Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ I have a little secret ❯ I have a little secret ( One-Shot )

[ P - Pre-Teen ]

Disclaimer: Do I own Furuba? Heck yes!!!! *is glared at by attorneys* *laughs nervously*.....Nevermind.....I don't......Crap

I have a little secret, buried deep inside. Not only is it a secret-but a curse I have to hide. When held by the opposite sex, I transform from a little boy to a small, helpless, rabbit. Why is that? It's a Sohma family curse, infecting only certain people who were born in the family at the wrong time. My family's curse goes like this:There are twelve animals of the Chinese Zodiac, which means that twelve people in our family at that time will carry both human, and animal genes until death. No one outside the family really knows about this curse until someone of the opposite sex hugs us. It is then, and only then, our animal forms transform us fro humans to animals. When one of the twelve zodiac dies, and a child is born in the year of that zodiac, they will also, carry the burden that we all possess. My name is Momiji Sohma, and I am the rabbit zodiac. I am half German(from my mama's side) and half Japanese(from my papa's side).To meet your true love, marry them, and have a baby with them...and to hold that baby and have it turn into a strange baby animal...what despair that mother would feel. The mother would either become overly protective of them...or reject them entirely. My Mama rejected me. When I first came into existence, my Mama was so happy; Papa said so. He said that she was overjoyed until she had hold of me. It was then, both her and Papa knew that I contained the curse. I immediantly, after her arms surrounded me, turned into a rabbit. Papa said her eyes held the look of possession. She wasn't sure what to think of me now: confusion, hate, angsty, anger? She didn't know.When I was growing up, my mama was crazy. She was hysterical, stressed, and irritated. She would not even look at me, much less hold me. I knew that she hated my guts and for being so young, it wasn't the thing I wanted to have from her. When I got older, my Uncle Hatori, both a doctor and carrier of the Dragon zodiac, gave my mama the option to have her memories surpressed.
"It wouldn't be erased of everything," I remembered him saying to her when I snuck by his offic to hear," only the fact that Momiji ever exsisted in your life and that you even got pregnant." She reluctantly agreed, which made Hatori add, "Are you really...are you really okay with forgetting it? You won't regret it?"
My mama's face was sadistically happy, tears streaming down her face, holding a crooked smile. It actually scared me."The greatest regret that I have in my life," she said with craze,"is that that creture came out of MY body."
Soon after, I disappeared from her thoughts and memoried. Two months later, she was happy, better, and she could even smile normally.Although I was happy for her, I grew up very alone. Papa couldn't take care of me as much, considering he was still married to mama. I also grew up in a private school for boys, so no one would find out my curse and have to suffer memory surpression as well. It was then, when I was about to turn fourteen, that I heard of a girl named Tohru Honda. Word had it, she had moved in with Kyo, Shigure, and Yuki, more carriers of the zodiac. Not only that, but she had also found out our secret and still has her memoried in tact! She did not WANT them erased! In fact, from what others told me, she accepted them. She didn't even turn the other cheek at them! Could that really be real? Can someone just find out something as dark as that, and it would be okay? I had to meet her. I wanted to see if this was real or not. I found out that she was working at my Papa's building, doing the cleaning with older women. I decided I shall meet her there, although when we first met, she wasn't really sure who I was. I guess it was because I was speaking German to her than Japanese. Either that or I startled her when I kissed her cheek. Either way, later on, I got to meet up with her again at her school festival and finally introduced myself. Not only that, but when we were more isolated, I hugged her tightly and allowed myself to transform in front of her, eager of her reaction. She was startled at first, but soon got over it. and over time, we became real good friends-best friends. I could tell her anything that I've never told anyone before.The loneliness that I felt once before was gone. I had someone who was dear to my heart.One day, we were at Papa's building and I was helping her clean up. She suddenly asked me which part of my family was german. I got all excited and told her 'Mutti!!' though, she didn't seem to understand. I told her it meant my 'mother' in German. I pulled out a picture of my mother from years ago and showed her. I told her my mama was so pretty and small things like that. I also told her about what I had found out from Papa. I had a little sister named Momo too, who looked just like Mama. I was so happy when he said she wasn't apart of the zodiac. All the things I was telling her was making her just as excited as I was. "So you all go home together, right?" What she had just said made me sad, but I faked a smile and told her the truth.
"Yeah, I wish! but...my Mama doesn't know about me." Before I had gotten to tell her why, I heard HER voice."Momiji-chan? What are you doing in a place like this so late at night?" It was my Mama, with Momo clinging onto her.
I smiled liked I would and told her, "My friend works part-time here, so I help her out sometimes!""But this isn't a playground-""Yes, I know, I'm sorry!" I bowed to show how sorry I was. "Besides," she continued,"wouldn't your mother worry about you being out so late?"What she said tore my heart apart then, but I dare not show it.
"It's okay! I'm going now!" When they left, I sighed heavily and rested a hand against my forehead, "Ungluck! Papa's gonna get angry. he said not for me to see her!"
I stared at Tohru's blank and sad look and smiled weakly.
"Anyways, my mama doesn't know about me. She only knows that...I'm one of the Sohma children."
I told her the whole story about what happened, including her memory surpression. I traced the ground with my foot.
"I...I want to live with my memories...all of them...even if they're sad...even if they cause me pain. I'll keep them close. And if I keep trying, I may be strong enough so my memoried won't defeat me. I want...I want to believe that. Because I don't think there is a such thing as a memory you should forget. That's why I didn't want Mama to forget. I wanted her to keep trying, but that would be my own selfishness."
I put a finger up to my lips and tried my hardest to smile, "It's our little secret, okay?"She ended up bursting into tears, crying loudly as she reached out and hugged me tight, not even caring that I will transform.
She hugged me close, not wanting to let go and told me, "I...also believe that." And I cried too.