Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Golden Dreams ❯ Unrest ( Chapter 5 )

Hatori woke up warm and happy. He felt more rested than he had in years. He groaned and opened his eyes. He lay in unfamiliar territory. A pile of sleeping rice ball was curled up next to him. His conscience ached and his happiness shattered. What had he done to her?

'I shouldn't have.' He thought. 'I can't maintain the relationship she deserves, and now I've gone and complicated the situation. At least before I could at least pretend she didn't effect me, but now that would just hurt her.' He shifted. Everything had been so wonderful. His entire body tingled thinking of their encounter. 'Why does this have to

be wrong?!?' Thought Hatori. He gently brushed her hair out of her face.

Tohru mumbled something incoherent and snuggled her face into her pillow. Hatori let out a deep sigh and quietly crept, unnoticed, out of her room. Tohru awoke with the smell of cigarettes drifting in through her window. She struggled to clear her brain.

'What. . . did I just dream that?' She asked herself.

Hatori's dark scent lingering on her pillow betrayed his presence in her bed. She saw her neglected breakfast on her nightstand.

Tohru smiled, 'So it wasn't a dream.' She thought.

Her stomach turned. "Oh man I don't feel well." She said aloud.

The chilly breeze whispered into her room, and Tohru stumbled to the window to shut it. The slamming window awoke Hatori from his deep thoughts. He jumped to see what was the matter but paused.

'She's fine, it was just the window.' He thought.

He stamped out his cigarette and walked out into the yard, his thoughts once again drifting. He thought of how happy she made him, and how good it felt to hold someone. Even if he couldn't cradle her as close as he wanted to. He wanted nothing more than to abandon his apprehensions and let himself love her, make love to her. It had

been so long. 'Why do things always have to be so complicated?'

Tohru saw Hatori from her window. She could tell he was troubled. She frowned. 'Did I do something wrong.' She wondered. Now she really felt sick. She choked back tears, watching him standing in the wind. His robe fluttered behind him, and he struggled to protect himself. She continued to watch him until he turned and walked inside. She fell to her bed and cried.

'How could I be so stupid?' She thought.

As Hatori ascended the porch steps, he saw a dark shadow streak across Tohru's window. Concerned, he decided to check on her. He gently knocked on her bedroom door. There was no answer. He peeked through the crack, and saw her face down on her bed.

"Tohru?" He called. "Are you O.K.?"

"I'm fine." She said as steadily as she could.

Hatori walked over and sat on her bed. "Are you sure?" He asked

Tohru nodded.

He placed his hand on her shoulder, encouraging her to turn around. She stiffened.

He sighed. 'I've said less than ten words to her and I've already upset her.

"Is there anything I can get for you?" He asked

She shook her head.

Hatori sighed. "Why don't you go get a bath or something? You might feel better if you get cleaned up." He said.

Tohru wiped her eyes. "I really don't feel like bathing right now." She said.

'Why am I being so immature?' She wondered. 'I need to take some responsibility for my actions. What happened between us obviously wasn't supposed to happen, he obviously doesn't feel the same about me as I do about him. But it's been done and I can't take it back.' She took a deep breath. 'At least I don't mean nothing to him. He really is trying to be kind. I just wish he didn't regret it.'

"Alright. Listen, I've got to go home at some point. However, I'm still worried about that fever." Hatori said, feeling the back of her neck. "You're still a little warm. Would you like to come with me, or would you rather I just wait to go until you're better?"

Tohru turned around. "You don't have to worry about me, I'll be fine by myself."

Hatori smiled. "That wasn't one of your options. I learned last night that your fevers can get nasty quickly."

"I don't care, what do you want?" She asked.

"Well I do want to get a shower, but it's really up to you." He said. "Are you feeling well enough to ride in the car?"

Tohru nodded. "Really, I feel fine." She said.