Fan Fiction ❯ Who is He? ❯ Who is He? ( Chapter 1 )

Who is He?

 

Who is this boy

A friend?

I thought he was but….

I'm not sure anymore

I think feelings are starting to form

And there's nothing I can do about it

We live thousand of miles apart.

New Jersey and

Alabama

 

What should I do?

We use to be a couple, yes

And in a way he is my baby's daddy

But only in role play, sadly enough

 

I've known him for 4 months now

But it feels longer to me

I've cried for him, yes

He makes me smile warmly

 

I think….now that I thought about it…

I love him
not as a friend

But as something more

 

I want to be with him

I don't care what other's think anymore

I love him with all my heart and soul

Even if he can't return the same feelings I wouldn't care

 

My arms bleed as I cut myself

For him

As I count the days we are a part

This might seem crazy I know but I love him

And always will

 

This boy whose name I cry out every night as I touch myself

This boy who I want to touch me in the same way

This boy that makes me truly happy

Something that is rare now

 

He heals the wounds I have

He makes me see clearly

 

 

There's not a minute that I don't think about him

Every second

Minute

And hour

24/7

 

He invades my thoughts

And dreams

No matter what

I can't shake him from me

 

So what is he's older

So what that we might not see each other in the future

I'll keep trying,

Until the day I die

I'll come see him

No matter what

 

I'll love him and

Not even death can stop me

 

This boy who've the nickname is Aya-chan

The name that I have given him

 

Love you always

My dear Alex

My precious Aya

 

 

 

Chii: this is the same boy I was talking about in my other poem “Hell is My Paradise, Death is my Savior.” He's only 16 and I'm 13. Both our birthdays are coming up soon so that makes us about 3 years apart. Everything I said in this poem is the truth. My arm is cut up, I cry myself to sleep, and yes I do touch myself in the thought of him. But like I said before I don't care anymore what others think. I know I love him for a fact. For those who know us please pray for us. I miss him terribly and wish he was here with me. I cry my self to sleep knowing that I won't be able to talk to him. You don't have to review but if you do plz pray for us, I would be eternally grateful to you all. And for anyone else that read my stuff I will try to update soon, it's hard for me considering my dad changed all the passwords on the computer including mine.

 

Love you all and thanx for reading

~Chiisai