Fullmetal Alchemist Fan Fiction ❯ A Love Forgotten ❯ Heart Wants ( Chapter 11 )

A Love Forgotten

By Joyfulmusic

 

I don't own FMA

Note: May contain spoilers!

 

Chapter 11: Heart Wants

 

Edward took a seat at the dining room table so that he could hear everything that was said. His golden eyes were trained on his wife as she dialed the phone. `Don't let her change her mind. Oh please don't let him talk her out of staying with me.' The blond was worried, although he refused to say so.

 

Briana watched him, anxiously. She really didn't want to do this over the phone, let alone in front of him. Twirling the cord, she bit her lip. `This is going to kill the friendship. But who's more important? Wyatt or Edward? Edward of course!' She heard the click along with an answer. “Hello Wyatt, it's me.”

 

She'd used that greeting as long as they'd known each other. “Hey darling. Have you thought it over? Are you going to make me the happiest man in the world?” Silence was not the answer he'd been looking for. “Honey, what's wrong? You know I love you, right?”

 

A silent moan escaped her, as she scowled. This did not go unnoticed by the alchemist who frowned. “I know you do. And I care about you too but…” Glancing over her shoulder she saw the disappointment in her husband's face. “But things have changed. I… look can you meet me at the park?”

 

Instantly Ed was at her side hissing in her other ear, “What are you doing?” She waved him away, although he refused to move. He couldn't loose her, not now. Wrapping his arms around her waist from behind, he decided to try a different tactic. Gently he kissed her neck.

 

This time the moan could be heard by both men. Wyatt was getting worried. Something was going on that he didn't like. “I'll be there in a few minutes. Don't do anything until we've talked.” He didn't give her the chance to say anymore before he hung up the phone.

 

Scowling she did the same. “Edward, what were you thinking?” Her scold was light. It was hard to sound mad when he was so close and being so loving. His kiss continued, and then it hit her. Pushing him away she clamped her palm on her neck and glared at him. “Edward Elric! You were trying to leave a mark weren't you?”

 

A grin crossed his face. “Yeah, I would have if you would've given me the time.” Stepping forward he brushed away her hand and curls to see his failed attempt. “I don't want to loose you Brie. I don't want him taking you from me. Why couldn't you just tell him over the phone?”

 

She pushed her way past him, to grab her jacket. “How would you like it if I broke your heart over the phone?” She hadn't meant to make his heart fall that much. Kissing his cheek she smiled. “Don't worry I'm not going to do that to you. But I want to do this face to face. Understand?”

 

“Yeah.” But he had already decided to follow her. Of course she knew that. She was by no means a simpleton. However she knew this was something he didn't need to be pushed on. Although, she could turn this to her advantage and show him how she felt about his leaving her… of course she wasn't that mean, was she?

 

 

He'd been sitting on the park bench for what seemed like hours. But soon she came walking across the playground. As he rose to meet her, images of years gone by came back to him along with the vow he'd made, “I'll always take care of you.” And with that he'd given and received his first kiss at the age of fifteen.

 

“Wyatt.” She smiled, pressing against him in a warm hug. She too remembered the vow he'd made. Yet they had been only children at the time, although back then they would have refuted such a claim. `Oh to go back to those years of innocence when the world was simple.'

 

She had worn gloves to cover her fingers and the ring she wore. Taking a seat she felt her heart falter. Bowing her head she sighed heavily. She could feel two golden eyes on her from behind one of the trees. This wasn't going to be easy. “I want to thank you for your generous offer. Not just anyone would be willing to raise another mans child.”

 

That was enough for him to know what was coming next, although he didn't realize just how much was about to unfold. “But you've decided to turn me down?” She nodded slowly. “Why Brie? I love you, I always have. Ever since I met you I've wanted to be with you. I swear I'll take good care of you and this baby. I'll raise it as my own. There would be no difference made in it and any others we decide to have.”

 

A sad smile crossed her lips. `I hadn't thought of that. I hadn't even planned for this one. Jacob wasn't ready and neither was I.' Shaking her thoughts away she turned to peer up at him. “I know you want to care for me, that you'd make a wonderful father. But since we were kids you knew I didn't love you.”

 

Sure he'd known it. He just didn't want to admit it. Instead of allowing him to speak she continued. “As I said, I thank you for your offer but… I haven't been entirely truthful with you.” This would be where she really crushed his hopes. “Jacob didn't exactly die, he just… oh I'm going to have to start at the beginning.”

 

Thinking back across the months she tried to find the easiest way to put this. “When I first met him he had amnesia. And then a member of his family came to town. He didn't recognize them right away. But the next morning, when he awoke, his old memory had come back.”

 

She shivered slightly, recalling the pain she'd felt. `Why am I doing this? Just look at how much Edward's hurt me. But…' “When his memory returned, everything that had happened during the time I'd known him was gone. He'd forgotten me completely. That's how I lost him. Not to death but to his old life.”

 

Wrapping his arms around her Wyatt shifted to hold her. She was close to another breakdown. In her condition he understood. He wouldn't question her reasoning for not telling him. Not yet anyway. “What does this have to do with us now? Are you not able to divorce him? Or is it that you don't want to?”

 

The alchemist was fuming by then. `Why can't he keep his hands off of her?' He started to head that direction when a hand grabbed his arm. Turning back he saw a suit of armor, whose head was shaking vigorously. She'd asked to be left alone to do this, and Al would see to it that she was allowed to. Huffily Ed sat back down to watch.

 

“I'm afraid that it's more complicated than that.” Briana was starting to feel weak. The doctor had said it was because of the stressful situation she was in. “You see. I've gotten to know him again and he doesn't remember me but… he still loves me. He wants to raise our baby together. To try and make it work.”

 

She didn't seem to be giving him the answers he wanted to hear. “How can that be? If he doesn't remember you, then you can't really know him. Listen to me Briana. You don't have to marry me. Just don't give your life away to a man you don't know.” When she pushed him away he frowned deeply.

 

Pulling away completely she told him, “I'm sorry Wyatt. But I don't believe that I'm giving my life away. As far as I'm concerned I'm doing what's best for me and my baby.” Surly he did love her, and wasn't doing this just for the child. “I want to try and give Ed this chance. He wants to make it work.”

“Ed?” Uh oh wrong name. The tall man was starting to become mad. `I thought she said he was a jerk!' Trying to control his anger he proceeded with their conversation. “You're telling me that Jacob turned out to be the Fullmetal Alchemist, that same guy you said hated you?”

 

Oh yeah, she had said that, hadn't she? “I was wrong. It wasn't that he hated me but that he wanted to protect me. His work is extremely dangerous. But now with the baby on the way… he doesn't want to abandon me. Please understand. Jacob is in there somewhere, and I still love him.”

 

Shaking his head, Wyatt tried hard to do as she asked. “Have you considered that he may not be doing this for you?” She refused to look at him. “Maybe he just doesn't want word to spread that he'd a deadbeat dad. Brie, you deserve to be with someone who truly loves you. I'm willing to give you my heart. Has he done that?”

 

A tear streamed down her cheek. `Why does he have to ask me that?' She didn't want to answer him out loud. The truth was too painful. “No he hasn't completely. But given the time I'm sure he will. He has said that he loves me. I'm sure that if Jacob loved me then Edward does too.”

 

Luckily the person whose motives were in question was too far away to hear them. He was starting to wish he could read lips. Turning slightly he asked over his shoulder, “Hey Al, is she crying?” But when he peered back he found himself alone. `Where did he go now?'

 

Then he spotted him. Alphonse was standing under the tallest monkey bars helping a sobbing child down. Placing him in the mother's arms she smiled. “Thank you so much sir. I'm afraid I just wasn't not tall enough to reach him.” Kissing the child's head she scolded the boy lightly. “No more of that, alright?” The kid only nodded into her shoulder.

 

“Hey Al!” Briana called, walking over toward him. Edward glanced back at the bench to find it empty, the conversation having ended without his knowing it. She was smiling, although it seemed to the alchemist to be a façade she was carrying on. When she turned to him and waved him over, he jumped.

 

“So you knew I was there the whole time?” She nodded, keeping her distance from him. `She's changed her mind. She wants mister tall, dark, and hansom over short, blond, and stupid.' Had he just thought of himself as short? And yet at that moment he didn't care. “So what's the verdict?”

 

She held out a hand to him, beckoning him to accept it. He did so, although it was slowly as if not wanting this time together to end. “I choose my husband of course. You may not be Jacob, but you're still the man I married.” Pulling him along the pathway she grinned, making it as authentic as possible.

 

“Are you sure? That guy is…” He couldn't finish it out loud, `Everything I'm not.' Shaking his head he gave up and allowed her to guide him. Glancing back over his shoulder he found that his brother hadn't followed. He didn't realize she'd motioned him not to. “What about Al?”

 

By that time they were on some of the wooded trails that joggers used. “I didn't ask him to come.” Finding a secluded spot, she ducked under some branches and stood in the shadows. From there, they couldn't be seen from the path or any other part of the park. Once he was in the glen with her she caught hold of his jacket and pulled him close.

 

Pressing their lips together she willed him to show her Jacob. He did so, running his fingers though her curls, their mouths melding into one. It was as if the whole world around them had stopped. Neither wanted anymore, than to just be together. Breaking the kiss she took in a sharp breath.

 

Edward gasped as well. He'd never felt such passion, never been kissed like that before. “I love you.” He breathed finding her neck and nipping it gently. “Don't leave me Brie. Don't ever leave me again.” Was it him who was speaking, or was it Jacob, crying to be set free?

 

“Don't.” She scolded, pushing him back a bit. Jake knew how far she was willing to go outside their home, Ed, on the other hand, did not. But when he bushed she realized her mistake. `That's right; he doesn't remember ever having been with a woman. He still isn't ready.' Caressing is cheek she smiled. “We've got to get back. Al will be wondering where we've gone.”

 

She'd gotten her answer, at least somewhat. All she'd wanted to know was if his love for her was true or not. Unfortunately she realized that it could merely be lust that had shown through. Love was something completely separate from the physical want. It was something pure that was hard to find, and sometimes hard to decipher.