Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ It Couldn't Be True ❯ Grieve ( Chapter 23 )

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Title: It Couldn't Be True

Pairing: Seifer x Squall
Warning: Yaoi, Lemon, Angst, Language, more can be added...
Rating: NC-17
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It Couldn't Be True

Grieve

Seifer let out a long sigh and leaned against the wall while he lifted his shirt slightly passed his stomach. He noticed a large black and blue bruise. It hurt like a bitch as he felt throbbing not only there but all over.

He finally decided that he needed to get into the shower so he discarded the clothes off of his bruised body and was afraid to glance back in the mirror. He moved down to retrieve his black pants when he discovered something dark on his boxers. His dulled, tired eyes stared down at them as he didn't need to figure out why his boxers were soddened. When he moved his hand slowly to touched it, his finger tips came away red. He could suddenly see some traces of semen and he dropped the repelling clothing back on the ground as if he was burned by them.

He chanced a glance up into the mirror and his green eyes were caught by a sight that almost wanted to make him vomit. His skin was pale from the usual healthy bronze delight and the bruises were all over his stomach, chest and shoulder. Seifer's eyes roamed lower and then he noticed the red smeared blood between his thighs and he could only imagine what his backside looked like . . .

Tears sprang up in his eyes and he jerked his head away from the image, disgusted of himself, of how he let them do that to him, of how he fucking came with them!

He slowly stepped into the tub and let the hot water wash over him. It stung his skin and he forced himself to hold back a sob. When Seifer was completely underneath the hot spray, his eyes just stared unblinking at the shower floor as the clear water was rushing to the drain, only then to start to turn a rusty red color.

The image of Dagen's smiling face was impelled in his mind as the man was leaning over him, thrusting himself hard inside of Seifer. He remembered when he pulled out, the blood that was on the man's thighs, middle and lower stomach. The vision was burnt in his mind and that was all he could take before collapsing on his knees. His hands were shoved roughly into his drenched hair and he tugged harshly, letting a cry escape his lips. He just couldn't believe it happened; the humiliation and the pain.

Seifer didn't realize that he was closing himself up, not wanting people to come closer even after all that he did to try to open himself up and let people in. All that was going to waste. Now if Squall knew, he would be disgusted with him. How could he think that there was ever a chance with the brunette? How? It was never going to be the same. Never and he couldn't stay in the garden anymore, not with those awful thoughts hanging over his head.

He cried harder, letting his composer completely break. His body fell into a quivering mass at the bottom of the tub, all tears getting washed away by the scalding water. What was he going to do? Nobody was there for him, nobody liked him and no one will love him, ever.

Grieving and unable to get rid of those heart-wrenching thoughts, he continued to sob and hiccup in his arm as his other was clutched around his stomach. He needed to leave, somewhere in his mind registered that thought. He had to and it had to be right away.

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AN: Awww, I just hate doing this to that lovable, arrogant SEXY man, but that's what my fingers typed out. I'm sorry but hopefully everything will be better! Right?...

Thank you for all your reviews and I know, I should write more but, I'm writing on the spur of the moment to tell you the truth and I thought I was originally gonna go one way, but I wrote something that conflicted with the story line so I have to edit in my mind and see how I could piece it all together...work..it's all work. Lol, Oh and I just got hired for this job that's gonna take crazy hours from me. 6pm to 12 or 1 am, sun-thurs. I'm gonna get paid really good but also I'm gonna be going to school .... yes, I know you are all fearing but I will continue and will try to update as often as I can, I may post a few more chapter's this week and not do so for a while so please review!!!! Tell me you like this story and let me know I have the greatest readers and reviewers... I know, I'm a suck up but I know you liked that!

Love ya lots!!!

BlizzardAngel