Final Fantasy - All Series Fan Fiction ❯ Your World Is My World ❯ Chapter 1

Disclaimers: I do not own any of the Final Fantasy VIII characters, Squaresoft does. This story is fictional and from my head and in no way would Squaresoft even think of a doing this to their characters.

Warning: Eventual bad language, violence, blood, Yaoi, shounen-ai, Lemon, male/male sex in later chapters

Rating: NC - 17

Pairing: Who else? Squall x Dia'Zell, Dia'Squall x Zell, ?? x ??, ?? x ??

Genre: AU - Parallel Universes - TWT - Angst - Fantasy - Romance - Action - blah, blah, blah!

Author: Shaeric Draconis

Authors Note: I wish to thank xan_nova, Lady Rayna, Rena-chan, Empress, Angel of Innocence and Crimson Shadow for reviewing this and I dedicate this to you all. This chapter is a bit slow but I am trying to set the players in the right places so the story will unfold. Wish me luck!

Dedicated to all the Squall x Zell pairing lovers out there.

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Dia'Zell - Balamb

Breathing in deeply, Dia'Zell was in awe, his cerulean eyes taking in the never ending ocean that surrounded Sorceress Edea's ship. The White SeeD crew relaxed around him keeping there distance.

He couldn't get over how peaceful this world was compared to his, the golden sun beaming hotly above him, the blue/green sea contrasting perfectly with the clear blue sky.

A slight breeze lifted the escaped hair from his French plait, making it caress his face with tantalising strokes. His biggest wish…that Dia'Squall was here with him to enjoy the beauty of this world.

How they have forgotten what their world used to be. The sadness hit him but he shrugged it away taking another deep breath. He just hoped that Zell was alright and that Dia'Squall wouldn't make an ass of himself by being nervous, he may be the commander but when it came to Zell his brain went on holiday.

Dia'Zell smirked at this remembering the first time he realised that Dia'Squall had a crush on his parallel self…Zell.

//Flashback//

"Hey Dia'Squall what are you looking at?"

Dia'Zell's left eyebrow rose when he saw his friend blush, his mouth opening and closing like a fish trapped in a glass bowl. He chuckled at his flustered friend making his way to the crystal pool that revealed the different worlds. The worlds where they could see their other parallel selves, Dia'Zell shuddered as he remembered one world where he was a female married to Seifer.

He never looked at that world ever again.

Finally reaching the pool he stood next to his blood brother and frowned as he saw himself, only this time his hair was spiked and he wore clothes he would never wear. He turned to look at Dia'Squall who was trying to act nonchalant.

Dia'Zell chuckled, "so you fancy him do you?" and was shocked with the answer.

"Yes."

Now it was his turn to open and close his mouth, noticing the way Dia'Squall looked at the blond in the pool with fondness. "How long?" What else could he ask?

"Four months."

"What?!" Okay Dia'Zell you are overreacting but…four months. "Why?"

"Why didn't I tell you…because I…I don't know." Dia'Squall blushed again, his hand waving above the crystal water as the image of Zell became clearer, bigger. "He brings out the protective instinct in me for some strange reason. He is strong and a great warrior but his emotions are so chaotic and he feels things so deeply and keeps them buried inside."

Frowning Dia'Zell put his left hand on his blood brothers right shoulder, "you *have* been watching him for a while, but you know that we cannot interfere."

Dia'Squall nodded his head, "I know but you watch him and tell me what you think." Stormy grey eyes looked towards Dia'Zell pleading, what? He wasn't sure, "It's the first time I have ever felt this way. Not even Quistis made me feel the way he makes me feel, and he is in another world."

"Shit commander you have got it bad."

Dia'Squall nodded, "yeah…but if you tell anybody I will put you on night duties with Dia'Rinoa."

"Hey! That's blackmail!"

Chuckling Dia'Squall winked at his friend, "damn straight it's blackmail."

//End of Flashback//

Smiling to himself, Dia'Zell felt the breeze pick up, the scenery moving faster. How he would love to feel the wind in his hair and he looked around to see who was there. Shrugging not really caring he pulled his braid over his shoulder and undid the golden clip, unravelling his hair with quick deft fingers, the wind doing the rest as he felt it brush through his long hair making him shiver at the erotic sensation. He marvelled at such a simple thing as the wind being so…tantalising.

He began to think about what loomed ahead, Zell's comrades, friends and how he was going to act around them. There were some things that Zell did that Dia'Zell just didn't do and he had to try and figure away around them. He will just have to wing them when they came along.

It was bad enough when he had to contact Sorceress Edea on the Vid-phone. Hell, her face said it all when she saw him. Disbelief.

He knew it was going to be hard to convince her and he was only glad that they weren't face to face in person. He had to call her because he had no idea how to contact the leader of White SeeD to collect him from Matron's house.

This made her suspicious straight away and he cursed beneath his breath at that time but for some reason she suddenly smiled and gave him the codes. Her words playing in his mind, "I like the new you Zell, maybe it's what your friends need."

Did she know?

***

"Yes Matron I will get Zell immediately."

"Thank you Shinzo."

Turning from the vid-radio/phone Shinzo made his way to the door and opened it, his eyes scanning the deck for Zell.

Finally seeing him the White SeeD leader could only look with awe. He was surprised at the change that the young SeeD warrior had drastically gone through since the last time he saw him.

Zell Dincht was different from nine months ago. His face was the same…sort of, and his spiky hair was no where in sight; instead the blond hair that was in a plait not so long ago was now blowing freely like long golden silk in the wind around the beautiful face of its owner and he was reminded of an old legend that came to mind, the legend of Apollo the Sun God…

Shinzo gulped his eyes taking in the infamous tattoo which was now outlined with red and yellow auras, so different from the last time he saw it and if this wasn't different it was the clothes that Zell was now wearing. Not the baggy shorts, t-shirt and jacket, no instead he wore black leather clothes that hugged every line and perfect tones of his wiry body.

His attitude was different too, not so fiery, angry and naive not that there was anything wrong with that but now Zell seemed…more calm, more collected with a touch of steel…and a hint of sensual mischief in the mix…it was different.

Now Shinzo was not a man who admired the beauty of other men, no he was the stoic leader of White SeeD, he was straight, hetero, preferred females but-

He swallowed again trying to remain stoic like he normally was…but…Zell was now fucking hot!

His breath shuddered with painful release at his thoughts but he knew there was no denying the fact. Everyone was watching Zell's every move and the golden God, because you couldn't call him anything less, seemed unaware of the attention that was directed in his direction.

"Balamb in sight Commander!"

Thankful that his attention could be diverted from the golden haired beauty for a moment, he nodded his head once, his hands and attitude letting the crew know what they had to do. He was only glad that they knew him so well as he has been likened to the SeeD commander of Balamb Garden, Squall…a man of few words but his body language spoke volumes.

Taking a deep breath he made his way towards Zell stopping beside him. His breath hitched as Zell faced him, his eyes so blue against the golden skin that Shinzo knew would be like soft silk to the touch. But he dared not be forward, valuing his life too much. Zell was one of the famous six that had defeated Sorceress Ultimecia after all.

"Excuse me Zell, as you have heard we are nearing the dock of Balamb." He could have kicked himself as his voice sounded husky, he was only glad that his right hand man was too busy other wise he would never live this down.

Dia'Zell nodded.

"Matron would like to speak to you before you disembark."

"Thank you Shinzo." Dia'Zell watched as the leader with shiny dark hair and stiff back as he walked towards the main cabin and followed him, his hands nimbly braiding his hair once again.

Reaching the hi-tech vid-radio/phone he straightened his shoulders as he stared into the eyes of Sorceress Edea. "Matron."

"Zell, I have told Quistis of your arrival to prepare her for your homecoming. I know you will spend some time at your hometown first so she will be expecting you tomorrow at 0900 hours."

"Thank you Matron."

She smiled her eyes softening. "Cid wants a word with you Zell."

"Thank you." He smirked as the dizzy old headmaster appeared.

"Ah Zell, it is good to see you are looking so well. You look a lot better too."

"I feel great sir."

"Good, good, what I have to say next is official Zell. I'm afraid you are still on probation for the assault on Aiden."

Shit! I forgot about that.

"Quistis has organised someone to monitor your movements for the next six months."

"Six months! Why?"

Cid shook his head, "those are the orders of Quistis, see her if you have a problem. She is the head-mistress now."

Dia'Zell wasn't happy about being monitored but wasn't about to argue with the ex-headmaster not realising his eyes hardening. "I will see her then."

Cid watched Zell with curiosity, for a brief moment he saw steel hardness in the blue of Zell's eyes, then it quickly disappeared when Zell realised he was watching him. "Are you sure you are ready to return back to the Garden Zell?"

Damn! He isn't as dizzy as he looks and he had to stop himself from frowning. "I am ready and quite capable sir," a hard edge clinging to his words.

Raising an eyebrow, Cid's eyes scanned every inch of Zell's face, his intense stare making Dia'Zell clench his fists together tightly.

"Alright Zell. I will sign of now."

"Sir!" Dia'Zell gave the customary SeeD salute then flicked of the vid-phone sighing with relief. Thank god that's all over.

"Ready to leave Zell?"

Dia'Zell nodded heading towards two back packs, one containing personal objects and his clothes, the other containing Zell's clothes and a few odds and ends he might need plus the letters his friends had sent to Zell. He still couldn't get over how impersonal the letters were, if Dia'Squall had sent him a letter like that he would have kicked his arse…but then Zell was not like him at all.

"Whatever." He mumbled.

Shinzo turned around, "did you say something?"

"No just thinking out loud." Dia'Zell wasn't one for lying in fact he was known to be quite blunt, especially if he was pissed with someone.

Shinzo could only nod, still in awe of Zell and the change.

Walking on deck, Dia'Zell's mouth twitched slightly, his eyes taking in the serene picture of Balamb…So different from…Home…

Turning to the commander he saluted, "Thank you for bringing me home."

"At ease captain, you know how to contact us if you need anything further."

"Yes and thanks again."

Without further ado Dia'Zell nimbly jumped from the ship to the pier with catlike grace and ease, his face masking any emotion he was feeling. He was not one for looking back and kept walking. His destination was Zell's home and he wasn't in the mood to bump into anyone, especially not his friends.

He was tired and needed to settle in then settle his mind. He was going to have a chat with Quistis about his six month monitoring that he didn't need. The last thing he wanted was someone right up his arse. "Yes, I am not ashamed of what I am and the sooner you all learn this the damn better." Smirking he chuckled at the glances that he was getting from the people of Balamb.

They were too stunned to speak to him, shocked at the way he was dressed. The boy next door Zell always wore his baggy long shorts, t-shirt and jacket with sandshoes. It was scandalous what he was wearing now, tight black leather pants and top with black leather boots and…and his hair was long …his mother would turn in her grave if she were to see him like this. The women gossiped amongst themselves glaring at him.

Dia'Zell only smirked knowing full well what was going through Zell's neighbours mind. Nice boy Zell will not be here for awhile and he waved to them walking towards Zell's house with casualness, his hips swaying seductively, this he did out of pure devilment, letting everyone know that he was in control of his life…nobody else.

Finally reaching the door he bent over knowing full well that the stretched leather would mould to the curves of his well-toned ass. He smiled to himself when he heard a chorus of shocked gasps and wiggled just for good measure.

His hand searched under the mat until he felt the coldness of the key to the door making a mental note; never leave the key under the mat while staying here in this world. Zell had enemies who had a problem with his sexual preference.

The first rule, protect number one…himself!

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Zell - Balamb AW250

Blinking, Zell could only stare at the grey wall that used to be the mirror, the reality of where he was now finally hitting him.

Swallowing hard he blinked again turning, almost afraid of what he might find.

Frowning, his cerulean orbs looked curiously at his surroundings. He was inside a cave, a beautiful violet glittering cave that was brightly lit by a strange glass orb with a suspended golden flickering light inside of it.

His mouth dropped open. How the hell...?! No, no better yet, where the bloody hell…?!

His thoughts were cut short as he heard footsteps coming towards him. Quickly he looked around and moved towards a strange rock formation. He was going to hide there until he could get his bearings.

When he reached the unusual rocks, his head began to swim. Shit! What is wrong with me? He staggered and clung to the rocks not sure what was happening to his body as it suddenly felt strange.

"It is the shift from your world to ours."

Startled Zell turned abruptly to stare into the violet blue gaze of--"Irvine?!" What happened to his hair?

This Irvine had short hair more like Seifer's hair back in his own world, his face was stern as his violet blue eyes raked up his body then down again. "You will feel much better after drinking this."

Zell couldn't get over the monotone of Lior'Irvine's voice, he was so lively back at home, lively and mischievous. This was going to take some getting used to. Taking a deep breath he walked towards Lior'Irvine slowly lifting his right hand and his eyes blinked as the golden goblet suddenly appeared in his hand. He gulped and tried to stop his hand from shaking, the golden liquid spilling onto his fingers.

Dia'Zell had said this world was a little different from his world. How different, Zell was almost afraid to imagine as he slowly drank the golden liquid, the taste…he frowned, yes it was lemony sweet but some other taste he could not quite put a finger on it. Sweet and yet slightly coppery…

Lior'Irvine smirked, "Ruby dragon has an unusual taste but there heart is a great for revitalising the blood stream."

Coughing and spluttering, Zell looked at Lior'Irvine to determine if he was joking…and realised he wasn't, nausea suddenly hitting his system.

Alright so this Irvine has a dry sense of humour…very dry.

A warm deep voice broke into his thoughts, "you will feel a lot better by drinking the rest."

Zell's eyes widened as Dia'Seifer walked in and stood by Lior'Irvine. His mouth dropped open when Dia'Seifer wrapped his arm around Lior'Irvine's slender waist and pulled him close for an open mouthed kiss.

Blushing Zell turned away from them absently drinking from the goblet, the taste far from his mind as he tried to push the image of Dia'Seifer and Lior'Irvine kissing.

Lior'Irvine moaned pushing the tall blonde away, "Dia'Seifer please not in front of people."

Chuckling Dia'Seifer pouted then winked towards Zell, "It got him to drink that god awful concoction didn't it?"

Lior'Irvine nodded stiffly, "I will let you off this once."

Dia'Seifer raised an eyebrow, "come on baby you know you like it, don't freeze me out."

Frowning Lior'Irvine glared at him, "Dia'Seifer there is a time and place for everything and this is neither the time nor the place for that matter."

Raising both his hands Dia'Seifer stepped back, "fine," hurt shining out of his green eyes as he walked backwards.

"Dia'Seifer?"

"You're right and I'm sorry…it won't happen again," shrugging his broad shoulders.

"Dia'Seifer Don't…you don't have to apologise, you know how hard it is for me to show my feelings in front of others, it should only be done in privacy."

"Whatever Lior'Irvine." Turning from his stick-up-his-ass lover, Dia'Seifer turned and smiled at Zell, though his smile never reached his eyes. "The commander said to take you to him. Are you feeling better?"

Zell didn't know what to say, Dia'Seifer had long hair in a plait just like Dia'Zell, and he was acting like a sulky lover who was nice…and he was GAY! Zell's face was getting hotter by the minute that words were impossible so he did the next best thing…he just nodded.

Chuckling Dia'Seifer ignored his lover and made to move towards the opening in the cave when a slender hand reached out to touch his shoulder, violet blue eyes pleading with him to understand.

Frowning Dia'Seifer scanned his stoic lovers face knowing he could never stay angry at him for too long, it wasn't his lovers fault. Being a sorcerer had a lot of responsibilities and the way things were going outside of there homeland, Lior'Irvine had to be strong, his emotions kept in check.

Lifting his own hand he squeezed his lovers gently, his green eyes a window to his soul, his emotions of tenderness and love shining from the emerald depths. "I will see you later my Angel of spring." He lifted Lior'Irvine's hand and kissed the tip of each finger softly, letting his hand go and beckoning with his head towards Zell to follow him.

Zell felt warmth inside of him at Dia'Seifer's display of affection. He knew for a fact that Seifer back in his world would never display such an emotion of tenderness in public in fact he was downright cocky, bloody arrogant and a bastard…still…Zell liked Seifer, he knew where he stood with the guy even if he did call him chicken.

It was Squall he had problems with. He shook himself, they were comrades yet Squall kept his distance, not just from him but all of them. Even poor Rinoa had problems with him. Squall opened up to her, even if it was slowly, but then he went back to the way he was before, only more so and no one knew why.

To make things worse, others had this mistaken belief that Zell was in love with Squall. What he felt for the commander wasn't love, no it was respect for the stoic leader and he had thought they were friends but Squall shoved that friendship back in his face and something inside of him closed off.

Then Zell told them he was bisexual, not able to lie to himself or them anymore. That is when the name calling began, not by his friends but others at Garden. He smiled as he remembered Selphie, Quistis, Fujin and Rinoa standing up for him and became a protective force around him. As for Squall, Seifer, Irvine and Raijin they were uncomfortable around him at first but soon got over it but they were never the same towards him…not like before…

He gasped suddenly as he stopped abruptly outside of the cave, shock written all over his face. The cave, it was in the same position the Fire Cavern back at home was but this can't be Balamb it was so dark and miserable. His hand covered his mouth his eyes searching Dia'Seifer's face for answers.

"Yes Zell this is Balamb AW250. We are at war with other nations, namely the Trabian's and the Shumian's."

"But they are peaceful loving people and Trabia Garden are our friends and the Shumi's keep to themselves," Zell's eyes taking in everything, the force field that not only protected Garden but the whole island of Balamb.

"Dia'Zell, and I will have to call you this from now on, Dia'Squall doesn't want anyone else to know that you are from another world." Dia'Seifer smiled as Zell nodded.

"Things are different here Dia'Zell. Trabia and Shumi have united with the help of a dark sorcerer named Lior'Raijin--"

"But Raijin is your side kick and he is a follower not a leader…"

"Dia'Zell, I think it is best that you talk to Dia'Squall, he will explain everything to you and he is anxious to see you." Dia'Seifer turned from the petite blond with a smirk on his face, oh yes Dia'Squall is very anxious to see you and started to walk towards Garden.

***

Dia'Squall's Quarters

Pacing back and forward, his hazelnut braid over his right shoulder was now gripped tightly in his fist; Dia'Squall had to admit he was nervous. Alright so that was the understatement of the year, he was fucking nervous.

Groaning out loud he stopped abruptly and walked towards his mirror once again, this being the tenth time he checked to see if everything was in place, his tight black leather pants hugging his lithe body perfectly. He turned around to check his back and his ass, smiling as he saw the way his pants seemed to fit over the globes of his ass like second skin, his leather turtle-neck top outlining the muscled chest and arms, his boots of black leather with unusual buckles on the sides. Said buckles were small throwing weapons, there edges dipped in some kind of poison that he was now immune to.

His gaze moved to his face, his stormy blue/grey eyes sparkling with anticipation, his heart beating at a terrific pace. God! Here he was the commander acting like a teenage girl of thirteen.

He was afraid of nothing. He could face his darkest enemy and have no hesitation in killing them or challenge against them with dark determination; he was stern and as a commander he would order his men to kill beside him, inspire them to protect their homeland and the other nations that were there allies.

And here he was...scared shitless about meeting a petite, spiky haired blond called Zell. Alright so he wasn't just anybody, no Zell was the soul that cried out to him and his own soul had answered in return.

The loneliness he could see in the younger boy was heart wrenching especially when Zell was alone crying while his friends were none the wiser. Zell was so fiery and strong in front of his friends but when he was alone he became depressed and it wasn't any wonder when he faced what he was, that there were those around him who punished him for being honest with himself.

And that led to Zell's first lover…Nida. Dia'Squall frowned as he felt that pain in his chest the one that told him he was jealous of someone that Zell only went with out of curiosity.

His thoughts were abruptly interrupted by a knock on the door and Dia'Squall took a deep breath, "come in." He winced as his voice croaked. He was only glad that the real Dia'Zell wasn't here, he would be smacking him on the back of his head telling him to pull himself together…he missed his friend.

Dia'Seifer walked in and bowed his head slightly, "he is safe and has had the elixir Dragon's heart commander."

Dia'Squall could only nod his eyes taking in the smaller form behind the taller blond Dia'Seifer and smiled. He couldn't help himself, the person he has been having dreams about was finally here and all he could do was smile.

***

Zell blushed at the intense stare Dia'Squall was giving him and wished the floor could swallow him up. It felt strange because the face was Squall's back home but that was it. There was no scar and this Dia'Squall had a long hazelnut braid resting on his chest that looked like warm silk.

But his grey blue eyes…they sparkled with life and held a warmth in them that seemed so strange to Zell on this face yet so right. He frowned at this thought and had to stop himself from flinching when this beautiful male wrapped in leather started to move towards him.

Swallowing hard Zell looked up at the commander and felt his heart beating wildly. What is wrong with me, this is Squall isn't it? Well a parallel of Squall anyway and he is only someone I saw as a friend…then why is my heart beating like bloody crazy?

Zell blinked and smiled back even though inside his nerves were shattered as he began to worry…what the hell have I gotten myself into too?!

TBC