Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Haru ❯ She Is My Sin ( Chapter 1 )

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Crap: Co-written with my dear Ali (BizarreLoveTriangle{s}). Inspired by Nightwish's She Is My Sin, and Carrie.

 

 

Haru

Chapter One

She Is My Sin

It was a relatively normal day. Haru was currently over at Shigure's house, visiting Kyo and, much to the cat's dismay, Yuki. But, mostly he was there to see Kyo. They hadn't been dating very long, after all. They were still in their kiss and cuddle stages. So...that's exactly what they were doing. They'd finished kissing, and were now cuddling. It was a peaceful moment in the bustle that was existence as a Sohma. A pleasant lull. That is...until they heard Yuki curse from the hall way.

 

Haru looked lazily up at his older cousin, who was currently looking at an ivory coloured card, with a frilly looking front.

 

"What's wrong, Yuki?" He wondered idly, ignoring Kyo's dirty look at the grey haired boy.

 

"Nothing." The rat answered unconvincingly. "Rin just sent us a letter, that's all."

 

"Oh?" He raised his eyebrows. "What'd she have to say?"

 

"Nothing." He repeated, less convincingly. But, he cracked under a few minutes of being stared down by dear Hatsuharu. "It was an invitation..."

 

"She's having a party?"

 

"Well...yes...there will be a party involved..." He replied vaguely, before holding up the card so Haru could see it. "She's getting married."

 

Kyo bit his lower lip in irritation and wondered why the fuck Yuki would tell Haru about that. The cat looked at his boyfriend out of the corner of his eye, he wasn't sure he wanted to see Haru's reaction to this. They hadn't been dating that long, Kyo wasn't deluding himself into thinking they were 'soul mates' and he was expecting an outburst from the ox.

 

Well...not exactly an outburst. He did stiffen slightly, and one of the windows was making an odd rattling sound, but the ox and rat both just brushed it off.

"I...didn't even know she was seeing anyone." Haru admitted, in an odd quiet tone. "Let alone engaged..."

 

Yuki decided not to mention how he had known, especially since he only knew because Shigure had known., that would most likely tick his younger cousin off.

"Well... she is." The rat managed lamely.

 

The rattling increased slightly, as he wondered if there would be an invitation waiting for him, when he got home, but once again Haru ignored it. He didn't voice his curiosity, this time, though. He wasn't sure if he wanted to know or not. Wouldn't it hurt either way? On the one hand, he would have to go watch her marry someone else. But, on the other, if she didn't invite him...well, he wouldn't be invited to her wedding.

 

Kyo bristled slightly before getting up on the grounds that he was thirsty. Yuki shrugged at Haru before going on his way.

 

Haru moved to let Kyo go, and by the time the cat came back, the rattling had ceased. The ox still didn't connect it to his state of mood, even though he had come to the conclusion that he could worry about Rin's wedding later, and to just enjoy his time with Kyo, at the moment. Though, he still looked thoroughly disgruntled about it.

 

Oh, he was disgruntled? How very sad for him. His feline companion was slightly more than disgruntled. He was quite put out actually. Next thing he knew he was going to catch Haru with his tongue down Yuki's throat....

 

Although, as it was, it wasn't Yuki's throat Haru wanted to do something to, at that moment. And, it wasn't his tongue he wanted to use on Rin's. No...he had a feeling his hands would be more effective. But, either way, Haru did a pretty good job of calming down enough to hide said disgruntlement before too long, and just turned his attention back to Kyo.

 

Who seemed oddly reluctant to actually accept that attention, but eventually he felt slightly less insecure in his position of 'Haru's boyfriend' and just relaxed.

 

Eventually, though, Haru's agitation started to get the better of him, and he felt the need to withdraw his company, before he did something like get pissed off and go Black, or whatever. He didn't use this as his excuse, though. He just told Kyo that he wanted to get home before dark, before he set off for the compound again. He figured that if he could make it to the main road, he'd be okay...or, at least he hoped so.

 

The red head didn't even really think that Haru might get lost. He was a bit busy feeling annoyed... He could tell he was going to have to deal with that until Rin's wedding, and probably for a while afterwards. He was all that sure he was willing to deal with it at all, so he just let the stupid ox go.

 

Haru made his way home in a reasonable amount of time. But, sure enough, when he got home, he noticed an envelope slid under his door. He opened it up and read, his agitation growing ever so slightly with each passing word.

 

"Cordially invited, my ass." He muttered, looking over the swirly print with growing irritation. He didn't even notice the cracking sound until the glass actually exploded. He jumped a bit, and glanced over at it, but didn't add it up to anything important, and just went to go find a maid, who would clean the broken glass up.

 

Oh, but he was invited! Rin was inviting everyone from Haru to Akito. Granted... she only invited Akito because she had to... But he was still going to be there. If he wasn't sick. Everyone was praying he would be sick.

 

Haru tried really hard to focus on other stuff, while the date of the wedding approached, but there really was only one thing on his mind. Who the fuck was this mysterious fiancé that was marrying Rin? He had a feeling his distracted air was starting to irritated those around him--such as Kyo, and others--but he really couldn't help it. He couldn't help that anymore than he could help the small explosions that seemed to be popping up every time someone brought it up. Or, at least every time Haru witnessed such occurrences.

 

Needless to say, both of these things made people--such as Kyo, stray away from him. And really, the fiancé wasn't that mysterious. Just about everyone else had known about him, and had assumed Haru did too.

 

No...Haru hadn't known about him, because Rin hadn't mentioned him, or introduced them. That was a slight problem. Another slight problem was that by the end of the second week before the wedding...those small explosions weren't so small anymore. They'd managed to elevate from beakers and glasses, to light bulbs and other such things, that tended to send a shower of sparks down, when they burst forth from their confinements. This tended to case the least bit of mass pandemonium, for a few minutes, whenever it happened, until someone came by to clean things up.

 

One of these magical times was in Shigure's kitchen when Kyo had been about to say something... less than comforting. But he ended up blocking the sparks from his hair, looking at the ceiling with annoyance for a moment before stalking away from his boyfriend on the flimsy grounds that he was going to fix that and needed to find more light bulbs.

 

Haru tossed an odd look after him...but, the bulb did need to be replaced. The ox did happen to be rather unobservant about the whole thing, though. He wasn't exactly positive why Kyo would always wonder away from HIM when these things happened. After all, he couldn't POSSIBLY have ANYTHING to do with the odd happenings, right?

 

Enough things explode while in the presence of the same guy and you begin to developed a rather rational caution to being around him. And plenty of things had cracked, and or exploded in Haru's presence by now. It was becoming a matter of personal safety to stay away from him.

 

Well...on the up side, Rin's wedding was drawing ever closer. It was everyone's hope, who had made the connection, that whatever was going on with the ox would calm down, once that happened. But, really, the way Haru saw it, if they'd just stop bringing it up, bad things would stop happening. It seemed more of an omen, to him, than something that he personally was doing.

 

That was just too bad, because by the end of the week no one was really willing to get near him, not even Momiji. Oh well, Rin's wedding had to come eventually, and they were all forced right back into the younger boy's presence. Well, except Kyo. He was really one of the few people who was adamant on trying to refuse going to Rin's wedding.

 

Which really was quite the shame...he missed an incredible show at that wedding. It seemed like it was going to be perfectly calm, for some time. Until, of course, Rin actually started down the isle. For, as soon as she reached the alter, a blood curdling shriek tore itself from her throat. Those who hadn't already been staring at her, quickly looked over, Haru among them, to see her trying desperately to get her smouldering, inflamed veil off her head.

 

The person sitting closest to her helped her. She didn't really appreciate it... But once the veil was gone and she was no longer aflame things calmed down and she insisted things go on. She didn't need a veil to get married. Really. Even though... everyone was curious to know WHO had lit her on fire.... She told them to just wait until the ceremony was over, they could just look at the tape later, since they were having this monumentous day recorded.

 

Indeed, they did check it out. But...no one could see a match be lit, or thrown, or anything like that. Though, several of them were shooting Haru wary looks. There was something seriously up with him, and no one was sure what. They just knew they didn't like it at all. And...in fact, a couple of them confronted him on it later, among them Kagura. She was Rin's closest friend, after all.

 

"Haru-chan," She stated bluntly. "I think you need to realize you did that to Isuzu."

 

"No, I didn't." Haru offered her an odd look. "How could I have?" He'd been on the opposite end of the church pew, that the middle isle was.

 

"I don't know how you did it." The boar shook her head. "But there's something very wrong with you. Haven't you noticed everything that's been happening? Haven't you noticed how the rest of us can't safely be around you without something exploding? Or Rin's veil catching on fire?"

 

"You're being stupid, Kagura-nee." Haru informed her plainly. "There's nothing wrong with me. I don't know how all this shit's been happening, but I can't be the source. If I am, YOU explain how."

 

"The rest of all agree. It's only when you're around Haru-chan."

 

"And just what do you propose I'm doing?"

 

"Stop making things explode and catch flame?" Kagura suggested.

 

"That's not what I asked." Haru pointed out dryly. "I asked what I'm doing, not what I should be."

 

"I just told you don't know."

 

"You're full of it." Haru sneered, rolling his eyes, and standing up, from the chair he was in. "Don't try and blame me, for not being thrilled about this, just because weird things have been happening. When you can prove their my fault, I MIGHT believe you."

 

The boar watched after him with a dark and annoyed look. Well, it was his fault if he didn't want to listen.

 

Haru sighed in frustration, when he heard someone else call out his name, before he could make his grand escape from the reception. He didn't even care what he wanted, though he did turn back to face him, anyway, as though to see. He wanted to go to Shigure's, and share Kagura's theory with Kyo--see what he thought.

 

It was the groom himself. The mysterious guy who's name Haru still hadn't caught. He didn't really care... A few of the other's were watching their exchange warily, just in case Haru decided to light the poor guy on fire too.

 

"Thank you for coming." The man said sincerely. His new wife really hadn't expected the ox to come. "It meant a lot to Rin."

 

"Yeah," The ox nodded, obviously trying very hard to show his annoyance and distaste carefully. "No problem. S'long as she's happy about it." It was impossible to tell if that last part was sarcasm or sincere.

 

Shigure and Hatori appeared a moment later to retrieve the groom and herd him AWAY from Haru. They didn't say anything to the ox, just made up a quick excuse as to why the groom needed to come back. Maybe more pictures needed to be taken... or something.

 

Haru rolled his eyes, and finally took his leave from the party. Whatever. If they wanted to be silly, and act scared of him, that was there problem. Right now, he was going to go find Kyo.

 

If he could. First he'd have to get to Shigure's house, just to discover the red head was not there. Did the silly ox REALLY think Kyo was just going to sit around the house all day while everyone was at this wedding?

 

As it turned out, he'd gone to go see Kazuma, and was currently at his house. So, Haru retreated back to the front porch, to wait for him there.

 

Eventually kitty-cat had to come home and he blinked groggily at the ox. See, he'd gone to Kazuma's to sulk. Then he'd done his work-out and gotten Kazuma to spar him. Which had ended with him getting his ass kicked and needing to sleep. So... he'd just woken up from that nap and been unceremoniously shooed out by his Shishou. And he wasn't expecting the ox to be on the porch, since there was no way the reception was over.

 

"Hi." Haru greeted him, with the barest of smiles. He was happy to see Kyo, he'd been getting bored there alone, he was just in a bad mood, in general, from all the dirty looks he'd been receiving at the wedding.

 

"Why are you here?" The red head got to the point as he moved carefully past the younger boy to get into the house.

 

"Because I wanted to see you?" The ox offered in mild confusion, turning around where he was seated, to continue to watch Kyo. "Is it so weird that I would want to see my boyfriend?"

 

The way things had been lately, yes. It was. But Kyo was in the house now and out of range for answering.

 

"Kyo..." Haru called after him, upon being ignored, and set off to try and catch up. "I wanted to talk to you."

 

"You left Rin's WEDDING to talk to me?" The red head wondered around a glass of water from where he was in the kitchen. Oh yes, this conversation sounded pleasant... Kyo's insecure little brain was coming up with all sorts of things Haru would want to talk about.

 

"Ah, yeah." Haru confirmed, following into the kitchen, finally. "About something that happened there, actually. Or...sort of, anyway."

 

"Haru." The cat started him down dryly. "Anything that happened there is none of my business."

 

"Yeah, well, I want your opinion on something." He stated leaning against the wall. "Something really weird happened and Rin's veil got set on fire. But, no one's sure how. Kagura-nee thinks I did it somehow--and that I'm responsible for all the other weird crap that's been going on. Do you?"

 

"Yes." Kyo answered flatly.

 

"But HOW?" The ox protested. "How could it POSSIBLY be my fault?"

 

"Haru." The feline narrowed his eyes. "You're jealous of Rin's husband, aren't you?"

 

"No!" Haru defended instantly, despite the fact that the glass in Kyo's hand shattered at the same time.

 

"Ow..." The red head frowned at him, then paid some attention to his poor hand. "There you see!"

 

"Coincidence." He tried to brush it off. "And, I am NOT jealous." Several windows rattled in their frames, and a couple light bulbs flickered ominously.

 

"God damn it Haru!" The cat cursed at him in annoyance. "Stop fucking denying it!" He turned away from him to run some water over the small cuts in his hand and get a towel to pick up his shattered glass with.

 

"I'm NOT fucking jealous!" Haru repeated, frowning severely. "If she wants to go and get married, that's her own damn business."

 

"Shut up, you're not fooling anyone." Kyo muttered from where he was crouched on the floor.

 

"I don't NEED to fool anyone, I'm telling the truth." He stated coolly, as the lights flickered again.

 

"Ah yes, that's why you've been acting like the jealous boyfriend for the past few weeks."

 

"I have not been." He protested, as the flickering grew faster, and the rattling louder. He could feel the hairs on the back of his neck standing on end, but he ignored it.

 

"Yes you have! Anytime anyone mentions her you get all tense." The red head sneered at him.

 

"You would too, it doesn't mean I'm jealous of the bastard."

 

"You're fucking delusional."

 

One of the flickering light bulbs burst, glass and sparks showering down onto the small room.

 

"I was surprised, that's all. I didn't even knowing she was seeing anyone, and the next thing I know, she's sending out her goddamn wedding invitations."

 

"Gah! You've been sulking since you heard about it!" Kyo retorted, looking nervously at the lights and getting out the direct line of the windows. "Everyone else has noticed. Why don't you?"

 

"What do you want to hear, Kyo?" Haru demanded, his tone rising in volume, to over ride the rattling windows. "What the hell can I tell you to make you think you've won, and drop it?"

 

"Fucking admit it, Haru!" He thought he'd made that pretty clear.

 

"Admitting it won't change anything!" He pointed out, trying really hard to ignore the cracking sound, as spider-web cracks made their way up the windows, until they would shatter under any pressure at all. "She made it pretty damn clear a long time ago that she doesn't love me. Admitting it will fix nothing, and it might break more!"

 

"Yeah, but you still like her and you ARE jealous." The cat snarled.

 

"No, I'm not." Haru shook his head, his eyes glimmering with some emotion that even he wasn't sure what it was. His voice was shaking with it too. "You can't be jealous of something you've already resigned yourself to loosing."

 

"You don't seem to resigned, Haru."

 

"I gave up, it's the same damn thing."

 

The windows finally fell down in a sheet of shiny stuff once Haru's will stopped holding the already cracked pieces in place. Kyo glanced over at it. Then glanced at Haru irritably.

 

"There. See?" He muttered before just leaving the ox there. There was no way he was going to clean all of that up.

 

"What makes you so sure it's me doing that?" Haru called after him crossly.

 

"GOOD GOD, HARU!" Kyo just about screamed. "Stop being so stupid!" There was the sound of a door slamming to punctuate this as Kyo barricaded himself inside his room. He'd had enough. Maybe Haru would go and just leave him alone.

 

"Maybe the fact that I'm trying not to?" Haru murmured lowly, fully aware that he was alone. He did leave, and he left the kitchen in its current state. He wasn't in any mood to clean it up, the people that actually lived there could deal with it. He was going to go home right then.

 

Shigure wasn't pleased to find his kitchen like that when he got back, and Kyo wouldn't come out of his room to tell him how it got like that. The dog didn't want her too, but Tohru began cleaning it up, and because he felt bad Yuki helped too while Shigure called about getting a replacement window.

 

The first place Haru went when he got home was directly to Hatori's house. He knew the dragon would still be out, but he was willing to wait. Hatori was a doctor, maybe he'd be able to fix this.

 

"Hatsuharu?" The doctor raised an interested eyebrow at the ox when he finally returned from Rin's wedding. "Are you alright?"

 

"No." Haru answered him bluntly. "Can you tell me what's wrong with me, and how to turn it off?"

 

Hatori thought about that for a moment before he realized what the ox was talking about.

 

"Why don't you come inside and make yourself comfortable." He sighed, then proceeded to try and explain his theory on the problem, and how it might be helped.

 

Haru sighed, and obeyed him, following him inside, and plopping down on the couch, watching Hatori carefully, paying close attention.

 

"It looks like a mind based power that runs loose when you get upset." The dragon explained as simply as he could. "You can't turn it off, but you have to learn what sets it off and how to keep yourself calm in those situations." He knew about it somewhat, from his own odd power.

 

"How am I supposed to do that?" Haru wondered. "I can't even keep from going Black, and this is way more sensitive than he is."

 

"You'll have to manage or you're really going to hurt someone."

 

He sighed and shook his head a bit.

 

"Think I've already covered that. Mentally anyway." He paused, before asking next, "How do you convince someone you're not jealous of someone else?"

 

"Actually not be?"

 

"I'm not jealous!" Haru muttered tersely, trying really hard to control his temper, and not destroy Hatori's house. "Kyo just thinks I am..." Or he really was deluding himself, and he was and just wouldn't admit it...But, either way, he was still going to blame Kyo.

 

The dragon looked him over coolly. "You obviously feel something, if it's not jealousy, what is it?"

 

Haru started to reply, but then stopped, honestly stumped. But, after a moment of pondering, he replied weakly with,

 

"Bitterness?" Before elaborating under Hatori's stare. "Well, she wasn't supposed to marry somebody else! I guess it's one of those times where the...if she won't be with me, she shouldn't be with anyone feelings come in..." Damnit! He felt selfish now, too! So, he just sighed, and shook his head. "That REALLY made me sound like an asshole, didn't it?"

 

"Yes," Hatori nodded honestly. "A jealous one no less."

 

"Well, I'm not jealous of her husband." Or...at least he didn't think he was. "I guess I'm just upset that she found someone else that she can completely give herself to, and I can't..."

 

"There, that's a much better way to express your feelings, Hatsuharu." The doctor murmured, sounding slightly amused. "And either way... if your relationship with Kyo is as I assume, that's as big a bother to him as jealousy."

 

"I want to be able to do that for him!" Haru stated quickly, as though assuring himself at the same time. "But...I don't know how to do it again."

 

"Kyo doesn't know how to do it either." The older pointed out gently.

 

"Then he shouldn't get pissy about me not being able to."

 

"I doubt he realizes that's your problem, Hatsuharu." Hatori was surprised anyone would come for him for this kind of advice... but whatever.

 

"Well, then that would bring me back to my initial question, now wouldn't it?" He sighed in frustration. "How do I convince him of that?"

 

"You know Kyo far better than I do." The doctor raised an eyebrow at him. "I think you know what it takes the convince him of anything."

 

"Beating him senseless until he admits that he's wrong?" Haru offered, before amending himself with, "OR, telling him the truth, and hopes he believes you..."

 

"Oh, very good." The dragon murmured with a small smile. "And make sure it's the whole truth."

 

"Right..." He sighed once more, before changing the subject thoughtfully. "Do you think I can do other stuff too? With these...mind based powers, or whatever they are. You know, BESIDES mutilate breakables."

 

"Potentially. Why don't you experiment sometime?" Tori offered. "You're the only one who can control the power, so you're the one who will have to find out just what it does."

 

"Might do that." He confirmed idly, before his expression fell again. "Right now, I think I need to go see if Kyo officially hates my guts yet..."

 

"That might be a good plan." Hatori agreed.

 

"Right..." He agreed, standing up. "Thank you, Tori-nii, for the help." He added, before leaving to go do that. He had to wonder if it was wise to go back to Shigure's so soon...after having just destroyed the better portion of his kitchen.