Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Family ❯ Denial and Acceptance ( Chapter 10 )

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Family
Pairings: Sephiroth/Cloud
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Chapter 10: Denial and Acceptance

Big watery blue orbs stared disbelievingly into a set of equally unbelieving Mako green spheres. Cloud scooted away from his partner, away from the hands that touched his stomach, as the words Sephiroth spoke to him mere minutes ago chanted in his head as a funeral dirge.

… you're carrying my child… my child… you're carrying my child…

The words were ringing loudly in his sensitive ears, spinning round and round his head, making him feel extremely ill.

“How? I—I mean….I'm a guy,” he sobbed, his confusion and fear plain to see.

“I think, Cloud, that maybe you should go and have a talk with Professor Gast. At least you'll be able to get some straight answers from him. Also, I have a feeling that this is why Hojo wanted you on medic detail,” Sephiroth replied.

Cloud couldn't think. This was not happening to him. He was only eighteen, and was being told by Sephiroth that he was pregnant. But he couldn't be, it just wasn't possible, his body wasn't designed to carry babies—only to make them. Besides, he didn't know the first thing about caring for a child.

“What….What are we going to do?” he asked, looking to his older lover for advice. The eyes that Sephiroth turned on him were cold and empty.

“We?”

Cloud felt himself heaving. He needed air. He needed space.

He had to go.

Cloud desperately needed to put some distance between himself and Sephiroth. How could his lover be acting so cold and clinical about this? As if this whole debacle was his fault.

Because he's not the one knocked-up… you are, a snide little voice piped up in his head.

Standing quickly, Cloud grabbed his clothes from off the floor and dashed into the bathroom. As fast as he could, he got himself dressed and raced out of their quarters, heedless of the half-hearted call of Sephiroth behind him. He just ran blindly from the room, nearly running over an unsuspecting Zack in the process.

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The lights around Shin-Ra's military facility illuminated the night with its soft glowing radiance, making the world assume a mantle of peace and calm, but it wasn't for him. The perfect picture of tranquility was an illusion. His life would always be plagued with self-doubt and sorrow.

Cloud leant on the roof's railing lost in thought, his troubled head lowered on his folded arms. His blond spiky hair swayed in the breeze from the high attitude, the cold wind seeming to clear his mind—taking away some of his heavy burdens.

So, the symptoms he'd been having for the past couple of months weren't from some flu virus, like he had thought. In actuality, they were the signs of him being with child. Sephiroth's child. Tears welled up in his eyes once more as realization slowly sank in.

The early morning vomiting… the weird food cravings… the terrifying dizzy spells… the worrying loss of weight… and the desperate need to sleep all the time. All that, and more, pointed so obviously to him being pregnant…. Something that, if he had been a woman, he would know.

Oh, god! What does he think of me now? Cloud thought shamefully.

Of course, there'sno way he'll want to continue our relationship. The great Sephiroth, not only declaring to the world that he is to be a father, but also, that the `mother' of his child is none other than his male lover? His eighteen year old male lover.

NEVER! Sephiroth would never admit publicly to having taken a man as his partner, a man who had the capability of bearing his off-spring.

Cloud would find himself discarded, tossed aside and forgotten about. The odds were already against them, and he knew Sephiroth would want to take the baby away from him, to keep his secret private. He felt as if his heart was breaking. Loud sobs racked his thin frame, as he gave in to the grief sweeping through him.

So lost in his own depression was he, he was at first unaware of the strong arms wrapping around his shaking, cold body. It wasn't until an ungloved hand eased down to the small bump of his stomach, that Cloud realized he was wrapped tenderly within the warm embrace of his child's father.

“Please….Please don't touch it,” Cloud begged, his tears spilling freely down his face. He didn't want Sephitoth laying his hands on him….being gentle with him before declaring they were over. The clear wet trail of his misery flowed down across his cheeks, and he hitched his breath, as he tried his best to show the General that he wasn't weak. However, knowing Sephiroth was about to throw him away with the trash was enough to keep his tears pouring.

But Sephiroth continued rubbing soothing circles on his young partner's belly.

Cloud's shoulders shook, as he turned into Sephiroth's bare chest, seeking comfort from him, if only for a little while. He waited, fighting to hold back the tears, waiting to hear the words that the silver haired man would tell him that their relationship was over—that he didn't want to have anything else to do with him or this, thing, which had managed to take up residence within his body—that he didn't want it ruining his life.

The boy's silent crying pulled the General from his own thoughts. His hands pressing tightly against Cloud's back, Sephiroth whispered softly in his ear.

“Cloud, don't cry. Please don't cry. I love you…….Why are you crying?”

Cloud's damp face looked up incredulously into Sephiroth's, although a small portion of doubt still filled the blonde's heart. “You love me? You, you mean…..You're not leaving me, because of the baby?”

Sephiroth gave a relieved laugh. So that was what had been bothering the boy? He embraced him tightly again, bestowing gentle kisses all over his young lovers upturned face.

“No, I'm not leaving you. I meant what I said at the start of our relationship—I plan on keeping you, no matter what. Yes, I admit, I was upset with you earlier, but only because I thought you were withholding the information that you could bear children from me.”

“But Sephiroth, I didn't know I could get… like this.” Cloud couldn't bring himself to say the p-word.

“I know that…. now. And to be perfectly honest, Cloud, I didn't want any kids—not after finding out about my own sordid past. But Zack told me something to change all that…”

Forty-five minutes earlier…

“WHOA! Dude, you're my best friend and all,but I do notwant to see you naked,” Zack exclaimed to Sephiroth, entering the room after Cloud had ran past him.

Sephirothdidn't say anything. Hemerely went into the bathroom, moving on auto-pilot as he went to clean himself up, beforereturning to findout what Zack wanted. His mind was still focused onother things,and his friend quickly pickedup on it.

Never before have Zack seen Sephiroth so disjointed.

“Hey, man, are you all right? You're looking kind of pale. What happened betweenyou two?” Zack asked. Hedidn't really want to getinvolved in his friend's private life,but healso wasn'tgoing to stand by idly while one hurt the other, not if he could help. Heknew they werejust so right together.

“Seph?”

“Cloud is having a baby,” came the blunt response.

“WHAT?” Zack barely got out. “You mean….Cloud's got some girl pregnant? He's cheated on you?” He was feeling numb, as if someone had punched him in the stomach. He couldn't believe that about the boy. He had seemed so devoted to Sephiroth.

“No,Zack. I mean, CLOUD is pregnant. He's carrying my child,” Sephiroth explained.

“But, but…..You meanto tell me, that Cloud's one of those rare men you hear about? The one's who can have babies?He knew this, and yet he still went and had sex with you?

“He didn't know. And….. Iattacked him.”Sephiroth turnedhis back,afraid to look at the other manas he finished his sentence. “And I let him run off alone, because I don't know how to handle the situation,” headmitted.

“You did what?” Zack grounded out, pearly white teeth grinding against each other,making an awful noise.“You attacked him? Why?”

Feeling more of a bastard, Sephiroth ran tremblingfingers through the front of his silver mane. “I thoughthe knew he could get pregnant, I thought he brought it upon himself.Fuck,Zack…..” he snarled, spinning round to face his friend.”This is as much a shock to me as it is to him.”

“And you've just let him run off? Youdon't give a damnabout him, do you?Do you actually have a heart? Do you feel anything for him? Or was Cloud just another conquest for the great and powerful Sephiroth?”

“That was low, even for you, Zack. Of course I give a damn. You of all people must know how much the boy means to me,” Sephiroth shouted back. “But….but what if….” He turned away again, the indecision and uncertainly he felt inside tearing him apart.

“What if…..he doesn't want me in his life any more?” he finally whispered.

Furious, Zack snapped at him.. “Well, Sephiroth, did you bother to fucking ask him?” When the 1stClassSOLDIER used his full name, Sephiroth knew Zackwas definitely pissed.

“He's eighteen for Christ sake! You're his first lover. You'dbetter fix this! And now—I don't care what you do,or how you do it, but you'vegot to go and reassure Cloud that everything will bealright,” Zack fumed.

“Because,if youdon't, so help me, I'll kick your fuckingass myself!”

Sephiroth bristled at the threat. “Alright? How the hell can I tell him everything is going to be alright? He's carrying a child, my child. Do you even begin to understand the dangers of that? I can't go to him and say everything is going to be peaches and cream…It's not!” He shrugged his shoulders, feigning indifference.

“Still, it'snot myproblem….He has to decide what's he going to do about it, whetherhe wants to keep it, or not.”

The General was not prepared for the gloved fist that connected with his jaw, causing him to stumble backwards in surprise.

“What the hell was that for?” Sephiroth shot back,after sliding his dislocated jaw back in place.

“I know you've got some emotional issues, Sephiroth, but you'd better start thinkingfor a minute…” Zack ordered him, rubbing his bruised knuckles.

“Cloudmay be pregnant, but he didn't impregnate himself—you didthat! Furthermore, I know you didn'twant to have kids…but Seph, you can't allow your fearsto keep you from having the familyyou'vealways longed for. And Cloud makes you happy—I see it in your eyes—the ways that they shine. This isthe first time in a long while, since Sara's death,thatyou opened up to dating anyone.”

Sephiroth dropped into a chair, mental exhaustion finally catching up to him.

“But what ifCloud dies giving birth, Zack? I can't lose him. I love him so much. And the fact that he's pregnant, Zack, scares me to death. There is nothing I would want more in this world, than to have both Cloud and my child, safe and well…butwhat arethe chances of that happening?”

He rubbed his eyes with a tired hand. “I am so afraid. I want to protect him, and if thatmeans him aborting….then so be it.”

“Stop it, Seph.”

Taking a good look at his friend, Zack noticed that Sephiroth's body was tense. “I'm here for you,and Cloud.You guys are the closest thing I have. You're likebrothers to me, and there's nothing that I wouldn't do for either of you. So, from one brother to another, please, you have got totake this chance,because you might not ever be able to get it again.”

Of course,Zack was right, Sephiroth reasoned with himself. He was running from the unknown,and his fear of being left alone with a baby, made him feel like he was way in over his head—and he didn't know how to handle it.

Sephiroth knew he wasequallyto blame for Cloud's condition. However, he also knew he had no right whatsoever to demand Cloud getan abortion. The only thing he could do was support Cloudin whatever choice he made. After all, itshould ultimately be his lover's decision toeither keep,or get rid of their child.

Pulling his head out of his ass, Sephiroth pushed himself out of the chair and headed towards the door with Zack right behind him grinning fromear-to-ear.

“Cloud shouldbe on the roof—he usually goes there when he wants to be alone,” the 1stclass SOILDIER said, relieved that things were going to be fine between his two friends. “Oh, and uh, Aerith has invited all of us all to dinner tomorrow night. Look forward to seeing you both there.”

They parted ways whenthe elevator doors opened. Sephiroth stepped inside.

“Thank-you Zack,” he saidwholeheartedly.

“You're welcome…….Good luck!”

Present time on the roof

Sephiroth knew he had a responsibility not let Cloud face this alone. He trembled as he held his young lover in his tight embrace.

“You're scared too?” Cloud timidly asked, his tears long since dried up.

“Yes, Cloud. I'm scared. I'm scared that I`ll lose you the same way that I lost my mother. But I understand that this is something I must deal with,” Sephiroth answered.

Cupping his lover's face in his small hands, Cloud pulled Sephiroth down to him—kissing him affectionately on the lips, letting his tongue break through into Sephiroth's mouth, sliding his arms around his powerful lover's shoulders, taking comfort in the way the kiss was returned.

Pulling back slightly, Cloud said, “I can't promise you that I will be around forever, Sephiroth, that I'll never die. But I can promise you, that I will love you with all my heart until that time comes. And as for this…” Cloud patted his not so flat stomach, finally accepting what they had created together. “If this is something you don't want….. Then, then I'll get an abortion.”

He couldn't afford to let himself get attached to the baby, not yet, just in case Sephiroth didn't want it.

“No, Cloud. This isn't about me and what I want,” Sephiroth said gently, lowering his head to nestle it into the boy's neck—inhaling Cloud's unique scent of sweet vanilla. “The question is….do you want to keep the baby? No matter what your decision, I will respect it.”

“I… I think we should talk with Professor Gast first and hear what he says.” Cloud replied, feeling the heat from Sephiroth's breath upon his neck, exciting him. He turned into his lovers embrace again, thrusting his hips forward meekly.

“Then we can make a decision…. together,” he whispered huskily, turning his face upwards.

Sephiroth openly smiled at his lover, before capturing his lips again in a breathtaking kiss.

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A/N: Was that mean of Sephiroth to treat Cloud that way? If it hadn't been for Zack I truly believe that he would have told Cloud to get lost. What's next for our couple? Don't know? Well, to find out stay tuned for the next chapter.

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oOoOo Teaser for Chapter 11 oOoOo

“Alright, Gast, what the fuck is going? And don't tell me nothing. I already got that shit from Rufus.”

“Sephiroth, the only explanation I can deduct based on the information Cloud has giving me, is that prior to the injections, his reproductive system had in fact, been asleep.”