Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ one wish ❯ sad ( Chapter 1 )

(Author: This is from Seifer's POV, death fic. And I OBVIOUSLY don't own FF8 because if I did this would not be fanfic and I would be rich. I assure you I'm quite poor right now.)

 

Tripping and stumbling I made my way along the beach. My head screamed in agony and my limbs refused to move the way I wanted them to move. They seemed to be following their own course as I made my way to you Rinoa. Desperately I struggle on ignoring the reflection of the sunset on the water.

 

If I just had one wish, just one last wish. What would I wish for, what should I wish for? My breath suddenly came harder; my eyes blurred causing me to trip and fall into the sand. As I sat up I stared at the fading sun. The rays of light dancing off the water, the reflection in itself was breath taking.

 

What would I wish for? To make sure you would be fine. Rinoa that you would be fine, it hurt when I left you. I promised that I would come back, my last words where “see you later babe”. Not I love you like they should have been.

 

I gripped a seashell in my hand as I let my body collapse unto the beach. The summers heat still clung on even this late in the day. Weakly I bring it into the fading sunlight, just my luck I find one finally on the day I am to die. However I can't see the fine details, the pain in my head blurred the fine shape.

 

My mind drifts to all the days I took you Rinoa out looking for shells, and fishing. Always blaming our failure on the monsters eating the shells. I could see your face as you laugh and wade carelessly into the sea. Hear your laughter as if you're here with me.

 

Thinking about it, I doubt monsters could stomach the shells. Like bone they where probably hard to digest, and the only able to eat anything inedible was Zell. Zell never took the pigtail girl to the beach that Seifer could recall. He'll live another day and get the chance; I shall never. Rinoa, you'll never again with me. Please don't hate the beach after they find me here.

 

I was to stupid to tell you I was as sick as I was. That day-by-day I was being taken away from you ever so slowly. Every time you inquired how I was I shoved you further away. Today I left because all I wanted was to get you one shell, and give it to you Rinoa before I died. They always knew the tumor was there the time I began suffering headaches. It was shortly after the fight with Squall.

 

As Seifer I always escaped death, teased death, but why now? Why something so simple, so stupid?

 

Angry I scream out in rage as I realize I'm leaving you alone. Alone and with children to raise. The shell cuts into my hand, I feel the blood before I feel the pain. It doesn't matter now. The first star flickers like a candle you lit at the beginning of our last meal together. It's fading now my eye site is going. Would you have changed anything if you knew that today was my last day?

 

Tears stream down my eyes as my life passes before my eyes. The war, the scar, the day he met Rinoa, the day he stole Rinoa, Edea… The day his kids where born. Rinoa and me never married, I never found the reason to ask her. I loved her, but I never found marriage necessary, and the school didn't recognize many relationships either.

 

It would be selfish to ask to live; when it's our time it's our time. It's not our job to play god and live beyond our time. So all I want is just one more day to live, it's not to selfish. Hyne, just one more day to live, and say good-bye. To make right my wrongs I have done, but not to Squall. It was best to have Squall hate me. It'll make it a lot easier on him, on all of them.

 

The pain in my head is fading now; the only thing I can hear now is the sound of the waves hitting the beach. I could feel the distant pound of my heart in my veins. Once it beat faster then the waves. Now it beat once every three waves. Fear, sadness and apprehension filled me. I turn my eyes towards the last tidbit of the sunset unseeing.

 

Just, please, I just wish one more day.

 

(I held your hand on that starry night
When angels smiled my wish took flight
The whole world sang a song so true
My wish, my darling, led me to you …”

by Sueric)