Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Kyo's Beast ❯ The beast ( Chapter 1 )
[ T - Teen: Not suitable for readers under 13 ]
By: Blood Cat Demon 
A short one shot song fic about how Kyo deals with the monster inside of him.
Anime/Manga: Fruits Basket Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: One Shot | Uploaded On: 08.14.2005 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.1K | Visits: 481 | Status: Completed
A short one shot song fic about how Kyo deals with the monster inside of him.
Anime/Manga: Fruits Basket Fan Fiction | Genre(s): Angst | Type: One Shot | Uploaded On: 08.14.2005 | Pages: 1 | Words: 1.1K | Visits: 481 | Status: Completed
Disclaimer: Dont own furuba or lyrics
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Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
The rain hit the window hard. Kyo was looking down at his bracelet while barely managing to stand at the window. It wasn't fair. Not fair that he had to hold this monster inside of him. He could feel it, even now with his prayer beads on. He looked at the reflection in the glass. There it stood, his inner beast, that thing. He looked at it. The grotesque form that belonged to the cat. He turned away from the window and hit his dresser.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling I can't seem
He didn't understand the beast inside of him. It was part of him but it was separate. Like a reflection. He hated how it could make him hate everything about this world. He hated how it could make everything hate him. He slammed his fists down hard. He let out a silent scream. He stared down again at the beads that kept the foresaken creature hidden from the eyes of others. Why couldn't he be accepted in the family? That ate him up inside. The monster ate him away in his mind. He slipped down the stairs silently. He went on to the porch.
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just to much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure
If the family would not escept him, then he would stay the creature that they hate most. He ripped of the beads and threw them. He changed in to it. The creature that everyone feared and hated. He himself hated it but it was for something he didn't understand. Like it living in him ticked him off. He ran into the woods. He was moving to fast. The world was a blur around him.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Thoughts were spinning in his head. Ones asking himself why couldn't he take his own life? Or why did he run away? He was just a scared little kitten. He stopped at a clearing. A lake was sitting in the middle. Not a really big one, more like a big pond but with blue water. He walked to the edge and peered into the water. He saw his reflection. A monster that's all he was. It kind of hurt, the realization. He couldn't move away from the lake thought.
Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
Its haunting how I can't seem
He was planted there. Looking into the eyes of his monster. The piercing eyes. Kyo raised his hand and slashed away at the surface. The image scattered. When the water calmed he saw the human side of him. He wanted to turn back right now, to go get his beads and hide the monster. He ignored the feeling. He relection faded away and went to Tohru's. He shook his head roughly. Not this time. He would deal with it by himself this time. He and the beast were alone. Just as they would be when he was locked up. He had to learn now. How to live with it on his own.
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure
He stayed there by the lake. The storm clouds started to disperse and the rain stopped. He looked in to the lake again. Some one had excepted this part of him. Two people actually. Why did he have such a problem with it? He had to deal with it, but maybe this wasn't the way. Turning in to it hadn't helped him. He changed back into his human state. Slowly he trudged back to the house. He picked his beads off the ground and put them back on. He went back up to his room as quietly as he had coming down.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will no heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
He got up to his room and lay on his bed. He looked out the window. Out at the world that he some day would be locked away from. He still felt it. He inner beast. He wondered what it would feel like to finally fully accept it. He growled then flipped over in his bed. Maybe he would never deal with it. He smiled slightly. He ran his hand in-between the wall and the bed. Just what he was looking for, escaped. Escape in the cold steel. He had taken to it recently. If he couldn't deal with it, then he would get rid of it.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming confusing
this lack of self-control i fear is never ending
controlling I can't seem
He would cut it right out of him. Even though it took his life in the process. Then he thought a little. He pocketed the knife and ran back down the steps. He went outside again. He wan't going to die inside, it made him think it to much like the cage he had been promise. He walked into the woods. He sat on the ground when he was well out of the immediat area of the house. He ran the blade over his wrist. Then he ran it over the second one. In his blood he thought he could see the monsted flowwing out. Pouring out of him and on to the ground. He closed his eyes and saw the beast leaving. He started to feel numb and after what seemed like an eternity he finally had found out how to deal with it. The exact way he did. To cut and bleed it out of him. Calmly he fell into the darkness's embrace that was death.
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Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
The rain hit the window hard. Kyo was looking down at his bracelet while barely managing to stand at the window. It wasn't fair. Not fair that he had to hold this monster inside of him. He could feel it, even now with his prayer beads on. He looked at the reflection in the glass. There it stood, his inner beast, that thing. He looked at it. The grotesque form that belonged to the cat. He turned away from the window and hit his dresser.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming confusing
this lack of self-control I fear is never ending
controlling I can't seem
He didn't understand the beast inside of him. It was part of him but it was separate. Like a reflection. He hated how it could make him hate everything about this world. He hated how it could make everything hate him. He slammed his fists down hard. He let out a silent scream. He stared down again at the beads that kept the foresaken creature hidden from the eyes of others. Why couldn't he be accepted in the family? That ate him up inside. The monster ate him away in his mind. He slipped down the stairs silently. He went on to the porch.
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
That there's just to much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure
If the family would not escept him, then he would stay the creature that they hate most. He ripped of the beads and threw them. He changed in to it. The creature that everyone feared and hated. He himself hated it but it was for something he didn't understand. Like it living in him ticked him off. He ran into the woods. He was moving to fast. The world was a blur around him.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
Thoughts were spinning in his head. Ones asking himself why couldn't he take his own life? Or why did he run away? He was just a scared little kitten. He stopped at a clearing. A lake was sitting in the middle. Not a really big one, more like a big pond but with blue water. He walked to the edge and peered into the water. He saw his reflection. A monster that's all he was. It kind of hurt, the realization. He couldn't move away from the lake thought.
Discomfort endlessly has pulled itself upon me
Distracting reacting
Against my will I stand beside my own reflection
Its haunting how I can't seem
He was planted there. Looking into the eyes of his monster. The piercing eyes. Kyo raised his hand and slashed away at the surface. The image scattered. When the water calmed he saw the human side of him. He wanted to turn back right now, to go get his beads and hide the monster. He ignored the feeling. He relection faded away and went to Tohru's. He shook his head roughly. Not this time. He would deal with it by himself this time. He and the beast were alone. Just as they would be when he was locked up. He had to learn now. How to live with it on his own.
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I'm convinced
that there's just too much pressure to take
I've felt this way before
So insecure
He stayed there by the lake. The storm clouds started to disperse and the rain stopped. He looked in to the lake again. Some one had excepted this part of him. Two people actually. Why did he have such a problem with it? He had to deal with it, but maybe this wasn't the way. Turning in to it hadn't helped him. He changed back into his human state. Slowly he trudged back to the house. He picked his beads off the ground and put them back on. He went back up to his room as quietly as he had coming down.
Crawling in my skin
These wounds they will no heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
He got up to his room and lay on his bed. He looked out the window. Out at the world that he some day would be locked away from. He still felt it. He inner beast. He wondered what it would feel like to finally fully accept it. He growled then flipped over in his bed. Maybe he would never deal with it. He smiled slightly. He ran his hand in-between the wall and the bed. Just what he was looking for, escaped. Escape in the cold steel. He had taken to it recently. If he couldn't deal with it, then he would get rid of it.
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
consuming confusing
this lack of self-control i fear is never ending
controlling I can't seem
He would cut it right out of him. Even though it took his life in the process. Then he thought a little. He pocketed the knife and ran back down the steps. He went outside again. He wan't going to die inside, it made him think it to much like the cage he had been promise. He walked into the woods. He sat on the ground when he was well out of the immediat area of the house. He ran the blade over his wrist. Then he ran it over the second one. In his blood he thought he could see the monsted flowwing out. Pouring out of him and on to the ground. He closed his eyes and saw the beast leaving. He started to feel numb and after what seemed like an eternity he finally had found out how to deal with it. The exact way he did. To cut and bleed it out of him. Calmly he fell into the darkness's embrace that was death.