Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Insanity ❯ Insanity ( Chapter 1 )

Title: Insanity Chapter 1: Pain

Author: Naniris

Rating: NC-17 rape, torture, blood

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters, just the storyline. This is a yaoi fanfic between Seifer and Zell from FF8. There are some graphic scenes in the first chapter.

Comments: I've been reading fics for a long time now, but it's the first time I've ever written one. I like how it's turning out, but advice is always appreciated. Anyhow, I like to thank my brother for reminding me what the last battle was like and for lending me the guide so I could be as accurate as possible. I'd also like to thank Hokit to being my first reviewer and giving me incentive to finish it.

EDIT: This originally was on ff.net, but when they decided to erase everything I had on there without so much as a warning, I've decided to put it in more tolerant sites. Reviews would be most appreciated.

"…"talking

~…~thoughts

{…} memories

Italics Zell's self-preservation

In a place between the beginning and the end, between reality and insanity, between life and death, a battle rages on.

"LION HEART" Squall screamed at the top of his lungs slashing at the Sorceress.

"We can't keep this up. Where are the girls? Wher… Ahhhh" Irvine was hit by a blast powerful magic.

"Shit! Curaga" Zell cured Irvine but noticed it was his last one. "Damn it. I lost everything else. Squall, give me an Aura!!!"

"Here" He cast the spell in a hurry.

"A'ight!!! Now you going to get it!!!" Zell launched into ones of his combos. "…Punch Rush…Dolphin Blow…Meteor Barret…"

"Is that the best you kan do, you impertinent child." Ultimecia laughed haughtily at Zell. "Now you'll face the same fate as those kunts" A symbol appeared on the ground, and then it shattered into pieces. Everyone's life was hanging on by a thin thread.

"Damn it. I don't have anything to cure with. What about you, cowboy?" Zell asked coughing up blood.

"Not a damn thing. Any ideas, fearless leader"

"Use your Limit breaks." Squall said while preparing himself for Blasting Zone.

"Good enough." Irvine painfully grimaced while he loaded his Exeter with all the Pulse ammo he had left.

"Here we go baby!!!" Zell jumped to his feet with new found energy as his abilities power up his weakened body.

"BLASTED ZONE"

"SHOT"

"Punch rush…Booya…Heel drop…Meteor strike and a MY FINAL HEAVEN"

"Hehehehe HAHAhaHA. Pitiful children. Now face my wrath." With a flick of her wrist, she attacked Zell leaving him unconscious in the void. From above the tattooed warrior appeared a small cherub and he was lifted away from the battle. Selphie appeared in his place bewildered by her surroundings.

"What happened?" She looked around her "Irvine!!! Squall!! What's going on?"

~Not again. First Quistis then Rinoa and now Zell. We have to finish this quick. If we lose then… then …~Squall was brought out of his thoughts by a curing light~ "Full Cure" ~ Now we have a chance. This bitch is going to die.~

~Where am I? What happened?~ He looks around him and recognizes the Orphanage.

"Why the hell did she sent me here? ... Something's wrong." Zell felt a shiver run up his spine. He could hear voices, children's voices laughing and singing. They sounded familiar but he couldn't make out what they were saying. He staggered around the orphanage, but everything seemed old and decayed until he started to catch glimpses of it's past and of his friends playing around.

"You can't catch me, you can't catch me" "Oh yeah, well when I do you owe me a kiss, Sefie" Two small children ran through him unaware of his existence.

"This is getting too weird. What kind of mind-fuck is she planning anyway? This won't sca…" He stopped when he heard a child singing a nursery rhyme. He didn't recognize the voice like before, but it sounded creepy.

"One, Two

Who are you?"

"What the hell is that supposed to mean?" There was a ruffling sound in another room, however it didn't sound like an eco like everything else did. "Who's there? Answer me!" Zell demanded. No answer came. "I must be losing my mind or something."

"No, not yet" A deep voice replied in almost a whisper.

"Come out where I can see you or are you too afraid to face me?" The short man taunted the voice while preparing himself for a fight. ~Damn it. That bitch blew away all of my magic and I don't got Quezacotl with me~

"Remember, you asked for it, Chikie" Came the voice once again in a superior tone.

"What?!?! Seifer, is that you?" He cried practically joyful to hear a familiar voice, yet this moment washed away the second he saw the scarred blonde. He was covered in dry blood and his once aristocratic clothes were torn. The Hyperion was also blood-stained and looking very menacing at the moment.

"You better close your mouth before I get any ideas" He smirked and approached the tattooed blonde. "or is that what you want?"

"What's going on here?" Zell demanded, only to find himself dodging a gunblade.

"You don't want to know." And launched into another attack. "This…is for…all… the pain…you've put me…through." Each fraction of the sentence was an attack and every time the blade had come closer to Zell.

~What's he talking about? Is he still under Ultimecia's control? Fuck, if I don't go on the offensive, I'm done for~ Zell started punching and kicking as precisely as he could to avoid the weapon. ~Goddamn it. Only love-taps. I'm still exhausted. ~ " I didn't want to use this on you but you gave me no choice…My Fina… Uh"

"Three, Four

I'm on the floor"

Seifer grabbed his leg while Zell was distracted and used his other hand to slam Hyperion's blunt edge into Zell's kneecap. "AAAAHhhhhhhhhh" Ignoring the searing pain that was flowing through his body he kicked up with his other leg and kicked Seifer in the face, but the act caused his body to twist injuring the damaged ligaments even more as he fell to the ground.

"Fuck…fuck…shit… you bastard… you fucking bastard" He breathed spasmodically and felt tears flow from his eyes.

"This isn't the Garden anymore. Letting your guard down costs you your life and causes a world of pain" He stood on top of the injured martial artist and dug the tip of his gunblade into Zell's shoulder. "Shush, shush. This is the least of your worries. I have a lot of anger at the moment and you should know best of how I deal with my anger." He kicked the fallen boy in the ribs and dug the blade deeper, but Zell refused to scream or plead for his life. His free hand could do little to protect himself or remove the taller boy from him"

"Come on, Chicken wuss. You must be hurting. Why don't you cry for dear old Ma to help you, huh or do you want your great leader to save the day?" "Fuck you" He replied in defiance. "You know, that's not such a bad idea." Seifer lowered himself after removing Hyperion from the bleeding shoulder, but Zell used the opportunity to punch Seifer in the face and crawl away.

"It's pointless to fight back" He wiped a trail of blood from his mouth. "You can't escape the inevitable." Grabbing the small boy by his injured leg, he stabbed the other leg. "See, can't run away now, can you?" He pulled the blood soaked pants off Zell and positioned himself on top off him.

"Anything to say before we start." He said maliciously.

"Why am I… still alive? I should…have…bled to death."

"Because death would be a gift compared to what's about to happen to you."

"Five, Six

Time will never fix"

Seifer removed his enlarged organ from the confines of his pants and positioned it next to Zell's virgin entry. "Anything else you want to say." Zell was still struggling pathetically and all he could mutter was "no…no…no…." over and over again.

"You might as well enjoy it." So he took Zell's manhood in his gloved hand and started to jerk him off. "Come on, get hard already" But the flesh was unresponsive since it's owner was too succumb with fear to react. "Fine. It doesn't make a difference." He began to kiss Zell roughly yet all the boy would do is whimper. "You're starting to piss me off"

"Seven, Eight

He's filled with hate"

Seifer dug his hand into the shoulder wound. "Ahhhhhhh stop it…stop it…please."

"Still with us, I see. Good, I didn't want to fuck a corpse." Seifer licked Zell's tears away. "Don't cry. It only makes me want to fuck you harder. You're so beautiful. Has anyone ever told you that before" He pulled the weeping boy into an embrace. "That tattoo of yours is such a turn-on" and plunged his swollen member into the unprepared entry. "Gods, you're so tight…uh…ugh…nobody's been here before, have they?"

"…no…no…no" ~ This isn't happening, this can't be happening. Who's that kid and his fucking rhyme?... I'm dreaming…Yes, that's it… but it hurts so much… my imagination… make it stop, make it stop, make it stop… stop being such a crybaby; nothing's happening …I can feel him thrusting into me… nobody's fucking you. Are you a fucking faggot? What would Ma say?... Ma, oh gods! Ma... Now you're a Mama's boy, pathetic… I can see the light house from here… Good, concentrate on that… ~

"Wake up" he punched Zell to revive him from his daze. "You can't escape this."

"Nine, Ten

Always fear men"

"You're so goddamn attractive; you can't blame me for wanting to grind your ass. With your tight ass and perfect body, I bet Irvine and Squall have been sneaking peeks every once in a while"

"no…ahh…they're not sick fucks like…ahh…you"

"Look, the chicken speaks. Of course they are, all real men are. We're bigger, stronger and faster than you. Look at you, you've barely put up a fight! You're pathetic and … oh sweet Hyne… I'm cuming" His thrusts became quicker and plunged deeper. "Oh Zell… Zell…I'm sorry" He was reaching his climax and started to pound into the petite blond harder but all that was going through his mind was ~He's sorry. What's going on? … What if…No gods, don't let him say it… anything but that, I beg you~

The Knight stiffened has he finally reached that blissful state and in a soft kiss he whispered "I love you"

"NO, Aarrghhhhhhhh, no, no, no" He jerked and screamed hysterically trying to free himself from his attacker's grasp. "No no no not happening. NOT happening. I'm dreaming, I'm dreaming. Ma, help me. Wake me up. Ma, Ma, wake me up, please" He covered his head and started to rock back and forth ignoring his surroundings even as the light changed from the grey stormy skies into a sunny ocean days, he continued to cry.

"Oh my gods, Zell, honey, I'm here. What happened? Stop crying." Motherly arms hugged him and a soothing voice called his name.

"Ma, is that you?" He asked in such a small voice it could barely be heard.

"I'm here, honey, I'm here. No need to worry anymore. I won't let anything happen to you" She said reassuringly.

He stopped crying and looked at his mother with a confused look in his eyes. "What happened to me?"

TBC

I have Chapters 1-10 already done, but will post them once a day. I have to correct some errors and see if I can get my writing itch to start up again.