Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Undercover Lovers ❯ Selfish vs. selfless ( Chapter 60 )

[ X - Adult: No readers under 18. Contains Graphic Adult Themes/Extreme violence. ]

Chapter 60: Selfish vs. Selfless

After breakfast Squall went into his bedroom and removed the pistols that he and Seifer kept in their nightstands and crossing over to the closet unlocked the safe that was there and placed the weapons inside.

He was tempted to pull the closet door shut behind him and just sit there alone in the dark for a while. He loved his family and boyfriend to distraction but he had gotten used to living alone and was now seriously missing his solitude. He knew that he could tell Seifer and Carrie that he wanted some down time but he was reluctant to tell Shauna the same thing. Right now she and the children needed someone to make everything all right for them.

Going back out to the bedroom he sank down on the bed and cupped his hands behind his head, bringing his elbows forward he just rocked silently back and forth.

Seifer came into the bedroom and saw his boyfriend and was instantly concerned. Dashing forward he sank down in front of him and drew his lover into his arms, “Is something wrong baby?”

Squall put his arms around Seifer's neck and lay his head on the blond's broad shoulder and said, “No nothing's wrong. I just need some me time.”

Seifer kissed Squall on top of the head and replied, “Why didn't you just say so? I still need to find a gym and I'm sure if you ask Carrie and the gang will take off for a little while.”

Squall grumped out, “I'd love to. But right now Shauna and the kids need me and I feel like I was being a selfish bastard if I told them that.”

That last little sentence stunned Seifer. Squall Leonhart and the word selfish really didn't fit. Selfless yes. Because Squall was without a doubt the most selfless person he had ever meet. He snorted, “Huth! You know what your problem is Sweet Cheeks?”

”What?”

“You're so busy trying to heal the world that you're not taking the time to heal yourself. It's okay to be selfish Squall. It's okay to say, `Hey I need some time for me.' You don't have to be everyone's hero baby. Sometimes you have to let people rescue themselves.” Seifer said sincerely and rocked Squall back and forth in the strong comfort of his arms.

Before Squall could respond to what Seifer had said, the blond continued, “Nobody's going to think any less of you baby.”

That last comment startled Squall since that was what he had been thinking. Bringing his head up from where it was still resting on Seifer's broad shoulder he placed a chaste kiss on his cheek and replied quietly, “Thanks babe, I needed that.”

“I know.” Seifer replied and pulled away from his lover. Kissing Squall gently but firmly on the mouth he smiled and said, “I still want to find a gym today. Because even though you give me a very nice work out, I need to work on more then just my cards. Any suggestions?”

Squall grinned at his boyfriend and replied, “I have a membership at Tone Up. I can call and have you put on it.”

Seifer smirked at him and gave him another kiss, then crossed over to the closet and pulled out his gym bag. Turning he asked, “Can I take the Beamer?”

“You know where the keys are.” Squall replied and gave him the address of the gym.

While Squall and Seifer were talking in the bedroom Kadaj had left, he had another photo shoot today. Saying goodbyes to everyone he gave Carrie another quick kiss and left, promising her that he would call when he was finished for the day.

After he had left Shauna looked at Carrie and said, “If you're not busy today I was hoping that maybe I could have you to Monterey with me and the kids. I know that Squall picked up something's for us, but I imagine that the kids are missing their woobies and I want to go through the house to get rid of the rest of the Vicaden before Laguna gets out of treatment and goes home.”

Carrie hugged Shauna and smiled at her, “Not a problem Shauna.” She felt rather then knew that Squall needed some time alone, and here Shauna with her request had helped clear part of his guests out. Now all she had to do was wrangle Seifer to earth and see if perhaps she could get the big blond Texan out of the house as well.

When Seifer walked out of the bedroom a few minutes later Carrie smiled when she saw that he was carrying his gym bag. Standing up she walked over to him and gave him a hug and said, “Well that takes care of that.”

Seifer returned her hug and even though he was a little confused by her comment he smiled down at her and said, “What?”

Carrie grinned up at him and gave him a sisterly kiss on the cheek, “I know my brother Seifer. And I know that right now he's really craving some solitude.”

“I know he just told me that he needed be alone for awhile. But what did you mean when you said, `That takes care of that'?”

“Shauna, the munchkins and I are going to Monterey to pick up a few more things for her and them.” Carrie answered.

“Sweet. Well I'm off.” Seifer said and headed to the door leading into the garage.

He was brought up short when Carrie smarted off, “Everybody knows that, but we don't hold it against you.” Then started laughing at the look of chagrin that crossed his face when he glared at her over his shoulder and stuck his tongue out at her.

His rich deep laughter echoed out as he continued his journey into the garage. He loved that little vixen and not just because she was as much of a smart ass as he was. He paused at the car door and frowned, he wondered how his own sister would take the news of his being not only in love but involved in a relationship with another man. Quistis had the tendency to be a know it all. Shaking away that thought he opened the door and pushed his long muscular frame behind the wheel and started the engine.

While he waited for the car to warm up he opened the garage door and continued in his pondering, he couldn't stop comparing the two women. Carrie was warm and giving, while Quistis was usually cold and aloof. Carrie had an amazing sense of humor where his sister tended to be tight lipped and hardly laugh about anything. Carrie it seemed had a ready smile for anyone, where Quis seemed to reserve hers for her select group of friends. He paused in his musings as he pulled the car out into the sunshine.

But continued after he entered the address into the GPS, from the short time he had known Carrie Loire he knew that she had high morals, where if half the rumors he had heard about his sister were true she was well on her way to becoming a slut. He had punched out his fair share of guys who had the misfortune of saying that within in his shot. She was his sister for god sake and even if it were true he felt it was his duty as her brother to defend her reputation, no matter how bad it was. Crap he had to stop because it soon became apparent to him that the comparisons were going to be never ending.

After Seifer had left Carrie walked over to the bedroom door and knocked softly when she heard the soft `Come in'. Walking over to where her brother was still sitting on the bed she sank down beside him and flung her arm across his shoulders. I wanted to let you know that Shauna, the munchkins and I are going to heading out to Monterey to pick up a few more things for them. Carrie kissed him softly on the cheek and continued, “I know you Squall and I know for a fact that you need some alone time. Now if it were just me staying here you'd tell me to get out.”

Squall turned a little and hugged her and kissed her on the forehead, “I would not.”

“Okay! Okay you wouldn't be that rude but you would just tell me that,” she paused and put her hand on forehead and sighed dramatically and continued in a perfect imitation of Marlene Dietrich, “I vant to be alone.”

Squall chuckled, “And the movie quotes continue.”

Carrie giggled and asked, “What do you mean?”

“Nothing much, just Yaz quotes movies too.”

Carrie rustled his hair and said, “Shauna and I already wrestled the air mattress into my room and dishes are done so you my darling brother don't have to worry about anything.” Rising from beside him she gave him another quick hug and said, “We're going to be leaving in about 10 minutes, and unlike Seifer we're not off.”

Squall started laughing and his sisters joined it as she made her way across the room and out the door.

True to her word Carrie, Shauna and the children had left the house within the 10 minutes that she had said and for the first time in over a week, Squall Leonhart found that he was alone in his house, oh he knew that he had some alone time when he had gone out for a drive but that wasn't the same as this.

Going out to the living room he looked around and smiled, everything was neat and tidy. He knew that when he went into the kitchen to get another cup of coffee that it would be clean as well.

He knew that he could indulge in one of his favorite past times got another cup of coffee went and sat down in front of the piano and soon lost himself in the music.

Squall was so absorbed in playing that he didn't hear the car pull into the garage two hours later, nor did he hear when the door opened and Seifer stepped in.

Seifer had had an excellent workout at the gym after he had finished exercising he took a shower then redressed. He had seen another t-shirt on the day that ha had bought the shirts for he and Squall and he wanted to get it. Making the stop he purchased the shirt and smirked, he couldn't wait to see Squall's face when he got around to wearing it and headed for home. He had every intention on dropping his gym bag off and then leaving again. Even though he missed his lover desperately he would go to give his Sweet Cheeks the time that he needed.

Seifer threw his work out clothes in washing machine and headed into the house. He paused in the doorway and once again was stunned at how ethereal Squall looked. He was still wearing the sweatpants and tank top that he had slept in the night before and he hadn't taken the time to comb his hair, but that didn't detract from his elegant beauty. He didn't want to make any noise to disturb the brunet so he leaned against the doorframe and just listened as the song that Squall was singing and playing wafted out around him.

Squall finished playing `We Belong' and was getting ready to start another song when he felt like he was being watched. Fingers stopped in mid-stroke and he snapped his head up to where he saw Seifer leaning against the doorway.

Seifer smiled at him and said, “I'm sorry I didn't mean to intrude on your time. I just wanted to drop this off then I was going to leave again. I didn't say anything when I came in because I didn't want to disturb you.” Damn he hadn't realized how much he had missed his Sweet Cheeks until that moment.

Squall smiled shyly at him, “You didn't disturb me Seif and you don't have to leave if you don't want to.”

Seifer pulled the door shut behind him and asked, “Are you going to play some more.”

“Yes. If you don't mind.”

Seifer had walked across the room. Stopping behind his boyfriend he leaned down and kissed him. Then murmured against his mouth, “I don't mind. I love hearing and watching you play.”

Authors note: If you haven't heard We Belong, it's by Pat Benatar, look up the words to me it is another song that describes Squall and Seifer's relationship. As for the t-shirt well that's going to be a surprise.