Fruits Basket Fan Fiction ❯ Sick Of Secrets ❯ Scars ( Chapter 16 )

Sick Of Secrets

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SICK OF SECRETS- ch.16

 

HARU

 

“Have you ever been in love?”

That's what she asked me one day. I didn't know how to answer.

“I'm not sure.”

She looked both sad and mad at the same time. She stood erect facing me with accusing eyes. “Fine, Haru! I see how you are…!” She was crying.

“Rin! Wait!” I called, chasing after her.

“Don't! Don't come near me! I don't want to see you right now!” She hid her face with one hand and out-stretched the other to keep me away.

“Rin…!” I swatted her hand away and took her into my arms along with a passionate wet kiss. It lasted for a minute until I broke us apart. “I've never been in love, that's why I'm not sure… but if the feelings I have for you are love then I sure as hell am in love with you, Rin.”

She started tearing again. She held me tight as if never to let go. “Oh, Haru…kiss me!”

 

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

 

But that was over a year ago. Things change…

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One year ago…

 

-

 

“Haa-kun, so you and Rin-chan are a couple, huh?” Shigure said.

“Yea, you could say that.” I smiled.

“How did all this start? She's usually so solemn.”

“Oh… we just are always there for each other. Even though she sometimes pushes me away… I really love her. And she loves me.”

“How cute.” Shigure looked away. He seemed to have things on his mind.

“Sensei, are you okay?”

“Hmm? Me? I'm good in the hood, great in the crate!” Shigure laughed.

“Okay… who says that. Honestly.”

 

--

--

 

Rin and I had a really great relationship. But of course it had to be a secret between us and the ones we trust. I can't even imagine what Akito would do if he knew.

 

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

 

As the weeks went by our relationship grew, but at the same time seemed to be shrinking. Rin has been acting very weird and awkward in front of me. She seemed pretty secretive too. Was she keeping something from me?

“Rin… is there something wrong?”

“No… why?” she said looking out my bedroom window.

“… Are you hiding something from me?”

“Don't be ridiculous.” She turned away. I walked over to her. I gently kissed her head and ran my fingers through her long dark hair. My hands made their way to her waist. “Stop.” She said.

“I can't. I can't help it. I love you so much.” I spun her around and kissed her deeply. My one hand is holding her head to me and my other gently grasping her backside. She let out a slight `yelp' but gave in. She wrapped her arms around my neck.

We continued kissing. With my strength, I hoisted her up around my waist so I could carry her. We kissed as I walked us over to the bed. I gently lowered her onto my bed and I layed on top of her. We stopped kissing long enough to look into each other's eyes. We both knew what we wanted.

She rushed to take my shirt off and began licking my bare chest. I started slipping off her shirt. She lifted up her arms to let the shirt slide off. We kissed again. Her hands made their way to my pants and she zipped my fly down and thrusted down my pants.

I wrapped my hands around to her back and unclipped her bra. She hurriedly pulled off her pants. We stared into each other's eyes as if to ask `are you sure?'

I leaned up to take my boxers off. I lifted her legs over my shoulder to take her panties off. I tossed our clothes off the bed to give more space. Her thighs felt silky on my waist. We kissed. Her arms were around my neck. My curious hands worked upward towards her breasts. They were so soft and cute. After a while I worked up the `inspiration'.

I positioned myself. It took awhile but I finally got in. It felt so great in her tight vagina. She moaned loudly as I went in and out. It lasted about an hour.

 

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

 

Weeks later… We hadn't really been together as often and every time we are we don't talk or do much.

I'm getting the feeling that she's keeping something from me again.

“Rin, tell the truth. What's going on?” I confronted her in her room getting dressed after taking a shower.

“Haru?! Get out! I'm naked!” she screamed.

“What are you talking about? I've seen you naked before!” I yelled. “Now, what is it you're not telling me?”

“Nothing…why?”

“That's what you said last time! Answer me!” I stomped over to her and grabbed her arm. She looked frightened.

“What are these…?” What I saw shocked me. She had cuts and scars all over her arm. She's been cutting herself. “Rin…”

She yanked her arm free.

“Just leave me alone, alright?!” she screamed.

“Why are you doing this to yourself?!” Though, it felt like she was doing it to me, too.

“I-I can't...tell you…” she sobbed.

“Rin… how can we be together if you won't tell me what's on your mind? Is it because of me?”

“No… no. You're perfect.”

“Then… what is it?” I'm getting mad.

“I said I can't tell you!!” Everything started getting fuzzy. “Haru… are you o-“

My black personality couldn't have come at a worse time.

 

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

 

The rest of the year we hadn't talked at all. Hatori just recently told me that Rin was in the hospital again. She would always get stomach problems.

But that wasn't all…

 

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

 

Shigure spoke privately to me about it… he told me the one thing that I'd rather die than hear…

”Akito knows”.

I'm scared… for us.

Now all I can do is wait. I have to wait for Rin to get out of the hospital. I have to warn her.

Just looking at your pictures aren't enough to please me. I want to see you, be with you, touch you… just like we used to.

Haru sat in his room looking at old pictures of Rin. He sighed heavily, put them back in a shoe box, and slid it under the bed.

 

“Have you ever been in love?”

“………………….yes.R 21; Haru whispered.

 

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

 

A/N:

And thus another chapter of crap has spewed out of my mind and onto my computer.

Nah… I like it.

 

Mika Rieu-

BWAHAHAHAHAA! Holy Haru-kun (if you don't get it I'm not explaining) that was funny! Go Yuki-kun!! we! so good! update! update! I like how you change p.o.v. like that. ^-^

Ashesofthesage

Lol. Thank you.

 

ChiKoiDoji-

*squels* Kyo is Yuki's BITCH!! haha. That was great. I love this story, since it is a Yukix Kyou fic. Not enough out there. But you made Yuki seem so evil. hmm... you have to update soon!

Ashesofthesage

Lmao! His bitch, that's funny. I like my Yuki's evil… heh.

 

Azarath, Raven of-

So far this is cool, with the double viewed chapters. Interchanging all of them was a pretty cool idea! I love reading stories like this. All the Kyo/Yuki stories I read get better and better. Please keep writing. K/Y rules.

Ashesofthesage-

Yea, thank you. Yuki/Kyo!

 

Lorelei6

::laughs:: I love your Yuki. Bad kitty! ::laughs:: I haven't read this story in awhile.. Wow.. I missed it! LoL. I definately like the sexy S&M, eyeliner version of Kyo. He should do that more often. And then come to my house. ^_^ Don't worry, I'll share. You know that I just love redheads. Even if he is more orange... But that's not the point. I wonder what Yuki's gonna think of next for Kyo. If it was me, I would so make him my sex slave. But I'm just a sick fangirl. Update soon!

Rae

Ashesofthesage-

OBABA-CHAN!!! EEEE!! Thanks for reading my stuff!! XD

 

Kouseki Yume.-

I have so many things I would love to make Kyo do if he were my servant for a month (so many things)
well update soon I wouldn't want your fans to be left waiting. *insane smirk*

Ashesofthesage-

Hehe, don't we all!

 

TheAnimeFreak14-

Kyo: In a box
Yuki: In the same box as Kyo.
Me: Putting a sticker to Southern Jersey.

I told you I was sending them.

I'll send you 3 songs via e-mail.
Let me know which choice you make.

Update Soon!
Ja,ne

Ashesofthesage-

Lol. Thanks.

And thank you for the wonderful package (the real one).

 

Unheard screams-

o i wonder what haru wants...plus how yuki's acting so weird... and this part:“……. IT'S SEX YOU WANT, ISNT IT!” Kyo screamed loudly"

was frickin halarious. haha kyon do yun-chans bidding. do *whatever* he asks...o.O gimme gimme!

update soon!

Ashesofthesage

Lol, yea that part just sorta popped into my head. Random…so random.

 

SomeoneInThePastOfEarth-

I broke my arm...
Update soon!

Ashesofthesage-

I heard, im so sorry.

 

Ok, ch. 17 will be uploaded…. NEVER!!! Jk, idk when.