Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ FFVIII Journals ❯ Squall's Entry ( Chapter 1 )

Disclaimer - I don't own FFVIII or the characters in the game. I have no money and anything I own is not worth having. This story is fiction.

Warning - A little swearing, and male x male thoughts.

Rating - R, it will heat up later on

This will be yaoi folks but for now it is shounen-ai, boys liking boys, in this case Squall + Zell with a little rivalry from Seifer + Zell.

Dedication - To Shaeric Draconis, I luv you very much!

^__^

Squall Leonhart's Journal

[Monday 25th May XXXX Balamb Garden 2230 hours]

[Journal entry # 1]

I've decided to keep a journal to keep my thoughts in order and to express how I feel without having to voice them out loud…not that I ever would.

It is now six months after the defeat of Ultimecia, the gang and I still walking around as if we were still in time compression.

Now I have experienced time compression I can only say that I never, *ever*, want to go there again. It was too disorientating and when we finally defeated the bitch sorceress Ultimecia, I honestly thought that I was never going to return.

It's thanks to Rinoa that I remembered again, but if she was inside my head at that time, she would have seen the shadow of someone else lurking deep within me. Someone whom I was afraid to acknowledge because of the consequences that would occur if it is ever known that I had feelings for another male.

Yes I am in denial but how could I not, when all he ever is to me is annoyance, impulsive fiery temper, innocence and naiveté wrapped up in a small package, his beautiful face marked by a black tattoo. Yes he is a lot shorter than I and he is very slender but looks can be deceiving because lurking beneath his baggy clothes is a tight compact body of well toned muscle covered with unblemished golden skin.

I may not show my emotions and at times I am a little cold, but come on, I have urges just like any normal teenager going through adolescent. If you thought otherwise then I can only say, *'what fucking planet are you from!'* I have eyes in my head and of course I am going to look when the opportunity arises.

And look I did, my cock begging to be touched as his strong slender hands soaped that gorgeous body that can only be likened to Adonis. I love watching him shower and it is only today that I realised that I wasn't the only one.

*Seifer!*

I have to go, there is someone banging on the door and by the erratic knocking I know its Selphie. Yes even this late headmistress Quistis will give out missions if they are important enough.

[Squall Leonhart signing out at 2245 hours]