Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Confessions of a broken heart ❯ The fateful letter ( One-Shot )

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Confessions of a broken heart

I always thought that life could be simpler somehow, someway. We're the ones that complicate it. Is that the reason why people grow!? To complicate life!? Shouldn't our main objective be happiness?

We've fought enough, haven't we? We can now fulfil our biggest dreams!

If that's true, then why do I feel so empty inside? I know I should be happy, but I'm not. Yunie is back together with Tidus. Lulu and Wakka have a baby, Kimahri works hard to keep the Ronso together and jolly, and even Paine seems a lot more happier now that the problems with her friends are over.

No one needs me! I'm like a machina that people rent, but is no longer used when they aren't needed. Sin is gone, and so is Vegnagun. I'm no longer Rikku, the perky non-nonsense fighter who “helped” defeat those two threats that cast Spira into a depressed time. A time in which lie, sorrow and death ruled over Spira.

During the pilgrimage, I felt like I was in the company of people that trusted me, just like I trusted them. But now, I doubt. It's hard to speak with them. I've got always the feeling that they look at me, and feel like shouting and telling me, in the most painful way, that all the bad things that happened in their lives, were my fault. Maybe it is.

In my life, I've witnessed many things, and most of them weren't things that someone would like to remember again. But, there is something that no one seems to notice: I have feelings too! I suffer too! Don't they see!? Don't they understand!? I'm tired of always being the happy one! I'm tired of being the one that pulls everyone up! I'm so sick and tired of this damn life! The other people have the same capability.

Yunie; you've always cared about other people's happiness, never voicing the need that you had, for your own dreams to come true. Don't worry: if anyone can do it…you can.

Tidus, Tidus, Tidus. Hum…this is a hard one. Take care of her, hum. If not, I'll do everything I can to make your life miserable.

Wakka and Lulu, I wish you and little Vidina good luck for your lives together. I'm sorry if I ever caused any pain to you two. I just wanted to help you.

Kimahri, only now I know what you meant about me staying myself. But, I find it hard when I no longer can find myself. I've lost track of the time that has gone since that happen. I know you're better than me, so I'm sure that'll never happen with you.

It's doctor P's turn. My dear friend Paine, I sure hope that you keep that new personality that you acquired! Don't let the guys feel like feeding you to the Chocobos, like they felt with me.

Nooj and Baralai, I sure hope you're reading this. I don't want you two to do anymore craziness in Spira. Yunie should rest now. By the way, Nooj, teach some manners to Leblanc. She needs it…just like she needs you and you need her.

The hardest one. Okay, one of the two hardest ones: Gippal. I thought that maybe there could be something between us, that is, if I didn't feel this way. I love you. I think that deep down, you knew it too. No problem. Just…don't break too many hearts.

Finally, the two last ones: Pops and Brother. I love you both so much but you hurt me so. I don't want this anymore. Stop fighting, and stop hurting people! No more pain, no more tears, anymore.

This is the end of the line to me. You don't need to worry for me. This is more like a liberation. I would prefer to go back to the time when I believed in everything but knew nothing at all. A time of happiness…when I was happy.

My sins, my thoughts will be washed away in the seas of Sanubia. Goodbye my pain, my sorrow. Goodbye Spira, my hopes, my friends. When I'm gone, just carry on, cause I'll be watching you all.

Love,

Rikku