Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Brutal Love ❯ Chapter 4

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Everyone has a Limit

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~Crawling in my skin~

Tifa stood and walked to the window in the living room and sat on the window seal...staring out at the town watching people pass by. Staring through the window at the ocean. But in the end she wasn't staring at anything...as she fell into thought.

~Crawling in my skin
Without a sense of confidence, confidence, confidence...
Consuming, confusing
Crawling my skin
Without a sense of confidence and i'm convinced that theres just too much pressure to take
Theres something inside me that pulls beneath the surface~

Her eyes teared up. She felt like her life was falling apart. No one loved her anymore. No one cared for her. No one would bring flowers to her funeral. She was alone. She had no one. Tears dropped into her lap endlessly.

~I'm crawling in my skin
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Fear is how I fall
Confusing, confusing what is real
Confusing what is real...~

But a fire of ardent anger grew inside. Why did things have to be this way for her? Why couldn't things have gone the right way. Why her? Her love for Cloud destroyed. Her father killed. Her friends killed at Sector 7 when it came crashing down. All the people that had to die. All the hatred from Shinra and the rebels. All the fighting. Why did there always have to be fighting? And in the end they didn't even stay together. No more parties or celebrations. They all had lives to go to. But not Tifa. Not a family to come home to, not even a home for that. All was lost for her, and when she lost Cloud her world ended.

~Theres something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming, confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling, I cant seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sence of confidence, and i'm convinced that theres just too much pressure to take
I've felt his way before, so insecure...~

Battling by his side after breaking her heart just made it disintigrate slowly. Her love destroyed and an empitness filling her. Spreading through her body. She didn't fight to win and live anymore, she fought to die. To not have to live with the pain. To not care anymore. But she didnt' die. She kept living in hope.

~Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real~

The sky had begun to grow dark as the sun began to set. She clenched her fists tightly. Then looked into the glass and saw herself. And it was as if all her pain flashed before her. Her eyes full of hurt. Anger. Sadness.

~Discomfort endlesly as pulled itself upon me
Distracting, reacting
Its haunting how I cant seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sence of confidence, and i'm convinced that theres just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before, so insecure...~

She could feel her self control closing around, she couldn't handle it anymore. She didn't want it anymore. Tifa stood up and wiped her eyes. Walked to the door and opened it and made her way down the stairs into town.

~Without a sense of confidence, confidence...
Without a sense of confidence, confidence...
Without a sence of confidence, and i'm convinced that theres just too much pressure to take
Without a sense of confidence, confidence...
Without a sense of confidence, confidence...
Without a sence of confidence, and i'm convinced that theres just too much pressure to take
To find myself again, my walls are closing in
Without a sence of confidence, and i'm convinced that theres just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before, so insecure...~

Tifa looked up and saw the bar to her left. She entered and sat at the bar. Drunken men in trunks walking around and hitting on the waitresses. People throwing darts and playing pool. She ordered a hard drink. Not really able to hear what she said, she just took the drink and gulped it down and ordered another.

~Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real~
(Linkin Park's Krwling from the Reanimation Album)

After a few more drinks she slumped over and closed her eyes. "Hey pretty lady." Came a male voice from beside her. Tifa glared at him from the corner of her eye. "Fuck off!"

"Oooo, feisty. I like 'em like that. Come on o'er here and gimme a kiss." The disgusting man with a three day shadow leaned foward and puckered his lips mockingly.

Before he knew it, he was flying across the bar and slamming into one of the pool tables. Tifa had punched him.

"You bitch!" The man stood. He walked towards her but before he could say more she kicked him in the groin and then grabbed him by the collar and lifted him up before ramming him into the ground.

She raised her fist above her head ready to strike with a bare-handed Final Heaven. A hand from behind grabbed her arm. "Tifa, what are you doing?!" Reno said as he pulled her away from the whining man on the floor. He had to pull her outta there with his arms around her waist because she kept trying to get away. "Let me go, i'm gonna kill that stupid s'um bitch! I'll fucking rip his lungs out and make him squirm on the pavement...I'll carve my name into your skull!" She shouted towards the man. "Let me go!"


"Tifa you're drunk! Stop it, you need to calm down. Please." He said reaching his door and pulling her inside as she held onto the door frame to get away. He lost his grip and he fell down onto his butt. Tifa dashed out. She ran past the bar and towards the beach. "Tifa!" Reno stood and sprinted after her. He saw her run into the water and disapear underneath the surface. "Oh shit!" He ran quickly into the water and dove in. He looked through the water searching for her. He came back up. "Tifa!" He went back under again. Then he saw her. He swam to her and pulled her up. Her chest against his, her head fell back as she coughed. He moved the hair from her face and pulled her to the shore. "Come on, let's go." He helped her up and they walked back to the villa. He opened the door and closed it behind them. "You want me don't you?"

Reno looked at Tifa. "What?" He looked at her through the darkness, only the moonlight giving them light. He could see her heavy eyes looking at him...only her eyes lit from the moon. She walked up to him and pressed him against the door with her body. "You can't deny it."

Her hands ran up and down his chest. One hand trailing further down towards his pants. She started to reach under. Reno groaned. "No, I can't do this...you're drunk."

"Oh come on, it'll be fun." Tifa said with her mouth to his ear. Beginning to nibble on his earlobe. He shuddered slightly. "Tifa I can't." He said pulling away reluctantly and walking into the living room. "Please, Reno." Tifa said, walking up behind him and wrapping her arms around his waist. He turned to her. "No."

Tifa pushed him backwards making him fall onto the couch. She hopped on and straddled him. "You can't hide it. I see how you look at me." She whispered to him as she kissed him on the neck and moved her hips against his. She lifted her shirt off and threw it aside, pressing her warm breasts against him. He could feel himself grow hard as her hips grinded onto his. "Tifa." He said breathlessly.

Her movements slowed and her body stopped, her head laying on his shoulder. Her breathing became slow with her arms still wrapped around his neck.

"Tifa?"

She had fallen asleep. He picked her up as he stood, her legs around his waist. Reno brought her to the bedroom and and tried to lay her down but her arms didn't let go of him. He gently pried himself from her, removed her wet pants and then pulled the covers over her and left.

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