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You Will Never Find This Note

By, Jamie1317kast

 

Spoilers! Shigure's thoughts after he discovered that Akito slept with Kureno.

 

Disclaimer: I don't own them, don't sue.

 

Rated PG-13, for language.

 

You Will Never Find This Note:

 

Betrayal is an odd feeling. You feel down all the time, nothing makes sense anymore and you just want to scream. You could be perfectly fine one minute and holding on for dear life the next.

That's how it felt…when she slept with HIM.

I was so angry, I could've DIED. I wanted to, too.

GOD! I just wish it would rain or something so I could REALLY hate the world!

I had these strange urges; I wanted to walk off into the woods, take off all my clothes and just sink down into the earth. I wanted to stand up in class and yell how much I just fucking hated everybody. I wanted to vomit as much as it took to get it all out.

After that, I mean, after I found out, I could have killed. I was so goddamn pissed, like you wouldn't believe. I walked down through the woods until I came to the marsh. I threw rocks into the water and screamed obscenities.

“ WHORE!” splash!

“ BITCH!” Splash!

“ YOU GODDAMN FUCKING SLUT!”

SPLASH!!!

It was all I could do to smile and laugh when I saw her next.

Underneath it all was this deep-seeded hate, loathing, and rage. My ears were pounding, and I could barely hear for the roar of the bloody waves.

I wasn't hungry much those next few weeks, I was barely eating anything. My patience was shorter than ever and I snapped at everything. I surfed the net, read books, role-played, but none of it was helping me.

My anger wasn't being cured, it was merely being postponed.

She LIED TO ME!

Why?

Why?!

“WHYYYYYYY?!!!!”

Oh God, why…I sobbed, throat constricting.

“ I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you I love you! I JUST LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!”

She calls for love and respect, love, she will always have, unwillingly taken. And I've got a message for you, my `dear' Akito…

YOU'LL HAVE TO PRY THAT RESPECT FROM MY COLD, DEAD, FINGERS! FOR YOU, ANDKURENO!!!

 

But you will never know this, you will never find this note, I'm going to tear it into a million pieces, burn it alongside my dreams and love and advice and hope that you will ever, EVER love me back…

 

You will never find this note.

~Shigure Sohma