Fan Fiction ❯ Touch the Moon ❯ Never Stay Away ( Chapter 5 )

Welcome to the final instalment of 'Touch the Moon', it didn't turn out as dark or as angsty as I would've like but it's definitely one of my better stories I think. I hope you like it.

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Touch the Moon: Chapter Five

The World spins pleasantly as it fuzzes in and out of focus in front of my eyes. My mind sinks into a cloud of passive, dreamy happiness as I sprawl back on the couch watching all the pretty lights dancing in front of my eyes. I lay there motionless for a while with a smile on my face as pleasure washes over me. Soon enough the World stops it's happy fuzzing and the pleasure comes in smaller and smaller waves until it stops completely. I stare at my watch and sigh. Only three and a bit minutes.

Drugs just don't do it for me anymore. I never really cared for such things when I was human; drugs were just an occasional escape from too painful a fight. And I hardly ever got injured in my fights. Now, the only reason I even do drugs is to annoy Lei who seems determined to reform me. I don't like to be reformed. They never bothered with Fei-Long so why me? Probably because Fei-Long knows his limits and actually exercises self-control I suppose…life is so unfair on me.

I drop my wrist and it lands on something that definitely isn't mine. I look down and am faced with a drunken body sprawled over my own. Normally as a vampire I would take advantage of this situation. Hey, living forever can be boring and playing with mortals is such a fun game. Their emotions can be hurt so quickly. One affair and the relationship is down the drain, one black mark on the record and you're a criminal forever. I guess they haven't learnt that trust should be able to transcend everything else. So what if your lover occasionally sleeps with someone else, maybe they wanted a variation of sex. All that matters in the end is that your lover loves you and will always return to you in the end because you're the best for them.

Then again, maybe they have a right to be jealous. Humans are so fickle. They can fall in love with someone else so quickly that maybe they have a right to be spiteful about it. All I know is that Fei-Long and Lai are lovers as well as partners. They don't see each other much sometimes when there's a big assignment or something so they constantly fill that slot with another body, but when they do have time to meet they won't have eyes for anyone else. And poor Mei and Tsui especially, they're lovers too but not partners, so they hardly see each other at all. Their partners are their best friends like Yen and Hoi-Qhui are. And it's their best friends that comfort them if they suddenly burst into a fit of lonesome hysterics. That's how love should be. Well in a vampire's view anyway.

Maybe it's just because humans just can't tell romance-love from lust-love, family-love, friendship-love and so on. Whatever, in any case I haven't been in the mood for sleeping around lately and even drugs don't keep me high and happy anymore. I shove the body off me and it lands in an unceremonious heap on the floor. It turns out to be quite a pretty girl, definitely too young and definitely on a high. A whiff from the air tells me its Ecstasy. And Lei said I didn't know my limits. At least I knew enough to never take something as powerful or as dangerous as Ecstasy. Sure now that I'm a vampire I need something like Speed or Ecstasy to get me high, but when I was a human I definitely wasn't that stupid. Even when I'm taking drugs I never take enough to make me completely loose awareness.

I think it's time for me to leave this place. It's just some random back-alley club I found. The police will be here soon; they're making such a racket it'll be hard not to hear them. It doesn't matter if they find a fingerprint of mine or something because technically I don't even exist. Well according to official files I don't, and besides I'm wearing gloves today, damned fashion…it's too hot for a place like Hong Kong…but at least this makes it difficult for anyone to track me.

Pushing out of the mass of bodies I end up outside in…another mass of bodies. Hong Kong is just way too crowded. Outside, inside it's all the same. Crowded. Being the cynical, anti-social, don't-like-to-be-touched person that I am, I immediately back-pedal into the alleyway and scale up a roof again. This time there's no fear of any Slayers out there. Mei told me that whilst I was knocked out in la-la land they'd killed the Slayers and disposed of any evidence that might hint of our existence.

I wander around some rooftops till I land on a particularly cool looking glass business building. It's one of the taller skyscrapers and I can see the rest of Hong Kong blinking back at me from here. It's clear enough to see the full moon tonight; it's such a once-every-few-months thing to see the moon like this. Usually it's cloudy or the air is too polluted. Pretty. I think I'll stay here for it. It's actually quite cold being this high up, but I don't really feel it much anyway. So when a pair of icy, cold arms wrap around my waist and a freezing body is pressed against my back I don't even wince. Vampire blood easily looses its heat. It doesn't hurt us at all really, just makes us an ice cube to touch. I turn my head slightly to one side,

'Yue.'

No wonder he's so cold to touch, he's in a translucent shirt. I look down at myself, wait. I'm not doing much better in very thin, slippery thing. Well Hong Kong is meant to be hot…at ground level anyway. I turn around and hug him. Why am I doing this? It's not like we can share heat or anything, contrary, we've lost it. His nose nudges that side of my face a bit. He's hinting again. I just turn my head away exposing my neck. He's hungry. He could just ask outright to drink my blood, or just plain tackle me and sink his fangs in like Fei-Long does when he's hungry and bored but no, he has to be shy and hint it instead.

I sigh and sit dragging us both down. I shift a bit to get comfortable. Me leaning against a bit of railing with him on top of me pressing down on my pulse. He's pushes gently until the skin breaks and silver blood pours out. Absently I stroke his hair. He's still the only one I'll let drink directly from my pulse. Not even Fei-Long is allowed to do that. Lai says I'm too shy, usually if someone is lazy they'll just tackle a family and drink from them instead. I never really let my family do that. The only ones whom have ever even had my blood touch their lips at Yen, Lan, Hoi-Qhui and Fei-Long. Lai and the other family members are jealous, they want some too. It's quite cute really. The last time Fei-Long drank from me Lai tackled him and went for his mouth to see what my blood was like.

It's a good thing vampires have endurance. If we weren't, we wouldn't be able to feed from each other anymore. Drinking another vampire's blood is a trust thing. After all, you're not going to let some random vampire drink from you and maybe even kill you. It's like linking arms with a close friend. It's pretty common but only those you trust are allowed to do it. Vampires just see feeding from friends as a snack. Wait…haven't I talked about this before? In anycase, the pressure on my neck is lessening. He's nearly full.

Eventually Yue extracts himself from my neck contented and instead curls up in my arms. He purrs and moves even closer. I don't know what comfort he finds, I'm freezing to touch right now. Then again vampires love to touch. Seeing hearing and smelling everything is very good and important but theres no solidity to it, touch is the core. To feel everything tingle under your fingertips and the touch of blood on your tongue. Taste overlaps with touch so it's only secondary. To even taste in the first place you need to touch.

The scars of Lei's fangs on my shoulder blade are gone now. They vanished after Yue became my partner and started to drink from me instead. Now the scars of Yue's fangs show. They lie snug right over my pulsing bloodflow. When I asked about it, Hoi-Qhui fell off her chair laughing. She didn't really have enough oxygen to explain the concept to me so when Helen came in she had to do the talking. She told me that the scars are symbolic. The scars are meant to be that of the one we care for the most, and until that right person bites than only the scars of the person who changed us will be present.

It's disturbing to think that my younger sister who's been a vampire for a far shorter time than I have knows more than me. I always thought that Fei-Long was the one who I cared for most. He is my best friend. Goes to show really.

'Aki…', Yue always knows when I think too hard. 'Stop thinking.' He orders, 'When you do you get a headache, you don't want to talk to me anymore.'

I let my fingers drift into his hair and tangle them there, 'Don't be stupid, how could I not want to talk to you. You're my partner.'

I look at him. I was right when I said he was meant for the night. In the day he looks sick and pale, but in the night he looks dangerously beautiful. It's intoxicating. Fei-Long has already teased me about bringing such a pretty pet home. Do I want him as only a pet to show off? No, was the immediate answer my subconscious told me. If my subconscious was real then that comment would've have been accompanied by a hard slap in the face. I didn't want him as a pet, I want him to be the person who is able to understand me beyond my personality and my physical self.

I shake Yue who's falling asleep on my shoulder.

'Wake up. We can't sleep on a skyscraper.'

'Why not?' he asks as his arms tighten around my neck, 'it's not like anyone comes up here anyway.'

'I want to go home.'

'And do what? Bicker with Lai and Fei-Long over which bedroom you want? Just stay here.'

'I haven't fed yet.'

He looks up at me and pouts,

'Are you saying you don't like my blood?' He lowers his head against my chest and speaks into my shirt, 'You've been out drinking and doing drugs again haven't you?'

It hurts him, I know it hurts him that I drink and take drugs. He remembers his time when he had to act as a prostitute to get money, to take drugs to get rid of the pain. I'm not stupid. He never tells me but I see. He doesn't stop me because he understands, I am me. I do what I want, I can take drugs, fight, sleep around, kill, whatever. He wouldn't stop me because it's my life. Like I said, he sees me deeper than my actions, he knows my reasons. I take drugs because it is my escape, I fight because it is my talent, I sleep around because I find amusement and I kill because of what I feel.

He understands me, but that means I also understand him. I know he doesn't come with me because he is reminded. He stays with me because he understands me. I promised I would help him and I will, I said I would give him all the time in the World to fix things and I have. He asks me why I stay with him after I've fulfilled my promise, I told him if I left my promise would've been broken. When he asked me to change him he also asked me if it would be with me. And I agreed because I drained him and I changed him into one of us.

'Did you have fun?' he asks me quietly.

No, I didn't have fun. Ever since you have been in my life Yue I worry more about how you will feed yourself or if you've been caught by a Slayer. It's so powerful that drugs doesn't help and I don't want to sleep around anymore because I want to stay with you to make sure you're alright. If this is what Fei-Long feels everytime he and Lai are apart I don't know how I'll survive. It's been established to myself that I cannot survive without you. It's pathetic but it's true.

I'll never tell you this in real life though because it would be against my personality but you know it anyway because you understand me. So why do you ask? Do you want me to tell you I love you? Because I won't. It's not me. Then again maybe you don't understand, you're just Yue after all. Not a genius or a mastermind, just beautiful, witty Yue. Maybe I should tell you I love you without saying the words. I can do that for you at least my dear Yue.

'No I didn't have fun. I missed you.'

I can tell he's smiling in my shirt. I disentangle myself from him and walk to the edge of the building looking up.

'It's pretty isn't it?' I say.

He looks at me with those silver eyes, a bit confused. He hasn't drunk any human blood yet, only my blood so his eyes are still silver. His eyes are so beautiful silver. Maybe I should only let him drink vampire blood and let his eyes stay this way. Red is too common for him. I stand on my tiptoes and lean forward as far as I can without falling of the building. I reach out and move my hand slightly so that it looks like I've cupped the moon in my palm. He laughs, I love his laugh.

'What are you doing?'

'Trying to touch the Moon.'

He moves his head to one side so that that angle makes it look like I'm holding the moon from his position. He smirks,

'That's not possible. From here it may look like you have the moon in your grasp, but-' at this point he moves his head back, '-from this point you just look like you're trying to reach for something that isn't there.'

I relax my hand so that it looks like the moon is hovering over my hand. How true, no matter how I try I cannot keep you by my side forever. I can only watch you and be with you as long possible before you leave to do something else. But you'll always come back won't you, just like the moon comes back every month. Back to me, because I love you. Even if I don't say it. You should know. I drop my hand and turn back to him. I make to walk past him but stop by his side, he turns to face me and I lift his chin and stare at him imploring him to understand.

'I know I can't catch the Moon, It moves everytime I try to. But,' my voice drops to a whisper and I lean forward to whisper over his lips, 'I can try to keep it with me for as long possible. And I know it'll always appear again. It has too, or I wouldn't be able to live another night.'

I watch his mouth form a small smile. He understands. Than again, he's suppose to. He's my partner. He leans forward to meet my mouth. He bites his lip and offers me his blood, as I said, I haven't fed tonight. He always remembers the things I say even if it was ages ago. I said I hadn't fed, and he remembered. So now he's making sure I'm not hungry.

'Ah, the Moon always comes back because it can't stand to be away for too long.'

How right you are Yue. If you did stay away then I wouldn't be alive anymore.

He never removes his lips from mine as he wraps his arms around my neck so that he's on his tiptoes. His fingers ghost over my back and shoulder blades in a true vampire's touch. Icy cold, smooth, and as light as though it was never there. Yue pulls me away from him for a moment,

'I could never stay away from you for too long. And you don't need to tell me things I already know.'

I told you he already knew that I loved him.

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That's it! Finished. A bit of a deep chapter in my opinion. I really like this story. I hope you enjoyed writing it as much as I did writing it (exclusive of all headaches and fits of hysterics I had of course.)