Fan Fiction ❯ The Goddess Sagas ❯ My Memory ( Chapter 45 )

Chapter Forty-four: My Memory

"MAGICAL ORBS OR LIGHT!!!"

"PETAL BLADES!!!"

"WATER BOMB!!!"

The attacks still fired, as the battle continued on the stares. During the fight Squall's eyes snapped open wide in shock and surprise.

`Mara's scent....it's gone....did she die? No....even a dead person has a scent...just what is going on up there....?Ryan has the goddess stone with him....if it falls into Saiyoua's hands then......we have to hurry.'

`Ryan...' Parfait thought as she tiredly charged up another wind attack. `Please be safe...please be all right...'

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Ryan opened his eyes, he did not remember passing out but he must of. He did not care anymore though.....he....he felt empty inside. Empty and lost. He was setting in an dark room, all around him was metal grating and darkness. An darker shadow passed over him. Glancing up he saw Taromecika floating over him, arms crossed, blazing green eyes staring down at him almost in mocking superiority.

".... It's about time you woke up, boy. I can taste your anger and rage at me for what I did to your sister, and for what I did to your mother."

"......There weren't my mother....or my sister......"

"But you still loved them right?" Taromecika said in a taunting tone. "I was the one that designed you, you know. I built every single component of your flesh. I can taste your pain and agony dripping off of your soul. I want to savor the taste and agony of your pain, it will be the sweetest dish I will ever savor."

"............"

"You want to kill me, I know you do, then Ryan go ahead, attack me, I want to see what you can do. I want to see what the thing I created is capable of."

".........." Ryan silently got to his feet, a drained and empty expression plastered over his face. His vision rippled and the room around seemed to fall apart, crumble away like how his whole identity and self crumbled away into nothingness. Every last bit of the room faded until it became all darkness...he was back in the dark ocean...he knew he would never escape from it now. His whole life was a black ocean.....The only thing he could see was his reflection in the icy cold water that swirled around his ankles and the demon-god floating over head, gazeing down at him. He would do as he said, he would battle him. What did it matter if he got himself killed....he was really already dead....no he never was really real, was he?

"Oh yes, and...use the sword Ryan's mother gave to him. Use the sword that you used to kill her to try and kill me." Taromecika instructed, calmly, as though he knew the boy had no will no want to argue or resist.

Ryan obeyed silently, not caring what weapon he used, not giving a damn if he was being lead into a trap, not caring if this battle would be his final one. What did it matter if he died...he was just a clone...Ryan died six years ago. It played over and over again in his mind....he was dead....he died....no....Ryan's dead....Ryan died.....he was just......nothing....just a....animated puppet....

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Lemon groaned painfully and violently, tossing and turning in bed, sweat running down his face.

`No....no......no not this way....not like this....!' His mind shouted out in a desperate plea, and he screamed out in agony, altering everyone else in Bra's hideout. The scream was loud and even under the mast that covered the vampire's face they could hear the anguish that filled the cry.

Miss.Lena put her hand to the heart, turning her head to the wall, not wanting to look at the boy. "Just what is happening there.....No......don't tell.....Ryan....."

"What about Ryan?" Rose asked, confused.

"....Ryan.....might of just found out....the truth...." Lena spoke lowering her eyes to the ground.

"What?" Rose asked puzzled.

"I think you better explain." Bra frowned, looking worried.

"....It's a long story....."

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Nagisa was trembling and crept back into Keith's area of the building hopeing not to be spotted, she was frightened. She knew she betrayed her Lord Keith but....she just had to help them....had to help Keith become his old self again. She glanced up at the fireplace, looking in disgust at Mara's body...it always made her shiver...always frightened her to look at it. It just showed how much of a monster Keith had become. Her eyes darted around, spotting the door which lead to the room her and Arisu shared. It was right near Keith's....before that would of made them happy....but now....they never knew when he would come after them. She tip toed to the door, but was stopped as a voice hisses softly behind her.

"Nagisa...Nagisa...Nagisa...well, well, I never thought you would betray me." Keith crossed his arms, looking at her up and down, eyeing her like a cat would eye a mouse just before it pounced.

How does it feel,

to treat me like you do?

When you laid your hands apon me,

and told me who you are.

"...L...Lord...Keith!" She stammered, taking a step back fearfully.

"I will give you one chance to explain you actions."

The girl began to cry, whimpering fearfully. "I'm sorry Lord Keith...I...."

"Your sorry. Wow, you know, that really changes things." Keith approached her until she was backed up in a corner. "It doesn't change anything you did. You helped my enemies...you want mother to be killed. Your on Ryan's side aren't you?"

"N...No. I tell you, I am not...I..."

"LIES!!"

I thought I was mistaken,

I thought I heard your words,

Tell me how do I feel?

Tell me now how do I feel?

Nagisa gasped as she was rammed up against the wall, Keith's fingers pressing deep into the skin of her shoulders, blood soaking threw the flesh from the pressure he was applying. She yelped like a little dog, as with his other hand Keith took her chin in his hands, forcing her to look into his face. It was twisted in a mask of fury and madness.

"Don't lie to me Nagisa...I know what you did. Lying is not going to help you one bit, but force me to punish you even more. Now tell me why did you do it? Why did you betray me?"

"......I......I wanted.....I wanted things to be like they were before...."

Keith laughed ruefully. "Oh. So you wanted me to once again me second to Ryan?""

"No, I...."

"You wanted me to give up all this power mother has granted me. I have everything I could ever dream of, and all of it was given to me by Saiyoua..."

"She's nothing but an evil soul! She's brainwashed you, Keith...she..."

Keith's eyes went small in rage, and his hands began to shake. "Are you saying that I am being controlled!?"

"..............."

"HOW DARE YOU!!!"

HOW DOES IT FEEL!?

HOW SHOULD I FEEL!?

TELL ME HOW DOES IT FEEL,

TO TREAT ME LIKE YOU DO!?

Nagisa cried out as she was struck across the face and sent crashing to the ground. She laid there, feeling blood well up in her mouth. She moaned, swallowing the bitter blood which mixed with her saliva inside of her mouth. Her jaw ached...and she hurt, but it was the pain she felt inside that left her crippled however. Keith stood over her, and she looked up at him. She expected to see some remorse, shock...but all she saw was cold hard rage.

"Let me show your body, that I am your god." Keith snatched the cloth of her clothes and ripped it from her body with a single hard thug.

"...No....Please..."

Those who came before me,

lives through their locations,

From the past till I met you,

I turn away no more.

"STOP!!! OH PLEASE STOP!!!" She screamed begging pitifully, as Keith forced himself on top of her, squeezing together her breasts in his fists, being ruff and cruel as he felt her body.

"STOP IT!! STOP IT!!"

"SHUT UP!!" Keith roared squeezing her breasts so thightly in his hands, that his fingers nails entered the soft flesh causing blood to spill down the pale skin.

"AHHHHH!!!!" She screamed tilting her head back painfully, tears running down her face.

Still I find it so hard,

To say what I need to say,

because the lies that you will tell me,

will depend on how I feel today.

She had began to struggle, trying to get away as Keith forced himself inside of her, rapping her body and taking away all the pride and dignity she had left. She was not able to get away from him, she was to weak, and more she struggled, more Keith enjoyed causing her pain. He was enjoying seeing her suffer his cruel caresses.

My ship has left the harbor,

but I was not ready to sail today,

if it wasn't for your misfortunes,

It would have been a happy pleasant day.

She sobbed and begged as he roughly licked her between the breasts, before wrapping his tongue around her nipple, leaving a wet trail on her skin. She cried out and moaned as he suckled at her breasts like a baby at it's mother. His hands held her in place, sinking his finger nails into her sides to stop her from moving as he did with her as he pleased, and as she cried all the way through it all.

I thought I was mistaken,

when I thought I heard you speak,

Tell me how do I feel,

tell me now how should I feel?

He stroked her body with his cruel fingers until most of it was red and bruised. He smiled down at her, a cold cruel mocking grin as he stared at her face, pale, frightened and eyes filled with tears. He leaned forward and kissed her lips, in a ruff and forceful kiss. She tried to pull away but he grabbed a fistful of her hair forcing her to stay locked in embrace. Finally, to what seemed to be an eternity to Nagisa he pulled away and stood to his feet, looking down at her. He smirked meanly, before spiting on her.

"Shameless flit. Bitch dog, whore."

Now I set hear waiting...

Nagisa just laid on the ground, crying dejectedly. She could not move...she could not think about anything else but the pain in her body and the pain in her heart. She wanted to die....she felt like dying....she felt horrible and dirty...and hated. She felt....worse then a dog....she felt.........used.

I thought I told you to leave me,

As I walk down to the beach,

tell me how does it feel,

when your heart has grown cold?

"SHUT UP! STOP CRYING, STUPID BITCH!!"

Nagisa could not stop herself though, crying was all she could do right now....she just did not know how to stop, it's like all her soul had turned to tears.

"SHUT UP!!!!"

"....Lord Keith....why....?" She managed to croak out. "I'm your friend....why do this to me....what did I ever do to you....please....please...I beg of you....please stop this....I...."

Keith looked at the girl crying naked on the floor in disgust, as though she was a dirty animal whom had just wondered in his home and had walked, leaving muddy prints on a brand new and expensive carpet.

"What happened to your pride Nagisa." He said shamefully.

"My pride is not the question....what happened to yours?" She mumbled under her breath but he heard her and was ignited with fury, blue eyes blazing with icy fire.

HOW DOES IT FEEL!?

HOW SHOULD I FEEL!?

TELL ME HOW DOES IT FEEL,

TO TREAT ME LIKE YOU DO!?

Nagisa cried out as Keith was on top of her again, this time sending punch after punch to her face. Blood splattered against his skin with each strike, but so lost in his fury he did not care. Nagisa had stopped screaming after a few blows....the pain stopped, her whole face had become numb, though she knew she was still being hit because she could still see Keith's fists and her blood splattering on his skin. He was shouting at her and she desperately tried to block out the angry words, it wasn't all that hard, most of her senses were beginning to shut down as she was being pounded to death by the man she loved and though she knew she was an idiot, still loved.

HOW DOES IT FEEL!?

HOW SHOULD I FEEL!?

TELL ME HOW DOES IT FEEL,

TO TREAT ME LIKE YOU DO!?

In his rage, Keith wrapped his hands around Nagisa's throat, fingers sinking into her skin, her eyes wide and looking as though they would pop out of her head he lifted her up into the air, she struggled but then her arms fell limp at her sides and she stomped moving completely. Calming down, Keith stood there shaking and breathing heavy, gasping for breath still holding the girl suspended a few inches above the ground.

How does it feel...

How should I feel...

Tell me how does it feel,

to treat me like you do....?

Arisu closed the door, closeing her eyes to try to block out the image of Nagisa beaten and battered body.

"Master Keith......" She moaned pitifully falling to her knees, and burying her face in the mattress of the small bed as she sobbed heavily.

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Ryan and Taromecika matched swords, each locked in combat, sweating and red in the face as they struggled against each other, but through it all Ryan's eyes stayed empty, uncaring...dead. He was fighting just because....just because.

Taromecika saw this, growling, barring his teeth at the boy.

"Come on! Give me a real battle!"

".............."

They locked swords again, this time however Taromecika was on the defensive and Ryan was trying to bring his sword down to server him in two. Taromecika sent a kick to his legs, sending the boy crashing to the ground. Taromecika stood over him mockingly, waiting for him to move.

Ryan hissed, grabbing his sword, and leaping back up to his feet, charging aggressively at the demon god, who leapt and dodged out of the way of each blow. Taromecika, in mid air from having leapt out of the way of Ryan's sword sent a kick to the boy's back, sending Ryan following on to his knees with an yelp.

"COME ON!!! FIGHT!!!"

"...................." Ryan silently pushed himself to his feet, gripping his sword in his fists, it was shimmering purple, bright enough to almost blind someone, but not bright enough to light up the darkness that surrounded them. Taromeicka watched, a grin spreading across his face as Ryan lifted the glowing sword into the air, allowing the purple glow to move from the sword and surround his body. Ryan closed his eyes gasping as power surged threw his body, an unholy and evil power, but still he welcomed and embraced it. He could feel an invisible force blowing his hair and clothes from underneath his feet, as the power entered into every pour of his being. His eyes snapped opened, still empty, still dead....but now with a hint of evil to them.

"Yes, little half blood." Taromecika smiled. "Welcome the darkness, embrace it Ryan, let it into you heart, now....Attack!"

With an growl Ryan rushed forward, the swords locked in combat again, but now Taromecika was finding it harder to block and avoid each blow from the younger demon, however instead of getting angry, he was smiling.

Ryan sent a swipe to Taromecika's side, cutting the flesh, while the demon god sent a swipe at his leg. Both were bleeding from cuts and wounds but battled still. Ryan somersaulted out of the way of one of Taromecika's attacks, and did a kick to the demon god's backside, but Taromecika was swift and grabbed the boys leg, slamming him into the ground.

"YOU CAN'T GET ME LIKE THAT!!" He hissed slamming the boy into the ground over and over again before throwing him up into the air. Leaping after him Taromecika brought his sword down on the boy sending him crashing onto the watery floor of the dark ocean. Ryan groaned painfully but was far from read to give up, he jumped to his feet, and did a fast twirl, slashing Taromecika's servile times with his sword before kneeing him in the gut. The Demon god grunted staggering back, his head lowered but when he raised it he was grinning.

"I didn't know you had it in you. Ok, let's continue." Taromecika charged up a purple energy blast and sent it flying towards Ryan, whom brought up his sword to block it. However Taromecika sent energy blast after energy blast, and he wasn't able to deflect them all, and was hit and the magical blast went up in an explosion of dust and water. Ryan groaned, it did sevear damage to him, and it hurt. On his knees he looked up over the water and dust which was slowly lowering and saw Taromecika falling from the air, sword ready to strike. Ryan rolled out of the way and was back on his feet. He jumped on Taromecika's back and did a back flip sending both him and the demon god into the air, before they both came crashing down again, Ryan standing on top of the elders chest. Taromecika looked at him surprised before smirking.

"Good, your worthy of being a half demon after all."

"Yeah, but I'm not one am I? I'm just a piece of Kamertion." Ryan spoke bitterly.

Taromecika was silent for a moment, before in a swift move, threw Ryan off of him and stood to his feet.

"Your skills remind me of Cid's. He was a great swords man, and we were always rivals, however we never got to settle the score."

"....................."

"So you can see why this battle is important to me. Now that we are done the warm up, why not we continue now, shall we?"

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The battle on the stairs ended quite abruptly, and the fighters looked around confused, their opponents just happened to have vanish.

"Well, well." They heard a voice say from behind them and they twisted around, seeing Tenki standing behind them, arms folded, mean smirk on his face. "You all are stronger then I thought, it's a good thing I was prepared."

"He looks so much like Genki!" Mimi gasped, putting her hand to her mouth as Squall walked ahead of them growling.

"What do you mean?"

Tenki ruefully snapped his fingers, and from behind him stepped five figures, the group gasped they were looking at five figures of themselves.

"They are carbon clones, they can't think or feel emotions but they can copy you in every way in power, looks, voice and strength. So I will leave you to fight them now, I'm leaving, my plan has already been sat in motion, there is no need for me to stay hear so my wife and I must say goodbye."

"You coward!" Squall shouted as Tenki dashed off, leaving them to battle.

"...W...w....what do we do?" Parfait whimpered.

"....We'll fight ourselves. We have to hurry though because I can sense the darkness beginning to grow. At least we know everything they can throw at us...that way we wont be caught off guard." Squall explained.

"Oh great plan, I wonder if it'll work." Clone Carrie sneered.

"You forget." Clone Mimi smiled. "Unlike you, we are ruthless, we aren't bound by senseless emotions."

"Nor do we feel regret for what we do. We will slaughter everyone whom stands in our way." Clone Squall grinned.

"That is right." Clone Lima purred, winking at them. "You'll be meeting Alex, Genki and Mara in the life stream soon."

"Mara?" Mimi gasped alarmed. "She's....no.....she's dead?"

"Has been for months." Clone Carrie revealed.

"What?" Parfait blinked confused. "But I just saw her...."

"Oh, what did you see?" Clone Parfait taunted. "You saw a clone, Hikari."

Parfait bit her lip. "Don't call me that...."

"We will defeat all five of you! We know what you can throw at us!" Squall yelled.

"But, do you know what we can throw at you, Squally dear?"

The man-beast gasped. "Lemon!?"

Behind the five clones stood Ryan, Lemon, Genki, Alex, and Mara.

"More clones!?" Carrie gasped.

"Gen....ki...." Mimi whimpered, staring at the clone. "How dare you take on his form!"

"After you battle them, if you win, you can battle us." Clone Ryan taunted.

"You have no idea what we can throw at you." Clone Genki chuckled.

"I will destory you easily." Clone Alex said monotone.

"I will enjoy ripping you to shreds." Clone Mara said while admiring her claws.

"Ahhh....ahhhh...." Parfait trembled, backing away fearfully.

"Squall.....how...how can we fight against people who look so much like our friends." Mimi trembled. "I don't think I could bring myself too....even though he's not Genki he looks....sounds....."

".....Like them we have to let go of our feelings for this battle and kill them. It's not our friends, just keep that in mind. They are just shells. But I know what you mean, I'll find it hard to attack someone who looks so much like Lemon."

"........Let's start this fight now. There is not much time, if Mara is dead then Ryan will be needing our help." Carrie spoke seriously.

The group and the clones stood ready to attack, ready to kill.

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The battle continued between the demon god and the demon-half. Both were bleeding, both were battered and bruised but neither was about to stop. Taromecika pounced on top of Ryan, holding him down, as he kicked and clawed at his arms. Taromecika brought his fists down striking him. He was hit five times before Ryan worked his hands loose and swiped Taromecika across the face. Though lacking claws, his nails still did a fair amount of damage, causing the demon god to clutch his face, and in the moments distraction Ryan worked himself from underneath him and sent a kick to the side of the others head. With a yell the so called god crashed into the water. After a moment he stood back to his feet, the grinned wiped off his face, slowly he raised up his hands, bringing both himself and Ryan into the air to do battle. The younger looked alarmed expecting to fall to the ground but he stayed suspended in the air by them demon's power.

"Ryan, this will be the final fight between us, no more practice shots, no more warm ups, this is it."

"Fine, whatever you say."

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The two Squalls battled it out in wolf form, slashing at each other, biting and ripping the others flesh. The battle was violent between the two and as they fought, trying to kill the others they spoke words deliberately made to hurt the other.

"Come on! Kill me like you killed all those humans! Or have you grown soft over the years!?" Clone Squall growled

"I haven't grown soft, I've grown a heart, unlike you, a clone can't possess a heart, can't ever!!"

"Magical Sphere!" Clone Carrie called, striking Carrie in the side. The real Fernandez grunted, falling on one of her knees before forcing herself back to her feet.

"Come on Carrie! Kill me like you killed your family!"

"You bitch! MAGICAL ORBS!!!"

"WATER TWISTER!!"

"Ahhhh!!!" Lima screamed as she was struck by Clone Lima's attack.

"Oh come on! Don't tell me I was cloned off somebody so weak!" the clone said in disgust.

"Your aren't me...and I will destory you....!" Lima grunted getting to her feet. "WATER ARROWS!!!"

"Oww!!" Mimi whimpered as her clone pulled her hair.

"Come on, Mimi." Her clone said in a hateful tone. "Stop being so weak! Show me what ya got!"

"Oh!!" Mimi cried out as she was kneed to the stomach.

"You impostor!" Parfait growled, striking clone Parfait in the face.

"Don't slap me!" The clone slapped her back.

The two children were in a slapping war, cutting each other's faces with their claws.

Meanwhile the rest of the clones just stood there laughing. They were enjoying this whole thing very much...and who knows if they won, maybe they could each take the real ones places and live life as normal living people.

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The battle between Ryan and Taromecika was still going strong, blood flew, as the violence continued without any end. However Ryan then made a slip up as he went to slash at Taromecika and was sent being hammered back to the ground by the demon god's fists.

He pulled himself to his feet, feeling boiling rage fill his heart and body. He felt his hands grow hot, and Taromecika gasp in surpise as he released an large magical energy wave, almost like a hot burning beam. Ryan was shocked as well....this was the first magical attack he had ever used while not powered up to the form of an angel.

Taromecika gasped, as the beam cut through his side. He gripped the warm blood spilling from it, and out of his cape fell an object. It landed open in the black water, Ryan gasped in shock, dropping his sword, eyes growing wide.

It was an large red locket, golden engravings and a golden chain, inside was a picture of a beautiful woman. The same locket....the same picture...as Parfait's. Ryan pulled his sister's locket out from underneath his shirt to make sure....he was right. It was the exact same thing. Ryan looked up at Taromecika in silent shock, the demon god just stared down at him, his expression unreadable, or maybe it wasn't...it was just an expression Ryan had never seen before in his life and therefore it was impossible to know what it was.

"I knew I couldn't keep it hidden. There was another reason why I wanted to fight you. Lou, was a woman I traveled with on the quest with Cid. She was in love with me, madly, but I loved Aya....no I loved Saiyoua, Saiyoua was Aya. However....I thought....when I found out Aya was the dark goddess I thought I lost her forever....so one night I took Lou, she welcomed me, and she got pregnant for a son....she named him, Ryan."

"..........!!"

"Part of me, I guess cared about her, maybe even loved her, that is why I carry around her picture. But when I learnt there was a way to revive Saiyoua I sought out on my own journey, to find the way and bring back my true love. Lou followed me and...I thought that maybe I could be happy with her....that was when she had her second child, a little girl she named Parfait. But then I found away, the key to reviving my true love and I left Lou alone. However...as I gained followers and power I realized that if she informed her sister Karen, or Cid, or even Jabora, all my plans would be over. So I used someone...whom was very close to Lou, someone else who had been in love with her to attack her while in the snowy dessert outside of Angeles, he brought her back and I figured I could use her as a solider and I got the black sorceresses to alter her body and mind and turn her into Lounaru. The children though, the solider I sent let get away so I sent one of my followers, Miss.Lena whom she and her sisters fooled Jabora into believing they turned a new leaf and let go of their evil ways, to look for my kids...I figured that when they got older they could help me revive Saiyoua, I and my two half-breaded children were the only ones left of Gaia with demon blood, so I wanted them by my side. However...one night, my son was killed in the training center. Lena brought him back to me...I was crushed. Though I didn't know my son at all....he was still my child. I created a copy of him using Kamertion and Magention, made a copy of my boy together piece by piece but...." Lounaru looked down at Ryan. "I guess apart of me still cared about Lou...and I made you with blond hair and blue eyes, and with a more human body so you would look like her...and so, my second son was created from dead form of my first, having some of his Magention put inside of you to give you a soul and a heart. This Ryan, is my memory, my memory of the past, and now it is your memory of the future.

Your Memory...My Memory

"............" Ryan fell to his knees in disbelief, his head lowered, staring at his reflection in the water.

Taromecika landed, causing the water to ripple, and began to approach him slowly. Ryan was so out of it, he did not even jump as he felt a hand rest on his shoulder.

"Ryan...You might as well be my son. Why don't you join me...?It was what you were created to do...it's what the real Ryan would of done. Son, come on, join your father."

Ryan looked up at him weakly, allowing Taromecika to pull him to his feet gently.

"..........It can't be...." The blond demon's voice shook and trembled as the Demon god smiled pulling him close and sunk his fangs into his son's neck. Ryan did not even yelp, but allowed Taromecika to drink of his emotions.

"......You are in so much pain my son....join me...and you will never have to be put threw such agony again."

"...................."

Taromecika finished drinking and removed his fangs from the boys neck and let him go. Ryan felt dizzy and staggered falling into Taromecika's arms.

"Ryan, what do you say? Will you end your pain and strife and join me?"

"............." Ryan looked up into the man's eyes weakly. `Why not....I am just a clone....I was created to be on evil sides....screw the orb of light....screw it all.....Ryan was the guardian of light....I'm.....I'm just a clone....I'm just a puppet.....he's asking me like I have a choice....they can just pull my strings at any time.....make me do what they wish....it doesn't matter to me anymore....it just doesn't matter....'

"Father...." He whimpered like a child, causing Taromecika to smile an mix between an happy one and an evil manipulating one. "....Ok....Father......ok...."