Fan Fiction ❯ The Real World: Teen Titans Style ❯ Follow What's Right ( Chapter 12 )

Sorry for the delay, I got writer's block again. I was running through my Buddy List trying to find some people to help me lol. So…Ok I really must admit that this chapter WAS rushed and sucks. Lol no kidding. I did this in like 2 hours. Bleh… Well, at least try to bear with it. I know, its not as good as the other ones, in fact, this one really stinks poop. Well, in my opinion, its kind of boring. But, hey whatever. Enjoy?

 

It continued to rain, gradually lessening by the hour, showing that Raven was starting to clear her mind. Robin immediately changed into a new outfit and went into the living room, he couldn't stay in the small room, he'd go crazy. He needed air and space to calm himself. It was so cold that it burned; Robin's heart ached as he lay on the cold floor and stared at the dark ceiling, sighing every other second. It was weird, it was close to midnight and he didn't feel a bit tired. Cyborg had been in the common room, hearing indistinctive sounds of their voices going off, first soft, then loud and then soft again in a cycle. He was curious, but after seeing Robin's expression, he decided to keep away for now.

 

Thank goodness Starfire had convinced Beast Boy into working on the crops. Yes, it was raining like all hell had let loose but they had to save the crops, soon, they will grow to become the perfect size and they just couldn't abandon it to be crushed by the heavy rainfall. At first it was work, Beast Boy was lying the cloth on top of the field while Starfire was pinning them down, but one way or another, they just started pelting each other with mud. It was for the better, they had started playing with the mud and now they were both exhausted and too distracted to notice anything. They barely heard anything other than a few footsteps; after all, they were throwing mud into each other's ears. No one could have imagined that Starfire and Beast Boy would be having a mud fight for almost three hours.

 

“It has to be at least 2 hours…” Cyborg said to himself, he couldn't help but wonder why his leader was lying on the dirty floor with his hands hiding his face. “Hey man, what's up.” He finally spoke up, breaking the long silence.

 

“Nothing much… you?” Robin casually, or at least tried to casually say without lifting a finger.

 

“Um, same… so… how're you feeling?” Drag it; sooner or later he'll tell him.

 

“Fine…”

 

“…” Cyborg arched a brow at his friend and scratched his back from the awkwardness. “Alright, spill it, what happened?” If coaxing wasn't going to work, better us some straightforward interrogating.

 

“What do you mean `what happened'? Nothing happened so drop it.” Robin said with coldness, he pushed himself off the floor and sat on the couch.

 

“That's it, just lie and forget about it, right? Come on. If you don't tell me, I can never help you.” Cyborg sat down by Robin with a seriousness drowning his usual playful voice. He stared back at Raven's room, absolutely no sign of life as usual, but was there a connection? “Does this have anything to do with Raven?”

 

The Boy Wonder turned his head and dragged a hand down from his forehead to his chin and sighed once again. Raven. The name itself flooded back a horde of joyful memories from Jump City to the memories before, but it also brought merciless painful recollections of the past. It was beautiful, dark, and mysterious and yet, it was stained with the terrible memory of her pushing him away, again and again. It was so hard, how could he have fallen for her so far to become this hurt? How couldn't he have fallen for her? He lost all senses, forgot his vows to be the calm leader he was supposed to be and now he was just about to tell his friend about everything. “Yes, it is about Raven.” Robin spoke the simple sentence and didn't go on, the room was once again in silence.

 

“…Then what happened?” Cyborg said, urging Robin to fill him in with everything.

 

“She… she rejected me. But at the same time… I think she was about to accept… accept that we just might happen.” Robin started, beginning to move again. “At first, she even almost let me… kiss her but she pushed me away. Then she hugged me… Cyborg, she hugged me... But then she said that it was from pity and she wanted me to leave. It doesn't make any sense at all. I don't know what to do.” He let his head hand down to his chest and let out another depressing sigh.

 

“Wow… man… I never knew…” Cyborg couldn't find anything to say, it was too complicated. What could he say to his devastated leader?

 

“I really don't know what to do… I won't be able to bring myself to talk to her anymore, not after what happened before. But I can't keep myself from thinking of her. Cyborg, I think I really liked her. Now that I think about it more… I might have even been in…” Robin trailed off.

 

“Whoa, you're not kidding about this are you? You really felt that strongly about her? I'm surprised. I thought you liked Starfire. I would have never dreamt that you liked Raven!”

 

“At first I just liked her, but after all of this, I think I've fallen in lo-” Robin began.

 

“Hey! Hey! I don't want to hear the L word. It creeps me out…” Cyborg shivered, trying to light up the mood but Robin still looked like he was about to break into pieces right before his eyes. His attitude changed again, becoming sympathetic again. “Look, Robin, you just need to relax for now alright? I'll think of a plan for you, does that sound good?”

 

Robin looked pathetically at him and fell back on the hard couch, taking Cyborg's advice and trying to relax his mind and body. “I guess…heh thanks…” He pretended to look comforted, to feel better but he knew that no one could make him feel better, maybe only time will be able to heal his broken heart. Cyborg nodded and left to gather up whatever was left of Starfire and Beast Boy after their “crop saving”. Once Cyborg had left the room, Robin leaned back even more and let the night soak in, it was so perfect, but he still couldn't do anything right. He let out one more sigh and before he knew it, he fell into a deep slumber, dreaming of the rain and nothing else.

 

 

In her own cave, Raven was crouched by the side with a few cloaks covering her head, not even letting a bit of the moonlight come near her skin. She was so confused, not knowing the first thing to do. She couldn't even find a way to bring herself out of the room. Raven had been crying the entire night, she felt weak, physically and mentally. She scowled herself, how could she have let Robin make her so weak? So weak that she would cry without stopping, so weak that she would want to fall into his arms and draw in his comfort. It was disgusting, she hated being so weak minded. She hated being so vulnerable; having to need to resort to doing things she would usually name “signs of the weak”.

 

Raven regretted everything that happened this night. She had let her senses fail and broke into tears and Robin came to the rescue. She wanted to be with Robin and in her blindness; she couldn't find the horrible consequences of it all, so she accepted his hand. When her mind came back to focus, it was too late, too far into the game so she quit and ran from her problem. But Robin wouldn't back down, and from his stubbornness, she turned him down and in the most hurtful way she could think of. She patted herself on the back, she got rid of her problems, but at the same time, she slapped herself with regret.

 

“Damn it.” Raven hissed at herself. She didn't want to know what her mind wanted anymore, she wanted to follow her heart. What was the point of having feelings if the most pleasant one was to be avoided? Raven wanted to hug Robin again, whisper her love to him and be in bliss but such things weren't easy. Everything she was ready to follow her heart, her mind would charge in and remind her of the faults. Was she weak to have fallen in love with Robin? Or was it her inability to know how to fight through hard times for happiness the true weakness? If only she could have changed what she had done. If only she had leaned in, smothered Robin with kisses in the rain, instantly bound her arms around him and confess everything to him. Nothing could change it now, what was done was done; she had taken his heart and was foolish enough to throw it away.

 

“No, shut up.” She called back to herself, this time her mind was speaking. Raven can't love, its not natural, she can't love, can't be happy, can't be sad, she can't feel anything other than the regular numbness in her heart. That was how she was born, she was to keep all emotions under control inside, she was not supposed to find anything to distract her from her powerful abilities. Such things would cause catastrophic endings. Her heart was only supposed to be used to pump the bitter blood through her ice-cold veins. It was never made to beat with excitement or fill with affection because of someone. It would be too risky. It felt like a two way fight between her mind and heart, and the more she heard her own conversation, she wanted to believe her heart more, even if it meant wrong things would happen.

 

At least she didn't feel as grievous as she did a few moments ago. The rain had settled down to a light drizzle, as did her mind settle to a small whirlpool of thoughts. Raven sat in her room through the night and into the morning, arguing with herself. The drizzle eventually turned into light clouds and finally, the sun even seemed to peek out from between the fluffy white clouds. Sunrise had passed and Raven's stomach was beginning to grumble. It had been almost eternity since she had a decent meal; it was either a bite of disgusting leaves or even just entirely missing the entire meal. After finding new reassurance, she left the gloomy cave and into the large living room, illuminated by the heavenly rays of light.

 

It surprised Cyborg, to see Raven outside of her room after only a night concealed inside. He quickly pushed a plate of breakfast to his friend, hoping that a good meal would lighten her mood more. She was feeling better, she knew what she had to do but once she laid her violet eyes upon the shattered boy on the couch, sleeping from a harsh night, she couldn't keep herself from becoming heart-broken and guilty for laying such pain on him. She had felt so confident, so ready but now her self-belief broke, Raven knew she would never be able to talk to him. It would be too awkward, too sudden. Once again, her mood shifted back to depression and confusion. She ate slowly as she thought of what else to do, if she couldn't talk to him, how could she apologize? It was too hard, why did everything have to be so hard?

 

“Hey Raven, are you feeling better?” Cyborg whispered, for a second, Raven had forgotten that he was even there.

 

“What do you mean? I'm fine.” Raven lied, she was fine before, but now she was miserable again.

 

“Well, that's good, I was just thinking, I heard you talking about needing to train and everything, and I can't even work on my waffle iron anymore, maybe we'd go training later?” Cyborg said with a smirk.

 

“Uh…” Raven's mind flashed back to the wonderful scene of Robin talking to her, planning to train with her every day in the morning. These memories would never happen ever again, not after what she did to him. She snapped out of it after seeing Cyborg patiently waiting for an answer. “S-Sure, yeah.” She randomly answered, forgetting the question for a minute.

 

“Great.” Cyborg nodded and left. “We'll go after I get a few things.”

 

“Um, yeah, alright.” She turned herself away from the direction of the couch; she couldn't stand seeing any sight of Robin. “If only it was Robin who was asking…”

 

It was almost an hour, the sun was baking the moist land, evaporating and drying it up to its former glory. Beast Boy was in his room, sleeping the day away and Starfire had been cleaning up the mess she had made with Beast Boy in the garden. Raven impatiently waited outside with her hood covering her face and standing in the shadows. Finally, Cyborg walked out of the cave with a large bag and Robin following behind him. Raven jumped, why was he coming? She didn't like it, her body tinkled with pain from the presence of him. It was truly hard after all. Even knowing how she felt now, knowing that she wanted to do something about, and being so determined, she still couldn't look at him without wanting to shrink away and run. Robin was just as surprised, but he made no sound. He sent a weird glance at her with sorrow, anger, disappointment and love all in the same look.

 

“Hold on, why is he coming too?” Raven masked herself and let her face fall into a disgusted look while her voice turned insensitive and revolted.

 

“Well, he didn't have anything to do, you didn't have anything to do, we all don't have anything to do. So why not train together?” Cyborg smiled and pretending like nothing was wrong.

 

“Hmpt.” Raven rolled her eyes and began walking.

 

“Why did you invite her too?” Robin finally spoke with a hurt voice. Raven's actions, expression and voice made him feel even worse; it was like stabbing an open wound over and over. Not only did he feel unwanted, now he felt hated and felt as if the only thing he would bring was loathing and unfortunate events.

 

“I don't know.” Cyborg smiled and shrugged his broad shoulders; he was such a horrible liar, he had something up his sleeves, Robin just knew it.

 

Yeah, I know it sucked. It's almost done so now you don't have to waste any more time with me. I'm thinking of 1-2 more chapters, maybe 3 max. Lol. I'm also thinking of a sequel. Yep… so if you're still interested after you finish my fanfic, I'll start writing that sequel for you guys. Thank you all for being such awesome fans all these times, and I hope that you all continue to read my fanfic(s). Ugh, I'm really disappointed in myself with this chapter… I hope I can make everything up for the next chap. See you there!