Fan Fiction ❯ Somewhere Out There ❯ One-Shot

Somewhere Out There (A songfic)

Rei

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters Riku and Sora from Kingdom Hearts, (That took a lot of brainpower to figure out..) and I don't own the lyrics to the song 'Somewhere Out There' by Our Lady Peace.

Author's Notes: I'm doing this at 4:25 in the morning for Peaches, because she's holding my Riku angst hostage~ so, here. You better like it. (Oh.. and I changed purple hair to silver, eheh..I know his hair can probably be called purple, but silver worked, too, and I just wanted to play it safe~~ don't bitch at me about it.)

Done in Sora POV.. takes place back on Destiny Islands after Riku gets locked away in an endless void of darkness and evil things that probably want to kill him. (Everyone say it with me: Aww poor Riku~~ Tch. Shouldn'ta locked himself in that big door, the dolt.)

~Last time I talked to you..~

Kairi told me to move on, because you were gone. But I know you're not. I know you're still out there somewhere, Riku, and someday I'll find you again.

~You were lonely and out of place.~

The last time I saw you, was when we shut the door. Your face, it was so .. broken. Trusting, but broken. I can't even describe it.. your expression. I remember the soft smile you had, and your pale exhausted eyes..

I can't stand to think of you in there, all alone, scared and tired. I can't even begin to imagine what might happen to you.. I don't *want* to imagine.

~You were looking down on me..~

I'm laying on the Paopu branch that he used to sit on so often, one leg dangling off the side. The stars are so bright tonight, especially against that endlessly black sky..

~Lost out in space.~

Are you really out there, Riku? Will I really be able to find you? Or am I just saying that to calm myself? What if I never see you again, Riku..? What would I do with myself? Sure, I have Kairi.. but, it's not the same without you.

Are you lost forever..?

~We laid beneath the stars~

I don't want you to be. I want you to come back. For everything to go back to normal. So we can lay beneath the stars like I am now, .. like we used to.. together. So we can be together, the three of us. Together again.

~Strung out and feeling brave..~

But then again, Kairi hasn't shown much concern for you since you've been gone. She acts like she doesn't care at all. Well, of course she really doesn't act like she doesn't care at all.. but.. she still.. doesn't show as much concern as she *should*.

~I watched the red-orange glow..~

Or maybe I care too *much*.

I watch a glowing white light streak across the sky, leaving an almost sparkling trail. Sighing, I close my eyes and tilt my head, resting a cheek against a protruding branch.

~I watched you float away.~

Why'd you have to do it, Riku? Why'd you have to go and play the brave hero? I want you here with *me*, not sitting alone in some dark void.

~Down here in the atmosphere..~

Because.. it's lonely here without you. And I miss you.

~Garbage and city lights..~

But I suppose, if you had to.. than it's okay. Because whatever you decide, I'll always be waiting for you.

~You've gone to save your tired soul..~

I'll always wait for you, Riku..

~You've gone to save our lives.~

Because you always waited for me.

I feel a wetness on my cheek and am surprised to see that it's not tears. I open my eyes, staring up at the huge black blanket behind those tiny white specks, and light rain starts falling around me.

~I turned on the radio~

I remember when you'd sit out here, on your paopu branch, in the pouring rain. I'd try to pull you inside, but you wouldn't budge. I couldn't understand then, but I think I do, now.. The rain is so peaceful, the soft pittering of the droplets hitting the ground. Then the occasional rumble of thunder. It almost seems like a ballet, how everything flows together. It makes shivers run up and down my spine, thinking of you.. sitting out there in the rain, the water soaking into your silver hair which clung to your forehead. I remember I'd always sit by the window, transfixed by the picture that met my eyes. Then I'd blush feriously and start stuttering when Kairi would ask me what I was doing.

I didn't know a lot then.. but I know all of it, now.

~To find you on sattellite.~

I know why I miss you so much, I know why Kairi not caring infuriates me, and I know why I loved the way you looked, sitting alone, soaked by the rain.

~I'm waiting for the sky to fall..~

I want you back, Riku.. I can't wait any longer. Every second you're away my heart bleeds more and more. I have to find you..

~I'm waiting for a sign..~

But I can't just rush out like I did before. I have to be patient, and that kills me. I've never been one for patience, but I suppose I'll have to learn. I have to wait for something.. anything to tell me.. that it's okay.

~All we are..

Is all so far..~

So that I can find you, Riku.. my Riku..

The rain gradually gets louder around me, I haven't even noticed my soaked clothing. I blink a few droplets off my eyelashes, and stare up at the sky.

~You're falling back to me, the star that I can see..~

The ebony sky looks so empty, save the few dots of silver. It looks like the stars will be envoloped any second now, dissapearing forever.

~I know you're out there, somewhere out there.You're falling out of reach, ~

I can't help but thinking you're slipping through my fingers with every moment that I waste.. you're falling away from me as I wait here, staring up at the vast darkness. My patience is wearing thin, I can't wait any longer.. I want so badly to find you but I don't know where to start..

~..defying gravity.. (yeah..)~

I want you *here*..

~I know you're out there, somewhere out there..~

I know you're out there somewhere..

Maybe you'll find me..

~Hope you remember me when you're homesick and need a change..~

Maybe all I have to do is wait, and you'll come back home to me.

~I miss your silver hair..~

I miss everything about you. The way you talked, the way you moved, how you'd always creep up behind me, how you could always tell when I was trying to sneak up on *you*, your smile..

~I miss the way you taste..~

You ran away with my heart, and if you're not going to give it back, the least you could do is come back to me.

~I know you'll come back one day..~

And I know you will, even if it isn't as soon as I'd like. I know I'll see you again.

An image of his perfect face as he smiles at me passes across my memory, and I smile. Then, a heavy doory slams shut with an empty thud, closing his beautiful face out of my vision, out of my life..

I frown, and sit up.

~On a bed of nails I wait..~

I stand there staring at the door blankly for minutes that drag into an enternity. All I can do is stare, trying to imagine him, standing there, holding a hand out to me. And I'd take it, without hesitation.

The fantasy is shattered as a drop of rain spatters onto my forehead, starting me back into reality. I sigh deeply, and stare out onto the ocean, the waves calmy washing over the yellow sand..

And I see you standing there, knee-deep in the waves, your back facing me. The wind lifts your silken hair, and the calm waves lap at your legs. My breath hitches as I stare at you, I want so badly to run out and grab you, hug you and never let you go.

Why don't you come to me? Can you not see me? What are you doing out there? Are you real?

~I'm praying that you don't burn out or fade away..~

I continue to stare, not quite sure if you're really there or if I'm just imagining things again. But a bolt of lightning answers my question as it strikes down from the sky, illuminating it in a crisp golden light for mere seconds before fading away..

And Riku faded, too. I blinked and stared at the spot he was standing in seconds before and I close my eyes. I feel tears springing up, but they don't fall. They just linger at the corner of my eyes.

All these memories of Riku and I, they're killing me. Slowly ripping my heart apart and throwing them down, stepping all over them and laughing. I laugh bitterly at the mental image, opening my eyes to stare down at the ocean again.

~All we are..

Is all so far..~

I climb down from the Paopu branch, slowly walking towards the ladder that leads down off the small island and into the water.

~You're falling back to me, the star that I can't see..~

The rain falls about me, soaking into my clothes and falling into the water, creating ripples on the surface.

I can't get the image of your smiling face out of my head, followed by a huge door, seperating us. I want to kick the door down, claw at it, bang on it until it opens.

~I know you're out there, somewhere out there..~

I walk through the cool water, it soaks into my socks and licks at my bare legs. It sloshes around my feet with each step I take.

~You're falling out of reach..~

I don't want you to fade away..

I stare at the spot you had been in that time you offered me your hand. The image of you with your outstretched hand, challenging me to take it, flashes across my mind, replacing the huge door.

I hold out a hand, this time, and I imagine you standing there, smiling at me. You'd reach out to take my hand..

~Defying gravity..~

And as your hand almost touches mine, you disapear.

~I know you're out there, somewhere out there..~

I let out a gust of breath, and the tears that threatened to fall earlier trickled down my cheeks, joining the rain in the huge body of water that washed over my feet. I stared longingly at the empty space before me, wishing for all the world that you were there.

Even if it is just an illusion.

~You're falling back to me, the start that I can see..~

The tide raises, getting livelier as it pushes at my legs. The water is raising, rushing against my midcalf, almost asking me to walk out further.

Riku.. I don't want to wait any longer..

~I know you're out there.. oh.~

I comply with the oceans' silent request, venturing out further into the clear blue water. The waves swirl around my legs, soaking the hem of my red jumpershorts as the waves crash against my legs. I'm knee-deep in the water, now, standing where he was.. my back facing the small island, fists clenched at my sides, and the wind pushing at my hair.

~You're falling out of reach.. defying gravity..~

I stare out at the sky, still dark as ever, the stars were completely gone. I don't move at all, even as the waves rise and soak my already-wet clothes up to my waist.

~I know you're out there.. somewhere out there..~

If you're not going to come back to me, Riku, then I'll just have to find you.

~You're falling back to me.. the star that I can see..~

Because I won't let you sit alone in a dark world, I want to be there with you. I want to be there.. for you.

~I know you're out there.. somewhere out there..~

A tiny golden sliver of moon shines dully in the sky, completely isolated, alone in the huge black sky.

~You're falling out of reach.. Defying gravity..~

I know you're slipping out of my reach. I know it and I can't do anything about it. I make empty promises, claiming to be able to find you, but can't even find myself.

~I know you're out there.. somewhere out there..~

I fall to my knees in the water, more tears tumbling down my cold cheeks. The waves push against my weight, threatening to topple me over.

Riku.. please come back..

~You're falling back to me.. I know, I know.~

I cast a tired glance back at the small island, watching the lonely Paopu Branch.

~You're falling out of reach..~

You're somewhere out there, and I can't find you.. I can't do anything about it. You're falling away.. and I don't know if I can reach you, anymore..

~I know.~

Come home, Riku..

...

I miss you.

Author's Notes: Booya~ (Did I just type booya? I must be really tired..) I finally finished. Took me long enough, but it's not bad for being written at the ungodly hour of 4:30 am.. so.. yeah.