Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ So Cold ❯ So Cold ( Chapter 1 )
[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]
By: Shivasice 
Squall trys to kill himself will he live or die?????
Non Anime: Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 07.07.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 354 | Status: Work In Progress
Squall trys to kill himself will he live or die?????
Non Anime: Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst / Romance / Hentai | Type: Songfic | Uploaded On: 07.07.2005 | Pages: 2 | Words: 1.6K | Visits: 354 | Status: Work In Progress
Song fic / Death fic depends on how you like it ill let him live or not. so tell me what you think or his ass is staying dead. XD lol and no they arnt mine
Song by Crossfade "cold"
oh and please no flames.
- means its the lyrics-
WOW your feedback is great thanx soo much
MusikVibe- i might yeah i was listing to so cold in my car and i just saw it in my head. XD thanx
Shehanitan -i still cant deside it depends on the feedback votes weather i let him life or not. XD oh and omg i love your stories your awesom you were the one who inspired me!
Tyr- thanx for your compliment ill try XD yay
-Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win-
"Squall?"
"........"
"Have you eaten today Squall" I ground out.
"No"
"You need to eat Baby."
"Whatever."
-You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high-
I got up to go to the kitchen to fix Squall something to eat. Squall and I had been together for three months now, and it was nice at first, The love making the conversations, yes Squall actually talked. But things began to change, Squall became the cold hearted bitch he once was, I did everything but bend over backwards for him but all he could do was say "whatever." or just plain nothing at all.But the most tedious thing that pisses me off, more hurt me than anything, was our love making , it's like Squall would use me (Yeah the Great Seifer Almasy being used as a whore, I never thought that would happen to someone like me). Out of the middle of no where Squall would just jump me and push that lushes ass on my cock, but afterwards he would push himself of me and walk in the other room like it never happened.I told him once after I fucked him senseless that I loved him, but all he did was tense up and say "whatever "and walk off. I can't take it, I'm so tired , I can't take this relationship if he want talk to me.
-What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold -
"Here." I hand him some food, I don't look at him, but at the floor, I turn and go to the bathroom to take a shower. While I'm in the shower I think I should go get him. I cut the shower off and start to run a hot bath. While I'm walking in the living room i hear what i think is a sob,I keep walking to find out that indeed it was a sob , and that sob was coming from Squall, He was in the same chair I left him in with his knees drawn to his chest, I slowly walked over to him , a little shocked I guess thats the word, I had never seen nor heard of the great Squall Leonhart crying.
-To you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high-
"Squall......Baby?" I came over to him got on my knees and slowly wrapped them around his waist.
"Squall what's wrong Squall?" He just lifted his head his eyes puffy with tears steadily running down those ivory cheeks , He shook his head and lunged off the chair and into my lap.
"Seifer....." He sobbed into my chest. I just hushed him , and picked him up to take him to the bathroom.
"Shhhhh baby its ok." I slowly took his clothes off while never letting him go and I slid in the tub, and beckoned him to join me, he slowly got in in front on me between my legs. I just held him while he cried in my arms. After a few minutes he began to calm down , I began to slowly kiss his back and I just enjoyed holding the one I loved . All of sudden he turned and tried to impail himself on my cock.
-What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold -
"Squall what the fuck are you doing?" I yelled while he tried to pin me down, has he lost his damn mind?
"Squall dammit stop Squall your in no condition to do this, and I don't want to I just wanted to hold you!" I finally got free and got out of the tub with half it's contents in the floor.
He began to cry again , but I couldn't go to him this time I had to get out before I did something I'd regret
"What's wrong with you Squall?" He didn't answer
-I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me-
"I'm leaving I need some air Squall" the tears slowly welding up in my eyes.
I searched those now guarded eyes and that peaceful face. Squall came up to my face and leaned in for a kiss and I pushed him away ,he looked after me as I disappeared from bathroom. . I swallowed, and sighed, as I got in my car, I had to get away, at least for an hour I needed some air, but I couldn't crank the car I had forgotten my keys
-I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold-
"Shit" I slammed my fists down on the steering wheel and began to sob into my arms. Shit what's wrong with him, why does he have to be so damn........cold. I slowly got control of my self about five minutes later and went to go back in the house.
When I got in something felt VERY wrong I rushed to the bathroom where I left Squall . The hallway had a metallic smell to it just like.....oh no.....like blood.
-What I really meant to say
I'm sorry for the way I am-
"Oh god no!" I screamed as I saw what I was fearing, Squall was lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood . I ran to him and grabbed his wrists which were pouring blood, like they were weeping for him. I wrapped towels around them to stop the bleeding as I ran to the phone to call 911 , I couldn't breath I could only tell the operator what had happened and I ran back to Squall and held him as I weeped for him and his shattered life, what had I done? I should have just stayed with him but I had to leave.
"Oh my god what have I done?" I cried as I rocked Squalls bleeding body.
I looked down at his paler than normal form , and his eyes looked up slowly into mine and he whispered in a barely audible tone.
"I never really wanted you to see......
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always .....seems to get to me
I ....never really ......wanted you.... to go
So many things you .........should have known
I guess........ for me ........there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold" a tear slid down his cheek as the EMT's rushed around me and pulled me from him, all I heard was them trying to shock Squalls lifeless body back to life and his words in my ears.
-I never meant to be so cold-
WELL SHOULD I CONTINUE AND LET HIM LIVE IR WHAT TELL ME PLEASE
LOVE SHIVA
Song by Crossfade "cold"
oh and please no flames.
- means its the lyrics-
WOW your feedback is great thanx soo much
MusikVibe- i might yeah i was listing to so cold in my car and i just saw it in my head. XD thanx
Shehanitan -i still cant deside it depends on the feedback votes weather i let him life or not. XD oh and omg i love your stories your awesom you were the one who inspired me!
Tyr- thanx for your compliment ill try XD yay
-Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannot win-
"Squall?"
"........"
"Have you eaten today Squall" I ground out.
"No"
"You need to eat Baby."
"Whatever."
-You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high-
I got up to go to the kitchen to fix Squall something to eat. Squall and I had been together for three months now, and it was nice at first, The love making the conversations, yes Squall actually talked. But things began to change, Squall became the cold hearted bitch he once was, I did everything but bend over backwards for him but all he could do was say "whatever." or just plain nothing at all.But the most tedious thing that pisses me off, more hurt me than anything, was our love making , it's like Squall would use me (Yeah the Great Seifer Almasy being used as a whore, I never thought that would happen to someone like me). Out of the middle of no where Squall would just jump me and push that lushes ass on my cock, but afterwards he would push himself of me and walk in the other room like it never happened.I told him once after I fucked him senseless that I loved him, but all he did was tense up and say "whatever "and walk off. I can't take it, I'm so tired , I can't take this relationship if he want talk to me.
-What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold -
"Here." I hand him some food, I don't look at him, but at the floor, I turn and go to the bathroom to take a shower. While I'm in the shower I think I should go get him. I cut the shower off and start to run a hot bath. While I'm walking in the living room i hear what i think is a sob,I keep walking to find out that indeed it was a sob , and that sob was coming from Squall, He was in the same chair I left him in with his knees drawn to his chest, I slowly walked over to him , a little shocked I guess thats the word, I had never seen nor heard of the great Squall Leonhart crying.
-To you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high-
"Squall......Baby?" I came over to him got on my knees and slowly wrapped them around his waist.
"Squall what's wrong Squall?" He just lifted his head his eyes puffy with tears steadily running down those ivory cheeks , He shook his head and lunged off the chair and into my lap.
"Seifer....." He sobbed into my chest. I just hushed him , and picked him up to take him to the bathroom.
"Shhhhh baby its ok." I slowly took his clothes off while never letting him go and I slid in the tub, and beckoned him to join me, he slowly got in in front on me between my legs. I just held him while he cried in my arms. After a few minutes he began to calm down , I began to slowly kiss his back and I just enjoyed holding the one I loved . All of sudden he turned and tried to impail himself on my cock.
-What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold -
"Squall what the fuck are you doing?" I yelled while he tried to pin me down, has he lost his damn mind?
"Squall dammit stop Squall your in no condition to do this, and I don't want to I just wanted to hold you!" I finally got free and got out of the tub with half it's contents in the floor.
He began to cry again , but I couldn't go to him this time I had to get out before I did something I'd regret
"What's wrong with you Squall?" He didn't answer
-I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me-
"I'm leaving I need some air Squall" the tears slowly welding up in my eyes.
I searched those now guarded eyes and that peaceful face. Squall came up to my face and leaned in for a kiss and I pushed him away ,he looked after me as I disappeared from bathroom. . I swallowed, and sighed, as I got in my car, I had to get away, at least for an hour I needed some air, but I couldn't crank the car I had forgotten my keys
-I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold-
"Shit" I slammed my fists down on the steering wheel and began to sob into my arms. Shit what's wrong with him, why does he have to be so damn........cold. I slowly got control of my self about five minutes later and went to go back in the house.
When I got in something felt VERY wrong I rushed to the bathroom where I left Squall . The hallway had a metallic smell to it just like.....oh no.....like blood.
-What I really meant to say
I'm sorry for the way I am-
"Oh god no!" I screamed as I saw what I was fearing, Squall was lying on the floor in a pool of his own blood . I ran to him and grabbed his wrists which were pouring blood, like they were weeping for him. I wrapped towels around them to stop the bleeding as I ran to the phone to call 911 , I couldn't breath I could only tell the operator what had happened and I ran back to Squall and held him as I weeped for him and his shattered life, what had I done? I should have just stayed with him but I had to leave.
"Oh my god what have I done?" I cried as I rocked Squalls bleeding body.
I looked down at his paler than normal form , and his eyes looked up slowly into mine and he whispered in a barely audible tone.
"I never really wanted you to see......
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always .....seems to get to me
I ....never really ......wanted you.... to go
So many things you .........should have known
I guess........ for me ........there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold" a tear slid down his cheek as the EMT's rushed around me and pulled me from him, all I heard was them trying to shock Squalls lifeless body back to life and his words in my ears.
-I never meant to be so cold-
WELL SHOULD I CONTINUE AND LET HIM LIVE IR WHAT TELL ME PLEASE
LOVE SHIVA