Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ If There Be Sorrow ❯ 04- Reflection of the Heart ( Chapter 4 )

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04- Reflection of the Heart

Kyou didn't know why he felt as though he were caught doing something forbidden, like touching Tohru had been some kind of taboo or outlawed act. The way Kagura was looking at him, her night eyes narrowed sadly, darkly shining with some kind of knowledge that Kyou himself didn't even know of, just reinforced that feeling of insecurity and twist of emotions that had come with the situation.

And he wanted to deck the boar for making him feel like that.

"No, what?" Kyou asked quite rudely, wincing slightly as his sore muscles strained to keep him sitting up. Kagura didn't move from where she stood; though, the tray she held in her hands visibly shook, the glass dishware lightly clanking together.

"She'll never let you," Kagura spoke in a soft, monotone voice, "She'll never, everlet you."

"What the hell are you doin' here anyway?" Kyou asked angrily, furrowing his brows, ignoring the comment Kagura had made - since his heart had skipped a beat, "And why the hell did show up at my school?"

"I missed you," Kagura said in a small voice, dropping her head slightly, " And must there always be an occasion just for me to see you, my Kyou?"

"I'M NOT YOURS!" Kyou yelled, balling his hands into fists, "Plus that don't give you a right to come to my school and screw everythin' up!"

"I WASN'T SCREWING ANYTHING UP!" Kagura yelled, dropping the tray of food she was holding, "YOU STUPID BASTARD! YOU DON'T APPRECIATE ANYTHING I DO FOR YOU!"

"What have you ever done other than be a PAIN IN MY ASS?"

"I BRING YOU HOME UNCONCIOUS, TUCK YOU IN, COOK YOU FOOD AND THIS IS THE THANKS I GET?" Kagura yelled, tackling the hotheaded cat, "I'LL TEACH YOUUU!!!"

Kyou immediately - well, almost immediately since he blacked out for about three seconds from the force in which Kagura had slammed his head into his bedroom wall - regretted ever telling the brunette that she was a pain in his ass, even though he was sure she knew long before now. Why did women have to be so… sensitive?

Although, Kyou's frail, hurting body was probably justas sensitive as a woman's "feelings" at the moment. With every punch Kagura threw caused another wave of pain to course through him, a pain that seemed to settle deep at his core, igniting the flame of anger he had always had a problem controlling.

"GET OFF'A ME, KAGURA!" Kyou yelled, struggling to pry the brunette off of him as well as dampen the fury that was rising quickly in his chest.

"BUT I LOVE YOU, KYOU!" Kagura cried, continuing to punch the hotheaded cat wherever she could, "WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOVE ME TOOOO?"

The room fell into silence.

Kyou didn't know what to say, really. The question spun around in his mind like a catchy song lyric and he tried his hardest to push away the answer that kept bubbling to the surface of his thoughts. The answer that he had, for so long, denied his heart into accepting because he was afraid, no he was terrified that his heart would be broken yet again. Though he would never admit that to anyone, hell, he wouldn't even admit it to himself considering the fact he often interpreted those raw, strange emotions he felt when he looked at her as hatred and deception; although, he was certainly sure that the true meaning behind those eccentric feelings were just the opposite.

'Would you love Kagura if she was just like…'

"Get away from me, Kagura," Kyou muttered monotone, finding the sudden willpower to literally push the brunette from him, causing her to collapse onto the floor in the glassy mess she had made when she had dropped the "food" she had prepared for him.

"Kyou," Kagura whined, pouting much like Momiji did, "What's wrong?"

"Why can't you just leave me the hell alone!" Kyou asked angrily, ignoring the pain that threatened to overwhelm him, as he stood. The hotheaded cat was only dressed in a pair of loose, silky looking boxers that sat low on his hips and Kagura - since she had been cursed with wandering eyes- tried to hide the blush of embarrassment that suddenly crept up her cheeks.

"Kyou, you're-you're-you're-you're… naked."

The orange-haired boy did not like the way Kagura had said naked what so ever.

"I am not!" Kyou retorted, wincing slightly as he paced the length of his room and to his dresser, fishing out a clean black shirt and beige cargo pants. As he rummaged through the folded, air-smelling clothes, he remembered a day when he'd be lucky to find something clean to wear, much less drawers full of it. He mentally thanked Tohru; he honestly didn't know where he'd be without the sometimes air-heady, yet loving brunette.

"Kyou, you need your rest!" Kagura yelled, causing Kyou's ears to ring, "Get back to bed, NOW!!!"

"Shut up, Kagura!" Kyou yelled in return, pulling his shirt over his head before nearly jumping into his pants. He was quickly finding that the more Kagura harped over a few bruises and a tender eye, the more he was starting to hate her. Sure, he disliked her already but she was sure as hell pushing him past that oh-so thin line between the way he felt now, and a pure sense of HATE.

"Kyou, talk to me!"

"Kyou, what's wrong?"

"KYOUUU!!!!!"

Oh, he was beyond pushed now.

"AGGGHHHHHH!!!" Kyou yelled, holding his head between his hands, "God don't you ever shut the hell up!"

Suddenly, the hotheaded cat felt the ground move beneath his feet, as well as the force of gravity shove him backwards. He waved his arms, much like a bird on speed, in a vain attempt to keep himself from loosing balance.

Why the hell was everything spinning?

 

Much to Kyou's dismay his pathetic attempt to keep balance only caused him to fall in Kagura and her glassy direction. And the brunette, of course, welcomed him with open arms.

"Oh Kyou, my darling!" Kagura spoke happily, hugging the delirious, orange-haired boy close to her, "I love you soooo much!!!"

Though Kyou tried, he couldn't find the will move or even scream, not that he could in the first place, considering the fact that his face was firmly pressed to Kagura's' chest.

“Mhm mhm mhmm MH!” (Meaning: “Let the hell GO!” in Kyou's face-in-boobs talk.)

“Oh, I love-love-love-love L-O-V-E youuuu!” Kagura sung loudly, rocking back and fourth.

“Erm, Kyou?” the hotheaded cat suddenly heard as he caught the faint glimpse of his bedroom door sliding open. Oh god, he wanted to die. Just drop dead right now, maybe if he did Tohru could understand the reasoning for the position he and Kagura were in at the moment. Anything would be better than-

“OMIGOSH-I'M-SO-SORRY!” Tohru cried, cutting Kyou's thoughts off, as she jumped about five feet into the air and shielded her eyes, “I-JUST-WANTED-TO-KNOW-IF-KYOU-WANTED-THE-HOMEWORK-HE-MISSED-EARILER- OH-GOD-I'M-SUCH-AN-IDIOT! I-DIDN'T-KNOW-YOU-TWO-WERE… I'LL-BE-GOING-NOW!”

Kyou had never seen Tohru run faster in his life.

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"Do you love him?" She wanted to ask the hazel-eyed brunette who sat across the table from her, 'No' she then thought, ' She can't possibly love him, since I already love him more than any other girl in this entire world'

 

Kagura had never considered Tohru as a threat before, but now, she sighed, suddenly taking interest in trout and brown rice that was prepared for dinner, she most definitely was.

If only Kyou knew what he was getting into by liking that girl. Maybe if he knew what the hell he was risking by feeling something more than friendship towards Tohru he could save himself. Kagura considered telling him, the one thing that Akito had kept hidden from the outcast of the family, the one thing that could either bring the Sohmas to their knees, or save them from themselves.

Although, Kagura knew she couldn't. It wasn't her place, no matter how much she loved Kyou; no matter how much he wanted to shield him from the heartache she constantly felt from his coldness. And she couldn't change his feelings either, no matter how much she wanted to.

For now, all the brunette could do was hope and pray that the glint of light that had shone in the hotheaded cats eyes was just a reflection of the sun, not a reflection of the heart.

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Three days had passed since Kyou had gotten in that fight with Black Haru and Shigure and Yuki hadn't been at the house. The orange-haired boy couldn't help to feel anything but at ease at the moment. It was a nice change to not have that idiot dog and damn rat down his throat every five minutes.

Not to mention, he had Tohru all to himself.

He mentally kicked himself in the ass for that last statement.

Speaking of Tohru, Kyou furrowed his brows as he leaned forward and rested his elbows on his knees, - he, as usual, was "thinking" on the roof - she had been pretty much "down-in-the-dumps" all week which was SO not like her.

"Did I do somethin'?" Kyou thought aloud, racking his brain for something he may have done or said to insult her. Guilt settled in his stomach. Shit! What had he done now!?

 

Maybe she didn't want to be around him; after all, she had been staying after school everyday and not comin' home from work until after eleven. Sure, he had gone and picked her up those days but she remained silent for the most part of the way home, except for when she would thank him for going all that way just to get her.

Kyou faintly heard the ring of the telephone from inside the house. He automatically assumed it was Shigure calling to check-up on him and Tohru and probably tease him about the whole "being-alone" situation.

Kyou, being naturally curious, hopped off the roof and landed on all fours on the ground. Standing up straight, he sighed and dug his hands into his pants pockets, knowing that Tohru was inside. The brunette was off today, and though she had stayed after school again, she had gotten in about an hour ago. Kyou had kept his distance, not wanting to make her more upset than she already was.

Sliding open the front door, Kyou quietly kicked off his shoes as he heard Tohru basically run to the phone before her usual, happy tone called, "Hello! Sohma Residence!"

He thought it was cute how she said that.

He kicked himself in the ass again.

"Yes, this is she," Tohru said after a few moments of silence, "Oh, hello Aunt! How are you?"

Well, unless the airhead had taken a liking to calling that stupid dog "Aunt," it sure as hell wasn't Shigure.

Kyou entered the room Tohru was in, watching her with a mild-interest. The brunette didn't even seem to notice his presence or, the muscles in the hotheaded cat's chest tightened, maybe she was just ignoring the fact that he was there. He immediately chose not to think about it.

"Oh," Tohru spoke, sorrow echoing in her tone, "Yes, I'll be there tomorrow. Thank you very much."

"Who was that?" Kyou asked carefully after Tohru had fully hung-up the phone. Tohru didn't answer at first, but rather let the question hang in the air. He tensed, glancing down at the floor quickly. Damnit! She waspissed at him

"I mean, if ya don't wanna tell me that's cool too, whatever. I don't car-"

"My grandpa passed away yesterday," Tohru spoke quietly, dropping her head slightly, as she turned to face the orange-haired boy.

"Oh, Tohru," was all Kyou could find the heart to say…

"I'm okay, really!" Tohru smiled, waving her hands in the air, "No big deal! Now, if you'll please excuse me, I have to go make dinner…"

"Screw dinner," Kyou spoke sternly, grabbing Tohru's forearm before she could get past him. Tohru froze where she stood, her head dropping a little more.

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"But, just because something bad happened to me, doesn't mean you shouldn't have anything to eat, Kyou," Tohru spoke in a whisper, shyly glancing up to meet Kyou's gaze.

"Stop tryin' to act so noble, Tohru!" Kyou yelled, causing the brunette to flinch. Kyou gritted his teeth. DAMNIT! WHY DID SHE ALWAYS DO THIS!? She never expressed her true feelings to anyone! She always hid it behind that goofy smile of hers. And she such a damn good actress that almost everyone she was around didn't know when she was upset.

Kyou lowered his voice to his usual cocky tone, "I know how'ta make leek soup and if I get hungry enough, I'll make some. Now I want you to go to your room and… I don't know, do some girly stuff! Call up those two annoying friends of yours and hav'a sleepover or somethin', I don't know… OH SHIT! Tohru, did I say somethin' wrong?" Kyou panicked, "Don't cry! I didn't mean to! Oh damnit! JUST BACKHAND ME IF YOU'RE ANGRY!"

Tohru smiled widely, a few tears running down her cheeks.

"Would you really eat leek soup just so I didn't have to cook?" Tohru asked amused, wiping her eyes with the back of her hand. Kyou felt like laughing.

He'd starve first.