Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Send Me An Angel.... Tainted With Scarlet.... ❯ I'm So Cold... And Yet You're Still Here.. ( Chapter 10 )

RATING: NC-17!! DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE UNDER 18, THIS STORY CONTAINS GRAPHIC VIOLENCE, POSSIBLE RAPE, GRUESOME SCENES AND OTHER MATURE CONTENT. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. (I CANNOT BE HELD RESPONSIBLE!!!)

 

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Song Disclaimer:

 

Artist: Vienna Teng

Title: Lullaby for a Stormy Night

 

Summary: This is my Mary-sue... read if you so desire.

 

Pairing: Kadaj X Loz X Yazoo and possibly… X OC

 

 

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Send Me An Angel… Tainted With Scarlet ….

 

Chapter Ten:

 

I Am So Cold….And Yet You Are Still Here….

 

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Allisha could not cry, although she was not physically incapable, she just could not cry no matter what. So thusly, she had always loved the rain, and today was no exception. It was her only release from the hardships of the world. And yes, simple I know, but it was as if after every good downpour, her soul felt refreshed, renewed, and yet seemingly… still down stricken.

 

She sat curled into a ball leaning against the side of the cool cave her mind lost deep in thought.

 

Earlier just before the rain had started to sprinkle, Kadaj had gone into panic mode, and she could only thank all the gods that it was not violent.

 

From her spot behind him, Allisha could feel his muscles tense and bunch underneath her hands as his head whipped back and forth seemingly searching for something, although she had no idea what at the time. But it was when he nearly flung them into a nearby cave did she finally understand.

 

He hated the rain.

Now this was not to say she in any way forgave the poor boy, but she did feel slightly bad at his predicament. He was stuck with her, who absolutely hated his guts at the moment, in the middle of a rainstorm which obvious both saddened… and frightened him.

 

But it was nice to see him scared. And as mean as it sounds, it was nice to know he still had some sanity let alone humanity left in him. In a way… it was sort of comforting.

 

A soft sigh escaped her lips as she turned her haze eyes to the huddled figure behind her.

 

Upon entering the small cave Kadaj had proceeded to try and pull her back as far as he could, but as soon as the rain started his efforts immediately stopped as he quickly dashed as far back as the cave would allow. His slender legs were hugged close to his body as small shakes wracked his petite yet strong frame.

 

He had always hated the rain for one of two reasons. Firstly, the rain always meant his mother was unhappy and every time she was unhappy pain and sadness always gripped his heart in its vice like grip refusing to let go. And the second reason… was well it was from when he was younger and still contained in the labs. He shivered at the memory.

 

Kadaj could easily remember the icy steel of his cell under his small delicate child hands as he laid face down his body bare to the elements. His large innocent eyes were glazed over as he felt the stinging chill of the recently injected mako and Jenova cells creep through his young and tender veins.

 

Normally his brothers were there already comforting him in their warm and tender grasp, as they laid beneath the provided blankets as they waited for the effects to were off. But not tonight, no they to were undergoing some more tests and they would not be there to comfort him, protect him… to love him.

 

The creek of his cell door awoke him from his pain ridden thoughts, but he was too tired to move, let alone care. The slightest movement made him want to hurl. It was probably his brothers anyway.

 

The feel of warm skin against his forced a warm smile across his lips as his pain wracked body naively thought it was one of his brothers moving over like they normally did. But oh how wrong he was…

 

“You think you're so perfect…” spat the unnamed guard, his large calloused hands trailed over the small boys unmoving pain filled form “but you won't be for long… not when I'm done with you…”

 

Kadaj was horrified. He could now smell the tangy stench of alcohol on his breath as his lips brutally pressed against his body leaving bloody trails. He could not move, talk let alone scream. The pain was unbearable enough… but it got worse.

 

He felt the men sink himself deep inside him, he felt the harsh violent thrusting of the man, he felt his delicate inner walls ripping and tearing, and he felt his innocence being shattered…

 

Kadaj was more than relieved to feel the man finally pull his now flaccid length out of his broken and bloody body. And he could only pray that this was the end… but what a futile wish that was. Oh no the man had other plans for him, many of which involved more pain.

 

Harshly he dragged the broken and shattered boy down the hall, up the stairs, and outside where the rain fell in large torrents. The wind was still blowing wildly its icy chill making the guard shiver in his warm vest and as he looked at the bruised and bloody boy he was dragging he could only smile at what it was doing to him.

 

With a huff he chucked the boy into a large puddle and left him there knowing that Hojo would find him there eventually.

 

The guard was right; Hojo did eventually find him… the next day. And during that time Kadaj laid broken, bruised, and utterly torn he felt his mothers' icy tears drip along his chilled bloody skin. He could feel the sadness deep in his mind and could only blame himself. He was too weak… he could never make mother happy… he was a failure.

 

Ever since that day he always despised the rain, not to mention being afraid of it. And today only reminded him more of that day so long ago, the day where his naive innocence was broken, forever lost. Because here he was stranded with his mother who hated him, his brothers were no where nearby, and it was raining… did he mention he hated the rain?

 

Allisha sighed again for seemed like the umpteenth time that day, but she could not help the nauseous guilt ridden feeling she got every time she quickly glanced at the heart wrenching scene behind her. Quietly she stood from her huddled position at the entrance and moved towards the trembling Kadaj `he's really scared if he's not even noticing me…' and at this thought she was even more certain about what her actions.

 

Delicately she sat next to the huddled and shaking man beside her, who appeared no more than a small boy afraid of a storm. Allisha could not help but smile warmly as her arms wrapped around his petite and shrunken form drawing him close to her side.

 

He gasped at the contact and out of instinct tried to move away, his mind still stuck on the painful memory, but when his frightened gaze gazed back at his `captor' he stilled instantly.

 

A warm smile spread across Allisha's pale pink rose lips as her eyes gazed into his frightened ones. She hated seeing him so scared, it made her heart clench in the most painful ways and she would do anything to return him to normal… if only not to see him so sad.

Hesitantly he leaned against his mother resting his silver haired head on her comfortable shoulder seemingly made to fit as he relished in the loving warmth she emitted which stilled his trembling form.

 

Allisha's smile only grew as she felt him relax in her one arm embrace, but when the thunder clashed outside she could only frown as it made him return to his stiffened and frightened form. Somehow she had to comfort him, and in a way she could not understand… she already knew how…

 

Her melodious voice began to sing softly. It enveloped him in a warmth he had never known except from his brothers, and it was almost as if she was encouraging his tightly shut eyes to open and forget about the troubling storm a few feet away.

Little child, be not afraid
though rain pounds harshly against the glass
like an unwanted stranger, there is no danger
I am here tonight

Little child, be not afraid
though thunder explodes and lightning flash
illuminates your tear-stained face
I am here tonight

And someday you'll know
that nature is so
the same rain that draws you near me
falls on rivers and land
on forests and sand
makes the beautiful world that you'll see
in the morning

Little child, be not afraid
though storm clouds mask your beloved moon
and its candlelight beams, still keep pleasant dreams
I am here tonight

Little child, be not afraid
though wind makes creatures of our trees
and their branches to hands, they're not real, understand
and I am here tonight

And someday you'll know
that nature is so
the same rain that draws you near me
falls on rivers and land
on forests and sand
makes the beautiful world that you'll see
in the morning

For you know, once even I was a
little child, and I was afraid
but a gentle someone always came
to dry all my tears, trade sweet sleep for fears
and to give a kiss goodnight

Well now I am grown
and these years have shown
that rain's a part of how life goes
but it's dark and it's late
so I'll hold you and wait
'til your frightened eyes do close

And I hope that you'll know...
that nature is so
the same rain that draws you near me
falls on rivers and land
on forests and sand
makes the beautiful world that you'll see
in the morning

Everything's fine in the morning
the ran willbe gone in the morning
but I'll still be here in the morning

Allisha smiled as she felt his breathing even out and his form almost melt against her… and she finished the last few words, she knew without a doubt he was asleep.

And as she gazed at his slumbering form her mind could only help but muse at the thought he looked so innocent as he slept… just like a small boy. Smiling she slowly leaned over and placed a feather soft kiss on his soft silky hair as he slept comfortably against her. If he was happy… well so was she. Hell he could throw her against a thousand walls, if only she could witness this small quiet moment again.

Slowly her soulful hazel eyes glanced out the cave, her smile only becoming brighter at the sight.

“You were right Loz…” she quietly mused as she shifted her gaze back towards the slumbering boy.

Outside gentle sunlight rays littered the ground in a heavenly glow as it illuminated the previously darkened and storm ridden world…the rain having stopped long ago.

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AN: Aww… now wasn't that cute? My little moment with Kadaj… ::blushes::

Hmm anyway, thanks to Tamara's persistent pestering… ::glares at girl sitting next to her:: you have another chapter! So anyway, you owe her hugs and cookies and whatever crap you wish to bestow upon this crazy lady who I firmly believe will make a GREAT publisher… her and her naggy pestering ways… but by god do they work!

Tamara: GET YOUR ASS STARTED ON THE NEXT ONE!!

Me: But it's 2 am!!

Tamara: … your point? You have INSOMNIA!!! Why the hell do you care what time it is?

Me:… good point…::bows head and sighs in defeat::