows of the past, she spoke. “You really think it was easy for me? Think again. You try raising a daughter on your own, while trying to run a world, at the age of 17! Do you think I said that I couldn’t do it? I had no choice! She’s my child, our child! I couldn’t leave her and now you think that you can?”
He opened his mouth to speak but she held out her hand. “If you think that you can’t handle this, fine. I’ll leave in a few days and go back to Azarath but know this: She has been waiting forever to see her father and when we go back, she’s going to be heart broken. It won’t be my fault either.” Turning on her heel, she walked briskly from the room leaving Beast boy feeling guiltier than ever. Though she had tried to hide the emotions behind her monotone voice and clouded eyes, she failed to see that she was near tears once more.
As she walked into the lounge, Star saw her and immediately flew over to her friend. “What is wrong?”
Raven stood, silent for a moment before wrapping her arms tightly around Star and crying. Starfire held her and rubbed her back. “It is alright Raven.” She said quietly, over and over again.
“No, no it’s not Star, I have to leave.”
Surprised, Starfire pulled back. “But why?”
“He doesn’t want me here, he doesn’t want either of us here.” she said through sobs.
Robin and Cyborg walked into the lounge and saw the distressed girl. Robin guessed what must have happened and, with the pleading in Star’s eyes, he turned and went to talk to Beast boy with Cyborg following behind him
~*~*~
“Get out.”
“But Garfield!”
“I said GET OUT!” he screamed at the girl.
Fuming, Terra turned and left, almost running into Robin and Cyborg as she did.
“BB?”
He growled. “Will everyone just leave me alone!”
He heard the door shut and a hand fall on his shoulder. “You really hurt her man.” came Cyborg’s calm voice.
Turning around in fury, Beast boy glared at the two in his room. “Go away!”
“No.” Robin stated, crossing his arms over his chest.
“I don’t care about them, just leave me alone!” beast boy said, turning his back on them once more.
“Is that how you really feel?” Robin asked.
“Go away.” Beast boy’s voice was weakening.
“Is it?”
“Just go.” he said in a whisper.
“You care and you know it.”
“Please.” his voice pleading. “I need time.”
“Well time isn’t on your side. From what I heard before walking into the lounge was that Raven’s going to leave.”
Pain clenched at his heart and he turned to the two. “Guys, I don’t know if I can do this! How can she expect me to just welcome her daughter with open arms?”
“Because Midnight is your daughter too.” Cyborg started to say.
“I know, but I don’t know anything about her, nothing!” He cried.
“Beast boy, calm down and listen to what Cy has to say.”
“She’s your daughter, yes I understand that your scared and everything but I don’t think that Raven wants you to just fully come into her life and have everything to be alright. She just wants you to be there and start to get to know her. Nothing happens that fast, she knows that it will take time.” Cyborg said.
Beast boy sighed. “I just don’t know if I can.”
“How do you know if you wont try?” Robin asked.
Beast boy turned back to the window, silent.
“I’m sure she’ll at least stay here for tomorrow. Just get some sleep and talk to her in the morning alright?” Robin said.
“We’ll make sure she doesn’t leave man.”came Cyborg’s voice before the door opened and they left.
“Raven.” he whispered before falling onto his bed in exhaustion.