Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ I was happy ❯ I was happy ( Prologue )

I was happy

Aries has died, me and Yuffie had saw the whole thing. We watched helplessly as we watched Sephiroth drive his sword of death threw her heart Killing her instantly. I watched numbly as Cloud sobbed holding her body close to his. We had to fight soon after that, but it was a battle that was fought with tears. After the battle I approached Aries who laid, slumped against the side of the alter, her eyes closed forever, her skin pale. I fell to my knees beside her, tears brimming in my eyes. I remember all the time we had spent together, she had become a good friend of mine threw our travels. I cried for her, myself and for Cloud. I knew that Aries loved Cloud and that Cloud loved her. It always filled me with such sadness and anger when I saw them talking and Aries flirting cutely with him. Aries was perfect, sweet, beautiful, kind. She was perfect, no wonder Cloud had loved her so much...he deserved a perfect girl...It had always filled me with such anger, but...

I felt myself reach up, brushing a strain of hair from her perfect and lovely little face.

She would never chase after my Cloud again...she was gone forever...

Instantly I felt disgust at myself for thinking such a thing. For thinking such uncaring thoughts as I kneel over the body of my friend, in tears I run from the alter, leaving Yuffie and Cloud alone to deal with their own sorrow.

I waited near the small little lake for them, curled up in a ball as I sobbed. I was such a terrible person...thinking such thoughts. She gave her life trying to stop Sephiroth, how I don't think we will ever know, but all what I had done in thanks was feel relief at the fact that she would not longer be able to take Cloud away from me, still at this moment I still feel relief and joy hidden underneath my sadness.

I was such a monster....almost as bad, maybe even worse then what Sephiroth was. I saw Yuffie approach me, not saying anything, but just standing there with tears running down her face. We stared at each other before I could no longer take the pressure and I threw my arms around her crying. We both cried, for our friend which was gone forever. From the corner of my eye I watched as Cloud brought the lifeless form of Aries over to the lake, wadding in it until he was waist deep in it's cool waters. I could see no more trace of tears in his eyes, but the look of lost still dawned his face. That look I knew, would haunt his face forever...

If only I had died instead, then Cloud could have been happy...then he could be with the one he truely loved. Aries deserved to live...not I, after the selfish thoughts I had felt. Yuffie and I watched as Aries was consumed by crystal clear water which would become her grave. We knew we would never see her face gain, that she was gone forever...

She would never smile again, or get mad, cry, or ever feel love ever again. Cloud turned away, returning to our side, blue eyes lowered at the ground. I knew that now I had a chance to be his...to be the one he loved, but it was only because Aries was gone. Anyway, I don't deserve his love...not anymore. Not after how I felt when I saw Aries laying their motionlessly. Not after how I still feel...

I felt like a monster, felt like I was a horrible person. Perhaps if I told someone how I felt they would disagree with me, and say that what I had felt was normal, but I knew better. I knew I was horrible and that I did not deserve any love, not from him, not from anyone. Because when I first saw Aries laying against the alter, eyes closed forever, never to speak again, for a spilt second I was happy.