Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Cat Scratches ❯ Baka Neko ( Chapter 6 )

Baka Neko

 

I am new at this, so please let me know what you think. This is my first FanFic and very Kyo x Tohru centric. There will be spoilers from both anime and Manga especially things that occur toward the end. You have been warned. No Limeness(not being a big fan of lemon without good Lime) or real language…Kyo is not directly in it.. Rated T or M for language. Romance

 

A/N I do not own these characters, nor any part of Fruits Basket. I just admire the wonderfully crafted world created by Natsuki Takaya.

 

Kyo POV

 

I can't face them, I am sorry Tohru to leave you alone to handle Shigure. I should be there to protect you, to shield you from…maybe I am just a coward. Just like when Kyoko…UGHH. I ball myself up, grasping my head to try to contain the agonizing pain that sears through me. How could I ever hope that SHE could love me. Yuki is right, I do not deserve her…Tears start streaming down my face, `No it is not manly to cry!' I yell at myself. But the tears continue. I do not how long I just lain there crying, living in the agony…but as the sun was setting in the western sky, I see her!

 

She is moving to hang up laundry. I try to tear my eyes away from this familiar site. Her small hands lovingly putting up the various items from the members of house on the clothesline, Shigure is right…for a perverted dog. She will make someone a wonderful wife someday, but because of her seemingly effortless ability to care for the members of this household.

 

I am captivated by her. The way her hair sways as she moves. Her womanly figure against the setting sun. The way she moves with music that seems to be always playing through her mind. I am lying on my stomach, my head laying on my hands just at the peak of the roof. Mesmerized by her. Suddenly she stops. She must know I am up here, and I…I…am not ready to face her.

 

“But is this what I meant when I said I wanted to be the one to love the cat?” Her question erupts from her lips with such force. My heart stops. KAMI! I should not be hearing this. I should not, I should not…I try to quietly move away from that spot, but my body betrays me, again! It refuses to move. I close my eyes and cover my ears. I can not stand to hear her answer…it would rip my heart out to know she did not…

 

“YES! That is exactly what I meant. To love without prejudice or boundaries, fully and unconditionally.” WHAT!!!! I mean I knew she loved me, as part of her family…but. Did she really just say it?

 

I can't help but look at her, to see her expression. She has that look again. For a brief moment a feeling of joy overcomes my mind. The desire to rush to side and take her in my arms barrels through my consciousness. My body starts to move, without thought, as I here her next words escape her lips.

 

“Thank You, mom for your blessing.”

What, NO, she would never give me, GIVE ME…I am! I fall back down.

 

Now the tears run freely down my cheeks. All the wounds of my heart were torn open, the pain of the many years rushing to my heart. Ripping open the scars her love has healed. OOUUCCCCCHHHHHH!!! Knowing my fate of being locked away if I do not beat that damn rat, my mother, the weight of years of rejection and condemnation for being born the cat, besides all that the thought of Her mother, her…I can not bear it. It is too much to bear…I want to scream from the agony. I want to rip the bracelet from my wrist, and let my true nature take over so I can run from this pain.

 

I return to my previous spot. Back in the ball, crying so hard. My chest heaving…I feel like I am going to throw up. `What am I going to do? I DO NOT DESERVE HER!'

 

Tohru calls for dinner. I am not going down, I just can't. I know Shigure will be merciless…but…but…how can I sit with the sun knowing I should never know it's true beauty, soon be denied it's warmth radiating for me. It hurts to much to be around her.

 

But I will listen, at least, and hurt them later, after she is in bed.

 

“See Yuki, Kyo, you are not the only ones who can bring laughter to Tohru's beautiful eyes.” Shigure starts in…OH, that DAMN DOG! I can just imagine the blush crossing her face right now.

 

“Shut up you pervie dog, you are making Honda-san uncomfortable.” Yuki flatly stated. Thank you, Yuki…did I just thank that rat. I should be the one defending her…I AM SUCH A BAKA NEKO!

 

“Has anyone seen Kyo?” She calls for me again…I just can not move. My body still shaking from rage and agony.

 

“Oh you mean Lucky Kyo?” `I am going to kill that dog!'

 

“I told you to stop!” Wow, I have only heard Yuki this angry at his brother or me.

 

“Honda-san, protect me from Yuki.” He is not a dog, he is damn coward. I look down, `I am not much better hiding up here.'

 

 

I start to move, finally the rage has subsided. My desire to protect her overrules all other emotions, until I hear is the sounds of laughter from Shigure and…that is what Yuki sounds like when he laughs. THAT DAMN RAT IS LAUGHING, AT ME!

 

“So he let himself enjoy being a cat?” AHHH SHIT!!!I feel the heat rising to my cheeks. I will never live this…

 

“Oh yes…he was purring!” Why did she have to say that? UGHHH

 

“So Lucky Kyo, let himself be taken in, by my little flower. Her soft and gentle…”…SMACK! Finally, unable to contain the swirling emotions, everything escaped as I started laughing??? What the…I can not stop laughing. A part of my mind is screaming that this is not funny. But another part says simply…you can not change the past, so laugh. When did I…my mind whirls back to my time with Shishou.

 

**Flashback**

 

“You know Kyo, as you have learned; your fists are only supposed to be used as a last resort. Controlling your anger and rage is the sign of a true Martial Artist.” He says with usual smiling eyes.

“But Shishou, what do you do when you are so angry?” I look at him with real curiosity, maybe something to help.

“You laugh! All the negative emotions can not last through the joy laughter brings.”

`HUH?'

 

**End Flashback**

 

`I guess he was right about that…' As my anger subsides, I am still left with the pain in my heart. The ripping through my soul, tearing my hope from me…leaving me in darkness. “I can't keep doing this, I can't keep hurting her, I don't deserve her…I am such a Baka Neko, I should just leave, now.”

 

“You are right, you are a Baka Neko.” Yuki's voice hits me like a bolt of lightening, “but if you run, she will follow you. She is rather stubborn that way.”

 

“…” words

`…' Thoughts

 

Japanese Words.

Neko-cat

Jyuunishi-cursed

Kami-God

Baka-idiot, stupid

Onigiri-rice ball

-san-end of ones name used for politness

Onegai-please

Kun-used at the end of a boy's name

Shishou-Master

 

 

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