Fan Fiction ❯ The Goddess Sagas ❯ Pain ( Chapter 32 )

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Ryan is dying and the only way to save him is an very expenive operartion. Will Mara scaerfice all her pride and dignity to get the money to save her best friend? And what is with the sudden and burtal murders of models?

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Chapter 32: Pain

"You ran away!?" Lexy snarled, slapping Tommy across the face. " Why didn't you destroy them!?"

"Look, I have my reasons for doing things. I want to see what power that demon-half, Ryan truly has, and he was not with the group. I want him to be there when I destroy all his friends, I want to see what it is that makes him so special."

"FOOL!!" Lexy spat.

"Whatever, come Rose." Tommy and Rose walked away leaving Lexy shouting insults to their names behind them.

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Lounaru breathed heavily. After all this time he was still strapped down to beds, as they injected things into his arms. He could not see the room where he was, all he could see was darkness, and continued to mumble incoherently underneath his breath. He seemed to be feverish, and growing quite madder then before. Almost scared Hikari approached the bed, gazing down at the pale and boney body before her.

"What are they doing to him....?" She asked aloud, but considering she and the mad man were the only ones in the area, she did not except an answer.

"Ryan........."

Hikari jumped startled, and turned to face the body with wide eyes. " Huh? What...?"

"Ryan.....Par.....Parfait.....Osia.....Oisa will come....turn.......go....go back." Lounaru mumbled weakly.

"Ryan? .....Parfait....? What the?" She leaned forward, gazing into the slumbering face, twisted in agony and pain from nightmares and images so horrible she could not begin to imagine them.

The eyes of the mad man snapped open a stared at her, but it did not really seem to be seeing her, as one hand reached up to touch her cheek.

"You can't let Saiyoua get her hands on the orb.....Stop Ryan from coming hear....please....."

"W...What?" Hikari blinked confused. Lounaru's eyes closed against as he drifted back into his nightmare world.

"What in the hell is going on hear....? Who is Oisa?"

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Saiyoua laughed, staring up at the sky, eyes glittering from the light of the moon above.

A soft breeze caught her hair twisting it around her body, an hand rested on her stomach, a smile pressed on her lips.

"Oisa, I have two sacrifices I will over you when you finally arrive."

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"So, how's Ryan?" Genki asked walking into a little Japanese style wooden house, something they had rented when they entered the little village of Wutai.

"No better..." Mara sighed sadly, stoking some hair away from Ryan's face.

Since they had left Opa a few weeks ago Ryan seemed to had slipped deeper into the madness the every once in awhile turned it's disturbing head. But what was more disturbing were the words he continued to mumble in his half wake half asleep nightmares.

"Oisa....Is coming, Oisa will destroy everyone....but go....must go...."

He never finished that sentence, it was like some unknown force was stopping him from continuing.

Genki sighed, putting his hands on his hips. He had hidden his wing again, but would often call it back just for the joy of being able to fly, but right now, with Ryan out of the picture he was the new leader of the group and it brought to much strain to him, for him to be able to have fun.

"I wonder what's wrong with him?" Genki frowned approaching the bed.

Suddenly Ryan grabbed his wrist, and squeezed hard. "Don't go to Angeles, Oisa...if you do...."

the demon-half dropped weakly back onto the bed, eye closed once again. Genki looked nerved and took an few steps backward, rubbing his sore wrist.

"....Remind me not to get close to that bed again...."

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The rest of the group sat at the bar, some of them drinking heavy stuff while some, well, Mimi and Carrie, stuck to milk. It was mid-afternoon so not many were at that `turtle inn pub' at this moment in time. But the wateriest assured them that tonight it would be filled with lots of people, not that they cared. Right now all of their minds were on something else, besides their surroundings.

"What do you think Oisa is?" Carrie asked suddenly. " And why does Ryan keep mentioning it?"

" Karen said it was an darkness, Saiyoua would summon to drain away all of the Magention from the planet, and destroy all life....but as to what Ryan knows about it, I can't say I know." Alex took a mouth full of his bear as he finished speaking. It was his sixth one but it did not at all seem to be affecting him at all.

"I think there is much more to Ryan then meets the eye....." Squall trailed off in thought.

Lemon squirmed nervously in his chair, and turned his attention fully on Pan who was sleeping in his arms.

Mimi spotted this, but being to shy and nice she let it slip by. What could Lemon know about Oisa, anyway? It would not make sense for him to hide anything from them now that he was no longer part of Taromecika's army.

"What you mean by that?" Carrie questioned.

"I'm saying, there is something not normal about him. Just the way he moves, his speech, his personality." Squall shook his head. " Forget it."

"Actually, I've noticed that about him too." Lima slurred, in an drunken tone.

" I've knew him for quite awhile....and I have to admit, he is kind of odd, now that I think about it. Whenever he wasn't around Mara or Parfait, he seemed to lost, like he could not find himself...." Mimi frowned sadly.

" But when he met Marie-Maya something changed, didn't it." Alex stated, it was not a question.

"Your right." Mimi nodded. " She seemed to hold him together. She seemed to bring out an....an...."

"Identity." Lemon finished, he did not sound like his cheerful self, instead something in his voice quivered.

"Well....Yes. With Mara and Parfait with him, they allowed him to hang onto his past, which we all are aware of, he can't remember to well. Keith also brought out an identity in him....the identity of an rival. Ruto.....perhaps that identity of an lover....no, maybe....his true identity? I'm babbling nonsense, what am I talking about?" Mimi shook her head.

"It makes sense, for someone who can't remember their past to try to find things to cling on to, and his madness did start shortly after Ruto vanished." Carrie reasoned.

" That doesn't add up...." Lemon mummered.

"Mally?" Alex overheard, turning to the boy.

"What?"

"What did you mean?"

Lemon smiled cutely. " What you talking about? I didn't say anything. "

The soldier's eyes narrowed. " Yes you did! I heard you!"

Pan began to cry at Alex's shout, and Lemon tried to comfort the child, glaring up at Alex. "Hey! You made Pan cry!"

The solider cursed. " Forget it."

The group continued sipping their drinks until this man came into the room. He had a long nose, seemed to be early thirty, dropping black mustache, and an gray suit. He approached the table, eyes studying the girls for an moment, then he smiled, turning towards Mimi and Lima.

"Hey, how would you to like an modeling job? I have this club and...."

"I saw that club!" The two girls frowned bitterly. " It's strip joint!! We aren't going in there you pervert!!!"

"Awww, shoot, I'll pay lots of money!"

"NO!!"

"Come on, I need some girls to work for me!!"

"NO!!!!!"

The girls charged up their attacks at the same time, blasting the man out of the bar.

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Ryan gazed around himself weakly, he was surrounded by the black water, once again. He was alone, and cold. Shivering he looked down at his feet and into the deep darkness of the ocean, but he did not see his reflection, instead he saw images in the water, of a young yet demon-like him and Mara dancing at a school dance of some kind, a flash before his eyes, then one of Keith standing all alone in an corner. The image changed again to Keith looking behind him in horror at a monster, he was in the training ground, then once again the image to a older version of the little red head boy from the dream he had of the woman, running towards something, eyes wide, his mouth opened screaming something, then ...darkness.

"I can't remember these memories....where are they from?"

"Of course you can't remember them!" An young voice giggled behind him. "They are my memories, not yours!"

Startled Ryan twisted around to see the young demon version of himself, standing behind him giggling.

"YOU!! Your the same one that appeared to me before, but why do you come to me now as a child? Do you mock me!?"

"Of course I mock you. Poor, `Ryan.' no identity, no self, poor little you. All alone in an big world that you could never understand, or could ever understand you."

"Why is it you hate me? I'm you and your me, aren't you?"

"No, no, no, no. That is where you are wrong, your an imposture, I'm Ryan. Not you, no. Don't fool yourself."

"SHUT UP WITH YOUR LIES!!!!" Ryan took his sword into his trembling hand, slashing at the child, cutting threw it's soft and unprotected skin like a knife cuts threw butter. Blood splattered against his face, leaving Ryan stunned at what he had just done. He dropped his sword to the water, turning the black into red. He dropped to his knees.

"What have I done? I just killed an child....an helpless child...." Tears began to well up in his eyes, lifting his hands to his face he stared at them, trembling.

"I've soiled my hands with an child's blood....how, how dirty and tarnished have I become?"

"You can't kill me! What you see before your eyes is just your mind, playing tricks on you. Your mind can make you believe so many things that never happened. How easily your thoughts change the reality of things."

Shocked the demon-half turned towards the child he had just killed, who stood behind him, smiling at his suffering.

"Why....why is it you smile?" He asked trembling, his childless just laughed lightly and mockingly.

"Your so stupid, you make me laugh!"

"Your a brat! You can't be me!"

"Of course I'm not you, I'm Ryan!" The child giggled.

"I had enough of this!! Why am I hear!?"

The child pointed upwards, and Ryan followed his gaze and gasped. A meteor as big as a small city and as black as the darkness night was in the sky, an ring of fire burning around it. Suddenly the area around him flashed with light and he saw himself standing to an destroyed ruin of an village...no, of an world.

"What is this?" He gasped, eyes growing wide. He smaller twin leaned forward whispering into his ear.

"Oisa."

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Mara jerked upright as Ryan screamed in his sleep and began to claw at the bed. No not only clawing but screaming and kicking as well. Genki dashed forward, pinning him down to the bed.

"Ryan! Stop struggling!! Come on!! Relax!!"

"Rya!" Mara screamed panicked, tears springing to her eyes.

The demon-half stopped moving, and Mara began to calm down a little bed, until Genki drew his breath in with an sharp gasp.

"Mara run to the hospital, quick! He stopped breathing! Get an doctor!! I'll try and keep him alive by doing CPR!! HURRY!!!"

She dashed out of the house, tears of terror falling down her cheeks. "Rya, please don't die! Don't die!"

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Genki was panicked, pulling apart Ryan's shirt, as he pushed onto the unmoving chest, and began to breath into his mouth, trying to get him to breath, then pushed onto his chest again. He was not succeeding, sure his sister Bra had given him many CPR lessons, but he really never paid attention, now he wished he had.

"Come on! Come on! Breath damn you!! BREATH!!!!' Genki cursed, tears stinging his eyes. "YOU CAN'T DIE ON US YET!!!!"

`Why.....?'

"Come on!!" Genki breathed more air into his bursting lungs. " WAKE UP!!!"

`How come......?'

"Oh!? SO IT'S LIKE THAT IS IT!? YOUR GOING TO BE AN COWARD AND DIE ON US!? WELL, I'M SORRY BUT WE ARE AN TEAM AND WE HAVE TO STICK TOGETHER!!"

`Just let me die....'

"Besides, you got to save Ruto, so.....breath? Please?" Genki began to calm down, worry taking it's toll as he breathed another breath into Ryan's mouth, hopeing that the demon would soon start breathing on his own.

`Ruto....that's right, I can't die yet....besides, I have to stay....for my friends.'

Ryan began to cough and opened his eyes, blinking confused he looked around himself, and spotted Genki hovering above him worriedly.

"THANK GOD!!!" The hyper boy exclaimed throwing his arms around him, crying quietly.

Ryan blushed, and looked confused and panicked. "Genki....what are you doing?"

"AND YOUR SANE AGAIN TOO!!!! THANK THE HEAVENS! THANK THE HEAVEN!! THANK THE HEAVENS!!" The boy exclaimed, twirling around the room, crazily.

"....I may be sane....but are you ok, Genki?" Ryan asked concerned and worried.

"You don't know the pressure of having an dying friends life in your hands! You had me scared to death! If you had died....I would have nightmares!!" Genki told him seriously.

"I...almost died!? Wait a moment....where is Lexy? I remember getting attacked by her in the ally and---"

"That was weeks ago, Ryan. When you woke up after that, you were stark raving mad. Don't you remember?"

"No.....I don't remember anything......"

" For the best I guess.....But....."

"Hm?"

"You kept on mentioning Oisa. Does the name mean anything to you at all?"

"You asked me this before, I know only the same as you about it." Ryan assured.

"That's odd......!! Ryan! Your alright!?" Genki gasped as he watched Ryan bring his hand up to his chest with an painfully gasp.

The demon-half had gone pale, and was panting in agony, clutching his chest. Genki kneeled close to him, to see what was wrong and screamed, falling off the bed in terror. The skin, where Ryan was holding onto was rabidly deteriorating.

"Oh god....oh god......your skin....it's falling apart, Ryan just what are you!?"

An doctor and Mara choose that moment to run into the house. Mara brought her hands up to her face and shrieked. The doctor paled, but jumped into action quickly. The trembling cat girl seemed to be in an state of shock as she watched her friend screaming in agony, as his skin slowly melted.

Genki caught her moments before she hit the ground.

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A young woman with blue hair and yellow eyes walked off the stage, many people from the club cheered for her. Life as a model was tuff. She always had to make sure she looked just right and spent so much of her free time looking in the mirror. But this time she frowned in confusion as her vanity mirror was covered in powder and she could barely see anything threw it. Sighing she began to wipe it off, wondering who could have done this. She had cleaned the makeup away the glass but was greeted by an startling discovery, in the glass were the words

uoy dnihed kool t'noD

painted in bright red on the wall behind her, confused she lifted up her brush and an note fell off her stand. It to was wrote in gibberish.

eid lliw uoy esle rO

"What the hell kind of shit is this?" She mumbled, shaking her head, and turning around to face the red letters, approaching them she took an small sample of it of her fingers. Frowning as she rubbed her two index fingers together, she shook her head at the waxy coating. " It's lip stick...."

Suddenly something jumped out behind the curtains she used to get dress behind, an knife gripped in it's hands, it stabbed her in the side. She screamed painfully, staggering away from the killer, who was dressed in an black cape, face covered.

"Who are you!?" She gasped, but was only answered by an backhanded that sent her crashing into her vanity. Laying on the ground, painfully, she was unable to defend herself as the killer stabbed her again and again with the knife. It continued to knife her until she was long past dead before choosing to retreat. In the slaughtered girls hands was the second note of gibberish, it's reflection was shown backwards in the mirror, which had droplets of blood splattered on it.

Or else you will die.

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Cops surrounded the dressing room of the pub, taking pictures, of an corpse of an black haired girls, who was completely stripped of her clothing and slashed up into strips of flesh. She had been gagged and tied up in an closet.

"This is the ninth one this week." One cop shook his head.

"Who could be killing all of these young girls?"

"I don't know. A jelouse woman, or something. They are all young models so maybe..."

"Quit your yapping! Come on, lets get this body to the connors." The chief shouted to the two younger cops, who obeyed immediately.

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The owner of the pub, whimpered worriedly. " All my young ladies, I'll go out of business if they keep on getting butchered on me.....I need some entertainment for my customers....or else....I'll be in the poor house."

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A few weeks had gone by and Ryan continued to get worse and worse. His body was weakening by the moment, falling apart. It was true Ryan always bruised easily, but just the slightest touch caused his skin to break and bleed now. Something was seriously wrong with him.

"His body seems to be decomposing....it's odd. And his mind......he seems to be affected by an server case of sprit poisoning, this could also be causing this condition to his body. As part demon they have to feed of emotions along with an diet of bones and blood...his body would become ill from lack of nutrition, but not this bad....hmm, I think we could fix him up by injecting nutrition into his cells, plus he would need an blood transfusion, and some skin cells transplants.....but of course this would all be very costly. Around about, lets see, 100,000 gold."

The group gasped.

"We don't have that much money!!" Lemon exclaimed.

"That would take almost an life time to make!! You can't be serious!!" Genki denied.

"Sorry, money or no operation."

"You would really put an price on a persons life!?" Mimi gasped, horrified.

"YOUR AN DOCTOR!!! YOUR SUPPOSE TO SAVE PEOPLE, NOT LINE YOUR POCKETS WITH GOLD!!!" Carrie screamed.

"Yeah!" Lima agreed angrily. " I swear, doctors and nurses are suppose to care about their patients, not about how much money they can make off them!"

Mara listend as her friends argued back and forth with the doctors, but their words were fuzzy and did not resister into her mind.

`Rya....you can't die.....' she stared at the form of her best friend laying, unmoving on the bed. ` You can't....not again....don't leave me again.....'

"No!! Not again!" She sobbed, running out of the room, tears falling from her cheeks.

Her friends watched her concerned, but knew that she needed to be alone to cry her tears.

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Mara did not know how long she was running but when she finally stopped she was in the park. Her sides burning painfully she clumsily stumbled for a bench, and sat down, allowing her tears to fall even quicker down her furry cheeks.

"Why? Why....? It's just not fair, first I loose your heart, and now I loose you again, too."

The sun shone on her skin, warming her up, but she could not feel the heat for the coldness and emptiness inside of her soon engulfed her whole being. She was so out of it that she didn't even realize someone approach her from behind.

"Hey young lady." The man that had approached Mimi and Lima in the bar said, handing her a tissue. " Such sad tears don't suit such a pretty face."

Mara took the tissue, blindly and began to wipe her wet eyes. "Thanks....."

"Tell me, what's wrong? Did an boy break your heart?"

"It's not your business!" the cat snapped, but then quite down a little. ".....A good friend of mine is dying....we need money for an operation but...."

"You don't have enough." The man finished. " Look, my name is Mr.Yama. I own a club down the street, I need a new model to entertain our guests. The job pays very well, I pay around 5,000 per act, plus you can keep whatever money the people throw at you, which, with you great looks would be a lot."

"Really?" Mara asked slowly. " That is a lot of money.....perhaps I could make enough for the operation. All right Mr.Yama, you got yourself a deal."

"Excellent."

An shadow watched the two behind an large tree in a park, a smile curving on it's lips.

"Another little model to kill. But I know someone who would like to have some fun with her first, Heh-heh...."

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Mara followed Mr.Yama into the club, it was the afternoon show so he said it should be easy enough for her to do, since afternoon was the time families came to the club, all what she would have to do was looking pretty, dance and if she could, sing.

"I can do that...it's simple." Mara smiled, if this was all she had to do she was glad. For awhile on her way hear she was worrying that it would be something smutty. She was taken to an dressing room and given a costume. It was like a white swimsuit with a very frilly skirt. The color yellow ran threw the frills and on a head-band she wore in her hair. She pulled on the matching gloves and boots. She took an deep breath, trying to calm herself down as Mr.Yama called her on to the stage. The music started and she did as Yama told her to do. She bounced out on to the stage, an cute little microphone in her hands, and began to sing in tune to the song which Mr.Yama had only given her an hour to practice for.

"I've always kept my feelings to myself,

But all this time I knew your were aware,

Of the love I had felt for you.

But you didn't care, for you had,

already found someone else,

that you had given your heart to.

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

Now you just need a little help,

in realizing just what, you may be giving up.

But baby, don't worry, I wont let you lose out so quickly.

I love you, and I wont give up,

until all my dreams come true,

and when they do....

They will become your dreams to!

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

I'm the happy little angel of your heart...."

The club's crowd was in an uproar of applause as the cheered her song, Mara happily, almost for a moment forgetting her troubles, out stretched her arms, like how a bird would out stretch it's wings before flying, as the lights from the stage bathed her. It was like being a pop star, perhaps this was a whole new beginning for her.

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Mara had been going to the job for weeks, without telling her friends. Ryan's health was worsening, and she cried for him a lot, but kept telling herself that if she could make enough money then he would live. Her came too a few times put her always passed out again. Once more he was mumbling incoherent things about Oisa. The group members had gotten small jobs around the town in an effort to make some money for the operation, but they were still far from their goal. Not only that but they were really getting worried, not only for Ryan, but also Mara who seemed to be bringing in the most money of them all, but never told them where she was working, and why she was gone from the afternoon to the evening.

Mimi sighed, fixing the drinks a customer had ordered at the restaurant, when she overheard two of the other workers talking.

"She's so cool, she is like a pop star now."

"Yeah, I wish I could be like her!"

"To think, an up and coming pop star started her career in our town!"

"Yeah, but she only sings at that `club.' She might be just like the rest of the girls who work there. Flashing her breasts around...."

"Yeah, all like `I'm hear!' "

Mimi glanced over at the magazine the girls were holding and gasped, instantly, dispite her shy nature grabbing it from there hands.

"No way! Mara!?"

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The cat girl was just getting `home' from her afternoon performance. All the other group members were still at their work, so she figured she could get in without being questioned again about where she was. But when she opened the door she was met in the face with an magazine, advertising her as a `New hit model pop star!' slowly the magazine lowered it's self to reveal an frowning fairy-half.

"Mimi!!" Mara gasped.

"Mara, would you kindly explain?"

"Look, the job pays a lot of money. All I have to do is sing, it's not like I'm doing anything smutty."

"You DO know what kind of place this is, right?"

"......."

"It wont be long before they have you doing smutty things. Don't you see, they are working you up, gaining your trust little by little. Peeling away the layers of your own personality. In this book they describe you as someone your not! And everyone is believing these things about you! Are you really ok with that?"

"....Mr.Yama says that this is the best image for my type of work...."

"Mara, don't get yourself tarnished! You don't want to do this!" Mimi exclaimed, desperately.

"And what about Rya?' The car replied hotly. " Am I suppose to just set back and watch him die!?"

"Your `job' will end up corrupting you to the point where you will no longer care if he lives or dies! And besides do you think Ryan would really be happy to know that you gave up all your dignity and pride!?"

Something in Mara snapped, and her hand flashed out from her side, slapping the small little fairy-half across the face. The cat stared at her hand as if it was monster or something, then back at Mimi who was staggering to her feet.

"I don't care what happens to me! All what matters is Rya!"

Mimi pressed an hand to her sore cheek and watched as the cat girl fled, shaking her head with pity.

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An man stood in an store, reading an magazine with Mara on the cover, his hands tightened around the paper in rage.

"Lies....Lies....Lies....LIES!!" He cursed, the magazine caught fire in his hands.

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Lima was the next to arrive back to the house and was startled to see Mimi already there.

"What are you doing back so early from that drive in place?"

"......Nothing." The fairy muttered, pushing the magazine underneath an pillow.

"You sound upset...."

".........No....I'm not."

"Hey! Mimi, stop with the Squall act! Your making me nervous!"

".......Sorry....."

"What's wrong?"

"Lima.....it's nothing. Ok?" Mimi said her voice strained. The elf nodded, with an sigh and let the subject drop.

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Mara arrived at her job the next day, but on another performance, and was just about to leave when Mr.Yama stopped her.

"Hey, Mara, sweaty. You are getting big!"

The cat frowned bitterly. " I'm not fat!"

Yama shook his head. " No, no, not that kind of big. I mean famous."

"Oh..."

"Anyway, I think it's about time you started to get a *little* more daring."

"More daring?"

"Yeah, the midnight show. You don't have to sing at that one, just, *entertain* ....think you can handle that?"

"....I....I don't know...."

"It pays 60,000...." Yama said in an sing-song voice.

"60,000!? With that much....My friends and I would have close to the amount for the operation....."

"Well, what do you say?" Yama sounded much like the snake that had tempted Eve in the garden of Eden into taking an bite into that forbidden fruit.

".....Ok....."

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Mimi sighed, turning on the radio at her job, and blinked surprised as an song started.

"I've always kept my feelings to myself,

But all this time I knew your were aware,

Of the love I had felt for you.

But you didn't care, for you had,

already found someone else,

that you had given your heart to.

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

Now you just need a little help,

in realizing just what, you may be giving up.

But baby, don't worry, I wont let you lose out so quickly.

I love you, and I wont give up,

until all my dreams come true,

and when they do....

They will become your dreams to!

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

But I wont cry, or grieve,

for I know that you will be hear with me,

And if you, try and leave,

I'll just come back again!

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

Because, I love you, love you, can't you see.

Just all what you mean, mean to me.

Do you, do you, even care?

Oh baby, baby, don't say goodbye,

I'm your faithful angel, don't you see?

I'm the happy little angel of your heart...."

Mimi shook her head, clicking the radio off. " Did you sing this song, With Ryan on your mind Mara? And if you did, do you really means those words?"

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Mara swallowed nervously as she walked into the club. Something was telling her to run and get the hell out of hear, but another part of her made her continue forward. Already she could hear the laughter and loud chatter of drunken men, and this made her want to trust her extinct and run. She might have if she did not meet Yama in the hallway.

"Mara, sweety! You came, your costume is in your dressing room. Have fun and remember...entertain."

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Ryan gasped in his sleep, eyes snapping open and going wide. Overhead he could see a figure standing over his bed, it was fuzzy and he could not make out who it was. A hand reached upward, and squeezed him by his throat.

"She's doing this because of you...." the figure growled, squeezing his neck harder, then letting go before he could do any damage.

".............."

"Mara's name is being disgraced because of you and that bitch!"

"........" Ryan wanted to speak but he was not able to form any words. He didn't need to because suddenly the figure left and he was all alone again.

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Mara took an deep breath, pulling at her costume, it was a short, tight fitting, low cut, white dress with red frills. The martial was so thin one could see her body threw it, but....that was the purpose. The urge to run away again resurfaced in her mind, but she shook it off, and ran out on to the stage as the music began to play. The men clapped and cheered as they spotted her. The lights shining overhead caused the already thin martial to become almost sea threw. She began to twirl wildly, causing the men to cheer, before going on her knees and dangling her leg into the air, sexily, showing off a pair of thin white panties. She giggled, but in her mind she was far from laughing, and felt more like crying. She was barely even aware of her own movements and only concentrated on the hoots and cat-calls she got in return for them. It was the climax of her performance when an hand reached out, grabbing her by the top of the dress. This hand was followed by many more hands that grabbed different parts of her clothing. Mara gasped, pulling herself to her feet, but the hands of many un-named faces, reached out towards her, pulling at her clothes.

"Stop it! Stop!" Mara cried, trying to slap the hands away from her, but they would not lesson.

Yama ran out onto the stage, trying to get the customers away from his model and that was when the fight broke out. The ring leader seemed to be this man dressed in dark clothing, figure covered by an black trench-coat, an very disturbing and scary clown mask covering his face. The clown man knocked Yama out after two punches, and then turned his gaze onto Mara, who backed away frightened.

*Deeper into the Blue sky

Illusionary dreams are Whiter

Wings scatter To a thousand pieces*

She had to get out of hear, now! She knew this but her body was frozen in terror and she could hardly move an muscle. Slowly she backed up away from him, legs turning to jello.

"Please.....don't come near me!" She begged, fearfully.

The clown man continued to approach her. Mara was so frightened that she forgot about everyone else, and the only one she could see before her eyes was the masked man. That was unfortunate for her as one of the other customers grabbed her by the ankles, sending her crashing to the floor painfully with an sharp cry.

*The Original Sin Is bloodier

The calling voice Farther

We fulfill ourselves For that coming day*

Before Mara had the time to fully realize that she had fallen, two strong arms pinned her down to the floor in an bruising grip. She began to kick and struggling, voice screaming until it was horse.

"Let me go!! PLEASE!!! LET ME GOOO!!!!"

She never had felt fear this strongly before. It was pure terror, pure unmerciful fear and it gripped her heart in a tight fist, looking to crush it in it's palm. The answer she got to her pleads was a painful punch to her face, leaving her laying motionlessly for a moment, breathing heavily as she tasted blood in her mouth.

*O-la Sanctus, E-u Sanctus, (Are we more Holy, Are we more Holy,)

Où est la Lumière . . . Ah, c'est toi? (Where is the light . . . Is that you?)*

Pain.....that was the best word she could think of to describe how she felt right now. Pain both inside and out. She could hardly bring herself to move, or even scream. She laid their with her eyes closed praying that this was only a nightmare, praying that she would wake up...

She felt an pair of clammy hands grip her legs, and ripped off her panties in one mighty pull. Dispite the loud cheering of the drunken men around her she could hear the masked man pull down the zipper of his pants.

`Please no.....please.....please......'

"NO!!!" She screamed, kicking and screaming, trying desperately to get away from him. The clown man hissed angrily and pulled at the top of her dress, squeezing her breasts in an bruising grip. Many other hands then joined in pulling at her clothes and she was left, vainly trying to get them all away from her. Tears sprang to her eyes as she was pinned back to the floor, her shoulders already becoming covered in bruises.

"PLEASE STOP IT!!!!"

*The currents breezes Higher

Eternity more Sapphire

With our wandering Memories*

She could feel the clown man grab her by her two legs, and forcefully entered inside of her. All she could do was scream and pled for him to stop, but it was useless. He would not stop, and the hands would not stop either.

Pain.....Pain....Pain.....

It was all what she could feel right now. All what she was aware of. She was not even aware of her own screams any more. Or her own tears. She closed her eyes, hopeing to open them and find that it was only a dream, hopeing that if she could not see them, that they would go away.

*The lake Darkens

The hymn sings out Pure

We waken and Open our eyes*

That mindlessness soon faded, as he body was pushed slightly forward, her head laying over the edge of the stage, she opened her tears filled eyes, screaming one huge, anguished cry which echoed unholy off the walls.

Everything was beginning to fade.....becoming dark.....nothing no longer seemed real.

The cheering and loud yells around her were beginning to vanish, the sound becoming distorted. Her voice was way to hoarse to continue to scream, and eyes to sore to continue to cry, instead her once bright green eyes turned foggy and distant. The cheering continued....her pain continued.....cheering, pain, cheering, pain, cheering, pain, cheering, pain, cheering, pain, cheering, pain, cheering, pain, cheering, pain , cheering, pain,cheering, pain, cheering, pain ,cheering, pain, cheering, pain. Cheering her....